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When heavy or frequent drinkers suddenly decide to quit "cold turkey" they will experience some physical withdrawal symptoms. With the proper treatment these symptoms can be avoided for those who want to quit drinking. Read more...

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June 30, 2008 at 1:08 pm
(1) anonymous says:

June 24, 2008 1st day of sobriety

I am a 57 year old white man, 40 pounds overweight, in good health, executive most of my life, I have been drinking every day for the last 36 years except for about 10 days total since I was 21. I drank on the average about 8-10 ounces of alcohol, using a variety of beer and whiskey and wine, daily. This is probably an underestimate, but I cant remember. I started to forget things, important things, a few months ago, and beginning 3 years ago I became an ugly drunk. I would drink so much, I would make a fool of myself in front of other people, call them ugly names, say things that I wish I could have taken back and then defend those things until I couldn’t stay awake anymore. I found a group of people that approved of drinking a lot and could afford drinking a lot. These people I called friends. Not one of them has called me since I quit drinking 5 days ago and said ď Hey, where are you? We missed you, can we help you.Ē I decided to quit drinking cold turkey, not weaning myself off of the booze, although I did quit drinking 8-10 ounces of alcohol every day, I just cut down to about 7 ounces daily. I did quit for 4 days a year ago, and the anxiety, the loneliness, the hallucinations were too much for me and I started up again.

I looked on the internet for ďAlcohol WithdrawalĒ becaue I wanted to know what the symptoms and physical side of withdrawal would be. I found the reactions I would experience, anxiety, mood swings, shakes, possible DT’s, I haven’t had shakes or DT’s, but I can’t think clearly, I have anxiety, I have mood swings, I could start crying any time, and have. I write this because I can’t find a day by day account of someone quitting alcohol. So here is my story:

Day One: I decide to quit drinking until my birthday, which is exactly 5 months away, after all, how can I be an alcoholic if I can quit for 5 months. Then I will celebrate with a bottle of nice wine. I have consumed 3 martini’s, a bottle of wine, and 2 red beers so that I will be in good shape to quit drinking. This did not get me drunk, but I could feel it. I felt good, not slurring words, not driving erratically ( drove about 28 miles in this condition), I had a steak, baked potato, corn on the cob, and actually quit drinking at around 8pm on day one. I watched a little tv and went to bed around 10pm. So day one actually started at 8pm. Four hours without a drink.

Day Two: Got up at the usual time, 7:30a, fixed coffee, planned the day, fixed myself a virgin mary, like a bloody mary with out the vodka. Oh did I tell you that for the last 4-5 years I would fix myself a bloody mary almost every morning around 8:30 or 9am. I am not an alcoholic. I just drink a lot. I am experiencing anxiety, to the point of crying, depression, I cannot think clearly, I sit in the hot tub and think about all the things I need to do today. I make a list and then don’t do most of it. I tell myself, this is only part of day one, I can hardly wait for the hallucinations, I think I am going to have an acid trip. I am looking forward to it. Maybe it will be like college. I look up the foods I should be eating. What do you lack when you quit drinking? Thiamine,potassium, magnesium, niacin, vitamin B complex, Vitamin C, I take a vitamin C, dont have the rest, but I do have foods rich in some of them, so I eat those, carrots, nuts, chicken, tomato, potato, corn, beans. I do feel better after the carrots, nuts, potato, tomato juice (virgin mary again) and salad. I waste the whole day saying I am just on day one and I should rest. One of the things you should do is relax. I recommend not working in the first 4 days of detox. Take a vacation at home, the stress on your body of quitting alcohol is so great that it is easy to see why 9 out of 10 people that go to AA start drinking again. I pick up a book and start reading it, James Clavell’s Tai Pan, I like Clavell and have read all his books, something to pass the time. And time is moving slow, the road goes on forever and the party has ended. Finally darkness has come, but I have made it through 24 hours without booze.

Day three: I get up with a hang over, at least the feeling that you get when you are hungover after a few too many at the local club. What is going on? I look it up under symptoms of alcohol withdrawal, Yes, there it is. My body is reacting to lack of alcohol by telling me I need alcohol. Hair of the dog, a morning pick me up. Hang over. It has only been 36 hours. I get some coffee and am looking at a medical doctors suggestions that you should quit caffiene and sugar at the same time to help control your craving for alcohol. I think the guy is brain dead. You have just quit one of the most destructive drugs you can take and you want to quit caffiene and sugar too. Why not just commit suicide and get it over with. If quitting caffiene was good for alcoholics, why do all the AA meetings have large pots of coffee going? I quit cigarettes 32 years ago and it was hard, very hard after smoking for only 10 years, what is alcohol withdrawal going to do to me after 36 years, and will I start drinking again? No, I have made a decision to quit and that is that. I am a Christian. I will look to the Bible for answers. All things are possible for God. The Bible says that God will heal you physically, spiritually, and financially. Oh yes did I mention that I have more reasons to drink than anyone on the earth? Just one beer wouldn’t hurt me, but then I would just have to quit all over again, no I am not drinking till my birthday 4 months 29 days away. I eat the foods that give me potassium, magnesium, thiamine and I make a pot of flavored tea. I also have cokes. The sugar thing, I also make a cake. After all my reasoning is that I quit drinking cokes years ago and it was hard to do, but my teeth were so rotton that a dentist told me if I ever drank another coke I might as well get false teeth and this was when I was 27. I went through sugar withdrawals, but it only lasted for a few days. I eat, I sit in the hot tub, I read, I try to relax, but I still have a tremendous amount of anxiety, I think about going to the doctor for some valium, or something to help me. That would just be trading one drug for another. I am going to get through this with the help of God. If He is the great and mighty God I am reading about, then He can do the impossible and take away my need for alcohol without my feeling the withdrawal pain. Is it only day three?

Day four: Actually I have come to realize that it is really only 72 hours since I quit drinking, If I am going to have DT’s they should come today. Looks like I will miss out on them, too bad, it would be something to pass the time and perhaps they would be fun to play with. You can see I am not thinking too clearly right now, but I am going to the hot tub with my virgin mary. I need to talk to God and He needs to answer. I have a good feeling that I will get some answers from Him now. I have found that God loves me as much as He loves Jesus. That is a lot. I have my middle son today. What a great joy it is to see him. I forgot to mention that alcohol lead to my divorce. Two of my sons hate me, one hasn’t talked to me since I left his mom. That was 4 or so years ago, I can’t remember. My youngest son is coming around, if I can really quit drinking I believe he and I will have a good relationship again. That is a great reason to stay off the booze, I will have two of my three sons back. My son has a great outlook on life, he likes Power Rangers and we went to the mall and he found a green Power Rangers t-shirt. The Green Ranger is rare, He was excited and then the great thing was the 27 year old sales clerk talked to him about the Power Rangers and seemed to know a lot about them. Really nice for 2-27 year olds to like the Power Rangers. I really appreciated the clerk talking to my son like an equal. My special son.We went to all the places he likes and then I took him home to his mom.

Day five. I’m writing this the morning of the fifth day and am crying. This is what I am talking about. How long does this take? Woke up again with a hang over, its been 108 hours, when do the hangovers go away, it may be two more days, or more. From what I read, it just depends on the individual, how long you’ve been drinking, how much, etc. I am still having mood swings, but I am going to have another steak today. I have eaten a lot of jalapenos’ and nachos with cheese over the last 4 days, dont know if it helps, but they do taste good.
Once again I looked up the symptoms of alcohol withdrawal. Don’t know how how long they have left to go, but except for the nausea, shakes and DT’s I’ve had them all. I would think just a few more days and at least the symptoms will be over. Mentally, I don’t drink alcohol anymore. God has redeemed and delivered me from this demon. Now I know why the old time religious folk call it Demon Rum, and Spirits. Alcohol is just the world’s way of trying to get the Holy Spirit. I have had a two headaches , one the second day, and one now. I took an aspirin today, but none for the previous, it seemed to work. I have a lot more energy today. I was not active the first few days, I have not been sleepy, but have woken up each night and stayed up for an hour or two, then went back to sleep and woke up at 7:30 just like a usual day. Tomorrow will tell me more as I am going to work for the first time since I quit. I am going to post this now and then add to it, or change it if the web site will let me.
The thing that I do not have is someone to talk to. I can’t talk to my folks, I just would like to talk to someone and find out if what I am going through is normal for alcohol withdrawal, I guess the unknown is more scary than the known. I’ve tried AA meetings, and find them so negative, that I have no desire to hear another sober drunk relive their failures. I know that the symptoms will end at some time, so I can persue the goal of complete sobriety for the next 5 months even if these few days are tedious. Then if I begin drinking again, I can either control it or it will control me, but at least I will know what I can expect if I do drink again. I haven’t had a thought without alcohol influencing me for so long, I’m not sure what I will think. Almost the end of Day 5, I feel that I am thinking more clearly now, and my headache is gone. Will post more in a few days. Today is Sunday June 29, 2008.

Day six: Woke up with a hang over, took one aspirin and drank a cup of coffee, fixed a virgin mary and sat in the hot tub for 15 minutes, usual morning, went to work, had trouble concentrating, but not as bad as it was a few days ago.

July 3, 2008 at 2:35 pm
(2) Greg says:

Good luck on your endeavour. I suffer myself and find solstice in your comments

September 4, 2008 at 7:13 pm
(3) shirley says:

u have answerd so many of my questions,thank you…3 days sober xx and counting!!!!

September 5, 2008 at 11:18 am
(4) Patrick says:

Thanks for sharing this. You’re a good writer, hope there will be more.

September 27, 2008 at 8:28 am
(5) Jack says:

I quit drinking after 20 years eight days ago. It hasn’t been so bad, but I have had the headaches the last couple days. I will not go back!

October 2, 2008 at 6:41 pm
(6) K says:

4 hours short of my 3rd clean day. I realized I hadn’t had a drink in 24 hrs – decided to go with it. Today I have aches & fatigue. How long does this last?

October 17, 2008 at 11:45 am
(7) Jonathan Tychman says:

Of all my years on the net, yours is the most vital article I’ve ever read. If Internet had been created with the single intent of relating only your personal alcohol withdrawl story world-wide, it would have worth it.
I’m exactly you age 57. Only 8 years of abuse for me; but I can go through 50 ml of a bottle of vodka in one day. Only 12 pounds overweight (due to the vodka); don’t have a family anymore but new chance at love if….
You have my e-mail; Please write me. How are you progressing? What can I do to follow your lead?

October 21, 2008 at 6:35 pm
(8) Jen says:

Today is day number 1 for me. I am only 24 years old and drank every day since I was 20. I went 47 days starting in April of this year without a drink. Yes, I stayed home a lot more and felt like I lost some of my friends. Then I had a beer in mid June and have been drinking daily again ever since. Last night I drank more than typical, didnt get home til 4 am, drove drunk and cheated on my boyfriend. I am not the person who I want to be. I know the first week of not drinking is going to be the hardest. I think it is very important to have someone there supporting you through that time- because you do feel horrible physically.

When i didnt drink for those 47 days I felt so much better physically. And I feel like my anxiety got better.

Anyways, is there an update to our friends original post?

October 25, 2008 at 7:09 pm
(9) Madge says:

This is the first thorough information I have ever read about the symptoms of withdrawal. Well done and keep up your courage.

October 25, 2008 at 9:10 pm
(10) Ella says:

Jen – i am also 24 and decided to quit because of a similar situation as yours. I have been drinking regularly since I was about 18. Of course, there were some days that I would go without having a drink at all, but my problem was mainly that when i went out I was binging and doing things I regretted the next day, especially when my hangover interfered with my priorities, such as school, work, etc. Since this summer, though, I saw a change because I was drinking at least one drink everyday, and I was drinking more whenever I was upset…mad pattern. So, I am now on day 6…I will give you all a daily log of how I’ve been so you know what to expect if your drinking wasnt as long/serious as the original poster but you still want to take a break or quit. (I’m just quitting until December 19th which is when school ends in order to give my body and brain time to heal).

Day 1: No problem staying sober, and no symptoms. I did start psychologically questioning how I would last so long when all of my friends drink.

Day 2: Increased hunger. Still no problem staying sober but I did have the temptation for “just one beer”. Started having problems falling and staying asleep….Boy do those late night drinks help you fall asleep!

Day 3: Wokeup exhausted because I got horrible sleep. Tired all day. Cranky and aggitated, but nothing too overwhelming at all. I found out about a great party that my friends wanted me to go to, but I resisted…then questioned whether I could last until Dec. 19th…Slept horribly again, and I had an AWFUL nightmare that had me waking up with a racing heart and drenched in sweat.

Day 4: I’m not sure if this is due to quitting, but I was very cold all day when everyone around me wasn’t. Tired all day from horrible sleep. I started having depressed feelings (not sure if this was due to quitting either). Slept slightly better but not much.

Day 5: Felt better all day fatigue-wise than I had the previous days. I was feeling more depressed, though. My friends were going out to 2 clubs and I decided to give myself my first test…I went….and I didn’t drink!! Best yet, I ACTUALLY had fun sober! I did not expect to have fun without drinking, so I was pleasantly surprised. I found myself insanely tired, though, while I was out when everyone else was pretty energized and drunk.

Day 6(today): AHHHHH!!! I cannot believe that withdrawal symptoms would happen this late in the game!! I went to bed around 5am, and I slept until 12:30pm. This time I slept deeply and through the night. However, like the other day, I had a horrible nightmare again that had me wakeup with a racing heart and drenched in sweat (I think this is a symptom of withdrawal). That isn’t the worst thing though…I wokeup with the WORST headache of my life…I mean it topped any hangover I have ever had. It was so bad that I was nauseus and couldn’t keep my eyes open. I took 2 advils, ate some cereal, and fell back asleep. The advil did not help at all. I slept for about 3 more hours. I am exhausted all day even though I got the best sleep yet last night. Finally, around 6, my headache goes away….7pm, it comes back. Take 2 more advil and eat more. Doesn’t help. Here I am typing this blog. I am tired, have a pounding headache, have dizziness and feel depressed. Throughout the past 6 days, I have definitly had an increase in hunger.

On a positive note, though…within the past 6 days, I have been able to get SIGNIFICANTLY more done as far as work and chores go than I was ever able to do in two weeks time! That alone makes it worth while for me. Also, while I physically looked worse for the first 3 days since I was so tired, I can see that my complexion and face in general looks much more fresh and attractive. I also haven’t had any stupid drunken acts that I need to regret the next day, which is great!

All in all, the worst is the headache (just started), difficulty sleeping (already getting better), and depression (hoping for it to get better soon!).

Who would have thought that a 24 year old who could easily decide to go a day without drinking or just have a drink a night for 4 nights of the week and who never ever drank before 7pm would have such a strong physical response to quitting drinking! It shows you how much alcohol really does affect your body and mind.

Good luck everyone!

November 26, 2008 at 6:30 am
(11) KJ says:

I didnt drink every day but three or four times a week. When I did I didnt seem to know when to stop. Trying not to drink at all now. Third day. Bad dreams and hang over every morning. How long will this last?

January 1, 2009 at 8:22 am
(12) chris says:

after reading alcoholic withdrawals in many forms i got even more depressed and confused. i,ve been a heavy drinker for about 47yrs. now 61yrs old.i don,t believe in taking drugs to stop drinking.i can easily quite for afew days but would now like to stop altogether.not had a drink for 3wks suffering nightmares but coping.i thought your story is great keep writing. happy and sober new year.chris

January 2, 2009 at 6:36 am
(13) Paul says:

I am on my 3rd day after alcohol withdrawal
I am 58 yrs old and I have had no withdrawal
symptoms yet. I started withdrawal on 30th DEC/08 and it was the 1st time I did not drink on New Years eve in 40 years. I wish
everyone a happy New Year and best of luck
in their abstinence from alcohol Paulxx

January 4, 2009 at 9:12 pm
(14) drowninginconfusion says:

This has been so good for me to read, and I’m sort of apologetic to say that… but obviously you are an intelligent person who loves and cares for many people, and like me your drinking has turned into a disease.

I am still drinking, still facing the fact that I must quit, and seeing a therapist to help me wean myself off alcohol to avoid some of the “cold turkey” stuff… he told me that being an alcoholic is like a brick on a big spring. As long as the brick is in place, there’s some balance at least. But what happens if you suddenly remove the brick? The spring goes haywire….

Somehow this made me feel better, but I suspect it’s because I’m still allowed to drink a specified amount for the next 12 days.

So far I haven’t ruined my life entirely. My husband and children are still with me and love me, but I’m wearing them out. I thought an apt Christmas card this year would show a photo of my frazzled family with a caption that said, “At least she’s in therapy now! Happy Holidays!”

You know… I always thought I was in control of things until the drunks and the black-outs and the rages started impacting my life. I work every day without alcohol, but as soon as I leave work I get some.

Same old story… huh?

January 6, 2009 at 6:49 am
(15) peoplenevernew says:

I stopped drinking on 2nd august 2008 after about 5 years of drinking in the morning till night.I decided enough was enough and was worried about dying young(im 32)I was sober until 24th dec when i decided it would be ok to have one drink but as we all know one is too many and 1000 is never enough.After going through 4 litres of vodka and about 24 beers i quit again on sat 3rd jan.I still feel bad right now physically and mentally.I pray that this man does not start drinking again for his birthday as it will be 100 times worse to live with

January 16, 2009 at 7:03 pm
(16) Peace says:

I agree this is one the the most informative articles I have ever read!! Really wishing there could be an update on our friend. I hope he is OK. I drank much less am more than 20 years younger and was unable to quit on my own safely. I had the seizure problem. So it seems like it was uncomfortable for him, but not an emergency situ. Anyway I went to fab detox center and was sober for a long time and like an idiot decided it would be OK for me to have a drink with dinner sometimes. That worked for about 4 months, then financial problems, situational triggers, etc. hit and It got worse. Nowhere near the level it was when I had seizures, (it was probably 1/3 of that amount) but strangely less martinis was effecting me way harder and caused some major disruptions in my life. Nothing illegal or anything, just saying and doing things that I will always be sorry for. I am in the process of detoxing myself alone now. Which has been horrible. Have reduced amount to one ounce per day at this point. Still have insomnia, panic and dreams where I find myself standing up squishing a green witch who’s whole body feels like one of those stress-balls. Probably the DT thing he was hoping for and he was right is is like tripping on LSD, but it is a BAD trip!!! No fun. Also very skinny due to the nausea.

Original poster Please everyone wants an update!!!!

January 19, 2009 at 6:05 am
(17) Susan says:

I have been a drinker for over 30 years…but it was manageable. That is until my husband died very unexpectedly at an early age. Then, everything went to pieces. My withdrawal symptoms last about 3 days. During the first 24 hours, I get nausia – I feel like I have the flu and can’t keep anything down including water. But, after that, I’m so grateful I quit it doesn’t bother not to drink. I did quit for 10 months two years ago and they were the best 10 months of my life. I had lots of energy and looked better than I had in years. Then a long time friend came to visit me in May and we had some wine. That started the whole thing all over again. I quit for another 8 weeks but then started back up in early October. So, here I am, quitting again. I’m trying to start a business and I can’t do it drinking. I have jobs Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of this week and have to be able to physically do them. So, I hope I can get this out of my system by then. Thanks for all of your input. Very useful and helpful.

January 26, 2009 at 10:20 pm
(18) David says:

I quit drinking at 32 years of age, when my twin daughters were born. I stayed sober for 20 wonderful years. I am 55 years old now and 3 years ago I had a beer with a client after some hard work on a hot July day. For a while I had an occasional beer, then several, and this escalated to 6-10 beers 3 or 4 times a week. Last week I forgot that it was my girlfriends 50th birthday. For some reason I thought her birthday was the 28th and it was actually the 21st. Surprisingly, she doesn’t even know I drink and when she called I was half drunk. Of course, She has not spoken to me since. I felt so embarrased and humiliated, which led to 4 days of drinking. This has affected other areas of my life including work, recreation and weight gain. This is my second day of sobriety and the major withdrawl sympton is depression. The moral of the story is please, please if you quit never, never drink again.

February 1, 2009 at 12:20 pm
(19) Paula says:

My best friend suffers from alcoholism. She’s been drinking for as long as I’ve know her (21 years) plus some. Recently, she was pulled over for drunk driving, arrested and released on bond. She went to court several times and the lasst court hearing she was sentenced to 17 days in jail and 28 days in rehabilitation. This is a consecutive term and she is serving her time in jail as I speak. She is on day 5 and don’t really know how she is doing as we don’t get much time to talk. I’ve been worried sick about her only because I’ve been scared she will go through DT’s and will not receive the care she needs while in jail. I know she has to be feeling sick and that’s why I got on this forum to see if I could get some answers. I’m going to print this out and mail it to her because I find it extremely informative and will help her pass the time while in jail. I hope she comes out a sober woman, but I’m afraid she will begin drinking again after the 45 days only because her boyfriend lives with her and he is an alcoholic too. He drinks an excessive amount of alcohol beginning in the morning and doesn’t put the drink down until he goes to bed. Her 19 year old daughter is at her witts end with the situation and says she will move out if her Mom comes out drinking again. I feel the same way…if she starts drinking again, I just don’t want to be around her because it hurt me to see her in that drunken condition. I drank for many years and woke up one day and decided I didn’t want my life to be that way anymore. It was hard at first, but now everything is okay. I crave coke, coffee and sugar all of the time. If I drink, I won’t drink again for a long time. It makes me feel so bad anymore…it’s just not worth it. Drinking has so many bad issues associated with it that I just am not interested in the party anymore. Thank you for starting this forum and good luck to EVERYONE out there who is struggling with this horrible demon.

February 18, 2009 at 2:41 pm
(20) RKH says:

anonymous, thank you for your wonderful blog. And I could not agree more with Johnathon. I am 45 and have been drinking on and off since I was 15. I have a wonderful carrer as a professional and would like to keep it. I am very lucky to have a supporting wife and family during this time. I am in day 3.5 and I think I have gotton over the worst of the detox. STill very tired and not sleeping. However, to be honest, I think I have some fear of going to sleep without alcohols help. But I have tried with success, melletonin. It has helped. Best wishes.

March 9, 2009 at 11:45 am
(21) Kelly says:

I just wanted to write and share a little of what I am going through. My husband and I quit drinking 9 days ago. It’s something I have been praying about for months. I was just tired of doing it and it’s a lot harder when you’re trying to convince 2 people who want to drink, not to drink. What actually transpired and brought us quitting on, was some things that happened in my husbands childhood and how it was affecting our jobs. We didn’t feel like working at all…how we normally are, we love to work. My husband was becoming emotional about the things he had been through. We were drinking everyday. I have ADHD and it was making it so unbearable…not to mention how hard it was every single day to drag myself out of bed…oh, and the hangovers of course. I, for the first time in my life, had to be put on medication for my ADHD. I am 29 almost 30 and have 2 little girls. My husband is 31 just about to be 32. He has been drinking since highschool and I have been drinking for about 5 years…not as much as him, but I have been it has been building up. I went from wine to captain morgan and then vodka. Towards the end (up until 10 days ago – which was our last drink), we were splitting a bottle of vodka everyday or two and I mean the big bottles. We all of a sudden decided to quit together. He started seeing a Christian psychologist for his childhood issues instead of drinking. I am suffering from the nightmares and my husband is dealing with headaches when he wakes up that last quite long. They are getting much better though. I honestly can’t believe how good I feel. I feel like a million bucks. It’s sort of scary…like it’s too good to be true. I found this post while googling to see if it’s normal to feel this good and have this much energy after quitting drinking. It gives me encouragement to see people writing saying they still had so much energy even after staying sober for a year. We are humbly praying to God and asking for His strength. My husband and I can’t do it on our own. Thank you again for everyone’s story. It’s definitely better than all of the other things that come up on the internet.

March 24, 2009 at 8:37 am
(22) kris says:

Hope you are still at it. I am 35 days, after a pretty quick crash and burn when my job ended (federal grant) over the holidays. was initially elated at surviving, and now in a depression about what the next 30-60-1000 days will be like. Best wishes.

March 31, 2009 at 8:32 pm
(23) cnote says:

Hi! I’m also glad I came across this site. I recently quit drinking and am experiencing withdrawls. This is my second say sober after going on a 10 day drinking binge. In the past, I could always get over a binge in one day, like a hangover, and I always maintained good grades in school, so I never thought I was an alcoholic. But lately I realized my behavior wasn’t normal and after writing some embarrassing emails and drunk dialing my mom, I decided it had to stop.
Yesterday was my day one — I felt terrible. I threw up half the day, couldn’t keep water down, could barely eat, made some homemade vegetable soup, had some cheese and crackers and then tried to go to sleep. I sweat profusely all night and was in and out of sleep all night, tossing and turning and having bizarre dreams. I felt feverish as well. I was shaky all day and took three GABA, which seemed to help.
Today, day two – I woke up feeling terrible again. The anxiety was overwhelming. I ate more of the soup, drank almost half a gallon of milk, had about 4 Gatorades and took a B vitamin. I feel a little better, but I can tell it’s far from over. I also feel extremely emotional. I can only say the Gatorade, milk and vegetable soup helped tremendously and the nausea is better but not gone. If anyone is interested, I’ll keep updating this to provide another story of the withdrawl progression, so hopefully, whatever helps me get through it might help others. The GABA I took yesterday (which isn’t prescription and it’s relatively inexpensive) I took today too, and again, it helped the anxiety. I went on about an hour crying-freak out session, and oddly enough, that helped too. So if anyone feels that emotional, I’d say go ahead and go nuts for a little while, just don’t drink.

May 10, 2009 at 7:30 pm
(24) Joanne says:

I am 21 days sober. I have relapsed several times. Most all of the posts about, sweating, nausea, nightmares, tremors, dizziness,confusion, etc. are all symptoms of withdrawal. It is seriously dangerous to withdraw from alcohol with out medical attention. The chance of an alcohol withdrawal seizure is GREAT and DEADLY!. I detoxed on my own also, however and had all of the above symptoms. I would have such hellish nightmares that I would force myself to wake up but be so shaken from the nightmares that to go back to sleep was impossible. my stomach was agitated beyond belief also. Don’t need to go into too much detail there. I am now in AA. For many it works. It has helped me to begin changing my life. Putting down the drink wasn’t enough for me. There was an underlying cause to my abusive drinking….I wish all of you the best of luck.

June 4, 2009 at 7:17 pm
(25) Bill S says:

I too found this looking for help not knowing what to expect going through withdrawals. I am on day 1 and have been drinking for the past 27 years. Should have been dead a couple of times due to DUI and other accidents. Financial problems, work, relationships and health issues. Weened off a little the last few days. down to a half pint last night and nothing all day. Had been drinking a 64 ounce pitcher of light beer and 1 pint of Vodka most every night for the past few years. Had not been functioning well during the day and started drinking a few beers in the morning to just feel normal. Found a good program NIFAR (National Institute For Alcohol Recovery) that has helped me understand how consistent drinking, weather it is daily, weekly, or monthly, changes the neurons in the brain causing the contestant cravings. Once all of the alcohol is depleted from your system, usually about 36 to 48 hours this subsides. The detox tonic, (honey, lemon juice and warm water) and passion flower pills help with the anxiety also.

I drank the last of the pint last night and smoked my last cig. I think this was key for me as I cannot have it in the house. Only day 1 though. Will check in with updates.

Hope this helps some, God bless all!

July 29, 2009 at 1:33 pm
(26) mitchell v. says:

well, at 37 yrs. old… and after a 20 yr. bout with progressive alcoholism – i finally decided to go “cold turkey”. drinking nearly a case of beer a day along with a pint of brandy was causing me extreme pain in my digestive tract, and other places. for those of you who think it’s not possible to do it… you’re wrong! the cold turkey part (that is) although i am only a week removed from the stuff – i can give you the rundown on my withdrawal symptoms… remember, i was drinking a six-pack or even a pint a day of liquor… we are talking 25-30 ozs. of alcohol a day! Sweating was the major symptom for me along with hellish nightmares… i had a minor case of anxiety ( which i thought would be worse), and headaches for maybe 3 days coupled with trouble concentrating. i, personally had no hallucinations, minor tremors (2 days), and nauseau for perhaps a day or two. all in all it wasn’t as terrible as i thought it would be. i am going to say your fitness level, genetics, and diet could play a key role in your withdrawal. i infer this because – although i drank to excess – i was very active, still ate pretty good, and didn’t sit around much. nothing else to really say except thati hope this is the END of booze for me. this is a withdrawal page so please don’t let people scare you out of cold turkey!!!!!! anything is possible if you believe!!! the dt’s, and seizures? i personally know of no one to have had them – and i read a web page by a doctor who said the percentage of cases that do is minimal, and that he (doctor) may have had one or two cases throughout his long tenure

July 30, 2009 at 4:44 am
(27) Michael says:

First a little about me. Iím 29 and have been drinking since I was 17. Thatís when I got my 1st DUI. Got a second 6 months later at 18. My drinking stayed the same till I turned 21 (JACKPOT). Got a 3rd DUI at 23 and thatís when it all started downhill. Was in 2 rollover accidents and a t-bone, wasnít driving but friends were drunk, came out unharmed. Broken bones from fights and 2 visits to the ER for poisoning. Donít know why i am still alive!? Have had countless arrests and visits to detox. They say you should be dead at a .4 BAC, well I proved that wrong by blowing a .62, just to give you an idea of how much I would consume. Thatís about all I have to say about that. Anyways right now it is 2 a.m. and almost 4 days exactly since my last drink. That last drink was the end of a 5 day binge. In the past 4 nights I have slept about 12 hours total and I actually prefer being awake compared 2 the nightmares I have had when asleep. The worst part of WDS for me is uncontrollable tremors, horrific anxiety, uncontrollable eye movements, and sweating. Symptoms have been getting slightly better, but they seem to come and go. I.E: I felt better yesterday (day 3), then today I had a very important meeting and before the meeting I had the severe shakes. I took 6mg of Klonopin (a benzodiazepine) that my Dr. prescribed me months ago to help w/ insomnia and they helped alot. Now that they have worn off i am still a bit shaky and my palms are sweating, but other then that I feel OK, not even that tired (weird). I am going to continue taking the Klonopin till I feel the alcohol WDS are gone, then I will have to ween off them. It’s true itís like switching one drug for another, but I donít think I can do this w/out them. I do not know how long my WDS will last, I have quit before and had symptoms last up to 3 weeks, couldnít take it so began the boozing again. But back then I did nothing but wallow in my own sorrow. This time circumstances are different. I have been exercising everyday and eating right, also taking the necessary vitamins I know I need. I am actually looking towards the future and making moves to make it brighter. I feel I will make it. I have to, canít do this anymore, it truly is insanity. Well I hope that anyone who reads this gets something out of it. But if not at least it has helped me. Good Luck and Best wishes to all of you!

July 30, 2009 at 10:57 pm
(28) L.B. says:

Regarding the alcoholic seizures mentioned earlier: They are real and far more common than people think. My S.O. has been a heavy drinker for 35 years, and has had 5 withrawal seizures, each time ending him up in the ER. They always happen in the morning when he has been without booze for 8 to 12 hours. One left him with severe concussion and frontal lobe bleeding. He drinks about 1/2 gallon of alcohol per day and has been medically detoxed 5 times. He lasted 2 weeks in rehab, but apparently has not hit his bottom. Pray that he does soon before he dies.
Thanks

August 12, 2009 at 2:59 pm
(29) anynomous says:

Going to rehab facility tomorrow (long term inpatient). Has taken me too long to get to this point 20+ years and 1/2 gallon of whiskey daily. My dad is an alcoholic who quit drinking 3 years ago, but I think he is a closet drinker. Instead of being supportive of me, he said I should just quit cold turkey and started drinking soft drinks or iced tea. Everyone else has been very supportive, but am afraid to be away from my husband and daughter (19 yrs). Don’t know how long I will be away, at least 2 weeks. I’m going to take the help rehab will offer me.

August 16, 2009 at 6:11 am
(30) Gail says:

Hi, I recently came home from a 4 week rehab program for my alcoholism. Since coming home I have headaches every day and I haven’t had a good noght’s sleep in months. I don’t have daytime naps and I don’t drink tea or coffee after lunch. I just wish I could sleep better at night. I think I would be able to funtion better through the day better if I could only sleep. I get bad dreams and then have trouble getting back to sleep. I’m only 36 days sober and I go to AA meetings every day.Any suggestions would be helpful.

October 7, 2009 at 5:08 pm
(31) Songbird says:

I am a 57 year old man. I discovered my thrill with alcohol when I was 14. Not long after that, clever boy that I am, I learned I could arrange my life to afford me this thrill nearly every day, and have done so for 43 years. My dad was a high-functioning alcoholic – poet, journalist, reader and writer, and my mom, a respected intensive-care nurse, enjoyed her tipple here and there, a little over-much, as well, so it did not surprise me to realize I’m more susceptible to this addiction than others may be. I’ve always worked. Nearly always successfully, and often spectacularly. I’ve quit the sauce a few times when the hangovers got too bad, but never because I’d actually damaged myself or others – I have been lucky that way. Once, I was dry for 5 years, many times for a few weeks, but every time, the relapse folllowed the same pattern: I’d decide to just go ahead and have one beer or glass of wine, and it felt so good… and pretty soon, I was back to a big six-pack a day (let’s see 6 x 12 = 72 oz @ 7.2% =5.184 oz pure alcohol = 12.96 oz @ 80 proof), so I’ve been drinking equivalent to a half a fifth a day, pretty much every day, for pretty much my whole life. It’s varied a lot – sometimes just a quarter of a fifth, somethimes the whole thing, but always enough to feel a serious buzz every night. Finally, a few years back, drunk on my asa, I tried to step into the shower, lost my balance, and stumbled my upper lip and teeth into the tiled windowsill. Lots of pain, lots of blood, and a loose tooth, apparently from damage to the bone that cradles the teeth. It took several years for that trauma to result in $30,000 of endodontal and bridge work, and I hate what this has meant for my daily tooth-care regime. I quit after that, but was back on the liquor within a few weeks (or was it months? Days?). Last week, I fell on my ass and got a spectacular set of bruises. Obviously, I damaged several blood vessels severly, as I’ve never seen bruises this crazy. So Monday I quit. I’m feeling a little sad, but not shaky or delerious. I took temazepam to help me get to sleep the last two nights, and am nearly petrified of withdrawal. I’ve had so much alcohol on-board for so long that I’m afraid every cell in my system will be releasing little squeezes of gin, a litle at a time, to compensate for the missed incoming doses, though I sure hope I’m wrong.

The most appalling thing about this is that after 51 years unmarried (though serially partnered), a lovely lady fell in love with me and I with her and we just celebrated out 3rd anniversary. I hide my drinking skillfully, and she ignores the little cover-ups I miss, most enablingly, but I am wracked with guilt and shame that I am failing to be what I can be for her, for myself, and for my community.

I really know I can be so much better than this, and want to get there. I’m scared to death that craving will through me to the ground and start pouring whisky into my grinning mouth again.

I carry a litle card I found somewhere. It says:

For *my beautiful wife*, For Me, and for all I love:
Iím not giving up a good friend who has treated me well. Instead, I am finally ridding myself of a destructive enemy, who has stolen many great pleasures from me (ain’t that the truth)!.

I am doing a very great thing,
for myself and those I love

I hold my quit tightly
Ė itís a pardon from a life sentence

I will always hold the key.

Drink a lot of water and juices.

Never take another sip

Deny myself nothing except the alcohol

Don’t explain any of this to people or buy their enabling

Admit and remember thereís nothing more important

I can have a good time without drinking (bring water)

Mantra for sanity:
ďI smashed my hip, smashed my teeth, failed to be all I can be Ė no more (what an idiot)Ē

I can now spend my alcohol money for tasty treats.

I’ll call the doctor if it get’s awful.

I visualize myself totally falling down drunk (thatís easy) and don’t want to be that way.

Do I really want to be that person again?
(NO, and Iím in charge.)

At 5:00, when that little belll rings, I grab-up a guitar and study a song.

I keep chocolate handy for endorphins

First thing every day, I take a red felt-pen and put a big red dot on my finger, so every time I raise a coffee cup, a bottle of pop, or even a fork, to my mouth, I get a reminder that these hands are now freed from the shackles of alcohol.

February 11, 2010 at 10:26 am
(32) Joanne says:

Hello everyone out there who is suffering. There is hope for all of us. I was in denial for a long time and played all of the drinking on and off games too. I truly never thought alcohol could kill you unless you drank like a fish, which I did not. My grandfater drank beer everyday. Everytime I saw him he had one even to the point when they told him to stop for a period when he had to take meds for a separate condition. Grandpa was a gentle man. He never acted drunk or was violent but his son was. My mom is an alcoholic like her brother. As she aged she drinks every night but maybe 2 glasses and adds seltzer to her wine. I asked her for help and her response was to just stop. She is a selfish b—– to me as a kid – mommy dearest and is never there for me now. I am 40 and have an awesome boyfriend after a long marriage and divorce. After the divorce and job loss my drinking formed a pattern. I would drink at night out of boredom. My boyfriend is not a big drinker and would tell me not to drink because I would get wild and also nasty when I did. I am fortunate that I never drive when I drink and I have no health or police incidents to report. I just was drinking as an excuse to be hung over the next day because I have no where to go.

I am on day 4 and I truly have no desire to drink but cannot imagine a life without drinking again. How did I do it when i was a kid? How did I manage to not drink with all of my pregnancies and shortly thereafter? Why can’t I stop all of a sudden when I start?

Withdrawal sucks for sure but it beats the hangovers and the alcohol induced depression that insues. All the great advice about water, vitamin B, excercise and support is excellent. My heart goes out to everyone on this site. You can do and you will do it but you MUST stay on it everyday. Most people want you to stay drunk because usually they are alcoholics and want someone in their lives to be sick like them. If you were on an island stranded your plight would be for survival – would alcohol really be your focus? If you had cirhosis would you drink? If you were pregnant would you drink?

There are so many temptations all around us. I have the best times when I truly am sober. Don’t waste your life, it is too precious a gift. You can do it and we can do it together. This site is amazing and god bless us – each and every one of us!!!!

April 6, 2010 at 12:06 am
(33) rb says:

i started drinking when i was 15. i was arrested many times for underage drinking and eventually a few dui’s. It cause me a lot of problems in high school and left me with a lot of one night stands but no decent long term girl friends. I was always in the so called in crowd and drinking was a huge part of our social life. after high school i went to college and played college soccer for 2 years. after soccer i moved back to my home town where it took me 5 more years just to get a four year degree. I still had my run ins with the law and drank 12 beers about 4 times a week during my college time. when i graduated i thought i would cut back on my drinking but it just got worse. i ruined any decent relationships but luckily have a very supportive family and some great friends. at the age of 25 i began drinking daily. after about a year i was downing 12 to 15 beers a night. eventually around the age of 27 i started getting terrible anxiety during the day so i had to start drinking during the day because i had a full time job as a teacher. i would just drink enough to stop the shakes until school was out and then i would binge until i fell asleep. I lived with my girlfriend and she and I would have arguments all the time about it. finally she got tired of it and i moved into my own apartment. after about 3 months there I couldnt go more than 30 min without alcohol. I had to store it in my car (started another job) in my briefcase my coat pocket anywhere I could. eventually after all the puking and anxiety regardless of how much i drank I admitted myself to rehab. I was there for 7 days, the first day I went in sober and was about 10 min from a seizure until they gave me tranzene. For 4 days I was a zombie on the tranzene until they started tapering me off. After I left detox i did not attend any more treatment and was fine for about 2 years then for it seemed for no reason I started getting bad anxiety and panic attacks again. I went to the doctor and got on klonopin and an ssri (anti-depressent which evidently treats anxiety) starting feeling better but broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. I began going out again about 6 weeks ago and slowly starting drinking again. I finally hit rock bottom last week where i drank everyday all day and on friday night I had 16 beers and 5 margaritas. Luckily my friend found out and called my mom and ex. they came to my rescue and wanted me to go to detox again. surely i thought only drinking for 6 weeks I could detox myself. today is my 3rd day and my symptoms are finally starting to relieve. the first two days were terrible anxiety even with klonopin. I guess this was a blessing in disguise because it reminded of how horrible withdrawing from alcohol is. If anyone has read the extremely long story i guess my message is: it only takes a couple of weeks to get back to where you were even though it took you a long time to get there the first time.

April 15, 2010 at 6:45 am
(34) e says:

thank you all. this is the most positive site so far. I know it sounds so standard but it IS hard. The hard part is to love ones self. we can do it

April 27, 2010 at 8:47 am
(35) Billy says:

I’ve been through about a dozen hospitalized alcohol detoxes and a good many white-knuckle rides on my own. I have gotten to the point of auditory and visual hallucinations, uncontrollable shaking, a resting heart rate of almost 200 (while sitting in a chair), and more psychological horror than I can describe. And yet I put myself in the position to experience all this over and over. I guess that qualifies me as an alcoholic.

It is a cycle from hell. It is death by installment. It is self-annihilation. It is a horrible way to spend a life.

April 28, 2010 at 11:35 pm
(36) lg says:

This is my first day and my first go at getting rid of alcohol out of my life. I have been drinking heavy since I was 17, I am now 41, with fluctuating episodes of excessive drinking usually around times of horrible stressors.
Have been going hard at it for 2 years now drinking at least 1-3 bottles of wine daily or whatever else there is around until I pass out. If things are really awful I drink as much as I can as quickly as I can on an empty stomach.
I have this anxiety level building not so much around how bad the detox maybe but how empty my life is going to be once on the otherside of withdrawals. I know this is my addiction talking and really wish there was a drug that can turn off the black devil on my shoulder.
I have been to see my doctor who is supporting me with some benzos for the first 3 days. I found this site when I wondered what I could experience on day 4- 6.
My grand plan was to go up to Mission beach to visit with an old friend who is this completely dry health guru come masseus yoga instructor in 5 days once I have done the medical detox danger bit at home here in Melbourne.
I am now scared that I am going rock up into her fantastic family home this quivering shaking sick mess. But I think I am actually more scared that if I stay at home my first attempt will just be a practice run for the next and I really need to put a lid on this now.
I can feel my body dying, the sad looks on my kids faces watching there little lives fall apart, while I kill myself before my husband can destroy me completely.

Any thoughts would be appreciated because i feel really alone right now

May 6, 2010 at 9:50 am
(37) Deolia says:

It would be nice for updates. My brother is an alcoholic and I am thinking about sending him these stories. Its so hard living here with him, but I have to I am a single parent and I cannot afford to live on my own..

May 11, 2010 at 7:09 pm
(38) Tanya says:

im on day five. im soo tired right now i can barely even function. i have been a heavy drinker for 20 years i did give it up for 2 then went back to it 9 years ago. i have lost friends, tons of money, many many things that meant alot to me, as well as my self respect. i allowed people in my life that lied to me and stole things from me. my boyfriend used to wait for me to pass out so he could steal my money and whatever else he could get his hands on. for me right now its a vicious circle. i drink cause im upset but i allow things to happen when i drink that upset me. i am so dissapointed with myself right now. i was hoping for more in my life. i have really let myself down.

May 12, 2010 at 8:03 am
(39) rp says:

the night sweats are horrible.the lonliness is horrible,the anxiety is horrible,the nightmares are horrible.it’s all horible but if you want to live a better life you must go through hell first.and well worth it

May 18, 2010 at 7:14 am
(40) mandy says:

I found this site at 3.00am in the morning after my fourth double whisky and 3rd glass of wine. I have spent my morning nursing a hangover and reading all your comments. Thank you for sharing, because it has resonated so deeply with me. I dont know how I am going to give up this terrible crutch, and what it is going to mean to my life in the short term with the drastic changes I will need to make with my social circle etc. I am scared but know that this has to be done as I have lost so much already. We were all meant for so much more than this.

June 2, 2010 at 10:05 pm
(41) Scott says:

I read all of these people that have a hard time with this as I have had 15 to 24 beers a day for at least 15 or so years but after reading today I said no and it is hard I hope and pray that I can do it!

June 15, 2010 at 4:25 pm
(42) Karen says:

To the original comment poster I have a great deal of respect for what you went through. My withdrawals seemed a lot different from yours, though. As soon as I stopped drinking on day one I would have the most God awful sweats and shakes and dry heaves and sometimes acutal vomiting and blood in urine. Sometimes I would just lie in a dark room for a day freezing cold under two blankets but at the same time a couple of bags of ice around my body. But then after the second day I felt significantly better and was so emotionally elated not to feel like being in that living hell I just shrugged out the rest of the rest of the withdrawals like tiredness and anixety and a little bit of stomach upset as just something I knew would pass in several days. I’ve been through the binge/withdrawal cycle more times than I can count. The last time I did it I was so freaking sick I went to my doctor and begged him for a librium prescription and he gave it to me because I was such a mess and crying my eyes out when I walked in that office I think he was just as conviced and I was that was my last binge. If your withdrawal is really bad and you can find doctor conpasstionate enough to cut you a break and just let you dextox painlessly at home, I definitely recommend it. Make sure it’s a doctor you know well and trust and isn’t going to up and baker act you.

June 21, 2010 at 7:09 am
(43) Dawna says:

Ijust woke up on Day 6. I have a hang over not sure if it’s from carbs.or withdrawal. I can feel groggy from to many carbs. We shall see? Not to sure about all of this yet. I am letting it happen. No one knows I am doing this. I only hang out with drinking people. At 50 not sure how to meet people that don’t drink. Life is changing,I will change with it. A much heatlthier life and one without embarassment.

June 22, 2010 at 1:27 am
(44) Nate says:

Day 2 after a 13 day binge. About a 6 pack or bottle of wine with some mix drinks each day. Can’t sleep and I am exhausted. Any small sounds wakes me up. Have anxiety but it is passing slowly. However, really bad sugar craving today. I have experienced that in the past after a binge. I have tried to quit in the past, but like other people that have posted, I figure “what is the harm, just one drink.” Then the cycle starts. Not anymore. I am in my late 30s and spent my 20s taking drugs only to substitute for alcohol. This has to end now. I, for the first time, have a good girlfrien and goals that I want to complete while I can.

The hardest thing, for me, is living in a society so orientated toward alcohol. Budweiser this, smirnoff that. But I figure that I am not like a lot of people in that one drink will kill me if not now eventually. But that is what I must do to be happy, healthy, and to really live.

June 22, 2010 at 3:06 pm
(45) Dawna says:

Day 7 .. I am struggling today, ready to cry at a drop of a hat. Lack of confidence for sure. I had more confience when I was drinking. I am not thinking clearly and life is still kicking me in the ass. I pray it turns around. It’s not a fun life at all.

June 23, 2010 at 9:33 am
(46) Dawna says:

Day 8 I woke up feeling ALOT BETTER!! More focused. It’s gona be a good day!

June 24, 2010 at 7:55 am
(47) Dawna says:

I feel real groggy, not sleeping well. I am feeling very isolated and struggling with the idea of the benifit of being “sober” even though I don’t want to drink. I have had many times of my life of not drinking.. This just feels different. Maybe I want instant gratification. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

June 25, 2010 at 8:03 am
(48) Dawna says:

This is a tough day..It’s friday! I should be making plans to go out tonight and party.. I really could go out and have a blast.. UH OH! I am in trouble to on day 9..Ouch.

June 26, 2010 at 8:09 am
(49) Dawna says:

I wanted to drink soooooooooo bad. I fought through it. It’s the next morning. I feel proud of myself. I’ve got alot of work to do.

July 30, 2010 at 12:31 am
(50) JC says:

Just hit the end of day 5 without a drink. I’ve been a pretty heavy drinker for starting from about the age of 15 until 37. I’ve stopped a few times for a few days, but never for any real sustained length of time, especially after graduating from college in 1996.

From the few previous times that I had gone cold turkey for a few days, I knew what to expect: anxiety, sleeplessness, bad dreams, sweating, night sweats, depression, nausea, etc.

This time was no different but there has been a definite progression:

Day 1(Sunday), Sweating, somewhat confused and just not “with it,” nauseated, can’t fall asleep, but tired.

Day 2(Monday), just can not fall asleep, very anxious, every noise startles me, hot then cold, sweating, itchy all over. Get about 3 hours of sleep, and wake up feeling hung over. Eat a very light breakfast and start drinking a lot of water and taking vitamins.

Day 3(Tuesday), stay up really late because I know it’s going to be frustrating to try to go to sleep. slept for about 4 hours, still a lot of tossing and turning and night sweats, and some anxiety, and some itching, wake up and feel a little better, but still a little hung over.

Day 4 (Wednesday), stay up pretty late again, but exhaustion is starting to win over. still, there’s some anxiety, but it’s not overwhelming. get 6 hours of sleep, some of which is that really good deep kind that you don’t get when you’re drinking. wake up and say to myself, “wow, i feel human today.” make some coffee, make some breakfast. venture out on a short bike ride.

Day 5 (Thursday), just completed. felt good all day. had a good appetite. got about 20 miles of bike riding in. still a little anxious about going to sleep tonight, but not as much as the previous nights.

In some ways I’m fortunate to be unemployed right now to get through this. It helps to be able to feed cravings or lay down at your body’s direction. I’m hoping to start a new job in the coming weeks, and knew I needed to take this opportunity to get through the withdrawls so when needed I can go to work with a clear head.

Two great by-products that I haven’t seen mentioned, but which I’m starting to appreciate this week: 1) I haven’t spent any real money out of pocket; 2) I’ve lost some bloating and maybe some actual weight and my clothes fit better.

So, to those on day one, keep it together. It does get better. If you have to stay up and kill some time, read these posts again.

July 31, 2010 at 8:34 pm
(51) notLeavingLasVegas says:

I’ve now read all the posts on this site and I feel now that I am no longer alone. I’m 36, started drinking heavily at uni aged 20, and it’s ‘progressed’ from there. I saw a community alcohol support person referred by my GP a year ago after I thought I had a ‘bit of a problem’ (I was drinking every day around one and a half bottles of wine.) I thought what she said about seizures etc didn’t apply to me, and I wasn’t really alcohol dependent. I was running my own successful business, so how could I be?

But, things have got dramatically worse this year…Lost my business due to the recession, now unemployed, fell in with more of a drinking crowd…I’ve been drinking at least 2 bottles of wine a day for a year coupled with vodka once/twice a week :-( I can’t remember what made me decide enough was enough around 6 weeks ago, but I decided to go cold turkey….Big mistake.

I didn’t sleep, but horrifically had both visual and auditory hallucinations, including opening my eyes around 6am to see the dog from the Omen staring menacingly into my eyes! Also, suffered sweats, muscle jerks and bright flashes, like electricity in my head….Next day, I decided to have ‘only’ one bottle, but more or less the same thing happened. I went to my GP again who put me in touch with the Community alcohol service. Wished I had never bothered. The ‘triage nurse’ I saw 5 weeks later just lectured me about the ‘Govt’s safe drinking guidelines’….I cried in the car afterwards.

Three weeks on, I am even more in with the drinking crowd. Got plastered with them on Thursday then had three bottles of wine last night. Woke up today feeling shaky and ‘not with it’. By 4pm, I couldn’t hold up a coffee cup. By 5.30pm, I started dry retching convinced I was going to vomit. I was also shaking and extremely on edge. I called AA and am going to a meeting next week. The symptoms didn’t subside until I had had one a quarter bottles. Watching Leaving Las Vegas at 1.30am to waken me up to the fact that I really need to stop. Cold turkey however does not seem to be an option….

I hope for ‘salvation’ (I am not religious, just desperately hoping there is something out there to help me.) Goodnight and god bless to you all. X

August 5, 2010 at 5:07 am
(52) maze says:

I am glad I have found this site. I am a 31 female been drinking very heavy since I was 21. My issue was never about drinking everyday…it was the every other day binge drinking….Like I was rewarding myself for not drinking the night before. I quit drinking on July 7th. I wanted to sleep all the time was really the only withdrawal I have had. I started painting again to keep my hands and mind busy. Felt great!!! Then, my dumbass, as of last weekend assumed I could drink…BAD mistake…not only could I not,but I did somethings in which I regret. For about the past few years, I have now started to have blackouts. This never happened to me before. Just to tell you how much I can drink……The last time I drank…..I had within a period of six hours(5 beers,5 glasses of wine, a shot of jagemister back to drinking a full bottle of wine.) I drink like a sailor. I never would of thought drinking could control my life in such a way. In June, I met a wonderful man, he himself who once had an issue with drinking could not handle my drinking habits. Needless to say…he stopped seeing me. In many ways……drinking has cost me on so many different levels,but I can’t look bad on it as bad….I have to move forward. Drinking Cannot be a part of my life anymore. I was always envious of people who could just enjoy a nice beer…..Not me. While they are on their first, I would be on my third. My desire to be a non-drinker outweighs the desire to drink. I am sorry to hear about all the stories of people whom are going through a very tough time withdrawing, but keep your spirits up, get the support you need and keep yourself busy with multi. things.

August 9, 2010 at 12:02 am
(53) JC says:

Just posting a follow-up… Just finished day 15 without a drink. Feeling pretty good and normal. Sleep is almost regular now. No bad dreams, twitching, itching or night sweating. A couple of people have mentioned being nervous about quitting because they don’t know how they’re going to deal with all of the down time and boredom. I had similar fears being unemployed with a lot of time on my hands. All I can say is that I actually found the feeling liberating. I no longer had to plan my day around when I was going to start drinking and I no longer had to worry about if I had enough inventory of booze to get me through the day. I’m not particularly religious, but have gotten into the habit of thanking God at the end of each day for giving me the strength to make it through that day without the need for alcohol, and pray for the same strength for the next day.

August 24, 2010 at 10:42 pm
(54) JC says:

Just finishing day 31 – feeling great. Only a couple of days of craving alcohol, but the cravings pass eventually. I usually get up and get a soda or some tea and find something to occupy my mind for a little while. Looking back at the recap of the first five days, I feel like a completely different person. It’s good to be reminded of just how painful those first few days were.

September 11, 2010 at 8:46 pm
(55) Rachael says:

It’s been helpful to read all these comments. I want to stop drinking and thought I could go cold turkey. Actually tried today. Went 11 hours before the shakes got so bad I could barely hold a glass of water, then I had trouble lifting my arms. I seem to be the kind of person who’s going to go thru hell to come out the other side.
I realized I had to go grocery shopping and clean my place. So, I broke and had a drink because I knew I couldn’t leave the house the way I was, could barely even walk straight. I know I can’t do this alone, but I’m in debt and I really don’t want my loved ones to know. There has been so much crap in our lives and my Mom has lupus, and new newphew with downsyndrome, a Gram with alzheimers and my Dad who has degenerate discs is his spine is losing the strenght in his legs.
So, if anyone can give me any advice…how do you tell the people you love? When you know how much it’s going to hurt them?
I really have no one in my life and I have aliented my friends. Believe it or not…nobody knows I”m an alcoholic. I hide it very well, but not sure for how much longer.

September 14, 2010 at 10:10 am
(56) Jeanine says:

WOW!!!! I just looked up having nightmares after slowing down on drinking. This is a big slap in my face. I guess I really do have a problem. I have done drugs and drank since I was a young teen and I’m now 53. My father was in the military and we moved all the time. I felt the only way to fit in was to do as the others were doing plus I come from drinking stock. I quit smoking cigarettes over 11 years ago and pot a year ago. My mom was an evening drunk and you didn’t want to take the “7PM” call from her. I find myself following in her footsteps. My dad wasn’t a slacker at drinking either, he was a everyday-er, straight vodka. I didn’t see anything wrong with drinking everyday but always wondered if those around me drank like I did. My husband has one or two beers a night and that’s it. I have a very addictive personality and am an extremest. I am too embarrassed to go into my past but it’s a doozy. Movie material if you know what I mean.

September 24, 2010 at 7:19 pm
(57) NewOrleansParty says:

Reading all of the posts is helping me take the big “step”, which I have been thinking about a lot these last six months. No one knows my dirty secret; I hide it well. Sneaking shots of hot vodka, rum, gin, even whiskey (when you live in N.O., you have to have a stocked bar) behind my husband’s back when he leaves the room, then I pretend to sip a social glass of wine with dinner in case he smells something on my breath. I can work all day fine, but that burning feeling in my chest starts around 5pm, then I either stop on the way home to meet up with a drinking friend or start my sneaking at home. Sometimes on the weekends I sneak all day, then if I have to go out that evening, I have a drink and I am toasted. The husband asks how did I get so loaded and I just say I worked out too long, or my metabolism is off, or I didn’t eat enough lunch; boy, I sure can lie. I cannot tell you how many times I had to go to the store to buy bottles to replenish what I drank the night/day before at home so that he wouldn’t notice. It has become every stinking night now. I am in my mid 40s and cannot believe its come to this. I have tried to quit, but that burn makes me say, “Just one quick shot to feel better”, which is what I did last night because my husband was at a business meeting; that one shot became seven, I couldn’t stop. I didn’t even eat. I passed out at 10pm before he got home. I should mention there is always a party down here and drinking is part of the norm. When I do try not to drink (as much) when I’m out, all I heard is,”What’s the matter? You don’t want a drink?”. These last few years have made me feel out of control and very afraid. I can’t remember the last day I did NOT have some form of alchohol. If all of you can kick this nasty habit, I can too. I just need to do it. Buddy T, thanks for having all of these blogs.

October 1, 2010 at 2:31 am
(58) horizon says:

I’ve been drinking since 16, mostly every weekend. At 22 it became real bad and I drank every day and lost my fiance, job, etc. I slowed it down with no withdrawal symptoms, drinking off/on until where I am at now age 27. I was drinking every single day almost 1 liter of vodka for over a year. I am now quitting and these are my experiences:

Last drink 8PM Previous night so I’ll start the day after:

Day1:
Woke up feeling fine. About 5 hours later extreme anxiety and shaking of the entire body. Extreme tremors in fingers and body. As the night went on, continuous throwing up, no appetite. Could not eat or even drink any liquids without throwing it up. Sweating, hot flashes, difficulty breathing and constant coughing.

Day2:
Did not sleep more than 1 hour previous night. Still tremors in body and hands, still could not eat anything but I could start drinking teas. Still throwing up consistantly ..later in the night stopped trembling for the most part, extremely tired, headaches, terrible diareahha.

Its now past midnight so I’m considering this day 3:
Still extreme exhaustion from lack of sleep. Slight stomachache but no more throwing up. Can finally eat something light. Can drink fluids normally. Very slight hand trembling..still extreme anxiety. Less chest pain/coughing.

Keep in mind i’ve been in Bed these entire days and I do have benzodiazopines to help with the anxiety otherwise it would probably be much worse. I am off to try to sleep tonight as I desperately need it and we will see how the rest of day 3 goes.

October 14, 2010 at 2:58 pm
(59) Lucky says:

Some background I am 46 and have pretty much partied my whole life. I am very successful and have been married to my soul mate for last 11 years. The last 4 or so years have been pretty bad in terms of drinking. Every other day for the most part I would drink around a 500-700ml of various hard liquors. Thought I could change flavors to control the ugliness. Which my wonderful bride has put up with. Well I hit bottom Monday night and woke up Tuesday not remembering what had happened. More common than not. Also my wife had not kissed me good by also an indication I was a bastard and had probably picked a drunken fight. When we both got home she had had it and said she couldn’t take it anymore and I had to leave for a hotel, which I did scared to death! My family my life all at the brink! I am so glad I did just that went directly to the hotel and not the bar for these nights or this story would not have turned out the same
soo

Well I am on my 65th hour or so Thursday. Last drink sometime Monday evening I figure midnight and I have had no side effects of withdraw what so ever and kind of nervous something bad is going to happen. I have read how dangerous going cold turkey can be but really feeling ok. I have never had the shakes before or anything like that and have gone a few days without in the past. I not sure if I actually had an addiction I don’t think so, certainly had a drinking problem so time will tell

Met with my wife this morning and she is with me and supportive. I vowed never again and mean it this time. looking forward to actually be a fun and productive part of my family again. I know I have a long way to go but really want to get there.

October 23, 2010 at 1:44 pm
(60) Mrs. P says:

Excellent reading here. True, from the heart pain and struggle. I have “quit” at least a dozen times. I am not an alcoholic but a binge drinker. I can go weeks, months, without and then one drink leads to pretty much drinking up to 5 days nonstop (including during middle of the night wakeups). Then one day its, “OMG, I cant believe I did that.” Throwing up, dizzy, pissed as hell, depressed, tense, nervous, anxious. It usually takes 5-7 days for it to pass completely and to feel “normal” again. Then it starts, a glass of wine with dinner. Done. Next day, 2 glasses of wine with dinner. Done. Next day, a bloody mary followed by 3 beers watching football and 2 glasses of wine with dinner. Done. Next day, hangover, go to work. Go to lunch, have 2 bloody marys to get through rest of day. Wine with dinner….and the roll begins. Quit again. Is an ugly cycle and one I am not sure I can break…but I am trying…so very hard. Thank you all for sharing!!!

November 9, 2010 at 12:57 pm
(61) kelly says:

I am a 44 year old woman who just added drinking to the many of my substance use experiences. I was, until June 1, 1994, addicted to crack cocaine. After an 18 month jail sentence due to my activities to get my drugs, I stayed sober for a while, until I met a man who introduced me to heroin. I became addicted, and stayed addicted, for three years. I got clean from that and haven’t touched it since 2003. Now though, starting some 5 or 6 months ago, I’ve started drinking. I drink to avoid the fact that it feels like God has abandoned me, like I can’t handle the workload of getting my Bacchelor’s degree, in human services and my CASAC, certified alcohol and substance abuse counselor no less!!! Are you kidding me? I start drinking now? I try to stop, and asked my roommate to hide the alcohol we keep in the house, but that didn’t work. I just found where he hid it and drank anyway. I just now returned from the store where I had to buy some gin to replace the gin I drank from the “hiding” places. I don’t have to go back to my part time (two days a week) job until Friday, two days from now. Every night I go to bed and every morning I wake up I promise myself I won’t drink. And every day I fail. I know where there are AA meetings in my area and have the phone numbers to people who will take me to meetings, but there is something about AA that irks me, as if the meetings will not work for me because when I’m left alone after the meeting, knowing where the alcohol is hidden, I’m going to drink anyway. God, if you’re still with me, pleaes help me….

November 9, 2010 at 1:19 pm
(62) Kelly says:

Time…time seems to be my enemy. It is 12:18 in the afternoon, and I’ve promised myself, though I’ve already taken three swllows out of the bottle of gin my roommate has “hidden” in his room, not to drink anymore. I’ve ordered some food from the corner store, and am hoping I can go the rest of the day without touching the bottle. . . Time seems to be moving so slowly….

November 18, 2010 at 6:04 pm
(63) Karen says:

Day 2 for Me. I too am on my second day sober, after a three day binge. I am going to be 39 years old in 11 days, and do NOT want to celebrate another birthday with alcohol!!! I am married to a wonderful man, have two beautiful children and I’m a Christian. I will admit; I turned away from God for approximately four years and it’s been sheer ” HELL ” on earth. Having some shakes – chills – confusion – DEFINATELY the sweats and some anxiety.

I sooooo want my family back and to be happy again. I will always be a recovering ” addict ” from something – first it was pot, then food, then prescription pills and finally alcohol. I really need to take this one step at a time, and be honest with MYSELF and MY FAMILY and TAKE the help they are willing to give. I cannot go on like this anymore.

I have chosen not to go to a treatment center however; I am using Campral – 2 tablets a day, three times a day to curb the urge of alcohol. I actually saw two episodes of Steve Wilkos that LITERALLY scared me to pieces in the last two days, and I had to Jehovah’s Witnesses come to my door today, to share a scripture. God is DEFINATELY telling me IT’S TIME…

Feel Free to chat back and forth. I’ll be visiting daily for the encouragement! Good Luck to us all, and we can all be there for one another. We’re going at it, TOGETHER! :O)

November 23, 2010 at 4:23 pm
(64) Mrs. ) says:

I have been where Kelly and Karen are. Its a constant inner battle, head game, heart ache. Some days I win and some I lose. I do a lot to stay distracted. I just joined a Healthy Happy Hour group which meets once a week. I am hoping this will give me an additional focus. Ugh, anything that will help. Stay strong! I am with you!!!

December 2, 2010 at 4:09 pm
(65) Eyepoker says:

The rest of you are all a lot smarter than I am… on my Day 4, I was baffeled at why I was feeling so horrible in so very many ways. I had to sit back and think through what I had eaten or taken (prescriptions) that was different than usual. Anyway, I for some reason asked myself if my horrible condition could be due to my stopping my drinking … so like all of you, went on the Internet to seek answers.
I am 51, quite overweigth, and have anxiety issues anyway. I had never experienced any withdrawl symptoms before. I think I now know why: I never drank daily, but would drink at least a fifth of vodka every 2 to 3 days. I had been a permanent state of pickledom. I did not believe that I was chemically dependant simply because I could go for a day or two without drinking. I was a fool. I had been under the influence for 12 years straight. I so far have been a lucky fool. I am now on day 6.5.
On Day 3 I was sure that my death was imminent and I had visual hallucinations – so I cancelled an existing Doctors appointment because I was too sick to go.
I will begin day 7 in a few hours and feel better but certainly not well. I will not drink again and am shocked and ashamed to think that I was very likely chemically dependant. Do not try, as I did to stop on your own. I thank eyeryone who commented earlier. I will be back to check on the progress you (me too) are making.

December 7, 2010 at 5:07 pm
(66) Mrs. P says:

Well after yet another week of daily drinks (minus one day), I am back on the wagon. Day 2 and it hasnt been too bad. Two nights ago I couldnt sleep but last night, I was OUT. I took a long walk after work and think that did the trick. I had to push myself to do it though. The “Healthy Happy Hour” thing turned out to be a dud. I am also on Day 2 of a lifestyle change. Doing this with 3 friends. Wish me luck! Hope everyone is doing well.

December 14, 2010 at 5:05 am
(67) gary says:

Just finished up 30 hours without a drink. I had a few moments of the sweats last night in bed and Im still up at 4 in the morrning on the next night. I havent really had many symptoms. I I did get a little anxious when the time came that I usually went to the store to buy my beer. I started out a couple of years ago on a 6 pack a night and worked my way up to a 12 pack or more a night. The last week before I stopped I dropped down to 8 beers then to 6. I dont know how tomorrow will be but I feel better already.

December 14, 2010 at 11:59 pm
(68) gary says:

day 2 went fine I took an ativan to help trim the nerves a little it was only one mg. I think and hope that if all I am getting is a little nervous maybe nothing to terrible will happen. Its been 48 hours exactly since my last drink and besides a few night sweats the first night and a little nervousness I have felt better than I ever did drunk.

December 17, 2010 at 2:14 am
(69) gary says:

Well day 3 and 4 are in the books and besides the insomnia and a little bit of nervousness because of no sleep now more than withdrawals I think I am feeling better than I have in 3 years. I will never take another drink I forgot what sober was and its really great. I will be praying for the rest of you guys and hope that you have a smooth recovery like I did. Starting day 5 now and looking forward to how it goes.

December 23, 2010 at 8:07 am
(70) Rick B says:

52 Year old male been drink for heavy for the last 20 years 5th whisky a day at least went in to rehab for 16 days i was out for 4 days started drinking again. almost took my own life with a gun ended up back in the hospital 2 days of detox really no withdrals but swets and not being able to sleep went strait to AA meeting for 2 weeks desided that was not for me dident drink for 4 days then bought a pint and with in a week back to a 5th and then last week 3 days drinking a 1/2 gallon a day dorped back down to a 5th a day again working my way back to a pint doing the wening program to get back off the stuff drinking mainly just so the withdrawl or not so bad should be sobber by newyears eve wish me luck rick

January 7, 2011 at 1:34 am
(71) Kareb says:

I’m on day one again, have been here too many times to count. Feels like I go through this every couple of months. Husband finally really caught up with the truth. I sober up or he’s gone. I have been on a 7 day binge and feel like crap. Went to work today, first day since binge began. I said I had the stomach flu pretty sure they know I’m full of crap and know it’s alcohol. This isn’t my worst WD. I can’t sleep of course, that will last two days. I had a WD once where I hallucinated for two days seeing things and hearing things. Both my brothers and my father are drunks and in AA.
What you can hope for.

Day one: Feel like you are dying, can’t sleep, some hallucinations, you sweat, smell really bad no matter what, nausea,depression, horrible anxiety, Husband angry

Day two: Still can’t sleep, can eat a little, still sweat, anxiety,still smell like old alcohol,husband might talk to you

Day three: Have the sweats not as bad, can finally sleep, hungry, have some energy.

It only gets better if you can stay off of it. Good luck might try AA this time. Nothing else has worked.

January 7, 2011 at 10:23 am
(72) Marley says:

I reccomend getting some milk thistle supplement; this will help your liver detox, and help your liver heal. Short walks, tons of water, and see if you can find some GABA supplement, sublingual [under the tongue], and Ester C [a type of vitamin C that does not irritate your stomach]. More and more I see this in general stores and not just in “health food” stores. This really does help, take 3-4 GABA tablets at a time under your tongue. Once you feel better, GET MOVING. Exercise really helps cravings. Stay distracted, plan every day, all day, for at least a week. Make plans you can’t cancel easily. Try to insert some joyful activities, something you love, including food, preferably healthy.

January 12, 2011 at 6:02 pm
(73) Raoul Duke says:

My friend I went through an alcohol detox program in may 2010…I had gotten terribly addicted and was incapable of handling it myself. My doctor told me to stay sober for six weeks and then I would be able to test myself. Instead I went 12. I moved to a new city and told myself it would be okay to just go have a couple drinks at the bar down the street and meet some locals… it doesn’t work…i started drinking everyday to extreme excess and five months later here I sit facing the same stupid problem I had a year ago. Don’t start drinking again your life is too important to risk.

January 17, 2011 at 9:32 pm
(74) Linda says:

I know this may sound like a silly question, but is it possible to go from abusing alcohol to drinking in moderation?

January 20, 2011 at 5:53 pm
(75) Mrs. P says:

No Linda. I have tried and even suceeded for periods of time but the bottom line is…the abuse will happen again. NOT worth it to even try!

January 22, 2011 at 12:55 pm
(76) J says:

After reading the stories above, I am coping with onset alcoholism. I never drank excessively, until I lost my 14 year old daughter. I also lost my mother, who at the time was 33 years of age. I never went for counseling for either. I just turned 41 and I have to say outliving my daughter and mother has been psychologically tiring.

A family member realized that the death of my daughter was to much, so I was offered a drink and then two etc. I have tried to stop and HONESTLY, have experienced every withdraw syndrome. So, like most, I began drinking again after two days. It was to much to bare.

I asked my doctor for the patch, but he refused to do so, simply saying “You are intelligent, you are almost a PHD, you can handle the withdraw.”

So, at this point, I am beginning again. FYI, you know you are die hard alcoholic when you wake up drinking, you go to sleep drinking and you make a decision betwee eating ned actually drinking and you elect to drink instead.

January 23, 2011 at 10:08 pm
(77) Mimi says:

I am caring for a family member who is going
through her 1st day of withdrawal today.Heartfelt
thanks for your honesty.I wish you all GOOD LUCK.

January 27, 2011 at 3:12 pm
(78) Mrs. P says:

Dear J: I am very sorry about your losses. You will be able to cope much better with a clear head which means, the alcohol must go. Hard as it is…its a MUST. Im not sure what the “patch” is but it sounds like your doctor is an insensitive moron.

I too would wake up to a drink and often fell asleep with a glass if wine by my bed…oh you better believe if I woke during the night, I drank it. And would definitely rather drink than eat.

The episode I had on 1/18/11 was scary enough to make me realize, no more of this back and forth crap. I have been sober since. God willing, I will stay this way!

Good luck J. Check in soon.

March 11, 2011 at 10:48 pm
(79) DK says:

Day one is almost over, I was very hungover at work today, no energy and have just laid around since getting home.I don’t know if I’m an alcoholic, but I do know in my heart it is causing problems in my life. I can go days without drinking but always drink too much when I do. I argue with my husband who feels he has to warn me not to get drunk before we go out with friends, I’ve embarrassed myself overdoing it many times. I noticed extreme itchiness, restless legs, insomnia, bloat g and memory loss,…..at forty I do not want to continue ruining my body. It’s been a long tome since I’ve felt energetic or healthy, and sneak drinks …..nobody knows although my husband suspects it is getting out of control. I’m most worried about the lifestyle changes, a trip to Vegas without drinking? Good luck to everyone, and remember we are not alone with this struggle

March 15, 2011 at 8:03 pm
(80) K says:

WOW…found this site when searching for WD info. this is day 6 for me & I wanted to know if the headache i’ve had for the past 2 days was a symptom………and glad to know it is!! how easily we forget………been drinking every day for years, 3rd generation of heavy drinkers. stopped for a year once, but started up again. got drunk & hungover when i was younger, but not for the last 6 or 7 years. my daily intake is 1/2 to a full bottle of wine. i have prayed to be released from alcohol for quite some time, but would always find myself buying it again & again. a week ago i was really fed up with my life, daily drinking, my own excuses & stopped, cold turkey. i’ve been drinking lots of water, eating better but didn’t figure that i’d feel this crappy on days 5 & 6. have started doing yoga daily (helps to sleep), been drinking lots of water to flush the body & daily vitamins. thank you all for posting to this site which helps us understand the demons of alcohol.

March 16, 2011 at 9:43 am
(81) MC says:

I found this site looking for AW symptoms. I consume 12 or more beers a day usually a shot or two along the way, this behavior tends to run Thurs-Sun, and I try to avoid any drinks MTW, and then repeat the next week, I am m 45, and not over weight. Lately on the days I do not drink I have very bad heartburn, and it feels like my lungs are on fire. This feeling goes away when I begin to drink again… Any ideas???

April 5, 2011 at 11:34 am
(82) my name is BOB says:

Pre-Quitting: Started to get severe liver pain
Day1: Cold sweats, headache, miserable, cold hands, hot, then chills, sleepy, angry. No appetite.
Day2: Headache severe, soak sweats at night in bed but managed so far to sleep all night, nightmares, weird dreams, severe liver/abdominal pain, no appetite, chills, nervous, can’t stop thinking about drinking.
Day3: getting easier, hungry, no pain, still had the night sweats, feeling like I am gaining control once again, have been praying everyday since for him to help me recover. Drinking alot of soda and eating candy.

**I noticed the time seems slower, the day seems longer, and when I become bored is when I think about drinking. The craving only lasts a few minutes then I reason that I do not need the alcohol. I was drinking 30 beers a day everyday for the last 13 years, it made me so sick with pancreatitis over and over and over but yet I still went back to it, the only way I am doing this is the strength from the man above.

April 11, 2011 at 5:08 am
(83) Ms Jen says:

Wow, I say well done to all of you. It takes great courage and a little focus one day at a time. Keep up the good work and just remind yourselves everyday of the reasons why you needed to stop when that craving washes over you.

I’m on Day 5 too! Nearly gave in yesterday with a strong craving and then i had a ‘Ha Ha’ moment – the cravings usually seem to come on strong when my blood sugar is getting low. So I made some homemade sweet lemonade (a big jug) and drank so much there wasn’t any room for alcohol. Then made some stir fried spinach and garlic with steamed fish (seabass). After that i was fine for the rest of the day – yes! I had fleeting thoughts which I dismissed but no further cravings.

So for me it looks like fixing that low dip in blood sugar and some self talk. Think i have found the key. Whoopee!!

JC (last posted August 2010) – How goes it??? Hope you are hanging in there.

Blessings and respect J

April 14, 2011 at 8:12 pm
(84) SoberGirl says:

I really needed this. Last year, in April, I was, or felt like I was on top of the world…work wasn’t the best but I was positive that it was getting better, the old ex was gone, had bought a new townhouse and met someone. Within a week, on April 14, my world came crashing down.

I was going out for a few, had 4 drinks, felt sick and left, but then….over 9 hours later, I wake up confused in a cell….nothing! No memory. So, the DUI, the wrecked car, then came the Security about why I hadn’t told them about the DUI, work got worse and worse with my supervisor and I couldn’t find another position, then more stupid things, I had some erotic phots from my ex boyfriend on my work laptop, an ignition interlock on the car, then a couple of violations on that…I still hadn’t learned…No friends, no family, no job really because I have been suspended and fighting through that, etc, etc, etc, but I kept using all of lifes issues to justify that, what the hell, I’ve lost everything anyway….but, I really haven’t and refuse to.

April 14, 2011 at 8:13 pm
(85) SoberGirl says:

My wakeup call came when I agreed to go out to dinner with my 27 year old daughter, she drove, we had a blast but I was still drinking, and drinking and drinking….

And as we drove home, I realized she had invited a man that she had met at the restaurant to come back with us and they spent the night in the basement.

I am not 51 but, although I am dealing with massive health and anxiety and anger from everything…I have to accept that I had my part in it and my drinking was and has been a major factor. I don’t want to continue this way and I DO NOT want my daughter to follow in my footsteps.

So, Day 1 was yesterday…I have had insomnia and panic most of the night anyway and became massively sick when I came home from the restaurant with my daughter. My body and mind I believe had finally reached the breaking point! Did I mention that this was after I had already completed 300 hours of Intensive Outpatient Treatment at Inova!

Fortunately, I am armed with a lot of nutrients and things that I need to help repair my brain and body and help my liver, but I need to fix my brain thoughts and my emotional craving.

I still have no friends because I have isolated myself but Day 1, yesterday, was hellish, tremors, sweats, chills, nausea, vomiting, massive dry heaves…couldn’t even keep vitamins down and could barely sip water, but, I had my first relapse prevention class last night. I was still sick when I got home and drank more water and used a castor oil pack on my liver…

April 14, 2011 at 8:15 pm
(86) SoberGirl says:

Now, Day 2. Not so bad, the anxiety started getting crazy though so I took some GLA, Valerian, Inositol, Magnesium, Calcium, a multi and some flax oil. I also have some liquid chlorophyll and peppermint tea to help me out.

I still look like hell, my house looks like hell and I am fighting the underlying depression but reading positive thoughts, netflixing the secret and looking at ayurveda diets. I do know that I have to stick with greens and light proteins. And I will stay off the sugar and the caffeine (Sugar Free Red Bull)

I did find AAOnline with a chat room and a couple of other resources that are interactive, but it is still struggling I need to begin the house cleaning and get out into the fresh air tomorrow…

I am making myself committed to this recovery and beating this disease because it has already cost me enough…I don’t want to die over it.

April 14, 2011 at 8:15 pm
(87) SoberGirl says:

I may have a chance for a new start with a new job on the 25th, I am back in my relapse prevention classes, I have told my daughter that I won’t be drinking any more and I have a 6 month old grandson that I expect to be able to meet in May!

Even now, my wrong thinking is in my tiny voice enjoying the cocktails with the society ladies, but I am NOT going there. I will continue to fight this and I will find better ways to cope with the stress of finishing out my probation, getting my new job, clearing my name with my clearance and fighting the Department of Defense and some former peers for their role in my current job suspension.

I am like the initiator of this post, who detailed his day by day….because I too was looking for something that detailed the grit of withdrawal, coping, etc….

I am sure that it will continue to be a struggle physically for another 2 weeks but the mental and emotional struggle, which are triggers, are the battlefields that I have to navigate through and stay strong.

I am proud that I have made it this long and this journaling, will, I hope, continue to provide support for me in this disease and beating it into remission!

I hope the best for everyone else too!

April 15, 2011 at 10:52 am
(88) SoberGirl says:

Day 3….hard night, insomnia, no sweats, but restless sleep. Eyes were still dry, reddish and with some cruddy stuff, but that is supposed to be usual. It is a sign of the liver impairment and it is trying to clean out all of the toxins. I made some crystal light and took some veggie vitamin pills….not having coffee or sugar or flour because they will add to the load on my kidneys and liver. I made 2 eggs in coconut oil, the eggs are supposed to provide liver support too, then I’ll make a castor oil pack again…

I have a slight headache and my energy is getting very frenetic though, so I can tell the anxiety is starting to build. I will grab my valerian, magnesium, calcium and vitamin D to help the liver repair and work. Gads, I hate this point where you are sick but not sick, and the mind and emotions just start trying to spiral, so I have to control them….Detox is easier, I think, if you are doing it inpatient, because the rest of your life doesn’t intrude constantly, although you still have to face it…

April 15, 2011 at 3:10 pm
(89) SoberGirl says:

so, the middle of day 3, everything was going well until I took my vitamins and such for the anxiety and to restore my body and reduce my anxiety….

Then the nausea set in, the pounding headache and shaking began…but drinking water, went out and rode the bike for a few minutes for fresh air and came back….still shaking and had to vomit a few times when I tried to eat, but my body is not happy…determination and commitment are still alive though. BTW, I can’t drink milk either because it curdles and I get more ill, so spiking water with lemon juice.

Also applied a castor oil pack for a while but the detox is overloading my liver and body, hence the headaches and nausea….came back from the very short bike ride winded and unsteady (I had developed high blood pressure followed by brief dizzy spells and small seizure type episodes earlier but I was also on 3 medications, including naltrexone, all of which cause dizziness. I am not going down that route again!).

Just decided to lay down, journal and let it pass. It isn’t as bad as the last time or day 1…

BTW, learned that our subconscious motivation brain center doesn’t hear the words don’t, can’t and not, so for a brain affirmation that will work, use I am sober, Alcohol makes me sick or something like that. If you say I don’t or wont drink, all your subconscious gets is I drink!

April 15, 2011 at 8:52 pm
(90) SoberGirl says:

Finally, 8:30 Day 3. still no real cravings but again, did get sick and headachey and nauseous for a while again. But pulled myself together and went to the store for some broth and such. They say cooked veggies digest better and since beets are excellent for juicing or just roasting/boiling to eat as a blood cleanser, I got some of that.

Then, treated myself to some flowers. I wanted to reward myself in a different way. It was a very brief temptation when I went past the wine area but I walked past and looked the other way. Powdered glutamine under the tongue is helping me stop sugar and alcohol cravings.

April 16, 2011 at 9:53 am
(91) SoberGirl says:

Now begins Day 4….the insomnia was still bad so i popped a magnesium and 4 valerian around midnight and got to sleep.

I am not having major cravings but I am having major habit tendencies….that is the body and the mind…so I need to create new, healthy habits and coping. Sober Girl has arrived and I am not letting her go away again!

I am relatively ravenous this morning, finally, but need to continue to stay off caffeine and sugar and carbs. So the lecithin, inositol, glutamine and a rice bran or whey protein shake with frozen fruit and some flax oil and flax seeds should help get rid of that and help my liver work better.

Planning to clean out more clutter and do more exercise..anyone say Zumba?!!!

It’s going to be a wonderful day 4 and TG for this comment/psueo blog area! Love it…

April 16, 2011 at 1:29 pm
(92) SoberGirl says:

Day 4 – cont. Now 1:25 in the after noon…drinking sugar free ice tea and had some thai rice. Need to still take my vitamins and minerals. My 27 yo daughter is renting my basement now and has always been a major trigger for me, so I have been very careful and quite since she returned last night. It’s almost as if she doesn’t want me to be sober so she doesn’t have to look at what she does with her personal life and journey…but that is her. Not me so I will not let her lead me down that path again!

Busy decluttering much stuff in my home and prepping for/practicing Feng Shui. Whatever it takes to help me clear my current life and change it for the better, I am…that includes avoiding relationships. Mine have all been destructive, especially with drinking….so, it is nice to have peace and quiet in my home without demands for sex, money, etc…

Stay strong everyone! I know that I am…SoberGirl ;-) .

April 17, 2011 at 8:49 am
(93) SoberGirl says:

Finally, Day 5…I think I will let myself have a couple of lattes this morning with Stevia. So far, last night was the worst for wanting to drink. I was home alone, as usual. Going through years of paperwork to sort and throw out, for me, is part of the cleansing process and the beginning of trying to heal and recover. I imagine that my inside emotional part and brain must be like all of the 30 years of stuff in boxes that I am methodically sorting through, some to keep, much to throw out!

But I didn’t drink, drank water with lemon and some chicken broth…took vitamins. It was storming all day so I couldn’t get out for air and exercise. And the dreams this morning…so vivid, finally, perhaps a drinking dream, but it was more of a celebration so I don’t recall anything but everyone having glasses…there were no recalls of tastes or anything, so I think they were just a series of odd dreams, from unusual to celebratory.

Back to today. It is also harder for me when I am feeling better and am cheerful. That is usually when I would meet my friends and instead of a water or soda, I would get wine or a vodka/soda. You know, it does taste exactly like soda and lime, so it isn’t the taste!

Anyway, I will keep fighting thoughts and cravings today, using my nutrients and glutamine. I will also finish going through the remainin small stacks of memories and throw out any unneeded ones…seems to help. Day 5 is starting out difficult but, it I will pass successfully

April 17, 2011 at 7:49 pm
(94) SoberGirl says:

Now 7:44 PM on Day 5! Getting a lot more clutter cleared and really starting to feel much better, physically, mentally and emotionally. But, even with the nutrients and the mental/emotional work, there are till some shaky times. Just like with depression, blood pressure and other diseases, I am expecting good moments and bad moments.

But, time for tea and feeling lighter and lighter and stronger and stronger as each moment passes.

Writing here, truly helps me also stay focused and cognizant as well.

April 18, 2011 at 9:22 am
(95) SoberGirl says:

Day 6!!!!!! Belly is still swollen and a tinge of a headache, but staying busy. I have one week before beginning my new job and my new beginning with a fresh start so I am working on my house, following some feng shui and other things to help me focus, cleanse and stay on track.

You know, if you stay quiet, you can hear those nagging little thoughts with their subtle negativity that have been drummed into you as second nature. They are the enemy and part of the disease of alcohol. You can ‘t just white knuckle things. If I am to beat this disease and force it into remission, so it is no longer active in my body and mind, I must continue to work hard at recovery and health.

And especially on my mind set and self esteem. I have one ace in my arsenal though. I was raised without alcohol and didn’t get into it until I joined the military and didn’t get bad until my divorce and my decision to let my children live with their father.

But, enough of that. It is time to get back to feng shui, clearing, decluttering, positive supportive nurturing thoughts and bright intentions to manifest in my life, now and in the future.

April 18, 2011 at 11:09 pm
(96) SoberGirl says:

So, Day 6 is coming to a close. All in all, a very productive and positive day. Just a split second glance at the wine aisle in target but no real temptation. It just feels so much better to be healing and dealing with life on a different level. I am still using the nutrition, the mantra’s, the positive thinking, but I have almost cleared out all of the clutter, boxed what needs to be boxed for storage and fond memories and am feng shuing the right areas of my home for health, career, wealth and abundance.

It always helps me to learn things and this is assisting me in getting and knowing that I am most certainly not depriving myself by deciding not to drink. Indeed, I am having a wonderful time reviewing and designing SoberGirl mocktails!

So, I will thumb my nose at those in Society who say I should feel shame for developing alcoholism. Once I faced it and determined to beat it into remission, it seems not such a daunting task at all…just a return to a freedom a still stressed but much more manageable life and future.

April 19, 2011 at 2:24 pm
(97) SoberGirl says:

And yes, Still SoberGirl on Day 7! Busy with the house, most of the cravings are still gone but I need to manage the hyperactivity and feeling of under control…those are the danger signals and I had two cups of coffee today with caffeine…NOT good.

I have to remind myself, this is a program, a process, a lifestyle change and choice and a need and desire to beat my alcohol disease. Too much of a sense of “I am past that” is a danger! Truly. I haven’t gone out yet, I haven’t put myself around social and work settings yet. I know that there will be landmines to navigate and I must always keep my goal and needs in the forefront, until THIS is my norm.

My house is looking much better, in parts, physically, I am beginning to feel much better, but I do need to add more exercise and continue to focus on digestion, etc.

I say, keep going…one thing at a time after you’ve made your master plan.

SoberGirl

April 20, 2011 at 9:22 am
(98) SoberGirl says:

WooHoo, I am on Day 8, so the very tiniest of foundations for a solid future are being set. The cornerstones, if you will. Physically, I am feeling much better, mentally I am getting much stronger, emotionally I am very stable right now but that is where I need to be most vigilant.

The physical and mental have always been fine for me, it’s the emotional toll that I did to myself that drove me to isolate an drink, which spiraled into depression and lethargy, which cirled back into drinking to pick myself up and not think or feel what was truly bothering, etc., etc.

I am setting little goals and working on managing my triggers, my internal conversation with myself, making sure that I hve a personal prevention and intervention plan handy in case I am tempted to relapse, and yes, I know that relapse is a strong possibility, especially in the early stages of any program.

Heck, I relapse back to laziness all the time when I am starting an exercise program. Until I can make myself do the exercise 2 weeks in a row, I will stop exercising again. And for me, exercise program is just as integral as my diet and nutrition is for arresting my alcoholism and putting it into remission. So, I need to find a solid exersize and stick with it for the next two weeks minimum!

April 20, 2011 at 2:03 pm
(99) SoberGirl says:

It’s mid day 8, I have a relapse prevention class tonight, and for some reason, I have been having more than a few thoughts and cravings today from my old habits. I have been cleaning, rearranging, fixing, etc. Then, while seeing that I need a longer television cable to accomodate the rearranging, I can go to CVS for that and there sits my Pinot Grigio that I can dive into.

My biggest challenge is my self sabotage. Everytime, in my life I get myself to the brink of what I want in life, career. love, I want to grab a drink and do something stupid because something in me keeps trying to stop me from attaining my goals and aspirations and creating my perfect life!

I don’t know why, but I do know that I am going to stay busy, relax, work on my products, plan for my future and my clean slate Monday with a new job and brand new people. This time, I am NOT GOING TO SABOTAGE MYSELF!!

I have worked for this and I deserve and I am going to allow myself to have it!

April 21, 2011 at 9:32 am
(100) SoberGirl says:

Day 9 has dawned and I have been hit with 2 major snags! And yesterday/last night, was all about beating back the internal thoughts of, screw it, just drink because something bad has already happened so what is the use?! Well, the use is because this is just “life”. And sober or not sober, healthy or unhealthy, I figure this stuff is bound to happen. In fact, in my life, historically, it WILL happen, especially if it is never going to happen in real life.

Well, I am not giving in! I am feeling better physically, looking better, thinking clearly, managing my emotions (as best as I can right now) and trying to stay focused and determined. I have to be my own anchor now and if I pull anchor then my ship will just be buffetted to smithereens again and it will be an unmaneable nightmare.

So, nutrients, coffee (yes, a latte to treat myself a bit), valerian and magnesium to calm me, exercise, housework, positive thinking, some supportive isochronic medidations (free on the net and great to make and customize for yourself…they really help get through to the stronger subconscious that wants to beat you down and keep you feeling bad about things and life).

These are the times to pull out the coping skills and work with them to ingrain them instead of reaching for a bottle or glass to numb.

Long haul here! SoberGirl.

April 21, 2011 at 1:46 pm
(101) SoberGirl says:

Still Day 9 but with some journaling, focus and other things, I have cancelled out cravings and am working with the stress of the days hiccups regarding money and career. I can tell that my blood pressure has been affected though because it has spiked a couple of times resulting in dizzy and nauseaous feelings. Getting outside, trimming the hedges, drinking vitaminwater zero…just breath and focus..

April 22, 2011 at 8:22 am
(102) SoberGirl says:

Day 10! Say it again…DAY 10!!!, no alcohol, no pain, relatively decent night of slip…no giving in to the triggers that cropped up yesterday and so I have survived and thrived. Because of the pressure and stress of job letdowns yesterday, I had to really work with myself and I had several dizzy, near fainting episodes, but I worked through them and felt better.

Life without alcohol is becoming much easier and better right now, my health is improving, I am starting to lose some weight again in my abdomen, and my skin and eyes are looking much more lively. I am going to add some exercise today beyond yardwork and housework…real exercise like my bike or walking or an exercise cd! I remember how good a sweat used to feel, and I have been granted another two weeks of not working, so I have no excuse for sore muscles and groaning.

Typically, within the first two weeks, most of the initial soreness has passed and the stamina has increased exponentially…

April 23, 2011 at 10:05 am
(103) SoberGirl says:

I have made it to day 11….truly, truly something I wasn’t sure that I could do when cravings, upsets and life in general hit me with some major upsests and crawls on Day 7. But I am here. I am not physically well enough that most of the basic withdrawal has passed, now it is the mental and emotional. Last night, I finally had one of those drinking dreams….it almost covered my entire drinking career, from the early days in the navy, to the fun social drinking to the back and forth, I need to have a drink before I go out, to, do I have a bottle of wine to put in a glass to sip on for this 12 hour drive, to, etc, etc, etc….

I have found some yoga, pilates and dance lessons on Netflix I will incorporate now, and maybe see about finding my tennis court to hit some balls or see if there is a pro somewhere to give me a quick lesson for refresher. I am hope the yoga for gastro and depression problems will help me tame and deal with my emotions.

So, on with Day 11…

April 24, 2011 at 10:35 am
(104) SoberGirl says:

Day 12! I am 2 days shy of the halfway point of the traditional 28 day in house program. Addded some exercise yesterday but need to add more…Also, huge insomnia right now! I just want to go a bit at a time.

I can tell the habit is still there, and the subconcious desire for a drink because I went down to the basement where my daughter is staying to get a diet soda and walked into the storage area where she keeps here alcohol! I shook myself and walked myself right back out! Crazy, I knew I didn’t want to drink, but I found myself in there. Got the Diet Coke and headed upstairs….craving over, new habit beginning!

I was also able, I hope, to help a person who posted on the forum on day 1! I hope that he made it through and makes it through. Fortunately, his wife is with him, the support helps.

And Happy Easter. May all good things arise for you today in your life and mine!

April 24, 2011 at 10:07 pm
(105) SoberGirl says:

As Day 12 draws to a close, the odd thing is that I had a ravenous appetite today and I can’t do that. Need to do my exercises and make sure that I don’t compensate for not drinking by eating or having too much sugar or caffeine…definitely time for some heavy duty organized exercise for me…but I am getting through this…

April 25, 2011 at 11:58 am
(106) SoberGirl says:

Day 13 – Most of the overt physical withdrawal has passed, now comes the more difficult work of dealing with the emotional upheaval and instability, the getting back into good physical condition, the making sure that I am getting my mind back into shape. You see, at 51, I have been very fortunate to have a strong genetic background that is helping me recover, but I have to now root out the very things, emotional, mental, physical, that led me to this disease of alcoholism and let me always go to alcohol for solace and drugging…There were never any illicit drugs for me, and I have controlled most caffeine and sugar overuses. I have already quit smoking and I have managed to be a highly functioning alcoholic until this last year, when EVERYTHING fell apart, and I am just putting the pieces back together. I am still on a rocky road because 2 weeks is sooooo new…but, for someone like me who has been a daily drinker for years literally, two weeks, especially with all of the other stressors, is a huge accomplishment and I need to own that and hold on to that. I am proud of myself.

April 25, 2011 at 5:51 pm
(107) willtochange says:

keep it up SoberGirl…wanted to share my experience:

I am 39 years old…I have been drinking since I was 18, but very heavily the past 5 years. Ballpark of 10-18 drinks a day, every day…depending on what I was drinking. Beer, I could easily put away 12-16 with shots as well. Liquor: drink a 750 ml full bottle, or sometimes a full liter, with beers on the side. During a binge it would be more. Eventually, I could not function at all unless I had at least 3 drinks in the “morning”. My job started in late afternoon and went into the evening. I normally would sleep until 1 or 2pm and then wake up and start drinking. By the time I went to work, I probably would have 3-6 drinks depending on how bad I felt, otherwise I could not function (major anxiety, shaking, sweats, etc) By the end of my job I would have consumed probably another 6 or so, and then after I would hit it hard, I drink until I pass out, every time. On my days off, it was worse. About 2 years ago, it costed me a visit to the hospital emergency room, coming out of a 6 day binge my DT hallucinations, chest pains and overlapping severe panic attacks were so bad I thought I was dying, that is when I last quit…I made it 3 days, but the anxiety, nausea, tremors, etc were so bad I started in again. 2 years later, I am trying again after another horrific episode.

I am on day 5, but before I share my symptoms of Alcohol Withdrawal Syndrome, people should know it is physically dangerous to try quitting yourself if you drink heavily. It is not a question of if you drink, simply the question is how much. Alcohol toxicity increases like waves daily durning a binge. If you experience Delirium Tremens (visual and audio hallucinations) or Seizures, seek medical help! I happen to have a professional friend who monitored me 24 hrs a day through the first few days.

April 25, 2011 at 5:52 pm
(108) willtochange says:

Day 1:
Vomiting, heaves, could not hold water. Fever, sweats, shaking, headaches, massive anxiety with several acute panic attacks, worst of all DT’s (audio and visual). Pin needles sensation, and the horrible “bugs”. Some of you will know about that.

Day 2:
Vomiting had stopped, but constant nausea, if I were to get up though I would of. Bed all day and night, shakes, sweats, acute panic attacks, chest pain, good news was able to keep liquids down. Had DT’s at night (audio and visual)

Day 3:
Nausea decreased, could eat a little and drink, and get up. Still had pain all over, sweats, shaking, no DTs, some body tremors, could not sleep

Day 4:
Nausea stopped, normal food intake, actually quite hungry. Still feel like I’m hungover but I am used to that – actually a hangover felt good compared to the previous horror. But could not sleep, DTs kicked in at night with body spasms. Sweats stopped, but anxiety and chest pain prevailed.

Day 5:
Hungover feeling, hungry, shakes almost gone, no sweating, but total waterhead, no DT’s yet…breathing better, less anxiety, best day so far.

April 25, 2011 at 6:44 pm
(109) SoberGirl says:

Keep it up WilltoChange…that is wonderful. At the top of the page is the forum link if you go in there and post, they are a great help and support as well. I am very glad that you had a friend to help you…

April 26, 2011 at 10:55 am
(110) SoberGirl says:

Day 14! Day 14! This is a milestone and is the halfway mark through any standard in-patient program…They run 28 days…14 days for me is always the BEGINNING of a habit, so getting through today is building and laying the cornerstone for my life. I did some exercise yesterday and made two or three smoothies, so today, more exercise…the weather is hot and it can be nice outside but I don’t know where my shoes are at so perhaps, throw open the doors and use my leslie sansome indoor walking and the zumba ;-) . To everyone else who wants to do this, is considering a life without alcohol, it is truly much better. For those who can’t stop when they stop…just being abstinent and present in your life, is sooo much better than watching your life go by through a haze…Off for a workout ;-) Choose your life, you can do it!

April 26, 2011 at 11:08 pm
(111) StrangeDaiz says:

This is my 3rd or 4th detox, which is probably why it’s harder to shake from what I’ve read. My name is Daizee, and I like to party. To where the days blur into each other and half the time I’m being reminded of things I’ve said or done. I’ve been known to start pounding shots at 8 AM.
Anyway, I’ve racked up a significant amount of DUIS. At my 2nd (@ 20 years old), I found myself in the holding tank, with my first bout of the DTs. I was shaking and convulsing so bad that the other misdemeanants called for the medic. I did not know that they prescribed you narcotics for alcohol withdrawal. Geez, that helps being locked up the first few days.
My 3rd DUI BAC was .36, and I was still walking and talking straight (20 yrs old, 115 lbs, 5’7″ then), and was put into a 3 year court-ordered program, with random ETG and ETS test (go back 3-5 days for alcohol). This kept me straight for quite awhile. It was nice to wake up normally, and not feel the need to be out, up to no good.
I graduated in December. 23 now, and I have been making up for lost time. The person who I was with saw me doing such, and tried to stop me, of which I grew very apprehensive. I left him after a fight concerning it. And deeply regret it now. I had the house, the dog, the job, everything… and walked out with a backpack because I didn’t want to slow down, and the other things in life became disinteresting.

April 26, 2011 at 11:12 pm
(112) StrangeDaiz says:

When I go out, I go out. On St Pattys day I cracked a rib, rotated a vertebrae, and slept with my (now former) boss. No recollection, of course. Now we’re mixing painkillers with alcohol, WINNING! Eventually, I lost my job, because the rumor mill always comes around, in essence. I have been couch surfing in my exploits since I left my ex at the end of February. Luckily my father is one of them, and does want me around, but I keep distancing myself from everyone and everything. I have been robbed and taken advantage of on so many levels, without a care, as long as I was procuring alcohol at some point throughout the days.
I was stuck (since it would be sacrilege for me to have a license) without alcohol this past Thursday, and began to notice the DTs starting. Luckily my new flame picked me up just as thus happened and took me to a bar. It was obvious in the beginning to the other patrons that I was sick of some sort. The first couple beers I literally had to choke down. I kept wanting to throw up, but didn’t want to waste what I had waited so painstakingly to take in. My body was rejecting and demanding the alcohol at the same time.
Once I had finally returned to ‘normal,’ I confided to my now significant other that I needed to rid myself of this again, and I was scared. And if he wanted to continue whatever we’ve been growing, it would be in a sober state. Well, in my case, a very sick and vulnerable state. He agreed to take care of me, and remain sober as well (and he has).

April 26, 2011 at 11:14 pm
(113) strangeDaiz says:

I haven’t had a drink since that night, and since I have no insurance, I figured if I just got ahold of some benzos the detox would be fine. It has been anything but. The xanax helps, but now I find myself in short supply. It’s day 5, and I’ve been lowering the doses, but I keep feeling like I need to be committed. At first it was purely physical, but now I feel like my mind is just merely a constant stream of thought. If thought bubbles existed, I’d probably be back in jail. I’m extremely confused, agitated and distracted, yet acutely more articulate than usual. What I cannot understand is why I’m still shaking, cramping and bruising easily (I also have followed the vitamin regimen suggested); and why I feel the way I feel, mentally.
Like I said, it’s day 5, but I’m coming to reality with a couple months worth of mistakes and personal disasters. All of that on top of alcohol withdrawal syndrome. I keep asking my father and significant other if I should go to the hospital or mental health division, yet they keep discouraging me. I know in this time I should be being productive and looking for a job, but I can’t seem to even want to face the light of day… someone, help?

April 27, 2011 at 6:46 am
(114) willtochange says:

strangeDaiz, hang in there im on day 6 going to day 7, obviously i cant sleep…but Dts are gone, nausea is gone, sweats are gone, spasms are gone, yes I still have waterhead and eyes feel weird and still a bit of hungover feeling, but the severe symptoms have passed…just a word of encouragement…you can do it if you have made it to 5 days…just believe the same energy you had to take those morning shots, to put that energy towards not, it sounds so simple – but if you have the power to get housed, then you have the power to be sober….

April 27, 2011 at 9:03 am
(115) SoberGirl says:

My Day 15. Feeling much better here and so happy to see WilltoChange and StrangeDaiz posting. Yes, the first few days are horrible, I too went the benzo route but it didn’t help. I did find out that many of the hospitals addiction groups have what they call “scholarship” programs and such which can sometimes pay the majority of your costs and get back to living. I began doing some extra exercise yesterday and my muscles are sore, but the zumba is fun and worth it.

WilltoChange, the eyes and head come and go, but it really is better and keeps getting better. Daizee, you and your boss slept together but he fired you? And I am glad that your current bf is staying sober with you, but getting sober and straight can be difficult without expecting someone else to do it with you or you to do it with someone else. You need to do this and then you can see what kind of life and feelings that you have. 20 is such a young, young age to have hit anything so hard, so I really hope that you can pull it all together. Keep up the vitamin therapy but you may need to double and triple some because of the stomach problems of absorbing them if they are caplets rather than liquid.

Stay strong both of you. I went out for the first time last night for a couple of hours and just had some soda/cranberry with lime. I had fun, it was fine, and no one else got blasted or toasted either. So pick your battles, find the you that wants your life and your happiness, grab on to that and hold on. When you or anyone else tries to say it’s hopeless, you aren’t worthy, etc., grab that by the neck, shake it silly and know that Everyone is worth a healthy, happy, fulfilled life!

Me, I will continue my Day 15, get a few more sore muscles with Zumba and Yoga/Pilates. ;-) . I will toast my water to a wonderful, clear and sober happy day!

April 27, 2011 at 11:10 am
(116) SoberGirl says:

Yes, still Day 15 but irritants are cropping up…How to calm them…breath, cranberry water, lecithin, calcium, magnesium, vitamin d3 and a good multivitamin. I’ll take the b complex a bit later because there are energizing and I dont’ want to be a hyper psuedo calm. This can be tough with the isolation, but I just need to practice the skills that I am learning. and keep the dialog open.

April 27, 2011 at 1:43 pm
(117) MZ says:

Everytime I’ve quit drinking it took me a good solid week to ten days to feel somewhat normal. I didn’t sleep for what seemed like 5 or 6 days and had horrible auditory hallucinations, the slightest noise made me jump. Everybody is different but what most people are saying on this site is pretty much on the money. My advice is pound fluids (h2o preferably) and force yourself to eat a little something and, yes, the vitamins are crucial. However, if you are drinking really heavy (over a fifth or case of beer a day) you may want to consider talking to a doctor or going into a detox facility..booze withdrawl is no joke…I know some people don’t agree or like AA but after you have succesfully detoxed it will give you the support you will need to get through post acute withdrawl (PAWS) which can last for months, even years and is main reason why people like us relapse. Good luck to you all and thanks for sharing!

April 28, 2011 at 8:52 am
(118) SoberGirl says:

Day 16, made it! Physically, I am healing, with the liver, etc. I have started adding exercise though, which should help me deal with the new and old stressors that just are peeking out. Right now, because I am also dealing with perimenopause or menopause, plus changing jobs/looking for a job because I was forced out of the government job, so I took a settlement for my grievance because I needed an income. They put me on an indefinate suspension pending my clearance review, then they told unemployment that it was for misconduct, which it wasn’t…so, never think that everything is stable and that you are safe from life and the economy.

I am not sure if I would be dealing with these boiling emotions differently if I had not become an alcoholic and turned to drink for the last few years, but I am sure that has something to do with my not being as easy to let things roll off my back. So that is my big challenge now. Dealing with the ups AND the downs by using healthy outlets, not sitting down to a few drinks until the irritation or stress passes.

Eating right,clearing my liver, getting my body back in shape, rebuilding a good, solid life with good hobbies and habits should do it. So today, work on doing the entire 20 minutes of zumba without a break and a five mile leslie sansome walk…It’s storming so I want to have solid indoor outlets.

April 28, 2011 at 10:50 pm
(119) so says:

So, I am pleased to be putting Day 16 to bed succesfully! Do not take OTC energy/diet pills if you are sensitive…I was sick and shaking and irritable and craving all day long! Glad it passed.

April 29, 2011 at 4:30 am
(120) Marty says:

I began drinking regularly last November, around Thanksgiving. I honestly began drinking regularly because I was sure I would never get addicted and I could stop whenever. November turned into December. December turned into January, etc. Now it is the end of April and the last drink I had was at 6:00 P.M. Wednesday the 27th. I may have gotten lucky and bit this in the butt early, just the fast that it was between 5-6 months I drank. Usually at most I would have about 9 oz of rum or gin every few days or so. I would drink anything that was cheap enough to grab and eventually hid the 1.75 L bottles in my closet for a quick shot or two. I did my drinking about 3-4 times a week, and recently never on the weekends, maybe 2-3 times a week. I recently came off a 3 day binge when I decided, while I had time, to quit. I had no idea that even I would experience withdrawal symptoms. My tolerance had built up strongly. I just hope my withdrawal isnt too bad, since I had not been drinking that long. Though I guess it matters on intake in general as well.

Day 1 (24 hrs): Tired, managed to go to a meeting fine, anxious as heck, sweating palms and face, confusion, some nausea. Nausea but no vomiting.

Day 2 (36 hrs): Up at 4 AM….I slept maybe 40 minutes at most, with very awkward dreams and thoughts. Any noise would awake me and my anxiety is very rough. No more sweating unless I’m buried under the covers, and shakes come with anxiety. Not so much nausea, but cold.

April 29, 2011 at 9:44 am
(121) SoberGirl says:

Day 17 here…I made it. It is really early for me to post but I did make it through a horrible 24 hour period of severe craving and sleeplessness and irratibility. To Marty, above, I am glad that you made the choice early. Try to manage the anxiety that you feel with nutrients, vitamins, minerals, etc. This alcohol is a very strong drug, and even your story shows how quickly it can escalate and cause major damage!

I am just beginning Day 17 as this is an early post, but I’ll make sure to get the exercise and nutrients in and not repeat yesterday’s mistakes.

April 30, 2011 at 12:00 am
(122) Marty says:

Thanks SoberGirl :)

I recently reached out for medical intervention, which is a life saver. Thanks to them re-ingesting the vitamins alcohol depleted, I felt fantastic all day and the prescription I was given cut my symptoms down to a bare minimal. With this, the detox period and withdrawal period should be very painless. I highly recommend ANYONE deciding to quit to go this route, as cold turkey can lead to severe damage and fatality in some cases. It took me a night full of DTs and hallucinations to finally make the choice to seek medical help. I’m so happy I did.

54 hours sober and the shakes, sweats, nausea, irritability, tremors are completely gone. Anxiety comes at times, but with the medication is usually absent for about 2-6 hours.

Hope this helped :D
Good luck to all…hang in there…and I’m here to chat to anyone who wants to :)

April 30, 2011 at 10:57 am
(123) SoberGirl says:

Day 18 here, and getting a bit better, getting the hang of it and not overreacting to lifes normal annoyances, like my daughter parking behind me in the driveway and blocking me in and not transferring the rent on time.

Two or three weeks ago, I would have stormed downstairs and hollered period, sober or not, that she was not to park in the drive and block me in…I have severe claustrophobia about not being able to escape so this is getting much better. Although I was still irritated, I went to bed and just woke her at 8 to move it because I had to leave. Didn’t even respond back with a smart remark when she tried to backtalk…so, the patterns of response are leveling, although my nervous system is still really sensitive and I am still dealing with the GERD and occasional nausea from that. Reading a new book called Beyond the Influence that my sister gave me.

Marty, that is great. I tried the med route initially but they all added to the dizziness and nausea and I would pass out or almost go into seizures everytime I would stand up, so I couldn’t go that route, nor could I keep vitamins down, so I went online and found some intramuscular injectibles with b complex and liver assistance and took those instead…I need to do another route now but the injectibles work much better than pills and capsules with my stomach ;-)

I am very happy that you have gone over the 56 hours and glad that you are feeling so much better! It truly is a good thing.

May 1, 2011 at 1:00 pm
(124) SoberGirl says:

Day 19…Still here, getting better…looking for reasons, things, ideas, ways to make a difference, not just for me, but for everyone. Was anyone aware that there are an estimated 30 millions people in the US that suffer from alcoholism? And that the liquor manufacturers spend billions both marketing their drug products while coercing sobriety groups and drug and alcohol literature to NOT say that alcohol is a drug. Well, it is a drug! And everywhere you look in magazines and televisions, it’s smart, sexy, hot, successful…Well, where is the other campaign, the SoberGirl drinks, the SoberGirl life, where, even if you don’t choose abstinence, you have a drink socially and you are fine…You don’t wrack your brain trying to get away from yourself and your life, hiding from what is really lacking in your life instead of filling your gaps with something positive, solid, healthy!

Perhaps I can figure out how to really make a difference…Not a quickfix, but a real cure…a real solution…I would really like to find the way to prevent anyone from going down this path!

May 2, 2011 at 11:33 am
(125) SoberGirl says:

Day 20 here, and things are settling into a pattern. Had yet another upset that could have made me shut down or relapse, but I knew that wasn’t going to do any good, would make me sick again, waste money I don’t have to waste, etc. and, I am not stuck in my DIRE concentration on NOT Drinking…I am getting to the point that I am only needing to tell myself I am not a drinker when I don’t follow my diet and nutrient program, stress and hypoglycemia hit and I crave a drink. Notice, I am not craving going out and getting drunk, staying in and getting drunk, or anything else. Occasionally, I just see something social that triggers a desire to have wine with dinner, or a glass of wine, a vodka soda, or, for example, a margarita on Cinco De Mayo…That is not going to happen and I’m not feeling too badly about it!

May 3, 2011 at 9:24 am
(126) SoberGirl says:

Three weeks…21 days. I wasn’t sure that I would get to that point in the beginning, it seemed so far away, but in perspective, this is already the month of May, so we are five months into the year 2011 already, so whether I am drinking or not, the days are going by really quickly again and I don’t want to waste more of them with drinking, being drunk, wasting time, etc. So plan for the next week. Live…really live, good, bad or ugly, I am going to live like I know how to live and stop hiding.

Most of my physical issues are resolving, my emotional hurt and anger are calming and my brain appears to be reengaging again. It feels really good. If I can get this right, so can everyone else.

May 4, 2011 at 8:01 am
(127) SoberGirl says:

My Day 23 dawned as a wet, gray day…I am still currently having no cravings and my dizzy spells have eased up, but I need to remain vigilant on my diet and nutrition intake. I don’t have my injections right now, I still have a minimal appetite except for my sugar free red bull, which I need to avoid and I have forgotten to take my vitamins and liver support for the last two days…right now, that is a really big no-no…it is critical right now, especially because it takes about seven weeks for the liver to regenerate it’s healthy cells. The body seems to be on a seven cycle, seven days for clean blood, seven weeks for a refreshed liver, seven months…I forget, but I do recall reading that your seven years is when your body is completely reborn.

But for anyone reading this, I am on day one of the fourth week if I were in a full inpatient rehab program, and everyone should be feeling quite good. I am not having many cravings and my stresses and emotional balance have gotten much better, as have my thoughts. And having the clear mind is awesome, because I am beginning an entirely new job tomorrow. Because I need a clearance, I have already told them that I got a dui…so they know that I am abstinent by choice and by law, so they are fine with it…this gives me an entirely new canvas to reframe my life. So far, Sobriety and the SoberGirl life, is a blessing with bonuses and I am not cutting off my nose to spite my face!

May 4, 2011 at 9:38 pm
(128) maleka says:

I am a 37 year old woman and have drank minimum one bottle a day and occassionally 2 bottles a day. I have done this for almost 20 years. Reading everyones experience on here is wonderful. However, I am concerned because I am having no physical side effects (well not that I am aware of). Does this mean it is going to hit me hard soon? Or do some people have none? Mild headache is the most I have had.

May 4, 2011 at 11:14 pm
(129) SoberGirl says:

Hi…You may be one of the lucky ones….and get by with milder withdrawals…How long has it been since you have had any alcohol?

You will find that you will enjoy this without the alcohol in your system, and I do hope that your withdrawals are minor if any.

May 5, 2011 at 6:24 am
(130) SoberGirl says:

Okay, pardon my excitement to Get to Day 23, which IS today, but it is, and I am up early, beginning my new job! Hooray for me…now, my somnia is still in but I did make myelf get to sleep around midnight or so and up at 5 AM, Using an online alarm clock to make certain that I did not oversleep. It worked…but boy, I need to get back in the swing of real life and this will be another help and hindrance for living sober…

May 5, 2011 at 3:36 pm
(131) jessiew says:

Hi guys,
Have read some of your comments but not all of them and I think it’s great that your sharing how your feeling with each other.
A few tips that helped me :
1) Go to the G.P try and get a Librium home detox preferably with a few sleeping tablets to help you get some sleep , it will make things much better and will stop seizures from occurring.
2) You will feel really unsettled, shaky, unable to concentrate and basically like you want to crawl out of your own skin , you wont be able to sleep , watch TV, read or anything like that, you will feel exhausted but unable to properly keep still. My advice – go for lots of walks/runs if you can, try not to be alone even though you wont want to be with anyone. You might struggle to sleep – get loads of DVD’s even though you cant quite concentrate things I recommend are 28 days, when a man loves a woman, etc. Thought provoking stuff if you can or comedies to try and cheer you up eg White Chicks or Dumb and Dumber – you get the picture!
3) I personally ate loads of chocolate and drank loads of full fat coke – medical experts don’t recommend this as they say it prolongs it – but I think you need it. Also you’ll be well thirsty so drink brews (sweet tea is good) and water. Eat as much as you can and whatever you feel like – don’t worry about putting weight on, you’ll have lost weight through your alcoholism anyway so you’ll need to put it back on. Ginger and lemon tea is good for nausea if your feeling sick/ dry retching.
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May 5, 2011 at 3:38 pm
(132) jessiew says:

continued …
4) Hang on for dear life – its a bumpy ride and you’ll be thinking very negatively and going through some serious shame and guilt – it will pass.
5) Ring the aa helpline – there is ALWAYS someone on the end of the line – who has been there, who you can talk to and who will guide you in the right direction.
6) Pray – even if you don’t believe in God – just pray – it cant hurt can it!
7) Remember if you take a drink of alcohol – ALL YOUR HARD WORK IS UNDONE – YOU WILL BE STRAIGHT BACK TO SQUARE ONE and also in y experience every time you detox it gets worse. (I’ve done it 8 times)
8) If you stop drinking and get recovery from alcoholism your life WILL get better- you will smile again- you will feel human again- you will love again.
YOU CAN DO IT ! YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF!
GOOD LUCK !!

May 6, 2011 at 8:14 pm
(133) SoberGirl says:

Day 24 here…and going well, but am monitoring my emotions because I am feeling too well, almost manic and hyperactive, and part of my key to recovery and remaining successfully abstinent, is managing my emotional state…so, this was my second day on the job…so very different from what I am used to in the IT world…geez..they are paying me a princely sum but don’t want to me to work more than 8 hours a day…or 40 hours a week…etc, etc…

Oh well, they are paying me well, I will conform and I will relish sobriety and I will pursue my other products and ideas…lol

So for all you other sober Girls and Guys…enjoy your sobriety, your freedom, your time away from fear, etc…

May 7, 2011 at 5:32 am
(134) SoberGirl says:

Day 25 and I am feeling much better, am not really craving drinks, still want my sugar free red bull though, have my footing on my new job, am waiting for my legal settlement to come through, getting acquainted with what is expected of me at the new job, family is coming in with new grandson, old friend with a crush showed up and acted like nothing had changed and just made himself at home and ended up spending the night so I slept on the couch and on and on… so my real challenge is coming now…dealing with all of the everyday challenges that everyone must deal with but I have been isolating myself from…and that I would numb mysef from with alcohol before…I don’t have the desire to drink to deal with it, but it was hard not blowing up and silencing the internal screams and the pressure that I felt at someone’s presumptive behavior of invading my space and my life without a “by your leave”. But again, not drinking, did have a nice dinner with a SoberGirl Margarita…have to work on the recipe because it wasn’t a skinny one and they didn’t add the club soda or water to mimic the 2 oz of the liquor that would have been there so the sour mixx was a bit too thick and sour/sweet. But, didn’t miss the booze in it at all…So, survived day 24 and I am at day 25.

May 8, 2011 at 4:46 pm
(135) SoberGirl says:

Day 26 and mother’s day…2 more days and I have done what would have been a standard inpatient program…things have been good and bad, up and down, but it has been life…the last two days have been iffy, but that is standard with me and family and holiday..soooo much stress, but is still worth it and I am still worth it…I now have my new job, a healthy income again, a still not willing to settle outlook and overall, am better and more well adjusted…I still want to overdo, I still want to run away sometimes, but I am worlds away from where I was 27 days ago! Sober on, Sober Strong.

May 9, 2011 at 7:07 am
(136) SoberGirl says:

Day 27…The forum that I usually go to has become fractious, angry and political. I don’t think political views need to be bashed back and forth in a addiction support group, one thing is difficult enough to deal with.

My son, his wife and my 6 mo old grandson are here for a visit. My daughter, who is a major trigger for me, is here and I thought that she wou

May 9, 2011 at 7:18 am
(137) SoberGirl says:

Day 27, here….faily is here…still not drinking and have only had a couple of crvings lately, generally when stressed or anxious…so…I know that the depression is lifting and I a getting better with that…now to get in the exercise and such…hitting Harpers Ferry today, and getting so injectibles done to make e look and feel better…uch better and ore long lasting than a cocktail…so I will celebrate with health and a SoberGirl Skinny Mocktail

May 10, 2011 at 6:33 am
(138) SoberGirl says:

Day 28…the hallmark/benchmark in recovery programs…so, if I were in a standard in-patient program…today would be my final day, assessing things, hearing about the strides and changes, being reminded of the things that have changed and perhaps more changes to make at home and what pitfalls I need to change now, in order to keep making progress. I am approaching continued recovery different…my diet still needs tweaking and changing, as does my exercise program. I think my attitude towards alcoholism is more realistic and level than societies, so I want to work to upgrade at least the american view of alcohol as a drug, addiction as a state of mental and physical dependency and alcoholism as the most chronic state of the disease which has genetic and bio-chemical imbalances that caused alcohol use to progress to a debilitating disease in me…

I do not have a character flaw, my will is not weak, I have nothing to be ashamed of, nor will I act ashamed. Did I do some stupid things while in the grip of the disease, yes..but was I consciously responsible while I was under the influence, no.

I was responsible for contracting the disease, making it progress by continuing to drink and follow bad health habits that weakened my body. No one, who drinks to that excess is capable of making a correct decision, so, the first step to eradicating alcohol from your life and restoring your health and beating the disease…stop drinking it! And I have and I will continue to do so.

May 13, 2011 at 10:39 pm
(139) SoberGirl says:

31 days and still going strong…there have been a few minor thoughts of drinking but they fade and are not really more than fleeting memories of old habits…neither good nor bad.

I am back at work, doing well, the gym membership is up and ready for Monday’s use and I need to add that to my daily schedule as well. My diet hasn’t been as good as it should and I have forgotten to take my nutrients and maybe that is the problem with some of the thoughts and minor cravings…I can’t let myself deviate yet because it has only been one month so I need to reinforce my recovery and repair, doing the things that I know that will retore my bio chemical balance to my pre alcohol condition!

May 14, 2011 at 7:30 pm
(140) SoberGirl says:

Day 32 and watching out for the slippery slope. Woke early and straightened the house, then did some shopping fo rthings for the house, made two trips, felt a bit edgy but I did take the multivitamins.. I need to take the d, calcium, magnesium because I am feeling very bloated. Ran to the store for some food and was going through the veggie aisle and fruits and at the end, they have some chilled bottles of wines and the small splits of wine which I always automatically bought everytime I was there…I found myself almost reaching for it without thinking and then it was a quick mental note that I don’t drink…not a craving but a habitual response from earlier times…fading but not gone…so, ever vigilant is what I need to keep doing…

June 2, 2011 at 6:25 pm
(141) SoberGirl says:

Day 51! I just wanted t update my blog/comment string here….I am at Day 51, back working fulltime with the new company, dealing with some change and stressors, especially dealing with new people in a new environment and their quirks.

I have my gym emmbership an I need to make sure that I use it beginning next week, beginning with 20 minutes in the morning. It opens at 7 am…so, the woman in my office likes to go down to breakfast at 6:30 but I think I’ll walk down with her but then, just get some coffee and walk up, head to the gym and do my 20 minutes then go up and change…then perhaps another session in the afternoon before I get on the train..

The not drinking is really not an issue or challenge right now, but I am not buying any, not keeping it, and not going out right now…I need to really get to focus on my health now though and lose some weight…Take care all and this is really worth getting that monkey off of your back.

June 12, 2011 at 7:53 pm
(142) SoberGirl says:

61 Days today! Work is going well, managing the new stress and dealing with certain personality types again…still some occasional twinges to have a drink, but not that often and manageable. I have started working out at the gym during lunch occasionally…that works much better…my office mate was really starting to get into my head like a woman at my last office but I think I have figured out how to manage it…and let it roll off. I just have to put up my blocks, walls, and manage all of my things excellently…

The really tough beginning part is past…I am now into the living it…and most of the times, it’s wonderful!

July 2, 2011 at 12:36 am
(143) Michele says:

Well I haven’t counted the days, I just decided to eliminate alcohol from my diet, as I put it to anyone who asks. It has been about 8 months though since I had a drink. WOW what an amazing change I have had in my life. I appreciate everything about my life now. I have a wonderful husband, who stuck by all of my “bouts” with the booze. We were on the verge of a divorce. Two great teenagers, who were sarting to feel the effects. It was my decision to make the changes and they are very happy about that. I fortunately do not have cravings anymore and only have “drunk dreams” every now and then. I just did a complete overhaul by starting back up at the gym, after the DT’s of course, changed my junkfood diet by making better choices slowly and it all came together. I hang out with drinkers all the time and its nice to be the sober one watching. Best part is I know how good I will feel in the morning. My kids can ask me at anytime to go out somewhere and I never have to make up an excuse of why we can’t go when really it was because I couldn’t and wouldn’t drive. My husband reminds me daily that I look better now @ 43 then when we met 20 years ago. I feel great and I can honestly say, I do look pretty good physically! :) Change your focus, you don’t have to be great to start, you have to start to be great!

July 3, 2011 at 7:20 am
(144) SoberGirl says:

82 Days…still enjoying, in three new upper level university courses, taking scuba lessons now, putting boundaries up with all kinds of the bs that people try to cross “in the name of interest”, etc.

So, life migrates, personalities evolve, life goes on as usual in valleys and peaks. But now, the peaks and valleys, how they last, what they are, is up to you now, not on to others. When someones says change your mind, yes, that is key, as it is with anything…but nothing is as simplistic as change your mind and things happen…The missing link is to take action on your changed mind and outlook.

July 12, 2011 at 5:19 pm
(145) SoberGirl says:

Yes…91 Days now…needing more closed water training for scuba because it appears that my phobia’s with drowning, face in water and water in nose are worse than I thought! Oh well…now it is dealing with life but yes, sometimmes I still want to have a drink….not to get drunk, not wasted, just a nice drink…but I am healthier and happier, and until I feel that it’s cool and i know that I don’t NEED a drink…I’ll keep plugging. SoberGirl Still….

July 17, 2011 at 4:28 pm
(146) Jan says:

Well done SoberGirl! I have found it inspiring to read your story.

I’m on day 4 and had to do battle with myself to walk past the wine earlier in a shop. I made it home with just the bread and milk I had gone to buy and it felt like a real achievement.

July 21, 2011 at 2:48 pm
(147) LookingForAdvice says:

Thanks for posting all of these reflections! My husband is a very angry drunk – he’s been trying to quit for a while, but only seriously for the last couple of months. He has begun to turn his verbal abuse on our oldest boy and this shift led me to finally realize that the binge drinking every 7-10 days and angry rants during them wasn’t going to just go away. He isn’t open to AA or any kind of outside counseling at all; but he is openly acknowledging that he needs to stop drinking. Talking with me is one of only a few outlets he will make use of.

My question to the community that’s been posting here…what would you want your spouse to ask you about as you try hard to quit drinking? Different for everyone, I imagine, but getting your thoughts would be much appreciated.

July 24, 2011 at 5:55 pm
(148) Luke says:

I have not drank in the last 21 days after drinking almost every day for the 18 months, and 18 years of drinking before that. I detoxed myself using strong benzos which I am still taking so I a cannot say I am clean, but the benzos just make me relax instead of running around bars all night and blacking out. Spending several hundred dollars a night only to forget what I did, and find blood all over my clothes and bed sheets that I cannot remember where it came from. Oh, and I live in a very dangerous city and tend to go to the worst areas when drinking, or so I am told.

LookingForAdvice -I think people who do not drink do not understrand how much the drinker really wants to quit, but just can’t. There is very little you can say that he is not already saying in his own head a million times a day.

August 3, 2011 at 6:04 am
(149) stupidboy says:

Well – here I am…at the stage where I never thought I’d be. (Funny how life turns out differently to how you think it will when you’re 16!)

A little background. Owner of successful business – staff to run it on a day to day basis – leaving me time to do as I please really. Blessed in some ways – a curse in others!

Started drinking at 21 really – bottle of wine in an evening about once or twice a week. Weekend sessions with mates at the pub – just beer.

Frequency of wine increases – becoming 3-4 times a week

Starting to add ‘business lunches’ in there too. How I managed to drive back and then home without causing serious hurt to someone is beyond me

Wine now every day…maybe 2 bottles at weekends (need some for cooking of course!!)

Regular visits to pub at 11am when it opens 2/3 pints there and then onto a bottle of wine in the afternoon and then another in the evening. Getting scary now!

I’ve lost count (can’t remember more like!) the number of times I’ve not read to my young kids in the evening in the fear of it being smelt on me. Having no inclination to do things with them – more the thought of how can I get out of the house to sneak a visit to the pub or get to the shops.

For 3 years now – hiding from my beautiful wife this escalating problem. I mean she’s always said I drink to much – we’ve had fights and I said I would change. Slowly I would creep back into bad habits and its just got worse and worse and worse. I am so ashamed

The tipping point came last weekend. Friday / Saturday / Sunday 3 bottles of wine a day sessions. I Woke up on Sunday feeling awful – but decided to drink through it.

Monday was my day of reckoning – I knew and more importantly accepted I had been well and truly caught by this devil called alcohol. I can’t drink sensibly you see – its either all or nothing and thats not right is it? I can’t just have a glass – it has to be a bottle – if at all possible more

August 3, 2011 at 6:05 am
(150) stupidboy says:

So my Day 1 was Monday the 1st of August.

Needless to say I felt like poop. Hadn’t slept well, a panic attack at 3am and then that stomach churning, heart pounding feeling for the rest of the night. I had that groggy head – dizzy, generally not functioning well. Sore eyes – sweaty. You know the typical hangover

Took on board loads of water, some fruit later in the day and thats about it. No cravings for booze – but was still feeling pretty yucky! I felt absolutely shattered. Went to bed about 9pm But could I sleep?….not a hope

August 3, 2011 at 6:06 am
(151) stupidboy says:

Day 2.

Feeling like the walking dead – hardly any sleep – shakes – numb head – sore eyes. Tried a light breakfast – didn’t finish. More water, fruit juices – went for a brisk walk – tried to get the toxins out

Vitamin tabs – peppermint tea by the gallon. It kinda helped with my sickly feeling

Had that 11am urge to head to the pub – is it a social thing or just an alcohol thing…you decide!!

Starting to worry what all this booze must have been doing to my body – how many years its shaved off my life. What a rubbish husband I’ve been – what a rubbish father. What good is a dead dad to their kids!

Been reading health boards about harm caused by alcohol. Very worried now – my blood pressure must be through the roof – liver well and truly done in – heart not that good either…brain screwed too – time for a panic attack!

Quite pleased I haven’t been bed ridden for days like a few of our fellow posters – it just affects people in different ways I guess

Had a light tea – read a story to my daughter at bedtime – that felt nice

Sore neck, sore eyes, tired – bed again at 9:30pm

August 3, 2011 at 6:07 am
(152) stupidboy says:

Day 3.

Slightly better sleep – up 3/4 times but had the night sweats big time. Still got cloudy brain sore eyes – is this normal…suppose so its only day 3

Went for brisk walk again about 2 miles – surely this is helping to get the toxins out?…light breakfast, fruit juices, vitamin tabs, to the office. Decided to write this blog rather than do any work!

Its now 11am – had an urge to get to the pub – see my ‘mates’…I could just have a juice right!?

It’s quiet at work – summer period always is – so kinda twiddling thumbs a bit…need to find something to occupy myself

Hoping the head will start to clear soon – but at the same time a little scared the nasty DT’s might get me soon – dont fancy those freaky LSD type dreams people have described

Anyway – more updates later – then onto day 4

August 3, 2011 at 9:37 am
(153) stupidboy says:

its now 2:30pm on day 3…thought all was going ok

no real urges to have alcohol, but damn the headache is even worse…feeling sick now too. Looks like I’m a slow starter in terms of the withdrawal symptoms

I’m really glad I found this discussion- not only is it great to know I’m not alone dealing with this – but its a good release too…does that make sense?

The worrying about what I’ve done to my body comes and goes – a twinge here – an ache there and I’ve mentally blown it out of all proportion. I’m dying – here comes a stroke or a heart attack. Does anyone know what I mean?

Really hoping to get through the rest of today without too much discomfort – maybe a good nights sleep?

Anyway – hopefully someones still out there reading this stuff – I’d appreciate any thoughts

August 9, 2011 at 7:38 am
(154) snipes says:

It gets a lot better after a week or so. You posted on the 3rd and today is the 9th. Did you make it? Are feeling better? I am day 54 now and feel a hell of a lot better.

September 15, 2011 at 3:13 pm
(155) good2balive says:

I am on day 4 now, slowly feeling better. Finally got about 4 solid hrs of sleep. Some f++++ked up dreams, but at least I can dream again. It’s been a good 7 years since I could dream at all. In it for the long haul though. Can’t live this way anymore, fun at times but 2 times worse when its been bad. Party is over, time to live in the real world and deal whith my problems like everyone else dose without a substance baby sitter.

September 21, 2011 at 5:38 pm
(156) pedro says:

To the original poster. It is extremely unwise and dangerous to go off alcohol the way you describe. I know not everyone can go to college and study biology and biochemistry, but you should trust the advice of those people who have. Alcohol depresses your central nervous system. To compensate, your body creates an excess of neurotransmitters to maintain a somewhat normal functionality of your nervous system. When you quit alltogether, your body is awash in a sea of these neurotransmitters and is overloaded, basically. This is the cause of withdrawal symptoms such as anxiety, shakiness, seizures, irregular heartbeat and hallucinations, etc. ‘God’ has nothing to do with this process. Additionally, it is a good idea to steer clear of caffeine because it just disrupts your already messed up nervous system more. Your vitamin deficiency can be best approached with a multivitamin from your local grocery store, food is OK but not concentrated enough. Ideally, you should swallow your pride and go see your doctor who can help get you through the withdrawal process without dying (I am only exagerating slightly). If you are lonely during the process, I think web posts like this are a great way to help each other out if you don’t have a spouse or other supportive person in your life. Thanks for your post, though I disaggree with your approach, I enjoy knowing I am not alone in my desire to be free of alcohol.

September 23, 2011 at 1:30 am
(157) chalee says:

I have never thought about what DT’s would be like or if I would even experince them. I have been drinking for the past 25 years off and on. Six pack a day, my hat is off to you that quit, Ive been trying for 3 months…cant make day one work for me..I will keep on trying

September 29, 2011 at 9:37 pm
(158) messedupagain says:

yep, it happened again. in the past 2 years I’ve been to rehab twice. the first time I did it i got dumped while in the hospital, just bought a new house etc… and they say no extreme changes for the first year of sobriety, I think all the changes led to my eventual downfall. I went back to rehab in january and was doing awesome, until I lost my job, non-alcohol related. I started hanging out with some old friends and thought I had it under control. I would only drink in social settings and what not. However, this past week has totally caught up with me in spades. the lying is back, the deceptions, the depression, the physical illness it all came back in the blink of an eye. I don’t really know how much I drank this past week. the best I can do is go by the reminents left in my wake. which is several fifths, a couple pints of vodka, some beer, and a couple boxes of wine. all empty. I’m at over 24 hours since my last drink. and this morning was the worst, borderline suicidal. I’m feeling a little better now. I just cannot seem to drink enough water. I’ve been drinking what I’m able to keep down and it’s slowly helping but I am SO THIRSTY, but it feels like nothing will quench it. Diarrhea, horrible stomach pain, insomnia, eyes feel heavy, extreme paranoia and anxiety are all present. and it’s got to be the closest feeling to hell that you can possibly get. This has got to be the last time. I’m just glad I stopped it after a week long binge. my last binge lasted almost 10 years. by the grace of god I will overcome this. God bless you all. There is always hope.

October 12, 2011 at 6:45 am
(159) A says:

This is now my third day without a drink after drinking for 8 years, though it was only the last year when I started drinking 5-10 standard drinks every night. The first day was fine, the second day was when I started to feel it and today is the worst so far, I actually felt depressed rather than just uncomfortable. One thing works though, weight training, it makes me feel happy because I achieved something and almost completely gets rid of the sad feelings. The strange thing is when I compare it to stopping ciggarettes, I could not stop thinking about smoking until the first 2 weeks, with stopping alchohol I don’t actually feel like a drink, I just feel like doing something to occupy my mind and it generally works. Even today I didn’t feel a need to drink at work but as soon as I got home I felt like I was missing something, but once I filled it with training, reading e.t.c I reduced that feeling pretty effectively.

October 17, 2011 at 9:52 pm
(160) Try-It-Again says:

I’m on Day 6. It’s not easy the first four days. Here are some simple tips that have helped me.

1. Ask your doc for help if symptoms are uncomfortable. They can prescribe meds to help.

2. Pray. Know it takes more than one try. If you fall down get back up. It’s never too late to try. We have a big God, big enough for all of us.

3. Think Through the Drink. When you start to give in…think about your history, past, family, beliefs….how are you going to feel AFTER you do this and is that REALLY what you want?

4. Last but not least…Ask Yourself the questions…What Kind of Man/Woman Do I Want to Be? Make you a post it note if you have to and put it where you’ll see it.

5. Take it one day at a time and count each day a victory!

6. Know that when you feel better, it’s not over. Sometimes that’s when youre tempted the most…even after withdrawals because you tell yourself…well only tonight…Find something to do or somewhere to be…change your routine and do what it takes to keep plugging along.

October 31, 2011 at 4:39 am
(161) Leigh says:

I just read your account of all to come for myself and you have given me what to expect.. Your a star mate!!! I have never drunk as much as you in one night but I have drunk a bottle of wine every night now for about 4 years and see a problem and last week I bought 2 bottles and drank 1 plus a glass of the other bottle, I am 32 and have drank since I was 13 and I see that my family has the same issue and if you can help me in anyway please e-mail me. Do you recommend me taking a few days off and getting through it that way? : )) I hope you are still in a good place mate?? : ))

November 9, 2011 at 9:32 pm
(162) Spencer Hale says:

This is nice to read, thanks everyone. Day ten for me and drinking so my tea I have to use the washroom thirty five times a day. But it is so much better then being just a sum of an illness. Keep up the good work!

November 15, 2011 at 7:59 am
(163) Mike and Gina says:

Day two for me and my wife after 10 years or so and no real symptoms yet – me having drunk 2 to 3 bottles of wine daily and her around half. So far so good and we will keep going. All the best to everyone.

November 17, 2011 at 11:38 am
(164) JD says:

Leigh- I am the exact scenario. A full bottle of red wine every night – and have just started opening the second. The weight gain is hideous. I weigh as much as I did when I had my third child. I am just not sure I want to stop. I want to stop spending the money – and have more energy to accomplish what I need to – but just cannot seem to make the firm committment. Aay ideas?

December 2, 2011 at 3:19 pm
(165) BeaUK says:

SoberGirl…how are you doing…and the OP? x

December 5, 2011 at 9:44 am
(166) Gadgety says:

Been drinking since I was 14 (Now 44!) Was up to a litre of vodka+ pd.

Stopped three weeks ago (tapering down with beer) . Days 1-5 Hell…..Sweating profusely, Shaking, Vomiting, anxiety, depression, crippling panic attacks, no appetite.

Day 21 now, everything is normal, it feels so good I never want to go back. (Taking vitamin B tablets and milk thistle helped).

The stories on this page inspired me. Thank you :)

February 14, 2012 at 8:43 am
(167) DC says:

SoberGirl really inspired me! I am on Day 5 and taking lots of supplements which have made the withdrawal easier than I expected. I do have headaches off and on and I have the insomnia (but I have had that for the past several years). I like how SoberGirl counted her days as if she was in some form of formal detox program. That is helping me see that I CAN DO THIS…One Day at a Time but it is what I want for my life going forward. I felt awful on Day 2 as if I was sort of sick all over. Day 3 was a bit better, I even got on my treadmill for 20 minutes. It seems that the exercise I used to enjoy so much went out the window when my drinking became the only thing I looked forward to each day! Day 4, yesterday, treadmill time was a total of 40 minutes; 25 minutes in the morning and then 15 after dinner. I am trying to be kind to myself during this time and not sweat the small stuff, just keep NOT drinking and make each day a litte better than the one before! I am going to try and get on my treadmill every day and keep making baby steps toward a better me!

February 19, 2012 at 6:49 pm
(168) Gotta-Stop says:

SoberGirl, Please post how your doing. You have inspired a lot of us to try and just start our roads to being sober. I for one, is am going to start day one 2/21/2012 Wish me luck, and I will post to let all know what is going on and progress..
:-) can not wait, looking for a new life !!!

February 19, 2012 at 6:51 pm
(169) Gotta-Stop says:

DC, How are you coming along, Gadgety how are you, BeaUK and Leigh, lets all stay together so we can help each other thru this..

February 20, 2012 at 6:51 pm
(170) Gotta-Stop says:

Oh my, tomorrow is supposed to be my day to start,can, will I make it?

February 23, 2012 at 3:55 am
(171) Artgirl says:

Going on day six sober. Lots of problem drinking in my family. I drank daily but was controlling it to 3 drinks sometimes 2 but it had recently gone to 3. 50 yrs old. Usually wine and beer. I’ve had a hard time admitting it was a problem since I was so high functioning. Taking a mild sedative to counter cravings, lexapro. Minimal withdrawals, noticed night sweats. Everyone I know, knows I drink so I tell them I’m on new medication I can’t drink with which is true actually. My husband does not drink and is a doctor who is very supportive. He tells me to not talk about alcohol, but i can talk about how im feeling. For my health, and to have productive evenings back I have to stop. I don’t know if this is a bad habit or an addiction. I’m controlling my intake but why do I have to drink everyday, why 3 now. That I can’t seem to control. I see this progressing. I have a highly technical job that can be 24/7. I feel ok but wake up in middle of night often.

March 2, 2012 at 12:13 am
(172) Mae says:

I’m 26 years old. I’ve been drinking heavily for 10 years, my dad was an alcoholic. I’ve never gotten a DUI or PI or anything like that, I tried to go to AA meetings a couple times but they just made me cry and I kinda just wanted to drink more. I hadn’t really hit “rock bottom” and I actually had someone at a meeting tell me I wasn’t ready to quit cause I hadn’t hit rock bottom. Well I’m there now. Got out of the psych ward yesterday morning. Only spent a night there but I got completely piss drunk 2 days ago and got suicidal. Called the cops on myself and they admitted me. Got out around 9am yesterday, haven’t drank since. Don’t think I’m gonna. Yesterday (DAY 1) I had a pretty wicked hangover and hadn’t slept hardly at all in the hospital. Today (DAY 2) has been fine, got up at 8AM like usual, havn’t had a headache or anything. I’m so used to relying on alcohol to fall asleep. Drink a 12 pack and you’ll be knocked out. I think sleeping is going to be my biggest problem. My boyfriend is in some pretty intense schooling right now to be an engineer in the oil field, I can’t mess this up for him and be keeping him awake at night so maybe tomorrow we’ll go get some meletonin or something to help me sleep. I’m thinking of “testing” it on Saturday. Last weekend we found an awesome karaoke bar. Maybe this saturday I can be the sober driver. :)

March 2, 2012 at 4:43 am
(173) Jon says:

Heavy drinker for last 4 years or so.

Finally I woke up to what I was doing to myself, I just grew bored of waking up tired and a bit spaced out. I accepted that my friends and family are most important to me, why would I allow something in a bottle to ruin what I have?

So, I am on my 5th night in a row without a drink. It is also my 11th night in the last two weeks without a drink. I’ve felt the urge to have a drink but I focus on other things such as reading and work and I find it easier with each day that passes. I easily turned down two invites to clubs this week and feel so awake and fresh. Having substituted booze for green tea and fruit juice I looked really healthy and have a buzz about me. At first I found it hard to sleep but now I fall asleep about 1am and sleep soundly for about 9 hours.

I have will power, that is most important to me.

It can be done, I’ve not had a craving for a drink today!

March 2, 2012 at 12:59 pm
(174) Mae says:

DAY 3:: It’s only noon but I FEEL STRONG! Slept GREAT last night. I’m being very productive today, I wonder what will happen when I run out of things to do…? Got up at 6:30AM w/my hunny, sent him off to work/school. Did laundry, got my shower, emailed my mom, cleaned out the fridge and did the dishes. About to go to the store to get stuff for tonight’s dinner (Tuna noodle casserole). I had a muffin and two cups of coffee for breakfast. I’m thinking McDonalds for lunch (I’m craving a cheeseburger). I don’t know if it’s withdrawal or the 2nd cup of coffee that’s got me hyper and productive, maybe a combo of both? I’m not having any major symptoms so I’m kind of feeling like “Okay, when is this gonna start being bad…..???” I’m not a morning person AT ALL and I’m usually extremely grumpy in the mornings, but I was up at 6:30 and I’ve been in a great mood since then.

March 26, 2012 at 7:43 am
(175) Dan says:

Day 1 is today..I am so grateful I found this site…I will post in a week as I am trying an all herbal program and I start the five day treatment today. If I like the program I will post so all can have information on the products and method I used to sober up….I am 42 and started drinking when I was a kid…this will be interesting to say the least..thank you all for your great post..I’m motivated more than ever to get this 2 ton gorilla off my back…

March 27, 2012 at 11:30 am
(176) Dan says:

Day2…made it though day 1 without a single craving for a drink as I detox my body with water, herbs and vitamins. Emotionally I felt ok but towards the end of the day became irritable and I think its because i normally drink in the evening but I still did not crave a drink…no night sweats, head ache or shakes but I did not get a good sleep and did have strange lucid dreams..I believe it’s because the body’s response to not getting its normal dose of death juice! I decided to mark my calendar with a small x before going to bed as a visual reminder of this quest for sobriety! Today my inner mantra is to forgive myself so I can start learning to forgive others. There is something therapeutic about that notion. There’s a reason why I self medicated all these years but in order to grapple with the 2 ton gorilla I need find the source for this need to harm myself in order to feel good about myself…have a great day.

March 28, 2012 at 7:30 am
(177) Itstimetochange says:

Great site! I’ve been a pretty have drinker and I can’t really pinpoint for how long. I would have to say at least 5 years. The last few years it ranged from 4 to 12 beers a night. But also some craziness on the weekends with events and whatnot. On those weekends I’ll sometimes also throw in some tequila shots and staying up half the night. Basically I’m just sick of the lifestyle.

I’ve always been a highly motivated person, lots of passions and goals. I have a fantastic man in my life that has never said a bad word about my consumption but I think he knew I would wake up on my own. And I have. Not saying it hasn’t caused a few hiccups for us but mostly the only time he has gotten upset is when I rarely go to sleep with him and sleep to late in the morning. Even though He doesn’t say anything, there is no way it’s not bothering him. Because I’m not the same person he fell in love with. I’m just lucky he still loves me unconditionally.

That being said I am on approximately 28 hours and going into day 2. I’d like to keep my journal here for a while because I think it will keep me stronger. I am going on a week long trip next week and I actually want to do it with a clear mind, and with the energy to enjoy it and be the person who used to enjoy the simple things and laughter. Not the one that just fights illness everyday trying to not have symptoms.

March 28, 2012 at 7:34 am
(178) Itstimetochange says:

Day 1 (yesterday) I woke up feeling hungover from the night before. It was a long one. I slept alot but by the time my sweety got home from work i was feeling clear
again. It was nice to not have a wasted evening. I had some pings in my chest which is one of my normal “I need a drink” symptoms. I have a script for Xanax which I don’t normally use from prior anxiety attacks. I took a .25 dose which totally took away that symptom. And “low and behold” I had a productive evening and felt pretty good. I even got the dishes done before bed!!! Normally NOTHING gets done before bed. And it felt so great to snuggle up sober with my sweety which has rarely happened lately.

Sleeping was a bit of a different story. But I was still smiling and it’s because I’d rather be sleepless then be passed out where I don’t even here his early morning alarm. I had a tiny bit of cold sweats and tossed around a little. But that was about it.

March 28, 2012 at 7:42 am
(179) Itstimetochange says:

Day 2 (today). What a great morning! I heard his alarm and he quickly got up. This is a habit because normal I’m in a coma type sleep at 5am. I quickly got up to and felt surprisingly good! I got tons of hugs and conversation before he left for work and I felt so good about myself. I could tell, although he would never say so, he was appreciative that I didn’t drink last night and helped him pack his lunch and get ready for work. As far as symptoms i feel ready to attack the day. The sleep I DID get was the good kind. And it’s so nice not having my typical mild hangover yuck feeling. No tremors yet. I imagine I may have a rough night but I’m ready. I won’t lose my life to this drink thing. I’ll update as I go!

March 28, 2012 at 5:36 pm
(180) Dan says:

Day3: feeling a lot better today, the herbal extracts are actually helping to regulate my mood and diet. Last week I would have awaken grumpy and eat nothing until late afternoon and then get drunk later in the evening until I got hungry from the beer munchies. Repeat a variayion on this cycle daily. Today was just plain weird, I ate sardines, unsalted baked almonds, apple and whole wheat toast with coconut water. I have been staying away from anything with refined sugar and any sweetener that ends in ose such high fructose corn syrup, sucrose and no soda or diet soda. Missing ice cream big time but onward we go. Last night had a little bit more night sweat than day 2 and still had trouble sleeping but no strange dreams. Not bad for someone who has consumed some form of alcohol daily for over 20 yrs..when it came to booze I never discriminate. I tried to quit last year but was miserable the whole time craving alcohol. I have not craved one drink since Sunday.. I wrote out today my process for beating the cravings and will share with all once I complete the 5 day herbal detox program.

March 28, 2012 at 7:02 pm
(181) Itstimetochange says:

Dan, I appreciate your posts especially because you are one day ahead of me. Today I added green tea and a multi B vitamin supplement to my diet and seems to be helping a bit. :)

End of day 2: was a good day, not going to say it wasn’t a bit challenging but it was manageable for sure. No shakes or anything. Just the typical anxiety chest pings that are usually a cue to have a few. I didn’t listen. :) a few times throughout today my face felt very warm but it passed each time. My pulse has been very normal if not slightly lower than normal after a night of drinking. With light housework and buzzing around it was about 80.

All in all a good day! I washed my truck, cared for my horses, went to see my best friends new apartment and cleaned house. ALL WHILE SOBER, and actually enjoyed it more. I was more attentive to everything than I’ve been in some time.

Now to see how sleep goes. :) going to bed very early in case it’s on and off. Until tomorrow…..

March 29, 2012 at 7:13 am
(182) Itstimetochange says:

Day 3:

Slept like a ROCK last night! I wouldnt have expected that! No shakes at all yet, no fogginess, and feeling very good. I also noticed I have alot more color to my face this morning and my eyes look so much brighter. It’s a great feeling. Woke up chipper again and made my honey breakfast before he left for work. And now have plans for breakfast with my mom. And then i think I’ll treat myself to a new outfit with saved money.

I know that my condition was not as severe as some on here but I need not forget it’s still my condition and it’s one that would have certainly worsened. I was at 6-10 beers nearly every night with worse on the weekends. I don’t think it would have been long before it was that plus shots or even more beer. My dad is an alcoholic sister also has to have 2 glasses of wine every night. So best to just not drink.

Kudos to all of you!!! Amazing stories. I’ll update again at my 7 day mark. P.s. Vitamin b really helped ALOT!!!

March 29, 2012 at 10:27 pm
(183) Dan says:

Itstimetochange, I appreciate you for the feedback and I have discovered some exciting information to share. I Am on day 4 and today was awesome! no cravings with the herbal mix and I got my first nights full sleep with no crazy dreams but still had minor night sweats. I noticed something crazy around my normal drinking time…I started craving chocolate ice cream like it was a drink and started to research a connection between sugar and alcohol, I almost fell off my chair at the information. It then made me realize that over the years when drinking I never eat sweets but I like ice cream but never when drinking. I decided to bypass the ice cream but it kept nagging at me so I found an old chocolate box with macadamia nuts and chomped on a few morsel and it reminded me of the relief of chugging a can of beer..this is crazy but is it possible we are sugar addicts? I’m still researching but still NO desire for alcohol.. For those who don’t mind a herbal solution research full spectrum kudzu anti-alcohol support. There is good information on it..I will post my full list Sunday! Tomorrow is the last day of my herbal detox program! Have a great day.

March 31, 2012 at 1:24 am
(184) Dan says:

Day 5 and still feeling pretty darn good. Last night I slept 8 hours with no night sweats! Woohoo..went shopping today looking for sugar free ice cream that just happens to be in the same isle as the beer and didn’t even get phased by the glory of the gold and dark hues of the many beer brands on the shelf..passed my favorite like a fair weather friend but didn’t look back and still have not had one craving for a drink..i’m almost giddy because I have never felt this way about not drinking..I feel like I’m cheating the whole system but time will tell but if this is how I feel going forward Alcohol in my life is gone. I will not become complacent as I have wrestled with the 2 ton gorilla too many time to know he is a lethal opponent..have a great weekend!

April 1, 2012 at 10:31 pm
(185) Itstimetochange says:

Day 6? AWESOME!!! On vacation to visit some family that I only see maybe once a year. Being here again I realize that my last visit a year or two back was a blur of not feeling well and then of course being drunk later. Such a vicious cycle. This time I spent time with the kids. We did toenails and we played with the hose and sprayed eachother. We had a great dinner. Watched a movie. Tomorrow we are headed to the ocean!

It’s a reality check when you realize that YOU were the only one tanked and that the others most likely only had a few drinks slowly. Because tonight I had water in my red solo cup (pardon the cliche, but it’s true) and watched as the person I considered my party buddy here in previous visits slowly sipped ONE mixed drink and saw that this person is just naturally outgoing and funny. I don’t think they were ever getting trashed with me. I was most likely the only one who had multiple excessive drinks.

April 1, 2012 at 10:45 pm
(186) Itstimetochange says:

That realization hit me harder than anything else. (above). As far as symptoms, I never really had anything major and I do not think I will at this point. The hardest part is realizing how many people I have possibly unintentionally hurt, how i may have lost some respect, and how how the past years could have been different. On th flip side I am so happy that I have a new lease on life and feel like a new person. There isn’t any temptation really there. A little of course but nothing that could overcome how much I hated those chest pings, the lightheadedness, the “out of it” mornings and afternoons, and overall lack of motivation. Nothing is worth all that. And I think my family missed me. I know they didn’t know exactly what I was doing because I stayed away but I’m certain they knew something was going on. Because I wasn’t myself. If you are reading this and thinkin of quitting do it!!!! I wasn’t a morning to night drinker. Or a hard liquor drinker for the most part. So I chose cold turkey without a doctor. However I kept a close eye on heart rate and BP at first. But I wouldn’t reccomend cold turkey from what I’ve read. You can either live to live or live to die. And words can’t describe how much better I feel already and how my relationships are already improving. I beamed today when a close family member asked what I wanted to drink at the Bon fire and I said “ice water would be great”. And it really was. Perfect fluid after a long day enjoying everything in the beautiful sunshine, while getting a nice tan started on my newly found healthier skin!!!!! I’ll update again soon. This site Inspires me….. It’s become my journal.

April 2, 2012 at 2:27 am
(187) Dan says:

Day 7, Today is a beautiful day! 7 straight days without a drink and I am feeling fantastic! First things first, I wanted to say quitting alchohol has been an illusion for most of my life. I have done the court system, Jail, I have done AA and mountains of positive thinking books and spiritual books to no avail..I was introduced to alcohol by a close relative when I was about 6 or 7 years old and of course it was not a daily thing but I understood its effects at a very young age and continued to dabble with the drug in middle school, high school and ofcourse college age..I started drinking almost daily after I turned 21 and have continued to consume alchohol for 21 years. I’m truncating a lot of my story because like the Clint Eastwood movie it’s the good, the bad and the ugly. I felt I would never quit and to be honest I didn’t want to because I felt really good while on it but depression, tiredness, anxiety, motivation, health was becoming an issue and I was suffocating from it all. I became desperate for a solution so I begin mining the Internet and found quite a bit of information on herbal solutions.

April 3, 2012 at 2:59 am
(188) Dan says:

Day8: I’m still feeling great! Changing my diet and avoiding sugary products has really been helpful. I tried to post links regarding the herbal products that are helping me get through this transition and information about the effects of sugar triggering alcohol abuse but the data was not posted so I would guess that is a no-no on this board post and it’s probably for a good reason. At any rate I started working out to get my body active and mind focused again and it was tough but it felt good afterword. I’m surprised at the amount of energy only after a week of qutting. I feel like a caveman seeing fire for the first time at night. There was a moment when I had a tinge of want and thought about drinking but grabbed some fruit and it all but vanished. I am starting to listen to my body and it is giving me a lot of information about what it needs for nutrition..before I would just chug down alchohol when that feeling came around and now I eat fruit instead and it helps big time. have a great day!

April 4, 2012 at 2:23 am
(189) Dan says:

Day 9: and still feeling fine! No cravings for alcohol at all today and that is awesome. I have increased my diet to include more fish and less red meat. Eating healthier and taking supplements have been very beneficial. SamE to regulate mood, kudzu and naturaclear are really making an impact on the alcohol cravings. this time last year after 9 days I would of been on my knees pleading for a drink but this is a very unique experience thus far and without having cravings it has been fairly easy to function and get by. Eating fruit at 2-4hrs intervals throughout the day made a big difference for me. Taking one day at a time and kicking the sugar ,sucrose, corn syrup fructose out of my body has been tough but getting easier as the days go by..I really want a sundae big time! But onward we go. Have a great day.

April 5, 2012 at 4:52 am
(190) Dan says:

Day 10: I’m still hanging in! Not a sip or a swallow fom any alcohol related bottle! met with a good friend today who I have not seen for about a year who is a personal trainer and nutritionist. Talked with him about qutting alcohol and sugar addiction but he does not see the connection yet! I asked him for information to counter my beliefs so he is going to send me some links. He also made a great statement about understanding nutrition and Achieving hormone balances in the body so I asked if he could review my program and he not only said yes but he would help me write a better one. I don’t think he really understands my past as it relates to alcohol but I’m opened minded to Changing my current thought process if I can achieve a better outcome and remain alcohol free. I still feel good but did breakdown and had an ice cream sundae..my god it was sooooo gooood! well onward one day at a time.. I’m still sober and amazed at how good it feels..changing my diet helped big time..have a great day.

April 7, 2012 at 3:09 pm
(191) Dan says:

Day13: wow..still sober but I have been thinking about the future of not drinking and that was kind of depressing so I see the two ton gorilla (alchohol addiction) is back on the mat and snorting at me for a tussle. My first real test to stay sober is Easter. I have to go to my in laws for dinner and there is always plenty of booze..the good stuff too. I think I will be fine because the cravings are weak at best taking the herbal supplements and I really have no desire to drink. Still sticking to my diet and learning how to read my body which is pretty tricky but over time I will develop the art of knowing what my body needs. That is what is amazing about alcohol is that are bodies can run on it alone but the over time effects are devestating to it. I just ordered some vitamins that are supposed to help with memory and focus as I work to repair the brain that alchohol and I have helped to destroy. Onward one day at a time..have a great day!

April 8, 2012 at 2:05 am
(192) Sarah says:

Hi everyone!I hope you’re all doing well.I’ve been an alcoholic for about 4.5 yrs.It has taken me a while to even admit I have a problem.So far day 4 and sober.My biggest concern is that I’ve so far only gotten a couple of hours(about 2) a sleep.When I do close my eyes I do sometimes feel like I’m hallucinating.It’s been rough.The fact that I have a family history of insomnia doesn’t help.Anyways,I’ve been reading a lot about DT’s and I’m pretty scared.From everything I’ve read if you’ve been abusing alcohol for a while you should not go cold turkey-it could be dangerous & even fatal.Have any of you heard about this?They say you should gradually decrease the amount of alcohol you take as time goes by.I think I’m going to come up with a 6-8 week plan to give up alcohol for good.

Dan-keep up the good work!

April 9, 2012 at 2:06 am
(193) Dan says:

Day 14: Thanks Sarah, I appreciate the support! And I survived Easter without a drink. I quit cold turkey but did lots of research on herbs and vitamins that help flush the alcohol out of the body. The funny thing is when I went to my doctor to talk about abstaining they wanted me to check into the chemical dependency program and start me on some type of sedatives and AA which I kindly refused. The chem counselor said I could not quit on my own because of how long and how much alcohol I consumed daily. I knew I could quit on my own because I have always been a functioning alcoholic who worked out and always made sure I would consume vitamin b complex and multi vitamins before, during and after a night of slamming booze. I had no DT’s just night sweats and bizarre dreams. Now I wake up dry but still have an issue getting to sleep. Everybody is different but I’m sure after time this will normalize. I really don’t know about DT’S cause after 20+ years of slamming booze I have never had them..I imagine it could happen to anyone but more likely for people who use alcohol as their main source of diet and do not eat much nutritional foods..I am no doctor so I am open for correction and only writing about my own personal experience..I look forward to another day sober and I wish the same to all that wish to travel the journey of sobriety..have a great day..onward we go.

April 9, 2012 at 4:30 pm
(194) ike alcahol karma says:

suffered from severe anxiety and depression blaming others for a 5 years alcahol binge around last year and thought it was due to a loss in family but really it was due to alcaholism. i suffered dearly from all withdrawals and after looseing alot of people around me. got a criminal record a horrible temper and a bad name and made alot of enemies due to drunken nights out. stopped drinking totally had all withdrawrals and started getting my life back on track met a girl fell in love and currently having my first baby.
just got off probation and monitured curfew had a bad run and startedmeeting a few of the old crew and now ive been back on the drink and nearly lost everyone again after doing so well, im currently on day 3 after bingeing outrageously for 6 weeks outrageous chooseing alcahol over everyone.
had my anxiety back managed to get my girlfriend and job saved. but feeling depressed angry and just want to be rid of this devil inside me, i cannot control my drinking i turn into the most nasty violent ready to loose it all selfish person on alcahol. ive decided to never again drink im finding it very hard this time i start back work tommorow to try and regain focus. i have been having nightmares and thinking the worst thoughts for a few days.
been eating well and drinking plenty of fluids but still having the fearfull thoughts, been trying to stop but allways sucked back in by friends, but this time i just want to be out of it for ever, watching friends and even family members fall down the dark hole through to drink,
i just want a good life for my children and lover, also my mother who has suffered a great deal due to my ways.

April 10, 2012 at 5:48 am
(195) Dan says:

Day15: and im still clean! Im still going strong but have thoughts about wanting to drink. I keep remembering where that leads to..pain and suffering..so I continue to make other choices instead of booze. Quitting drinking has started causing me some anxiety today. it’s the same feeling when you leave the home and can’t remember if you locked the door to the house or left a hot appliance on that could potentially start a fire. you have a strong desire to turn around and go back to check. Most of the times the door is locked and no fire hazards are left on. I always thought drinking relaxed me and made me more fun to be around but the truth is it was self medicating to nurse the emotional violence I suffered in my youth and to soothe all the fear and anger that one learns to back pack around with. Drinking is very complex but I am preprared to accept some truths about my past so I can change my future. It’s time to get rid of excess baggage that has been weighing me down through the years. I’m working on this old but unique concept called forgiveness but that sword is way too heavy for me to pick up at the moment so I’m starting to learn how to forgive myself first. I am really critical of myself especially if I make a mistake but I m starting to realize that I am the enemy fighting against myself and intentionally harming myself. It’s good now and I look forward to another day sober..onward we go, have a great day.

April 12, 2012 at 2:10 am
(196) Dan says:

Day 17: today was good but I feel like I have to be extra vigilant now as my cravings for sugar have increased dramatically. I know my body has no trace of alcohol but it is craving an ice cold beer. I have to acknowledge that to get it off my chest. I’m realizing more about the importance of the statement “one day at a time”..when it comes to alchohol and thinking of the future it really is a prescription to relapse. I realize I need much more time off of alcohol to see that drinking does not have to be the motivator to have a good time. Onward we go..have a great day.

April 12, 2012 at 5:15 pm
(197) Anonymous says:

4 to 6 pm is the most difficult time of the day for me. Its the end of the day! I want to relax by the pool, and have a chilled glass of white wine and then garden. It somehow just isn’t even as close to relaxing without a glass of wine.

I’m on day 4.

April 13, 2012 at 5:24 pm
(198) AD says:

Day 3 and I am not liking the effects of withdrawal. I hardly sleep and I’m exhausted. I drag myself to work and try to be productive but it’s not working. I’m afraid about this weekend because that is when I overindulge.

April 14, 2012 at 2:17 pm
(199) enough says:

woke up after easter weekend, hung over (m~45) drank for 10 years straight! so decided thats enough, tired of the shakes/feelin awefull in the morning so
day 1: worst day ever! sick shakes out of body feeling(would usually hit the booze(3-4 oz) when i felt this way in the morning after drinking
day 2: almost as bad as day 1 lil better sweating/no sleep
day 3: lil better than day 2 still huge headaches,sweat flashes,sleep issue,wild dreams(vivid)
day 4: startin to feel kinda like when i had 6 oz or so into me(the old normal) really startin to clear my mind and how alcohol really changes your “mentality” wow
day 5: feelin good drinkin lotsa water/gatorade, appetite is still really low but increasing! taking a multi vitamin pack as well!

never thought it woulda been that hard those first 3 days!!!

April 15, 2012 at 3:18 am
(200) Dan says:

Day 19: Still sober..had dinner tonight at a place that makes really great drinks. It was strange trying to find the non-alcohol section, I thought it amusing how often I have never considered that section of the menu. All went well, I popped my kudzu and naturaclear herbal product prior to dinner and had no craving for alcohol. It’s weird being sober because I’m trying to find happiness in me and not the bottle for the first time and I’m coming up short. I feel I’m a good person but I want to feel good about myself from the inside..it seems I have been avoiding me, the real me for a very longtime. I realize I have to be patient but I’m unhappy and that is the reason why I stopped drinking in the first place is because of the up and down roller coaster of alcohol. People say it gets better with time so I am going to stay the path and find out..it’s tough because I’m working to keep this addiction from turning into another so having a balanced approach must be discovered soon. Onward we go,have a great day.

April 15, 2012 at 11:40 am
(201) enough says:

day 6: feelin great! gettin stuff fixed around the house, first in a looong time! found yesterday i waz gettin antsy so put the mind to work, that sure helped versus taking the usual course of reachin for the bottle!

hang in there dan, an i totally understand that hapiness issue, i always felt better about myself after drinking! i think thats gonna be the same with me as well! but i cant believe how clear the mind is now! i was like a ship in the fog before!

April 18, 2012 at 3:12 am
(202) Dan says:

Day 21: thanks for the support enough says, I appreciate you and I’m soldiering on. I’m feeling better just trying to feel my away around this daily sobriety which is actually turning out to be pretty cool. It’s amazing how much of life I have missed living inside the fortress and safety net of alcohol addiction. I’m trying to meet the people in my life that have been right in front of me the whole time. I am starting to see how weak my alibi is for missing so much of their lives. I always thought I was available but im starting to see it was only through the lens of alcohol. I have a good life but I would prefer an amazing life not cluttered with fear and self doubt. I believe I have turned in the right direction. Onward we go..have a great day!

April 19, 2012 at 9:44 pm
(203) Anonymous says:

Started drinking at 20 and the party never ended. I’m 27 now. That’s a solid 7 years of binge drinking multiple times per week (6-10 drinks). I took a few weeks off a couple of times, but that certainly wasn’t the norm.

I haven’t drank for 19 days. The first 2 weeks were hell.

Day 1-2: usual binge hangover. Just laid in bed and watched TV.

Day 3-6: Insane cravings for sweets and water.

Day 7-9: Felt like I had the flu. Severe headaches. Loss of
appetite. Some stomach issues. Depression and anxiety strike. Debilitating panic attacks. I start thinking something is seriously wrong with me. This is compounded by nightmares, waking up in a sweat, and insomnia. Started taking St. John’s Wort to combat the depression (I had also quit this cold turkey when I stopped drinking… probably not the best of ideas)

Day 10-14: Anxiety + depression + lack of appetite + insomnia continue. Not really nauseous… just don’t feel like eating. Nothing sounds appealing. Probably a symptom of depression.

Day 15-19: Anxiety is easing up. Depression is mostly gone. Insomnia is gone. Appetite is back in full force. STRONG cravings for alcohol. Cravings seem to come and go through the day and last ~10 minutes at a time. If I can keep myself busy (like typing this) they pass.

April 20, 2012 at 11:24 am
(204) enough says:

day 11: still feel like i have a touch of the flue, with random headaches! but feelin real good morning wise,alert,etc!
starting to eat more,still pounding the water/tea/gatorade! that really seems to help always having lotsa water!

what a different outlook on the day being sober! still trying to get around that high feeling(alcohol induced) that i thought was a nice frame of mind to be in, into a sober one that lets you see what life is really about!

April 22, 2012 at 6:20 pm
(205) Rich says:

I am on day 1 , drank on and off for about 5 years, I am 25, never been an every day drinker but a binge drinker if you will, the longest ived ever stayed off it is around 3 weeks , I am going to try my hardest this time cause I hate feeling down and anxious alot of the time so , fingers crossed.

April 27, 2012 at 5:50 am
(206) Timmah! says:

Hi, my name is Tim and I’m an alcoholic. LOL! Seriously, though, I’ve always found the AA approach to quitting the drink to be rather counter-productive, as it seems to focus on disempowering people, when what we really need is the exact opposite – to feel empowered! The last thing an alcoholic needs to be told is that they’re a worthless piece of #### and only God can save them from their pathetic existence). Here are the facts – there is only way one to beat alcohol addiction and that’s through the creation of a mindset that’s stronger than the will to drink. This is why it’s often said that success or failure in beating any addiction, can be predetermined by one’s motivation for quitting in the first place. Another fact is that there is no such thing as an ex-alcoholic – the only difference is that not all alcoholics drink. So what’s my motivation? To put it simply – pride! (something you will not find at AA). I’m sure we’re all familiar with the cycle of getting drunk, behaving regretfully, waking up and not remembering what you did (or even remembering things you didn’t do), feeling like absolute #### and then drinking again because you can’t stand to live with yourself sober. That’s pretty much been my story on a weekly/daily basis since I was 18 (I’m now 29) and I think the only reason it has persisted for so long, is that everyone around me is/was in the same drunken boat. I come from a family of alcoholics, so coupled with a genetic predisposition, I also have the misfortune of being around alcohol all my life, so drinking is second nature. What about outside my family? Well, let’s just say that alcoholics attract other alcoholics – we sniff each other out and become best friends or best enemies just like that. *continued below*

April 27, 2012 at 5:52 am
(207) Timmah! says:

The turning point? My sister recently quit drinking, because she doesn’t want her kids growing up in the same environment we did – drunken arguments, fighting, parents a hair’s breadth away from divorce every second weekend – and she’s been sober now for almost three months. My mum and dad have also cut down their drinking and now only drink in moderation at the weekends. Meanwhile, my drinking has been spiraling out of control since New Years (police finding me passed out in the bushes alongside a main road at 2am, when my girlfriend thought I was asleep in bed, for example). Anyway, I ran out of money the other day, so I couldn’t afford to drink (first day in years!) and I didn’t sleep more than an hour all night (bad withdrawals). I was staying over my sister’s at the time and at about 7am I overheard a heart-breaking conversation between my sister and my mum, where I heard for the first time (sober, that is), how desperate their concerns are and how utterly helpless they feel the situation to be. I was ashamed. I started crying (yes, men actually do that from time to time). Then I got angry. Angry at myself, angry at alcohol, angry at the world, but mostly angry at myself. This is not the person I am! I am not the sum of drunken episodes and an alcoholically-altered personality! I will not have their love, however unconditional, continue to go to someone I am not! I have pride!

April 27, 2012 at 5:53 am
(208) Timmah! says:

So I vowed to reintroduce myself to my family (girlfriend included) – the sober Tim! No more guilt, no more shame, no more having my girlfriend stay up half the night and deadlocking all the doors so I don’t go to the pub. That’s no way to live! I have pride! But pride’s a funny thing, you see it only really works if people are proud of you. You can have defiant pride in yourself (as a psychological defense mechanism), but it doesn’t really stack up when everyone around you is disappointed and at their wits end with how to cope. There is nothing to be proud of about that. So, in conclusion, I launched an all out mental assault on alcohol last Sunday, and today is now day 6 of complete sobriety! My advice? “If you’re going through hell, keep going!” – Winston Churchill.

Trust me, it will be worth it in the end, I have no doubt.

Thanks to anyway who actually reads this.

April 27, 2012 at 5:59 am
(209) Timmah! says:

I HATE THIS!!! I try to post my story to help other people and it keeps telling me no “10 – 2000″ words only, when my comment was hardly anywhere near 2000 words. I then tried to humour them by posting in parts, only to have the whole message I was trying to get across fragmented! WTF? Please make it simpler for people to help each other!

April 27, 2012 at 6:39 am
(210) Timmah! says:

Oh I see… my post wasn’t fragmented, as much, it was “moderated”, because the beginning had things concerning AA that the moderators were none to pleased in condoning via proxy.

April 27, 2012 at 8:49 am
(211) alcoholism says:

The publication of your comment was delayed by the system’s built-in profanity filter until it could be moderated. I removed the offending word and then published the comment.

April 27, 2012 at 9:40 am
(212) Timmah! says:

Ok, no worries… now I get to reread and find out what said offending word was. Should help pass the time before bed :)

April 27, 2012 at 9:45 am
(213) Timmah! says:

LOL! Well that was kinda boring… (hint: the hashes give it away). Here’s hoping those with linguistical-sensitivities can’t pattern match.

April 27, 2012 at 9:50 am
(214) Timmah! says:

Oh and btw, you missed one ;)

April 27, 2012 at 10:49 am
(215) enough says:

way to go Timmah! i like that quote “if your going through hell keep going” LOL day 18 for me doing well, never felt better! looking back what a waste of time with the booze!!!! actually doing things i used to do before i fell into the bottle!!!!!!!!! kinda productive! lol

April 30, 2012 at 7:11 am
(216) Timmah! says:

Thanks, Enough! Your username personifies my very thoughts – enough is enough! Nine days sober and counting! Never going back to alcohol! Oh and to anyone going through withdrawals – stick it out! It does get better!

May 3, 2012 at 9:35 am
(217) Overdoer says:

I have been keeping an eye on this page since I found it and have found all your comments helpful and supportive. I am now on Day 29. I was surprised sometimes how easy it was and how difficult at other times – just when Ithought I’d beaten it and was ‘safe’ I’d suddenly feel really tested again.

I am looking forward to the next four weeks of sobriety – no need to worry about what I might or might not have said. No need to concern myself if I smell of alcohol. No need to wait with fingers crossed, hoping someone would give me a lift so I could/can drink.

Pleasure from waking without immediately starting to beat myself up…. from realising that I can have a good time on tonic water! Finding interests I’d forgotten I was interested in! Being able to paint without the shakes….. Having more time for my beautiful dogs, lovely husband and my work…..

It may not be for everyone, but the idea of objectifying the ‘booze brain’ part of me helped me enormously. Good luck everyone – I’ll be visiting for ongoing support. Take care

May 3, 2012 at 10:40 am
(218) enough says:

day 24: amazing different outlook on the day being sober! keeping busy, still think about a nice cold beer er 2! then just have some water/gatorade and the craving goes away! great waking up to a early morning feelin refreshen and making breakfast for the family(i never used to eat in the morning) now i am hungry when i get up. just thought this morning those weird dreams finally gone, so was thinkin back i think i had them for around 2 weeks after i closed the bottle!

way to go overdoer! agree on the painting, i can get up and cut in walls/ceilings right away! lol before would have been a mess! never heard of the “booze brain” i will look it up!

have a great day all!

May 4, 2012 at 10:39 am
(219) katman says:

hi all i’m on day 5 after numerous attempts at quiting cutting down doesn’t work for me after 35 years of drinking can’t sleep very irritable feel like chit i know it gets better but when?anxiety every day even thinking of suicide but not actually making plans thanks

May 8, 2012 at 11:07 am
(220) phone-call says:

I have read some of these posts over the past 124 days and it has helped me tremendously. Each day is a struggle. I was not forced to stop by the courts, family or financial situation, but by a phone call. Three days prior to a scheduled surgery, the physician would not perform my surgery due to certain elevated levels in my liver. That was the day and the call that it took me to stop. I had been drinking over the past 26 years. The past 18 quite heavily and with every drink, I was aware but did not accept the consequences of each and every drink. Every year, I dreaded my physical and blood results that the doctor would report to me and his inquiry into my drinking habits. Someone knew there was a problem besides my wife….in my mind, I pretended no one else knew, but they did…and I thought everyone was kind enough accepting me for who I was…”someone with a problem”. I don’t like the use of the word alcoholic and refuse to “label myself” with that word. I am someone who “had a problem”…Period! The seasoned amongst you may contradict this terminology, but it works for me. I am comfortable saying to complete strangers (that I am someone who has had a problem with drinking alcohol in the past), but refuse to have this label and stigma attached to my being. I know I am just a few short months into this voyage, but it works for me. Thanks to all and best wishes. Don’t wait for that phone call – now might be the time. Best wishes in your success in quitting. Try drinking mineral water with a slice of lemon and 2 ice cubes instead of that drink laden with alcohol. You will feel better……

May 8, 2012 at 11:07 am
(221) phone-call says:

I have read some of these posts over the past 124 days and it has helped me tremendously. Each day is a struggle. I was not forced to stop by the courts, family or financial situation, but by a phone call. Three days prior to a scheduled surgery, the physician would not perform my surgery due to certain elevated levels in my liver. That was the day and the call that it took me to stop. I had been drinking over the past 26 years. The past 18 quite heavily and with every drink, I was aware but did not accept the consequences of each and every drink. Every year, I dreaded my physical and blood results that the doctor would report to me and his inquiry into my drinking habits. Someone knew there was a problem besides my wife….in my mind, I pretended no one else knew, but they did…and I thought everyone was kind enough accepting me for who I was…”someone with a problem”. I don’t like the use of the word alcoholic and refuse to “label myself” with that word. I am someone who “had a problem”…Period! The seasoned amongst you may contradict this terminology, but it works for me. I am comfortable saying to complete strangers (that I am someone who has had a problem with drinking alcohol in the past), but refuse to have this label and stigma attached to my being. I know I am just a few short months into this voyage, but it works for me. Thanks to all and best wishes. Don’t wait for that phone call – now might be the time. Best wishes in your success in quitting. Try drinking mineral water with a slice of lemon and 2 ice cubes instead of that drink laden with alcohol. You will feel better……

May 10, 2012 at 8:40 pm
(222) Sh8DL8D says:

Day 6 for me… This site has been very helpful so far… I’ll share more as I get a bit more comfortable… Hence my user name… Hahaaaa! Godspeed peeps!

May 16, 2012 at 11:26 am
(223) Mike Chisholm says:

PART 1 — The dilemma — This site has really helped many people. Just able to relate to others and their difficulties sometimes makes it easier to deal with your own. It has given me a reason to try to stop.

In my case, it is essentially fear. I am old and have been drinking for years, probably more than I would like to admit. I have abused my body and it is rebelling. But the worst is that I am fearful of dying and therefore, I live inside a bottle. I fear many things and alcohol for a long time seemed to blunt the fear and lull me into a feeling of peace, I thought. However, I have increased consumption to the point where I created a no win situation for myself. The fear and desperation that comes over me when I do not drink is unbearable. Yet, the alcohol just fuels the process requiring more and more drink to stabilize my feelings. In the last week, I have become so dependant on those feelings of contentment that I receive from drinking that it scared me to the point that quitting was the only way left to salvage anything that resembled a life.

I am sure I am not unique or different but my story is difficult to relate because I am not proud of the outcome and my inability to cope with life. I have been to AA many times and was confined to an abuse hospital a few years ago. Although well meaning doctors try to tell you how to cope and how best to deal with your feelings, these are their ideas and they are not you. I am convinced that a person must decide for himself or herself how they want to more forward. It has to be your thought process and not someone else who decides how you should think about your dilemma.

SEE PART 2 — A new perspective

May 16, 2012 at 11:29 am
(224) Mike Chisholm says:

PART 2 — A new perspective I found myself weak, tired, unable to do hardly anything productive. I reasoned I might as well be dead for all the good I am doing myself. I have been drinking at least a pint to a quart of liquor a day plus a liter of wine, beer, or anything else I can get my hands on. I literally hate myself in the morning swearing I will not do the same thing today. Then, I give myself permission to drink again. I tell myself tomorrow I will have the strength to quit and I just need to get through today with a little help. Just one more day and things will change. Then, tomorrow it starts over again.

This week another fear set in, that being, I may not have too many tomorrows left and did I want to spend them the same way I have spent so many yesterdays. I have been reading the Bible a good deal lately and it occurred to me that it was worth the effort to see if the world would look better outside of the bottle. Since, I had not seen it that way for a long time I decided to change my perspective. I knew it would be awful to stop but I had to change the style of living I had created for myself.

I stopped drinking almost three days ago. At first, I thought it would be easy to cope with since I feel bad most of the time anyway. I thought how much worse can it get. What an understatement.

May 16, 2012 at 11:30 am
(225) Mike Chisholm says:

SEE PART 3 — So here goes!!

PART 3 — So here goes!!

Day 1— Was tough because I started feeling sorry for myself and felt very much alone. My wife tries to understand but I do not expect her to. Her support is much appreciated. My head was pounding and shaking and I was cold, very cold. I live in Florida so cold is not something we worry too much about. Numerous anxiety attacks and sore muscles and joints also accompanied the withdrawal. I tried to sleep the first night but had little success. I took a pill because I was so exhausted. It helped some but I felt drugged from it and it made matters worse. Surprisingly, I was able to eat and keep it down. I drank a lot of water and took some vitamin supplements which helped a little. I was proud of myself for staying the course for a least one day.

Day 2 —- Pretty much the same with the addition of a low-grade fever, which of course scared me. However, I seem to be thinking a little more clearly and do not have blurred vision as I do after I drink a lot. This is an improvement. I am thankful for anything that is better than a bottle. In addition, I am still able to eat and keep it down. I did not talk any sleep aids and was able to sleep some, not great but better. Previously, my toes had been numb, this is common among some alcoholics, but some feeling has come back. This is a plus as far as I am concerned. I however, am still weak and do not have much energy. I continue to drink lots of water which seems to help for a while.

SEE PART 4 — The rest of the story.

May 16, 2012 at 11:31 am
(226) Mike Chisholm says:

PART 4 — The rest of the story.

Day 3 —- I am writing this on day three and am feeling just the least bit better. However, I still have low-grade fever or what feels like fever, however, I have taken my temperature, and it is only very slightly higher. The anxiety level is a little less but still very much there. I am trying to take this one hour at a time and writing this has helped. I am not promising myself anything other than a good faith effort to continue. I am starting to have a craving for drink. This is the worst part if there is any good part. However, I am determined to see if the grass is greener with respect to feelings both physically and mentally. I have no major expectations except to get through the day with a little more self-respect. I want to be proud of myself one more day. What tomorrow brings is tomorrow. I have found I have to live in the now.

I wish all those who have read my account will take solace in the fact that I am not unique and just a sinner like all the rest of us. I do know now that the mind plays a huge part in the success of anything you do. You have to decide for yourself what you want out of life. I am not going to tell you after you get through withdrawal that it is going to be easy because frankly, I do not know. I figure as long as I can think and become interested in someone or something else other than myself that I may have a chance at success. I know right now that I feel a little better. This is huge for me and maybe thatís the way I should look at it. Take small steps all the time and do not try to swallow it all in one bite. I wish all of you continued success and do not worry about one day at a time, if it takes it, think about one minute at a time. The worst alcoholic on earth can stop drinking for one minute. The hard part is linking all the minutes together.

May 16, 2012 at 7:13 pm
(227) enough says:

day 37: feeling great without the booze! clarity like i havent seen for 15 years!!!!!!!!!

way to go mike step 1 is quitting, even if its 1 minute at a time!!!!!!! i had that fever felling as well up to almost 2 weeks after i quit! it gets way better though, just gotta march on!

doing things without the booze is sure a new experience! the clear mind i really enjoy, and the waking up with no regrets(what u did/said the night before) get up an take on the day!

take care all!

May 17, 2012 at 11:21 am
(228) debs says:

day 5 of my voluntary sobriety, and I’m feeling fine.my story briefly, my husband was a problem drinker,I say was cause its day 5 for him too.anyway after years of horrible drunken behaviour towards me,many spoiled holidays,embarasing put downs,etc, he went on a bender.I told him not to come back home and locked up my house.he returned at 6am and smashed the window to get in.result he ended in cells 2 nights.told police he an alcoholic who needed treatment.they still took him away.he starts Withdrawls n doc sees him, gives him lithium,and then off he goes after court session bailed to his mums.bless her,she gets him wine to drink at home each day,and by nxt weekend he is flying,gets arrested drunk on streets and locked up again.ends up in er,then transferred to corenry care,where he has seizures.released with librium and after care,follow up appointment tomorrow.this time medics explained dangers of librium and alcohol,which he did not previously know.I cannot believe the difference in him,he is barely shaking,looks well,eating and sleeping well,and for the first time in years,looks inwardly happy.hewas very scared and has said he will never drink again.I’m pleased for him,very,but I’m so scared to take him back home with me.how long does librium take to get out of system once stopped?how long till he is actually ‘going it alone’? I want the man I married back,but the damage to family is deep,and they don’t understand alcoholism,I have researched loads,and know that some make it. Your comments would help me.

May 18, 2012 at 10:55 am
(229) cdarn17 says:

I am twenty five years old been drinking since I was about 16…been drinking everyday anywhere from a beer to a fifth for the last three years. I’ve decided to quit drinking voluntarily. It’s DAY 5 and I feel like I am going insane. My body is in so much pain, I’m queasy, highly irritable, can’t sleep, anxious blah blah. Most of this was expected just didn’t think I would hurt so badly. Anyways I have found this site to be helpful, it’s given me hope. I am not alone! I can do this! Lol….I’m in hell right now and just pray that I can make it thru and remain strong.

May 19, 2012 at 10:00 am
(230) Ged Ryder says:

Read several of your comments, and can relate to almost most of it. I was a professional R&D Engineer and later Teacher, I am now 61 white male. This will sound patronisting but giving up is easy; I’ve done lots of times, to para-phrase Mark Twain. After drinking heavily for 30 years I gave up due to Alcoholic Hepititus; looked like Homer Simpson for 4 months. Was off it for 18 months then suddenly one bright day went to the supermarket for a bottle of Whisky. This started a pattern of on: off usually 2 weeks heavy 3 months off; each time would give horrible withdrawl. I am 61 just had 10 days on Whisky now sober again 3 days; this after 2 years sober. This time I was getting over Subutex addiction due to abusing PainKillers because of Arthritus. I reccommend this: GET PROFESSIONAL HELP. DON’T BECOME COMPLACENT!!

May 20, 2012 at 4:05 pm
(231) overdoer says:

Reading Ged Ryder’s comments was strange insofar as I had just been thinking about what happens to folk who post on this site, so positively and then disappear off the radar. Are they ‘sorted’ or have they drifted back to old habits and don’t wish to post because it might hurt the resolve of others????

Could it also be positive to post about how one may have slipped and then managed to get themselves back on track or would it just be discouraging???? I don’t honestly know….

What do others think?

May 23, 2012 at 11:58 am
(232) enough says:

day 44: feelin good, really clear mind, setting out plans! versus the avoidance while inside the bottle!!!!!!! funny times when others gettin drunk around the house(family/relatives over)! bunch of yappy know it all idiots! LOL best part is tellin them about it in the morning hehe!!!!!

i think lots of former posters just have nothing new to say hopefully still sober, yet some may have fallen off the wagon? hopefully if they did they would share the story why? what they are feeling now? corrections?

i can vouch for myself “givin up was easy” that was not the case for me! toughest challenge i think i have faced!!!!!!

time to take on another day! take care all!

June 14, 2012 at 12:36 pm
(233) Love Beer says:

59 year old male. Love beer but it has become a major health issue.

I generally get up in the morning at 7:00 AM., drink a 12 pack of lite beer while playing free cards online until about noon, then stop and usually have very few issues with headaches, nausea, etc.

After being diagnosed with heart desease and very high triglycerides, I decided it was time to come clean with my doctor. Just got home from the doc and here’s what I have to offer: First, going without for 2,3,4 days or even a week may not cause issues, HOWEVER, he mentioned many cases where people are admitted to the hospital for a surgery or other procedure obviously depriving them of alcohol for that period of time. He said he had countless cases of people having severe reactions after a week or more of alcohol cessation. His recommendation? 3-4 beers a day for 7-10 days, 2 beers a day for 7-10 days, 1 beer a day for 7-10 days and stop. Will it be easy? I don’t know. I do know I have to stop and I can’t afford rehab.

All I know is that I go 17-18 hours a day without drinking and aside from vivid dreams on occasion, I really haven’t had any adverse effects like the shakes, nausea or anxiety so my drinking habits may be different than yours. I also know it took major health issues to get me to this point. The blood work was done today so in a few days I’ll know the extent of liver, kidney or pancreatic damage. I’m determined to see this through on my own, but my point is, if possible, wean yourself down over a few weeks. The fact that you have gone 2-3 days without major issues doesn’t mean you won’t at some point. In fact, most dangerous withdrawel symtoms occur after 72 hours or more. Cold turkey really isn’t the best way to go. As an aside, my doctor is an internist and relatively young. He is very asute on the latest medical procedures and always listens very closely to what his patients say. I trust him. Good Luck to all.

June 17, 2012 at 9:44 pm
(234) anonymous says:

23 years old. Drinking became a problem for me after I was hit by a drunk driver and unlawfully arrested while the other driver was not and was forced to go through trials that eventually would eventually prove my innocense. I had to suffer through the ostricisation from my peers, parents, and relatives before that could happen. Now after my innocense is proven, they don’t even talk to me because of their own embarrasment. I started drinking self-destuctively as I started to become the thing that I hated. I was more suicidal than enjoying the alcohol; I never even got to enjoy a drink. I had to drink lonely and by myself and seeth. Then I realized that I could no longer use them as an excuse for my self-destructive behavoir; they had failed me when I needed all of them the most, but this is my life, not theirs. I’m not going to give them more control over me than they actually have and I am sick of being bitter. And I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. It’s time to stop thinking the world is against me due to my experiences. It’s time to stop acting like I have something to prove to everyone and strangers and just get out there and be successfull. No more excuses.

June 29, 2012 at 11:27 am
(235) moco says:

Thanks for this site. Im a 43 year old woman and have consistenetly been drinking about 4 – 5 glasses of wine per night for years. I wanted to see what would happen if I went cold turkey. It’s been 24 hours since any wine and I feel like crap. ugh

June 30, 2012 at 1:35 am
(236) Trying hard says:

This is hour 1 and I feel terrible. Need hope. Only 27 but drink about a pint of vodka everyday. This pain I feel inside is so bad. Throwing up, bad diahhrea.

June 30, 2012 at 11:37 pm
(237) sunshine says:

Wow this is one of the best posts I have read ! My story in a nutshell is that I began drinking at age 15 and drank heavily until 22 when I met the love of my life and he gave me an ultimatum…quit or lose him…I quit and went on to have 20 years of total sobriety and accomplished some amazing things that I never thought possible for me! Coming from a broken alchoholic home I had little confidence while sober…Those 20 years compared to the 7 before them should of been enough to keep me sober for life…But…8 years ago I decided I wanted to try the party life on again…started out innocent enough and it snowballed into a catastrophe….2 Dui’s a failed business, financial losses. relationship mistakes…then health problems began…tingling/nubness in my hands and feet…called periphrial nueropathy and its common in heavy drinkers. Reversable thank GOD !! I have had one big party for the last 8 years and now its time to wake up and smell the coffee because my life was becoming a shell of what it used to be and I want that girl back I used to be ! SO here I am…5 days sober and NOT going back! I was a competitive athlete and I want my health back ! Living with regular heavy drinking caused me to make bad decisions with my relationships and to do things I never ever thought I would do…My relationship with God became almost non existant due to the guilt of how I was living…but I would find myself on my knees crying out to him after each binge night when the horrible hangover would hit…those hangovers started to last all the next day….in fact I dont even know If I really remember what it feels like to fell totally healthy anymore ! BUT I CANT WAIT TO FIND OUT !! I am determined to change my life and get my old self back….I hope and pray for everyone else out there trying to kick the demon of alchoholism and everything it brings with it that you find the strenght and the help you need to hang in there and do this !!

July 8, 2012 at 7:47 am
(238) Alan says:

Some great reassuring stories but I wonder about how many continue to stay off. The support networks aren’t much use (IMHO) – like most Australians, religion leaves me cold. I care not for faith; obese people don’t reach for the hymn books so why should drunks?

The is my 10th day #3 of the year, but my health at 52 is deteriorating at real speed. This time I must stop! I gave up a 40/day cigarette habit 20 years ago, this can’t be that hard.

Last week I went through 2 750ml bottles of vodka, at least 12 bottles of wine, a 2litre cask of port and yet my wife agreed that I must have reduced my drinking a lot!

The deceit is awful. Time to change.

The days seem longer; I’ve walked a lot the past 3 days, which is good because I am now 29kg over my doctors’ suggested / insisted upon goal weight.

This morning I woke clear headed for the first time in ages. Nice.

July 8, 2012 at 1:53 pm
(239) Lisa says:

I was drinking and smoking like 6 days a week hard liquor but I never got fallen down drunk I did things like cheat and gamble alot but I would do that without the drinks I guess…I decided just to do the wine thing .. I started drinking red wine for the “health benefits” I just drink about 2 cups a Day 5/6 days and feel no need for more..I don’t even crave cigarettes .. Wine cured me so far of bloating and digestion problems and of over eating I jus sip on a glass it takes me a while and curbs my appetite..I have no problem wanting to drink more wine I don’t even feel drunk or tipsy from the 2 cups but actually feel better mentally alot of research shows wine as a health benefit but don’t a use it..if u can’t control it then Don’t do it at all…I know it worked for me there are people that lived to like 100 and they drank a cup or two of wine almost every day !!!

July 8, 2012 at 3:54 pm
(240) Sparta says:

Question to all drinkers or anyone with experience in withdrawl patients – I have a history of heavy drinking, I’m 25 and began drinking excessively daily when I was 20, like at least a 20 oz water bottle of bacardi light everywhere i went, started only at night, increased to whenever i could, and that went on until i was 22 when I began drinking all day every day, ending up having some sort of “breakdown” and did not get severe withdrawl symptoms besides sweating, anxiety,diharrea etc. A couple months later I began drinking daily again at night a pint a night (a pint a night is my usual thing but everytime i quit then start again my tolerance keeps going up) but on party nights or other times id have maybe 30 oz of liquor a day, this went on til 24, March of 2011, and i had to quit cold turkey for 8 months. Same withdrawl symptoms, mostly i would just sweat alot. Started drinking again 7 months ago, starting ith a pint 1 or 2 nights a week, and now i was used to about , well the last 2 times i drank i had 500 ml of liquor and the other time 700 ml and a bottle of wine… that was friday, its sunday, i think i hallucinated last night, is that possible? and if im not getting withdrawl symptoms wtf cause all the rest of these people did! ANY INSIGHT?

July 11, 2012 at 12:31 pm
(241) Megan says:

Hi everyone!

I am 21 years old and yesterday I experienced my first alcohol withdrawal (irritability, tremors, nightmares, hallucinations, and insomnia). I had no idea what was going on, and I had gone a day with alcohol. I have worked at a bar for 2 years at college and am currently drinking about everyday while in Italy. I black out almost every time I drink. However, I went a month before coming drinking only once a week and never getting drunk.

Is this alcoholism? I never drink alone, never drink to drown out my guilt, shame, etc, so I have never ever thought of myself as an alcoholic. However, I am afraid that if I stop suddenly, I will have the withdrawal symptoms again. Can anyone please advise me or give me information?

Thank you!
Megan

July 16, 2012 at 8:14 pm
(242) RCM Suz says:

I came here today to rant about how my husband’s brothers keep talking about what and how I’m doing to people with whom I have not yet spoken. they are getting in my dish, and I just want them to shut up. Hell, I haven’t told all of my siblings, or even my parents yet, but every 5th cousin thrice removed on the hubs side knows what is going on. .

By the way, I found some prayers that have really helped my to commit to sobriety in a book called “Consoling the Heart of Jesus” by Father Michael E. Gaitley, MIC. Two prayers are helping me, and I thought they might help those who don’t like, or can’t relate to the serenity prayer, or the One-day-at-a-time mantra.

“O Jesus, Ifeel that I’ve ruined everything by my (drinking) sin. I’m so sorry for what I’ve done, and I will do my best not to do it again. Dear Jesus, by the power of your infinite mercy, I trust that somehow you can fix not only the evil I’ve done, but bring an even greater good out of it.”

“Jesus, behold, i give you my heart. If my desires aren’t in harmony with yours, then please change them according to your wisdom and love. Dear Jesus, you know that by myself, I’m too weak to change my desires, but you can do it. Jesus I trust you to do it. Jesus, I thank you in advance for doing it.”

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July 17, 2012 at 9:39 am
(243) Grace says:

Hi – I’m a 58 yr old female and this is the start of my 5th day without a drink. I used to drink on and off but never considered it a problem. On Thanksgiving morning, Nov. 24, 2011 (not quite eight months ago) my 37 year old son died unexpectedly and I have not been the same since. . Anyway, Ever since the day after the funeral I have been drinking and it’s gotten worse and worse. In the last month sometimes I’ve needed a beer or two in the am just to feel better physically but I’ve realized that it is not helping me to heal at all over the loss of my son. My husband is a severe alcoholic and is getting worse everyday – he just doesn’t care anymore and sometimes he scares me. We’ve been married 26 years this August – he is glad my son is gone, or at least that is what he said. He feels that way drunk or sober but he’s not sober very often anymore. It is very difficult to have him here drinking every day when I’m trying to quit or should I say with Jesus help and grace I will never drink again. Anyway, it’s been a real tough week but this is day five. I still do not feel good – every part of my body still hurts and I’m still having the sweats. I know God has been with me because it probably could be alot worse. I’ve told God I can’t do it on my own and I know he is helping me. I’ve been drinking alot of water. I hate myself because the drinking has put on so much weight but I am hoping with time that will come off again. I miss my son so much but drinking is not going to bring him back. If God can help me he can help you too. Please pray for me as I have many decisions to make now about my husband and everything. I love him very much and he used to be such a wonderful man but I’m about to tell him it’s me or the alcohol. If I knew I could make it financially I would but that is part of the problem. I will pray for all of you.

July 24, 2012 at 1:26 pm
(244) Scotann says:

I stumbled across this site at 4am this morning.. I had my last drink about 7pm last night. I have been drinking since i was 18, I am now 41.

I had been an attender at AA meetings on and off for yrs havent been for about 5 yrs the odd one here and there… I went to my first meeting at 23…

For many yrs i was a binge drinker 3/4 days on blackouts, dui, detox clinics, meetings, failed relationships, fights etc etc.. Round and round… About 8 yrs ago after almost six months continuous soberiety i started drinking again… Beer every night – no hard spirits just beer… Started on about 4 cans and now up to 8 pints every week day night.. Double that at weekends… I am sick of being sick and tonight I am NOT going to drink…i want to change this.. i dont want to drink again…

I am 2 stone overweight, go to work with a hangover everyday, am single again! i am loosing my teeth… Six have fallen out and i have to discuss dentures tomorrow… with a private clinic i cant afford! I am depressed and unhappy with where i have ended up!

I am expecting withdrawl to start soon… I pray this time I will change this and stay sober! I want to start looking after myself before its too late!

July 25, 2012 at 6:42 am
(245) Devster says:

This is day 2 for me.Have a headache and feel like i spent most the day and night on the toilet.I must do this as my two teenagers are getting worried and I am losing my temper at work.I am currently on suspension for allegations that my behavoir at dealing with issues is becoming problematic.Think i have hid this well but my paranoia is telling me they probably do.Red face, red eyes bloated stomach but thin arms and thin legs.I will be 48 this November and i want to be free but im not sure what free feels like anymore.This site is fantastic and everybody is so honest good luck to you all.

July 25, 2012 at 7:40 pm
(246) Dale says:

I feel for the gentleman who drank for over 30 years. I to had the sme problem. I’m 52 and have drank ever since high school. Over the years my drinking got worse. I can’t remember a single solitary day of going without. I’ve lost my wife. I’ve lost a job of 25 years. My kids cry. I got depressed and was on pills since 25. Yet all the while still drinking. Heavily. I tried to quit several times. Tried AA. Still would not admit to being alcoholic. Have lost friends. Have. Diabetes. Hbp. Always sick and never feeling healthy. I’m on day 3 of quitting. Surprisingly. I’m beginning to feel better. I did take a few benzos to help with the anxiety. But I can honestly say I feel better at day 3. Although still not sleeping well. I feel like I have more energy. I ve been quite lazy for many years because of wanting to get pissed all the time. I’m hoping I can stay the course and beat the demon. I want my life back. I’ve isolated and pissed people off for too many years. It’s time. It’s time.

July 27, 2012 at 3:28 pm
(247) Diane says:

Are you still sober?
Did it work?
After day 6?

July 28, 2012 at 6:49 am
(248) Devster says:

Dale i know exactly how you feel. Thing is with english culture its so expensive to go out that you stay in smoke drink feel isolated and on and on it goes. I am now on day five, nearly passed out in Ikea yesterday forgot to do that thing they call eating.Dont like being so aware of everything it is making me over critical. My husband is still drinking and i make him sleep downstairs. God i resent him he is obese
self employed hardly contributes to the househould. But what is keeping focused is my children they are not his.If its any help to anyone i got some Kudzo from Holland and barrett and i have ha no cravings. Lets all keep working together we dont need AA just us.

July 28, 2012 at 8:58 pm
(249) Willy says:

Fine to see so many people wanting to quit drinking.
I (55 years old) am still busy with day one. Had my last drink about 20 hours ago.
I started drinking rum coke at age 22, but now I drink a bottle of red wine every day for the last 25 years. I planned my stop and took a week free to cope with the withdrawal that I am sure is going to knock on my door very soon. Let’s see who knocks who out….. Success to all of you who are in the same battle. Congratulations to all of you who succeeded. And for those who relapsed or id not quit (yet): Don’t give up!

July 29, 2012 at 8:29 am
(250) Devster says:

Wow Friday was hard but last night Saturday mad. Thing is i didnt want to drink its just i had no reward system on place. You know worked hard all week sit down watch a movie get Drunk go sleep start all over again Sunday lunch.But with the help of my daughter ,who stayed with me(goes out at eleven!)and then my son who I knew took over lets keep mom happy shift its all past without a hitch.Will check in again on day seven.Keep it up guys xx

July 31, 2012 at 5:11 am
(251) debsd says:

Well, 11wks have passed.No relapses.Hubbie personality seems to have disappeared.From life and soul of the party to nothing.Little conversation,seems lost and disinterested.Meds are only one beta blocker per day.he trains and cycles most days,no word on work situation which must be adding to his anxiety.he goes to drug and alcohol sessions,but days they a waste of time.Is this normal? Any suggestions please? I want to help him find himself again.

August 6, 2012 at 6:50 pm
(252) RCM Suz says:

Today marks 4 weeks. For those who wonder about AA meetings, I’m not doing them. I’m not a joiner, and I have plenty of people (1 very close family member) and a great Doc who got me in touch with a woman and her husband who went through the same things at the same age. I’m using a combination f serequel and lexapro. When the going gets rough, the serequel really helps. I’m lucky to have quit before all brdges were burned. But i’ll bet that with a prayer of trust, God would send everyone here the person you need to lean on, cry with, rant to…

I really got a lot done today. I know I’ll still have hard days, but today has been great. Thank God!

August 9, 2012 at 12:25 am
(253) Eroper says:

I am very proud I read this; as a 23 year old. I have unfortunately been drinking for the past 5 years straight every night with my boyfriend since we met. We both grew up together, the usual story it was easy; and now we are both realizing how hard choosing to be a child for longer than the norm has hurt us now. But mainly I think that your writing is beautiful; I am sure you have this by now but as a fellow writer the depiction. emotion and real life placement you allow us to experience with you is a strong support to follow the sober path. Thank you for being bold.

August 12, 2012 at 6:37 am
(254) Tim B says:

Today is day (4) for me all good so far. I have had a tastes of some of the withdraw symptoms if not all. I am just not sue what all the symptoms are from . I had a stent put in my leg for a blockage on 8/9/12 and am healing from that. I drank about 12 beers everyday for the past 25 years and smoked about two pack a day for thirty years. If I want to live I have to stop drinking and smoking. last night i had sweats and sleeping is like I am in a daze. This morning I have a headache and I know this is not over. But I am hoping its up hill from here. Thanks you all for your postings. It helps keep me focused on what I need to do for myself and my family. Good bless all of you.

August 20, 2012 at 12:27 am
(255) Peggy says:

Wow! I am hungover all day due to a combination vodka beer night w friends. I want to stop drinking so bad…….but how? My sweet beautiful four year old daughter deserves better. I want to say today is Day 1! Stop now!

August 22, 2012 at 4:46 pm
(256) kickingit says:

I am a bottle a day wine drinker and have denied how bad my addiction is until recently. I would wake up every morning counting how much I drank the night before so I knew just how much to loath myself today. I wake up most mornings having to go to my phone to remember who I spoke with the night before and try to piece together what we said. Being asked by my husband if I am going to apologize for what I said/did the night before. With out any recollection of what he is talking about I would just say “I am sorry”, shoot he could of been a complete ass and I would be apologizing for it . Or asking my older kids about something and they always saying mom we just talked about this, you getting dementia?! Final straw, my little one came in my room looking for me and found me, in the closet chugging my wine bottle. The look on her face. Went to a couple of AA meetings but they are such cry babies, and depressing. I wanted to tell them to stop dwelling on stuff that happen 10 years ago. Tell me something that is actually going to help me.
I am only on day 3 it has not been so hard yet. I am anxious and moody, but not much more than that as of yet. I am tired!
The thought of never being able to have another glass of wine is so depressing! But I guess as my dad use to say, ” a sip away from a bottle a day”.

August 26, 2012 at 9:28 am
(257) Feeling good says:

Hi all,

I’m now 32 days alcohol free. I am a 39 year old Australian who has drank more or less daily my whole adult life. For the last few years I’ve been drinking 1 to 1.5 bottles of red wine daily. My health has started to suffer so I’ve decided to quit drinking. The first few days I had a lot of trouble with sleep, sweats, irritability and felt pretty off. At 1 month, sleep is still not great but better. Generally, I feel pretty good with no real cravings.

Good luck with it!

September 9, 2012 at 3:57 am
(258) Max says:

(1)
Great story “Anonymous”. This article is older but so relevant….and I hope you’re still sober and alive and well. Im on day 7 now (3 other past attempts in 3 months lasted until day 3, and one time day 5). I went through a lot of your symptoms too. The hangover feeling when I havent even been drinking puzzled the crap out of me. I read where some people would try to slowly wean themselves off of alcohol and thats what I had to do. This might not be for everyone, but I had to figure out what was best for me. My life depends on it now.

Ive been drinking since I was a teenager, and almost daily since I was 21. Im 40 now. Ive been unemployed the last 6 months and Ive been through a whole lot in my life. But somewhere else, someone else is going through much worse, so I just push on. Beer is my drink of choice. Just good old American light beer (or Bud Ice sometimes). I hardly drank liquor and wine. Did shots in my early 20′s and had some very rough hangovers, so I stopped those as I got older.

September 9, 2012 at 3:59 am
(259) Max says:

(2)
Im not the AA type and would just prefer to do this on my own. So when I first attempted trying to stop this year, and the headaches and fuzzy heaviness sitting on the backs of my eyeballs got to be too much, plus sweating a lot and not sleeping good…. I decided to buy a few tall cans of beer and that seemed to help. Then I tried to just drink 4 beers a day, 3 different days a week. That worked for about a week, then 4 turned into 14 and I was back to square 1 drinking too much again. Then I would stop again for 2 days, and repeat the above. Well, something bad started going on with my health. Since Ive been an almost daily drinker of 8-14 beers a day for 20 years, I knew it would eventually catch up with me but hadnt really noticed any signs until recently. I got to where I would keep drinking, but wasnt having an enjoyable buzz anymore. My heart would be beating pretty fast while just sitting, and I would basically just quit drinking because I wasnt feeling buzzed and knew this stuff with my pulse cant be good. So I would be hungover the next day for a while but then return to normal, pulse and everything. Then my feet started to swell if I drank 10 or more beers a day for 3 days in a row. This has never happened….I was also getting some sharp pains on my right side near my liver (I think it was my gall bladder) and this would occur 5-10 times a day. Then checked my blood pressure and it was getting high. Im probably 15-20 lbs overweight, nothing too serious. But these symptoms are scary. I did some research about the heart and found out about “alcoholic cardiomyopathy”. Its where the heart gets too weak to properly pump and fluids start to settle in your feet and ankles. I knew about the Liver already, but then read about “Pancreatitis” and also alcohol’s effects on the gall bladder. I also watched a documentary on utube called “rain in my heart”. Now let me tell you, If that doesnt scare someone enough to stop, nothing will.

September 9, 2012 at 4:00 am
(260) Max says:

(3)
So for Labor day wknd, I knew this would be it for me. I had one final goodbye with a 12 pack of budlight premium, and 3 tall boys of bud ice sunday. My feet swelled some again, but went back to normal 2 days later. My withdrawal symptoms havent been bad since my body has already been going through 2 to 3 day stretches of no alcohol. But Im on day 7 now and hopefully this will turn into many more days. Im back to exercising now, and after I get a job and get insurance, Im going to see a doctor. My BP and pulse are excellent again and Im sleeping a lot better now. Some damage can be reversed with complete abstinence from alcohol, so thats my goal, at least for 1 year, not 1 drop. I wouldnt mind being able to have a beer or two on special occasions if I can after 1 year as long as Im healthy again. But if I’m the kind who just cant, then I wont do it. Im choosing life and good health over this poison thats slowly killing me. If its too late and I die soon, at least I’ll die sober and not as a drunk.

So good luck to everyone trying to quit. If you’re reading this, you know why you are here. Like “Anonymous”, Im sharing my story for you, hoping it will help, and hoping you havent already damaged your health beyond repair. Quitting is possible, you just have to make up your mind and do it. Go watch that film “rain in my heart”. You might have to change hangout spots and friends, or even cut bad influences from your life. I stopped going out completely over the last 6 months. But do what you have to do. Only YOU can control your choices.

September 12, 2012 at 11:08 am
(261) enough says:

been a few months since i have checked in, great to see others trying!

its just over 5 months for me now and feelin great, body woke up,mind woke up from a tranquil sleep from last 20 years!!!!! still love the smell of a glass of red wine! LOL i can smell it from across the room! hohum guess the ice tea will suffice! :)

stay the course the payoffs are HUGE!!!!!!

September 12, 2012 at 2:18 pm
(262) IDontDrinkThanks says:

2 So, I started 3 days ago. Day 1 – Discovered that you have to take a LOT of supplements throughout the day. They sent a list with times of what to take so that helps keep track. By mid-day, I felt a constant urge to go to the bathroom and my stomach was rumbling and making all sorts of loud noises. After lunch, I felt like I was going to fall asleep–sooo drowsy. Truly, those were my only 2 side-effects on Day 1. No tremors. No cravings. At my usual drinking time, the thought of buying wine crossed my mind, but I was able to push it away without much effort. Took the dog for a walk for 30 minutes to kickstart my long-neglected exercise as well.

September 12, 2012 at 2:26 pm
(263) IDontDrinkThanks says:

3 Day 2 Slept well, but woke up drenched in sweat. I had a bad taste in my mouth, but apparently this is to be expected as the body detoxes. Was not looking forward to another full day of so many supplements (6 weeks of this? Can I do it?) but soldiered on.

My least favourite thing to take is the Omega 3 Fish Oil in liquid form. 3 tsps twice a day. Yuck! Thankfully, it has a lemony tinge to it so you’re not burping up the taste of fish oil all day.

I felt great once I was out of bed and showered. As the day wore on, even with work and a million things to do, I felt like something was missing, like I needed to do something with myself and wasn’t doing it.

I examined my body in the mirror and realized how badly I had let myself get out of shape. I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life and could really stand to lose 40 or even 50 lbs. I know in my heart that this is because of the booze. I don’t eat a lot of crap and I do eat mostly vegetarian (tried vegan, but just can’t get there yet…and I still do love meat from time to time…)

Took the dog for another 30 minutes.

Had a couple of fleeting thoughts – I wouldn’t even call them cravings as I’ve experienced in the past – just thoughts of drinking which I pushed away.

Keeping away from sugar and simple carbs and I feel good.

September 12, 2012 at 2:36 pm
(264) IDontDrinkThanks says:

3 Day 2 – Woke up *drenched* in sweat although I did sleep well. Foul taste in my mouth, but I understood that was to be expected, from detoxing.

I dreaded the full day of supplements – Most are capsules which means a lot of swallowing of huge pills!

Again my stomach was a bit upset all day and I started having a seriously bad bout of diarrhea (sorry if it is too much info, but I think it’s important!!). The literature says that may occur from the huge doses of Vitamin C (ester C format) and if it happens to cut that dosage in half. By the end of the day, after countless trips to the bathroom, I decided to cut it in half starting on Day 3.

I had exactly 2 urges today and I wouldn’t even call them cravings, but rather thoughts (not a physical urge) and they quickly passed. The other thing I felt was that I needed to do something – even though I had work and a million chores, I felt something was missing (gee, no kidding) but I soldiered on and made it through the day with no other symptoms.

Another 30-minute walk with the dog. I realized that I had gained an exorbitant amount of weight by drinking. I eat fairly well and in regular-sized portions, but it would do me well to lose 40, maybe 50 lbs. Where’d that come from? The booze, all empty, nutritionless calories!

September 17, 2012 at 12:50 am
(265) The*specialist*of? says:

God I’m so frustrated. I know better. Ya see I stopped drinking for a few years. Why did I start again? It’s the anxiety that keeps me going. Now I find myself in this abyss that I can’t quite swim out of. It’s sad I hate myself for it. My aunt shot herself in the face because she couldn’t get over it. I’m not that. I know better. My hubby and I have this issue yet everything else is perfect. Perfect, yes….but when you are a drunk perfect is far and few. We are trying to taper down. Talking about it at this point is the most important part. We want to get pregnant so this has become a real issue. When I stopped years ago I had no withdrawal. This time idk I can just feel that we are going to have a problem. Making rules for ourselves. Nothing more than beer. No more than an18 in the house at a time. In a month we plan on going 12 a night. Then from there a few 22′s. Sounds sick to admit that it that’s the plan. If trouble confronts I suppose detox is a answer. I’ve got to beat this. Throw some advice. I have k pins from my dr whom I don’t see anymore because of a recent move. I just need to feel safe for myself and my love. Any suggestions would help. It isn’t just a drug for me. It solves childhood problems for me that I won’t mention. It numbs. I am taking vitamins and trying to get exercise. Meds and shrinks never help….unless I want to be a zombie. I just want to be healthy, procreate and be a great wife. Help!

September 20, 2012 at 2:41 pm
(266) Katarina says:

I am on my second day and am beat. I can’t concentrate for anything. I am so tired, but for the first time (this was my 10th year of drinking heavily and have tried to quit a number of times) I am actually thinking about how great this will be in the long run. I am ready to go home and take a bath, and cuddle up with my dog afterwards. It will feel rewarding for doing something nice for myself. I am going to beat it this time, convinced of it. But, WOW, the concentration is at zero percent.

September 22, 2012 at 4:03 pm
(267) Worried girlfriend says:

Yesterday my boyfriend and I argued for the last time. He has now promised not to drink when I’m with him. He has been drinking to excess for the ten years I’ve known him plus the ten years before that. He had to socialise has part of his work but he hated his work and was shy so he drank for confidence. A bottle of wine at lunchtime and another two after work was the norm. He doesn’t accept he’s an alcoholic because he doesn’t drink vodka and doesn’t need a drink first thing – that’s what alcoholics do don’t they? When he was made redundant he drink his redundancy money plus the wine he kept in his cellar but he’s still not an alcoholic. I don’t want sex with him. Who would? He snores and sweats all night!
Yesterday he didn’t drink – didn’t eat either and went to bed at 9.30pm. Well there was no booze to keep him awake. Today he woke at 7.00 am, quite a novelty. He had a shower, the first for 3 days and we went for a walk. A very disinterested walk. Too I’ll to continue he went back to bed. We he awoke he sat in front of th tv. He was ill. It must be a bug or the fact that he couldn’t get himself to the chemist a week ago to collect his zyban. No food today, he feels sick, headache etc etc so off to bed at 8.00pm. Well there’s no booze is there? When will he realise he’s an alcoholic and he’s withdrawing?

September 30, 2012 at 2:04 pm
(268) dave says:

I had 6 months sober. I was so proud, happy. Met a beautiful girl, was having the first sober relationship I’ve ever had. She smashed my heart, thats all it took. Drank a fifth every night for 3 nights, like I never seen that six months. I’m on day five, lying in bed, watching the Lions, I’m freezing, sleepy, restless. I’ve cried more than ever the last few days. Going back to work tomorrow, I pray I’m ready. God bless each and everyone of you.

October 1, 2012 at 10:45 am
(269) katarina says:

Day 13. I am almost to two weeks!
Yesterday was so difficult. I realized that I feel very emotionally empty after being “close” relationship-wise to someone, whether it’s just a conversation or what have you. I don’t know how to transition away from being wrapped up in someone’s attention and then back to the real world.
I lied in bed. I drove halfway to the grocery store for wine three times before I sat in my car, cried, and waited out the compulsion.
Projects help. I taught myself how to use my power saw and sawed some wood and that increased my mood and day immensely. :)

October 5, 2012 at 5:23 pm
(270) Sobering says:

Been sober 80 days and these past days been eating like a pig. I still cry once in awhile but I am less emotional than in the beginning. This is my 5th attempt at staying sober. Relapsing happens to most of us but it does not mean the end of it, you get back in the whole and quit again until you get it right. Good luck everyone, counting to make it to 90 days but take it one day at a time/

October 7, 2012 at 7:36 pm
(271) SoberGirl says:

Hang in there everyone and even if you relapse, don’t give up. I let life and stress get there to me with a car accident and a back injury where I was relegated to my home and fell back into drinking….But keep fighting your way back. I know that I am and I know that it is more than putting the bottle away. It is also facing up to the grief and pain that keeps driving that bottle back. So, to all who try and relapse, remember, the only time that you fail is when you stop trying..so NEVER stop trying. Every single day without is a success and gives you more strength. This board helped me so much with accountability during my first true journey to sobriety and I know it will continue to provide support.

October 15, 2012 at 9:50 am
(272) RecklessEric says:

Thank you everyone, for your honest and humbling comments.
I’m currently on day four.
I had nearly two years sober until last February and then began messing around with booze again.
Those sober times were the happiest I can remember.

Day 1: Awful, terrible anxiety. Some sleeping tablets gave me some rest though.
Day 2: Better, still anxious, but some medication helped and I even had a nice time in the evening with my brother and mother (I was asked to leave my own home, so stayed there).
Day 3: More anxious, but managed to eat.
Day 4: Back home today. Anxious initially, but not so bad now. Looking forward to my wife and daughter coming home this evening.

I’ve been through this many times before, and day 4 or 5 for me are usually when things get better.

I had a very strange experience on day 2. I was listening to a song with my mother where the singer mentions his father. I said to my mum, “I love this song”. At that very moment, a shiver shot through my body and I burst into tears. I truely feel it was my late father touching me.

Good luck, everyone and may your higher power help you through.

October 18, 2012 at 8:07 pm
(273) RCM Suz says:

I’m into month 4 now. I see people counting days and months, and for me, that wouldn’t work. I’m just different now. My guilty pleasures are doughnuts, chocolate milk, popcorn. I can fast for religious purposes and diet for my belly, with ease I never new before. I’m able to buy beer for guest a my home, or red wine for my husband, without awakening any desire to drink. Do I still want a glass sometimes/ Sure. But I know the want will dissipate. Deep breaths, a quick prayer, a smoke, and only I know that it happened. I love this site. I can come here and get everything I would need from an AA meeting, without leaving home. God bless and strengthen us all. There’s a reason God wants us sober right now.

October 19, 2012 at 5:32 am
(274) Never again teigs says:

Hi everyone.. Wow what an amazing group of people you all truly are, I’d like to share my story and hopefully it is enough to stop people picking up the demon drink .. I’m a 31 year old female two children and a kind of husband , I say kind of as for past 12 year my drinking antics have been so appalling he’s now ready to walk.. I’ve had so many chances each one been my last but secretly I knew he’d take me back so I’d continue. I had a pretty bad childhood all alcohol related with my mum and dad, police always taking my dad away coz he’d hit my mum or me or my half brother and so on, so from a young age alcohol was in my life and of course it lead me to the wrong crowds.. For attention.. skipped school screwed up jobs lied stole caused fights the list is endless! I’ve managed to stop drinking for a couple of years and then something rocks my boat then bam I pick a bottle up. My dad passed away in 2010 and after everything I’d been through with him when he passed away at 59 because of drinking and smoking I needed answers and now I couldn’t get them. I hit the bottle hard after his funeral gin whiskey wine anything to numb out pain hurt and memories.. So one day I took the boys to school and at 9am I bought booze and got completely hammered not considering the kids my husband no one all that mattered was me and the booze .. School rang at 4 asking why I had not picked my children up so I turned up falling over railings bumping into people been abusive to staff and had to sit in the office because school ( thank god ) would not let me take the children , so they had to call my husband and social services !!! It was such a shock when I woke up the next day and had no recollection of anything until husband told me. I wanted to die there and then. So I said I’d never touch it again .. I did ! I’m on day 5 clean x

October 25, 2012 at 5:36 pm
(275) Graciela says:

Nice, worth my read!!

November 3, 2012 at 2:10 am
(276) sonofone says:

Hey everyone, I am not going through this, but my dad is. When he wakes up in the morning it will be day 3 for him. The reason he decided to stop was because he had a fainting spell at the hospital from not drinking all day and after talking to the doctors and nurses in the ER we decided as a family that he needs to. He has said he will before, but something is different this time, he is actually serious. I think that he realized laying in the ER that it is affecting him even more than he realized. Honestly I would say that if anyone is going to quit cold turkey, make sure you have someone who cares about you around you all the time, I really think that helps. Kind of like a “If they can believe in me, I can believe in me” attitude. I am a paramedic so I know a lot of the classic signs if his condition worsens. A little encouragement goes a long way, we are even talking about taking a vacation with all the money we are going to save just to give him a goal to keep going. Keep my dad in your prayers and Ill do the same for all of you.

November 5, 2012 at 11:26 pm
(277) Desertwolf says:

Dear *specialist*-
I hope you are well. Please- do not fool yourself. If you are trying to get pregnant, you cannot drink at all! Even a little can harm your baby. If you drink and you are pregnant, and don’t know you are pregnant because it’s still early; you can injure your precious unborn child!
Get help! There are detox clinics, you can go to ER and get medical clearance so you can go to detox. ER can give you medication so you can get through withdrawal safely. Going cold turkey can be dangerous! I just lost my brother-in-law because he went cold turkey. Now he is gone. He leaves behind his kids, grandkids, and lots of friends and family.
Please if you are going to get pregnant, do not drink.
Quit, but don’t go cold turkey.
Be well.

November 6, 2012 at 3:11 pm
(278) steve says:

Finally decided to quit drinking after years of understanding I had a problem. What led up to this decision was the fact that I made a fool of myself at my fiances grandfathers 83rd birthday. I had binged for 2 days prior and by the time the party arrived I was in the throws of withdrawal. I needed a drink before I even got to the party. So after many drinks and sone tequilla shots, I accidentally broke a door and decided it would be fun to play guitar. By the time we had got home after the party I was withdrawing again, swearing I would kill my self if the anxiety didnt disappear. Naturally, Monday I missed work. The sweating, anxiety and nausea were to much to bear. Fortunately I know where my fiance hides my beer when Ive already had too much. Just that one beer was enough to get me through th worst of the DTs. Last night was the really rough part. No sleep, puking, and I could not stop moving my legs. It was hard to breath, and everytime I would close my eyes I would have random visuals. Some frightening. I would also stop breathing at the moment sleep would set in and wake up frightened. I had no choice but to work today. Im not focussed and havent called my clients like I should be. Its the first time I ate in 2 days. As bad as I feel, I have to meet with a client after work. I just cant wait to feel normal again. I will be attending AA from now on. I looked for an outpatient program but was hit with resistance. They all tries to tell me to go in patient. Thats not a reality and I know they want my insurance. I hope that by staying honest and attending AA I can be happy. The person my Fiance and family deserve.

November 28, 2012 at 9:29 pm
(279) Richie says:

You will always have around 6 days of these feelings all exactly the same as each other its part and parcel, i chose Librium to lessen mine, but i still felt like a twat, the main key is staying off the drink, because making all that effort to stop so easily starts and the winthdrawls are the same even after a short stint at it.

Medication is the safest and my opinion only way for long term absitinence..

December 1, 2012 at 2:36 pm
(280) TheBody says:

I am now through the “rough” phase of withdrawal for the 5th time but as I was going through it I was constantly researching and consulting with my father(a doctor) what the causes of pain and headache and fatigue, listlessness, restlessness and toxic sweat as I call it. I noticed on the 3rd day of detox that a greasy film would come coat my skin coming from pores. I was having an allergic reaction to my own secretions! Then the itchies would commence on the 4th day. Of course it was my body ridding itself of all the built up toxicity accumulated.

The Parotid glands among all the other glands in the neck and lymph nodes were “sore” as amylase and lipase was being dispelled and secreted into the rest of my body as well as the pancreas and gall bladder dispensing this toxic sludge. Amylase and lipase are normal to have but too much and it causes muscle pain as well. It also explained the intense thirst “the day after” The whole body was in on it.

I had never thought of it like that now that I do I cringe at the though of a drink. What really helped me through was Gravol – dimenhydrinate, it soothed my nausea, stomach pain and made me drowsy so I could get a full night sleep. Best sleep aid! I still got the sweats bad but I was so sleepy it didn’t bother me. After the 6th day I improved as everyone has said here. I love you guys even though I don’t know you. We’re all in this together. Keep strong.

December 3, 2012 at 4:31 pm
(281) BTOD says:

Day 1 of sobriety for both my wife and myself. We have been drinking quite heavily (6-24beers) a day for the last 8 years (since college). After a 3 day drinking binge (24+ beers/day), I’m/we are ready to stop allowing our addiction to rule our lives. We have two beautiful little girls (18 months and 4 years) that are worth far more than any pain that I have to go through during my road to sobriety. Thank you all for your posts and God bless you with strength & courage as you start day one of the rest of your (improving) life.

December 4, 2012 at 10:55 am
(282) BTOD says:

Day 2 of sobriety

Oddly enough, we don’t have any withdrawl symptoms. Feeling quite wonderful actually. I said a prayer this last Sunday for God to give me the strength and courage to follow Him to where He needs me to be. Having my morning coffee while watching the sunrise before work gave me a sense of pride that I have been lacking for quite some time. Just the thought of not drinking a week ago would not have even crossed my mind. I was blinded by my addiction and unable to see and live reality, sober that is.

Oddly enough, the message during mass last Sunday was (atleast in my interpretation) the following

Avoid the anxiety of yesterday and put forth what you can do today for the lord

I pray for all of you who are either struggling as an alcoholic or recovering from being an alcoholic.

Have faith and courage as you find your way to sobriety.

December 8, 2012 at 11:04 pm
(283) alcoholic4ever says:

I too let a stranger into my house. He was so fun and amusing and made me feel so good. I got to where I loved him so much I let him beat me up, estrange me from my friends and family, hurt and lost all of my friends and family for the love of him, and almost let him kill me. He was my best friend for over 30 years.

Joyce Meyers said it best, you would not let a stranger come in and hurt you, steal your belongings, and destroy your family once…..let alone everyday. We do this as alcoholics, every day.

Sober for a 5 months and finally kicked this demon to the curb.

December 8, 2012 at 11:31 pm
(284) alcoholic4ever says:

Any symptom I went through, pales in comparison of living with the monster.

December 12, 2012 at 5:55 am
(285) kittyann says:

Back here again. Day two of countless failed attempts to get sobert. Have got to do it his time for mydaughter. Shes living at my parents at moment cos am not trusted with her. Sweating and shaking like crazy and no sleep at all last night. Ironically watching the food channel…all about making xmas cocktails! Think i should switch over..

December 12, 2012 at 9:38 am
(286) kittyann says:

do think there’s a connection with sugar levels and craving alcohol. Always had eating problems. Go days without eating sometimes, survive on wine and vodka. Trying to make sure am eating properly this time. Dug out some old sleeping tablets to take tonight. Was up all night reading the AA big book. Have tried everything else and the longest been dry was the 9 months i was pregnant, fell out again with my mother yesterday. Havent spoken to my sister for months. Just keep pushing people away so thinking AA might help me reconnect with people. Any suggestions on any foods that might help stop the cravings would be much appreciated

December 17, 2012 at 8:42 pm
(287) Lilith says:

I have been very inspired by all the posts. I plan to get sober after Dec 26 when my family obligations end.I need help from all of you so will check in every day to see how you are coping. This site will actually help me. Bye for now.

December 21, 2012 at 10:47 pm
(288) Redraw says:

At the age of 44 and after 25 years of progressive drinking i have reached the stage where i drink 2 bottles of whisky a day. I have stopped suddenly and i am just starting my third day sober. I say third day it is 3.30 am where i am and i am unable to sleep. I never slept last night either. I am cold, my skin feels like there are spiders crawling all over me and i am experiencing palpitations and very bad anxiety. But amazingly i have had no urge to drink. My life has been so empty for so long i am determind to get my life back. I found an old passport photo the other day and i just broke down. It was like looking at another person because i looked so healthy. I have avoided mirrors for the last few years because alcohol has changed my appearance so much. I have no medication to ease the detox process so i am pretty much facing complete cold turkey. But sober and really serious about staying this way. Love, light and peace to you all.

December 22, 2012 at 10:24 pm
(289) redraw says:

Well, finally slept at 6am and woke at noon. A splitting sore head and the sweat covering my body was as cold as ice. Felt so disorientated and unable to eat. Went for a walk,got the feeling that i was somehow detached from myself everything felt so unreal. Anyway I got through the day with no alcohol so now into my 4th day. No hallucinations and the itching is calming down. Already my bloatedness seems to have died down too. This is the longest I have not had a drink in 25 years. God help me it’s my last. I really feel that if I can do this anyone can. This year I am having Christmas dinner with my ex wife and kids for the first time in 15 years. They don’t know yet I am sober. Good luck all, take care

December 23, 2012 at 9:26 pm
(290) Redraw says:

Well, into day 5 and i must admit i am feeling better physically. No itching, no sweats and no headache. Though mentally i dont feel in great shape. Feel depressed but on the flip side im happy to be sober. A real ying and yang of emotions. Got real cravings for coffee but the acceptance within myself that i cannot control alcohol seems to be stopping me from craving alcohol. So much bad has came from alcohol for me i don’t want to go there again, ever. Good luck over the holiday period everyone.

December 28, 2012 at 8:39 pm
(291) Trying to Breathingeasier says:

Inspired by some of the stories I have read here. Currently on day 4, insomnia’s been my biggest problem, loss of appetite, irritable at times, and tired. But I feel better than 2 bottles of wine every night.

Wish me luck!

December 31, 2012 at 1:10 am
(292) Patrick F says:

Dammit …..End of day 4. Five days ago I got my 3rd DUI in the last 7 years. I could go to jail for a while. I am only 28. Alcohol has cost me pretty much everything from the women I love to family and friendships. This is the longest I’ve gone in 5 years with out a drink. I couldn’t concentrate at work today. I still cant fall asleep till 5am and then sleep till 4pm the next day. The anxiety is overwhelming, the depressing is worse. I have justified the drinking cause I have a nice house and make good money. Worse than the withdrawals is that I have no idea how to live my life with out it. I don’t know who I am if I am not the fun party guy who gets wasted. It scares me to death to think that I will never be able to drink again, but what scares me more is what if I do drink again.

January 5, 2013 at 1:31 am
(293) Tryinghard says:

Day 4 – lying on my bed 5pm. Fighting with myself. Feeling really depressed. I would open a bottle of wine about now every night and drink all of it plus a couple of glasses of another. I wouldn’t go out if I thought I couldn’t have a drink. I have given up before but always slipped back slowly. I need to control this now as it is effecting my health. I weigh more than I should and feel terrible about myself. Will get up now and distract myself.

January 5, 2013 at 5:05 pm
(294) Tryinghard says:

Day 6 9am – made it thru day 5. Rough patch for a few hours from 5-8 when I would drink the most of an evening. Feel ok. Can see by previous people that depressing feelings are normal. Trying to focus on the big picture. My liver function tests are all over the place. I have gastritis from years of drinking. I’m under a specialist for this and have an appt on Feb 13 for further tests. He also wanted me to lose 5 kilos when he next saw me. Of course I told my doc that I don’t drink everyday and that I only have 2 a day!! Time to stop. I have a gorgeous 9 month old grandson that I want to see grow up.

January 6, 2013 at 2:00 pm
(295) CJ says:

I want to say thanks to all that have written a note or a daily story.
Your thoughts and heartfelt emotions have broken me to tears three times this morning. Good tears though, ones that will help me make it another day, and hopefully the next.

I am 40 years old, back in university and this is day 6.

I feel compelled to write this down, even if no one reads or responds, I will feel better about myself and my long term problem with alcohol. I have been wanting to quit, but you know how it is right, it isn’t a good time right now.

I am really high functioning, very good at hiding my problems, and no one knows when I am drunk. I am a phantom, when it hits me, I run right to bed. I hide booze in my office closet, drawers, car, outside and anywhere else I think I can be sneaky about it.
I am up to 9-20 drinks a day

When I leave the house for a social event (which is rare) I am that guy that people go WOW when they see me drink in public. “he drank 2 pints in like 4 minutes!”

Sad part is, that isn’t showing off, its how I drink. After a few very aggressive drinks I will steady into a pace still far too much for normal people. right until I feel it really hit, 2-5 hours later, then I phantom quickly to bed. Tada! no one sees me lose control.

rewind…

January 6, 2013 at 2:01 pm
(296) CJ says:

Jan 1.
I am a wee bit hungover which is odd as I don’t get hangovers often. I have one big ole baileys and coffee. It tastes bad, and I sweat and shake profusely for about 3 hours and decide this is a ‘rest day’. I take a rest day every week or so of not drinking, It convinces me I am in control.
I barely sleep and my heartburn is killing me, zantac 150s are a part of my daily diet now.

Jan 2
A sweaty fitful nightmarish night, I tell my wife I don’t know whats up with that. I blame the dogs for kicking me all night or something.
We last took in our recycling empties in on Nov 30th and then again today. Our recycling depot always gives a printed receipt of your returns. I normally never think to look at it, yet i was curious.

530 beer cans
8 750ml rum
2 1.14l rum
etc…
My wife doesn’t drink beer or rum so all of the cans and rum bottles were mine.
Never mind the vodka and other spirits coolers spritzers that the wife drinks, that I normally finish or drink at least half of.

This scared me pretty badly. How was my body able to process this incredible amount of booze? This was only 1 month!

I realize I am detoxing so I decide to have a second “rest day”

I cant sleep and sweat again a lot, I have nightmares so bad I wake up yelling a couple times.

Jan 3,
Near sleepless, I am very shaky all day. I worry about if I have some kind of physical damage after the years of steady drinking, now turned to heavy constant drinking. All I can think about is the leftover booze in the house and how I KNOW it would make me feel better.

I decide to quit drinking outright, right here and now.

I also come to understand my waves of depression and anger in the past were probably alcohol related.

I am so depressed and tired.

I take one of my wife’s zopiclone to get some sleep before first day back in university after the holiday break.

January 6, 2013 at 2:02 pm
(297) CJ says:

Jan 4,
Wow, that was the best sleep I have had in years. I don’t want to abuse that but damn, I feel rested and yet foggy and distant still.

The heart palpitations start, I have always had them, but only once in a couple months and only one or two hard bangs and bumps then good to go.

Now my heart is flopping once or twice about every hour, it is causing me extra anxiety and hurts a bit too.
After school I read like mad. I see that it is ‘normal’ and that I am in detox and maybe it might get worse.
I tell my family I am going to quit, I get little response, they have heard it before. I cry for help, they do not know how, I relapse, each time a bit worse.
Bad sleep, dreams aren’t as bad. I worry about my heart. What if I die in my sleep? Who will look after my 3.5 year old son?

Jan 5,
It my dads B day! yay! Hes as bad of a drinker as me, and just as sneaky. he doesn’t hide it nearly as well, but stashes his booze too.
As we do not live in the same town anymore, I manage to not drink at all. He stays sober by being in a curling tournament all day. We chat at night over Skype, I tell him my heart is popping about, he wants to quit too. he cant yet.

My heart is now going off about every ten mins, my doc isn’t in till Wednesday, ill ride it out until then.

I eat 2/3 of a large spicy capocollo/banana pepper pizza. I normally love spicy foods, but now i want them ALL THE TIME. In fact, I am hungry, sad and tired all the time still.

Jan 6,
Last night was my first night without terrifying nightmares and intense sweating. Today seems to be going easier on the heart palpitations. so far only about 10 flops since 8 this morning. I feel foggy and hungover still a bit, but better overall.

For the first time in forever, I feel like doing something. I sure would like a drink though.

Thanks for letting me the space to spill my guts.
Let’s see how today goes..

Cheers

CJ

January 6, 2013 at 5:22 pm
(298) Tryinghard says:

Well done CJ your doing really well. Keep it up.
I am also on day 6. I am a 55 year old Australian who has used alcohol for many years as a crutch. I have let my health go and my weight has increased steadily over the years. I want to change my life.

January 7, 2013 at 8:24 pm
(299) Jamie says:

Day 1-yesterday was supposed to as I began the day with my Klonopin. Got the worst feeling of uneasiness and I decided to drink a bottle of wine as I have been through this many times-had just come of a 2 week bender and have been through the sweats, anxiety, malaise and did not want the sweats nor not be able to sleep so I cracked a second bottle and had 2 beers. Went to bed at 4:30 a.m.and slept until 1 p.m. took my meds at 2:30 and will take them in 15 minutes. Lost 3 Jobs last year from this horrible imposter and was supposed to be at a sales meeting in a very nice resort but of course that did not happen. Know I will not sleep well and have the sweats and toss and turn. Have sleep medicine as well, took it in rehab before along with the meds but it makes you feel worse from my experience. Bit shaky now and kinda off balance when I walk. Dayy 2 is normally the worst for me. Dreading this experience.

January 7, 2013 at 8:54 pm
(300) CJ says:

Thanks Tryinghard :)

Today was/is a good day. School wasn’t terrible, in fact I was able to focus better than I have in a long time.

Still a lot of unsettling heart mumurs and thumps and bumps. I get a bit of racing now too.

I bought some Centrum for Men, I am hoping this will help the process some.

Still feel hungover EVERY morning.. how odd.

GL to you and Jamie, Ill keep checking in, I feel a bit better with every post.

Cheers

CJ

January 8, 2013 at 5:42 am
(301) Tryinghard says:

CJ good job.
Day 7 for me. Swing from being excited about what I have achieved to feeling depressed. Have been very cranky but hope this all settles down. I am tempted but now I have gone 7 days I would be disappointed in myself if I stumbled now. I have gone through mild withdrawals and would not want to go through that again. Mainly headaches and lethargy. I would’ve fixed this problem previously by panadol and wine!
Distracted myself tonight to get through the danger period by going shopping!!
It’s nice knowing that we are following each others progress.
Keep going!!!

January 9, 2013 at 9:40 am
(302) CP says:

Thanks to all you good people for sharing your stories.
Day 9 – Finally sleeping. Anxiety gone. Motivation to get off the couch is coming back and the cravings are gone. I know they will come back eventually but I have to stay the course or risk losing more than I am ready to part with.
Good luck to you all.

January 10, 2013 at 4:16 pm
(303) CJ says:

Day 10,
headaches all day so far :( maybe from the coffee this morning?

Last night I had the best natural sleep since I don’t know when!

I have an exam/appt booked with my Dr next Tues, he wants me in very much to help with my recovery. He stressed the importance of going to see him RIGHT AWAY.

I hope you are all doing OK as well, be strong and remember it WILL get easier and you WILL feel better.

Cheers
CJ

January 13, 2013 at 2:10 pm
(304) CJ says:

Day 13

Friday and Saturday were VERY HARD.

Those were my special drinking days when I was allowed to drink, days when I did not have to try and make an excuse or hide my drinks.

For those that suggested Chocolate, I was a skeptic, as I never have been a “sweets” person. I do not care much for candy or ice cream etc.

I was wrong, Chocolate HELPS, a lot. It satisfies the “something to mouth” and the chocolate and sugar ‘rush’ helps some I guess.

Maybe I run the risk of gaining a pound or two, but I highly doubt it. Going without the 800-4000 calories a day in booze, I can risk the few hundred extra calories in half a chocolate bar now and again ;)

Sleeping is starting to feel amazing, I had completely forgotten what actual restful meaningful sleep was. No more night sweats, wife says I have only snored once since the 1st.

This was also my first morning without a headache. Whew.

One day, one hour at a time, I will make it through this weekend.

I hope you all do too :)

CJ

January 17, 2013 at 11:08 pm
(305) DJX says:

I’m reading this page, and many others like it, and consistently see really thoughtful people going through this suffering (as I am right now). Trying to recover.
And its reminded me of what set me off the other day to give away the booze. It was a ‘moment of clarity’ that we alcoholics get. I could see the alcohol as being an agent of some intrinsically evil force in the world that somehow manages to grab all the best people. I saw it as a conspiracy (this is a metaphor you understand) of whatever force seeks to keep humanity in thrall through poverty and war and everything else. I saw it as another repression mechanism.
Then I saw myself as I would be if I didnt imbibe this poison, which was amazing, but attached to that image of not imbibing this particular poison, was me not imbibing ANY poison. Including lies and BS that we are taught as children, the whole illusion we buy in to. No spiritual poison on the TV, no soul poison from religion, no moral poison from government, no financial poison from the bank, No ego poison from the little voice.
And that image of me giving away all those things… now that was amazing.
And now I’m on the wagon. Because that was such a real image and I want to be that guy. He positively glowed like buddha.
So, for me getting away from alcohol goes hand in hand with being a responsible, real and actual human being. A human being in the sense we were intended to be … not these phantoms … and the booze really was making me a phantom. Its been dissolving my humanity.

its a rightous fight that you are all fighting.

January 20, 2013 at 11:36 am
(306) CJ says:

Day 20,

Another Friday and Saturday gone and still dry, it isn’t easy, but it is easier than at the start.

I will now be posting on the alcoholism boards here at about.com for additional support here

http://forums.about.com/n/pfx/forum.aspx?nav=messages&webtag=ab-alcoholism

Cheers

CJ

January 22, 2013 at 9:46 am
(307) DaughterofMyMother says:

I just want to say good luck to you all. Find that reason to stop please. I am 26 and my mother has been an alcoholic since before I was born. As was her mother who sobered up at 49. My mom is now 46 and laying in a hospital completely non-reponsive, while machines are keeping her alive and meds are sedating her seizures. I haven’t spoken to her in 6 years due to her being the person she was when drinking. I am her only child and pregant with her grandchild. Now she may never know. She has struggled for years with this disease and she was such a beautiful and intelligent young woman. She was even sober for a year in 2007. Alcohol withdrawal can kill, you must be careful. The more times you withdraw, the harder it is on your body the next time.
Again best wishes to all of you, don’t let your story end the ways hers appears to be…

February 5, 2013 at 10:13 am
(308) SoberGirl says:

Stepping back in to check in. These posts are all wonderful and inspiring. I have encountered occasional setbacks but am still staying strong, writing, still in school on my masters degree and programming refresher because I have been out of work for a year.

When my world collapsed and I worked on getting sober, everything else collapsed as well but I did not return to constant drinking and pain.

Am I completely better…not yet, but I am stronger than I ever thought because I am still here and fighting, sober and hopeful and determined to regain my life and ensure that it is fashioned the way that it needs to be, not the way it was.

Do not settle for less. I still have bouts of depression and panic when crises occur, like a broken pipe and flooded basement last week. So, I freaked out a bit and then remembered that I still have a home with a mortgage so there is an insurance policy.

A week later, things are drier, construction has come out to make an estimate, so far, no out of pocket expenses…

Point is, drinking or not, life is not easy. In fact, drinking would have made my situation much worse because I would never have heard the doorbell with the neighbor telling me about the broken pipe flooding my house.

I just try to remember that I am still human, still trying to be better, staying sober and on top of things. If I do make a mistake or indulge, it isn’t much, it isn’t long and I stop because I can come back and read how far I have come.

Trust yourself, don’t beat yourself up. You can do this and you should do this.

February 5, 2013 at 7:47 pm
(309) Pinkie says:

if you read this, just wow. you have an attention span the likes of which the world has never seen. btw…sadly the disjointed structure isn’t actually a sign of my withdrawal, just personality. so i’m not looking forward to the actual “confusion” portion lol
———————————————————
Found this when looking up detox symptoms. This is day two. There’s no need to write the entire story, everyone else has the same one. Like the OP I can’t stand AA, went once and I’m nothing like those guys. It seems to be like they’re still living in the despair they were in when they drank continually, and that’s not my goal. their lives revolved around not drinking, which is fine, but isn’t mourning how you *did* drink defeating the purpose of quitting because you mourn when you *do* drink?

this isn’t to discourage anybody from going if it works. i didn’t find it encouraging to listen to a large group of people talk about how, years ago, they would take backroads and know cop locations so they could drink the entire time they drove to work and back. I’d rather hear about what positive things they’ve done since they gave up that lifestyle, maybe what good has happened that week.
if i wanted to live in darkness i’d continue to drink.

/rant

haha you can tell maybe i’m cranky, but i’m mostly mad at myself for not giving it up all of those times i said i would, and tried. can’t stand it anymore. i’m not who i want to be (sound familiar?)

I tried to get pills to help five years ago (omg that much time has passed!?) but the stupid doctor gave me a pill normally given to schizophrenics (zyprexa). that crap was worst than drinking, put me into a drugged zombie state. I just needed something to take the edge off.

I don’t get falling down drunk nightly, but it’s a really bad daily habit. I guess i’m a functional guzzler, because I’m about to graduate college with a good GPA. i quit smoking, that sucked a lot. smoked from age 18-30. it was stupid to start lol but i was living in a car, what do you want from me :D

drank since age 16 i guess, though off and on. not until i finally had a stable environment did i pick up the habit (i know, right!? sober until there was no reason to drink anymore)

here i am…how old am I. 31 i think, pretty sure yeah 31. wife and year old child (time became muddled entirely when she was born lol any parent relate?) . it’s time to stop, it’s caused problems, we got through it, i cut out liquor years ago, now it’s time to cut out random assorted drinks.

So i’m writing this because obviously, symptoms. we’re all getting through this, and it sucks. it’s the withdrawal that keeps me. anxiety, despair, depression, pure fear. i quit for a week during christmas break to unlock diamond camo for SMG in black ops 2, unlocked it, bam. drank that very night. of course, i practically died unlocking that stuff lol not from withdrawal, but from chugging mountain dew and sitting up all night and day playing Ops 2 !

I felt great all day, it started rough but everything was so perfect. then something simple happened, a missing toy, and i panicked. lost my mind for a minute, frantically calling people trying to find it, looking all over. i’m the only one who honestly cared, but for some reason i went bonkers. felt like crying, despair. even looked for the same one, it HAD to be the same one, on amazon. finally when i sat ready to spend money, i realised this must be the start of withdrawal.

immediately i looked it up (again, just so i could be aware. i’ve been looking at what to expect since monday, now it’s tuesday, since i am determined). yup, ok, it’ll be cool.

find this thread.

hoorah! buncha people, buncha stories. I can even post. this ranges from 2008 (when i tried to get medical help, funny enough) to just today, so I’ll have plenty of support from similar stories as i sweat and silently scream. usually i’m a really cheerful person, quite boisterous. i have a feeling i’m not going to be myself for a month or so…

ready for the roller coaster ^_^ anybody else wanna ride?

oh btw, watch “Everything Must Go” on NETFLIX, the most depressing Will Ferrell movie ever made. There’s no humour, it’s dark, and it’s exactly what we’re all going through right now. I can’t expect you’d be here otherwise. I didn’t know Will Ferrell had made such a bleak movie, though it’s considered “independent”.

Watching that man sitting on his lawn (no spoilers) drinking nonstop, until he ran out of money for more alcohol, searching all through empty cans hoping to find some, and finally having to cope with withdraw….watched this as I withdrew from a rare binge and decided never again, i’ve embarrassed myself too many times in the past, and it’s a shame my friend feels whenever we get together that it has to be that wild a party. I can’t hang out with him until he can hang out without touching one drop, because i won’t touch one myself.

you know, the friend who can’t let you not drink because he himself can’t not drink.

feels like that little episode has passed. i’d better get back to studying. last semester, last two classes.

this is gonna be a nightmare to quit work a new job and finish school simultaneously lol if you read any of this and sympathise, pray for me? i’ll pray for that unknown person right now, for all of us ^_^ we’ll be fine!

February 5, 2013 at 8:53 pm
(310) Love Music says:

I’m in the music industry, was a rebellious teenager and started drinking and smoking at school. I dropped out of Uni @ 22 to do music – heavy drugs (Ecstacy, Weed, Speed) began. I was a success in music but I could easily be wasted every night at home and go out and do the same thing at the clubs.

I started drinking heavier when I cut down on weed. I got my DUI at 26 and nearly killed my girlfriend and myself after a gig. I would be shaking in bed with a concerned girlfriend thinking I was going to die. I’d drink alcohol to get me down.

At 30 I realized drugs were dangerous and quit them. The best feeling in the world. I was kidding myself. All I did was substitute one kind of drug for another Ė the two worst ones!

Now almost 40, Iíve given up smoking once for around a year, but always that devil comes back when Iím tired, drunk or abroad. Drink, Iíve given up 3 times. Once for 3 months Ė the best three months of my life. The other 2 times for 1 day.

3 weeks ago I was smoking 25/day. I was drinking 2 bottles of wine a night. I had to do something. I read a book entitled ĎWillpowerí. Iíve now stopped smoking for 23 days. The first 3 days were hell. Clearness within 4 days. Cough stops after that. If you get to 21 days, youíre in the clear! ITíS AN AMAZING FEELING!

Iíve now applied what Iíve learnt with cigarettes to drinking! Sick of waking up with the hangover. Not getting out of bed. Spending over £250pm on alcohol. Struggling to pay bills. Cloudy head. Moody mornings, bawling at night. Worrying. NO THIS WAS GOING TO STOP! ABSOLUTELY!

Right now Iím on Night 2. Iím tired, Iím cranky, cant focus properly and I really want a drink. But thereís NO WAY Iím going back. The shop is now shut Mr Devil! I cant wait to change my life. I did it with drugs, I did it with cigarettes and now Iím going to do it to the very worst drug in the whole world. Alcohol. The next 40 years will be incredible. Iím even going to get a new car with my savings ☺

Good luck everyone.

February 8, 2013 at 3:56 pm
(311) CJ says:

Hi Pinkie and Love Music!

I’m sober 39 days now, I can say it “feels” better in a couple weeks. Kinda like smoking, your body stops ‘needing’ but they trick is getting your, your mind, to stop ‘wanting’ and shaking those habits that cause the wanting.

btw, I just bought a 2013 Ram 1500 with the savings in my health and booze, its not even noticeable in my budget.

in 2 months I’ve saved over $1200, that’s 3 months of truck payments ;) I still come out a month ahead.

I’m not all better yet, but better than before.

Keep it up all! WE CAN DO THIS.

February 10, 2013 at 3:28 pm
(312) david9711 says:

Day 1, living with the drug just can’t carry on. Must be easier without. I got me into this mess and only me will get me out.

February 12, 2013 at 8:35 pm
(313) He Loves Me......Me says:

did the original person who started this post ever return with an update. i hav e read others and thy aer good, but i would like to see where he is now.

February 17, 2013 at 11:52 am
(314) Ellecies says:

This is my 5th day sober. I’ve been drinking since I was 14 and now I’m 39. The only times I’ve been sober was when I was pregnant with my children. I am so sick of being controlled by alcohol or the need to have something. I quit smoking cigarettes too 5 days ago so I know I’m in for a challenge. Reading these posts have help me to realize there are others like me. It also helps me to know what go expect. I’ve been irritable and not sleeping well but looking forward to just being sober. Exercise seems to help me with most symptoms. Going to take it one day at a time but I want to conquer these habits!

February 17, 2013 at 9:26 pm
(315) abducarim says:

So, I never thought that I would be dependent on anything… I was raised by a missionary family and was raised in Africa. I came to the US and started college and did very well for myself… I continue to do well on the outside, but alcohol has destroyed me. The least of that destruction has been my body… the worst part is that it has destroyed my mind. I’m a senior scientist at work and make good money, but I started spending over $400 per week on a really severe addiction that has completely consumed me. I had a pilot’s license that I lost, and I haven’t had a drivers license in over 4 years because I just can’t seem to gain victory over this… I walk to work and feel like a complete looser everyday, even though I know that I’m not at all… at least I wasn’t once. I am now. I was a physics engineering major in college and went to med school. I started drinking there and completely lost any ambition that I ever had in life. Alcohol is a very cruel mistress and she doesn’t just take prisioners… she wants your life. I almost lost mine a few times. I’m really trying here, and I appreciate hearing about others struggling with me on this.

February 17, 2013 at 9:41 pm
(316) abducarim says:

Even after so much pain and loss, there is still hope… I’m in treatment and this just another storm in my life, I have to believe that the sun will shine on me again.

February 19, 2013 at 3:32 am
(317) Ellecies says:

Day 6 was easier than day 5. On day 5 I had an argument with a family member and it was very hard not to drink. I’ve never felt so agitated. I smoked 3 cigs on day 5. Not back to back but 3 cigs just the same. I through the rest of the pack away and got to the gym as soon as I could the next morning. I decided to not beat myself up about the cigs because I’m human. I will keep trying. I didn’t drink and I’m proud of myself for that!

February 20, 2013 at 4:17 pm
(318) Johnny says:

These posts have been very helpful. I am on day 6 and everyone is right. It sucks…. I have never been in such a funk. And I can’t get enough water. I wake up so thirsty every hour or so.
God Help me.

February 24, 2013 at 7:33 pm
(319) Louise says:

Thanks to all who have posted here!! I am only on day 3…
The post here are very encouraging. My story is not much different than any other here, I am tired of the shame, and isolation and much more. Hopefully with Gods help I can do this, this time. Praying for peace for all of us.

February 28, 2013 at 7:29 pm
(320) life2.0 says:

hello everyone, i am 34 years old, have been drinking really hard for at least 10 years, last week i was to the point of drinking at least 18 beers a day, luckily i’m not a big fan of liquor, a few shots here and there, i went to the Dr’s office on Tuesday, so the last day i drank was Monday night, i ended up having an ear infection, sinus infection and a sore throat at the Dr and haven’t felt like drinking, so i haven’t had a drink in three days, i just read this whole thread and was amazed, i wanna be like you people! i am doing this for myself, i want to be healthy, not drink, and start exercising, as soon as i start feeling better after withdrawals, i want to quit smoking cigarettes also, once again, i’m only in the beginning, but i gotta keep on keeping on, thanks again for letting me here your journey’s.

March 1, 2013 at 3:33 pm
(321) life2.0 says:

so as i sit here on day 4, i think of all the things i need to get done, but yet i feel terrible right now, heart is racing, i need to get my paper done for my class but i have no motivation, all i think of is how bad i feel, ironically, i don’t have the urge to drink. I’m still sick with my 2 infections and my cold, but it will eventually be gone, hoping for warm weather soon also. I’ve also been pretty bored the last few nights, i did have a friend come over to keep me company last night and watched movies, and tomorrow i finally go back to work. on the plus side, i am also getting my people together finally to get my letters of recommendation together to get my liscense back. I have not had it since march of 2007! I am very excited for this time in my life, it would be pretty great to be able to drive again and do things at the drop of a dime! Anyways, have a good day everyone, gonna beat these withdrawals!

March 20, 2013 at 3:47 pm
(322) RBinNC says:

Day 3 1/2 and holding my own. Reading this blog really helped me see how ‘normal’ my whole experience has been and continues to be. So tired of the embarrassment, loss of loved ones, damage to my body and mind, weight gain and the list just goes on! The sweats have been the biggest challenge for me so far so I feel pretty lucky. Quit smoking nearly two years ago so now my attention is on this. Hoping to take a bike ride this evening and return to work in the morning. Good luck everyone and keep the faith in yourself!

March 20, 2013 at 8:58 pm
(323) CC says:

I thank everyone for sharing such painful stuff, here. I am turning 52 in May…I have been a pretty heavy drinker since 18….have quit from time to time over the years, but really….I’m a “functioning” alcoholic. I am on day 5 without drinking. Had elevated liver enzymes in a blood test…was a wake up call. I am in good health. I exercise daily, (overweight…from drinking)…I just want to feel better. I hit bottom at my counselor’s office 2 weeks ago….it didn’t present at the time that it was because of alcohol abuse…but after I left, it sunk in.

It’s just time to live a healthy, clean, happy FULFILLED life. Alcohol…has nothing to do with that.

Good Luck, everyone. I’ll be routing you on!!!

April 10, 2013 at 7:22 am
(324) charlotte says:

I’m 27 years old female I have been drinking 3 pints of vodka everyday for the last 7 months I try to quit and I get sick and I get shaky and very irritable so can I stop before too late

April 11, 2013 at 10:54 am
(325) TSH123 says:

I have drunk pretty much my whole life, guess it started when I moved away from my folks and was a Chef, drinking Lager was a way of cooling down in a hot kitchen and before you know it, it is an every day occurrence usually followed by hitting a pub after…..but all through my life I had relationships, hobbies etc that would keep me on the straight and narrow.
It is really in the last 9 years that it has become a problem, from a bottle of wine most nights and more at the weekend (which I think is relatively OK) it turned to a minimum of a bottle and a half (more so toward the two mark) minimum in the week and weekends are generally a wash out, starting drinking at midday and carrying on until I pass out.
In the last 4 or so weeks (yes I know still current) I have started having a couple of days off a week but tend to relapse and when I do drink it is with the mindset of “well I have had a few days off so I can get pretty boozy” without too much guilt.
When I have the days off it is quite scary going to sleep, a bit like an 8 hour panic attack with an impending fear of doom and I swear there was something flying across the bedroom at around 4am the other day, so I understand the hallucinations stuff (I used to have to pay good money in my teens for some LSD to do this), I don’t know if this is a good way to do it but I am trying to increase the sober days rather than go completely cold turkey, I have joined a gym in the hope that I am too tired to drink……….it is so good to hear other peoples experiences and I think that everyone who has wrote articles above knows that you are not born a drunk, it is quite an enjoyable habit that if you are that type of person (this is not judging btw) becomes an addiction

May 2, 2013 at 11:40 pm
(326) Di says:

I’d like to share in my experience of becoming a non-drinker, so far.

As a teenager we’dgo out on a Saturday night, have drinks, enough to get a buzz on. Then nothing for a week. Married at 22, would have a couple of drinks3 times a week at our club. Not addiction, just liked it socially.

Had 2 kids by 29, had very little to drink for next 5 years. Then the s&#^ hit the fan. We lost our business & house To follow came many more failed business ventures, constant moving long distances being away from family, no normal family life. All the time I was “secretly” drinking more.
By the tiime our marriage became totally toxic for many reasons, I was using booze every day, around 8 litres of wine a week. Pathetic, but the only way I felt I could go on. And there were bucket loads of stress and conflict.
We split. I returned home to family who saw me back to an improved state. But I was still drinking. Way less, but this was no way for me to stop. I had to cold turkey.
The crisis came. I had a bad fall, and unknown to any of us, I was bleeding internally Doctor twigged onto what was happening, I was a day from meeting my maker. Severe anemia – I had bled internally 8 pints of blood, and produced about 20lb of fluid. Big rush into hospital.

Got mended, got home, got sober. Joined a counselling group for -best thing I ever did. The course used a lot of meditation, ways to look at your values, urge control techniques, and the group work was precisely what I needed. You could open up and say anything
I tried AA It was depressing, boring, unstructured and useless. It must suit some – it depends on the individual.
I’m about 4 months dry, but I must not ever see myself as finished You’ll get withdrawal symptons Read about them Consult your doctor – get started on a health plan to guide you through
I wish you luck,family support helps
Even if you muck up and lapse, deep breath – start again

May 16, 2013 at 7:17 pm
(327) Mike says:

All the stories were great, I’m on day one right now and feeling pretty good about it. I actually got sober in march and relapsed a couple of weeks ago but I’m going to give it another try, hopefully the With drawls won’t be that bad since I was sober for a few months.

May 17, 2013 at 5:21 am
(328) John P says:

Hi, I am 47 and had been drinking every evening for 30 years. 1/2 bottle wine and 3 or 4 beers.

If I went out e.g. to a soccer match and arrived home late, I would start my usual session rather than going to bed.

My drinking has affected my marriage (my wife drinks too). I have decided it is time to stop. I made that decision on Tuesday 14th May 2013. On this day I went to bed in my usual half drunk state and fell asleep straight away.

Next morning was the usual hangover and making it through the day. In the evening (when I would usually drink) I went to the cinema with a friend. I had a couple of cigarettes on the way back and lots of water. Came home and went straight to bed. I was desperate for a drink but I think my time had come to realise that it was now or never.

I actually slept quite well. Next day (yesterday) felt great all day. But what to do in evening? My wife sits in bed drinking whilst watch TV. I would drink downstairs watching TV. I decided to go out and so went out at 7pm to a shopping centre and then went to the cinema by myself (something I had never done in my life).

Arrived home at midnight and went straight to bed – couldn’t sleep all night.

It is now Friday and at 10.15am I feel fine, albeit tired.

I have had cravings and I have felt groggy in mornings. I am also suffering from constipation. Other than that I feel like I am going to achieve something. I didn’t realise how dependent I was on alcohol and also how much time I have wasted drinking when I could be doing something else.

I don’t know how my marriage will cope as my wife is still drinking. I have no support and my wife is not interested.

My problem is that I am at a works social function this afternoon where I will be expected to drink. I am hoping to make my excuses and not drink. However, after 30 years of drinking every day and only into my 3rd day not drinking – I doubt I can do it. I will let you know.

June 2, 2013 at 6:09 pm
(329) Ti says:

I’m a 44 year old female, single mother of three teenagers who drinks every night for the past year with the exception of nights I’m on call at work. Before this crazy year of drinking so much I did still drink 3-4 times a week and consumed too much even then. I guess altogether its been 6 years of drinking. I normally drink 1-2 bottles of wine a night…more on the weekends. My last drink was last night around 11pm. This is my first day and I’m a bit scared at what’s in store for me later w/withdrawls. I’ve just rested today with lots of water & eating healthy. I don’t feel too bad but it hasn’t been 24 hrs yet. I do feel a little anxious as the day gets later and slightly jittery. I do feel like drinking but will stay home & focus on dealing w/this monster! God please help me quit!

June 22, 2013 at 4:56 pm
(330) Patrick says:

I am going to tell you a story most people will not be able to fathom, and I understand. A few years ago I was lucky enough to receive a liver transplant, due to alcohol any tylonel. Due to domestic situation, and crazy stressful job I had a cocktail. I maintained this deal for over a year and I retained my health. Then it got to two cocktails, you know that story. I can not seek treatment as I would surely lose my spouse then I would really have to reason to stop. I have been the one day off, one day on drinker. Now I am two off on on. And yesterday I moved to three off, one on. This is just how u am stopping by trying to prevent horrible side affects. I am unable to miss work or will be let go. This is a bad situation. Just wanted to let everyone know of the serriousness of this deal.

June 22, 2013 at 5:46 pm
(331) Angela34 says:

Day 5. No alcohol. Sweats are driving me nuts. Had a blinding headache this morning but some aleve and coffee managed to knock it out. Finally broke down and had a good cry today. I think it helped. Being clear headed in the morning is nice but the fatigue and chronic insomnia are not. Funny that’s why I started drinking. Having been an insomniac my whole life I discovered a glass of dry red wine helped me go to sleep faster at night. Of course that only lasts so long because I built up a tolerance for it. Next thing you know (2 years later) I’m downing 1 1/2 bottles of dry red a night and somehow still managing to go to work and function (for the most part). All the swelling, bloating, gastritis/diarrhea, bulged veins, water weight retention, and general crappy feeling was a serious downer. I decided I’ve had enough. All the wine has caused some serious weight gain so I’m dieting and starting to get some mild exercise daily. The worst part is after my son goes to bed at night and I stare at my empty wine rack knowing that’s the time I should start drinking. I just don’t know what to do with myself at that time. Anyway, lets hope this sticks. I like feeling decent for a change.

June 24, 2013 at 1:03 pm
(332) Tia says:

I’m so glad I found this thread. This has been more helpful than anything I’ve read so far. Like so many of you I’m wondering about the man who started this and pray that he is ok. I’m 55 years old for most of my life I was an occasional drinker. Most of the time I didn’t like how I felt, although when the stars aligned and I got a good buzz I was the life of the party. That may have happened a dozen times or a my whole life. But my friends love to tell those stories and actually liked having drunk Tia around. About 1 and half years ago life got really stressful and so did work. I was having trouble sleeping and that just added to the stress. My Dr. started me on Ambien but I would wake up with food in my bed or even different clothes on and not remember anything. That scared the crap out of me so one night I poured a straight shot of Vodka, and I was completely relaxed and went to sleep with no problem. That was it for awhile then when I had to sit down and focus on a project for work (I work from home) I’d do the same thing so I could focus. Sometimes I would pour a shot when I woke up just to get the day started off. This was straight Vodka mind you, then there days I’d drink a whole fifth. I am so lucky that I was never hurt or hurt anyone else also never got into legal trouble. My husband drinks every night but he has more control over it than I do. Yes I here CODA calling too, one thing at a time. Anyhow 2.5 days, haven’t been able to eat anything and my ribs hurt from vomiting. I thought I’d have to seek medical help today if I didn’t start at least holding down water but so far today as long as I sip it slow I can keep it down. I had horrible nightmares the first night but last night was better, although I wouldn’t turn the light off until my husband came to bed. All of your stories are helping me get through this. If anyone has recommendations for the nausea I’d appreciate it. Good luck and best wishes to all of you.

June 26, 2013 at 12:01 pm
(333) Tia says:

Me again, I’m wondering why people just post here once or twice. I’m finding these posts so helpful and after reading your stories I find myself caring for each and everyone of you and wonder how you are doing, good or bad. I was able to start eating on day 3 just some soup and Gatorade. Yesterday I had the chills and was tired but my appetite was back. I am taking Ambien again to help me sleep but my husband is keeping a close eye on me so I don’t get up. I just can’t deal with this and no sleep at the same time. So today is day 5 and I fee better than I have in a long, long time. I know the battle has just begun. Right now I don’t have a strong urge to drink but I’m sure part of that is because the nightmare of the last few days is still fresh in my memory. I don’t ever want to feel like that again. Especially after reading here that each detox is worst than the last. Thank you all for your stories and please keep posting here. All of you got me through the last 5 days, THANK YOU!

June 26, 2013 at 5:52 pm
(334) KK says:

I’m in trouble and don’t know what to do. I’ve missed so much work and 100 lbs overweight due to alcohol. I’m drunk now but I want to stop. I’m scared. I don’t want to miss anymore work. I drink about 1/2 to fifth bottle of vodka a day. I do not want rehab… I tried that. I have to go to work tomorrow and I want my life back. I still remember what it was like to be healthy, thin, and happy. I want that again. I need help. will read your posts and start in the morning (I’m sure that sounds familiar) but I think this link will help me. I will share tomorrow. Thank you for listening.

June 27, 2013 at 11:18 am
(335) Tia says:

Keep posting KK and let us know how you are doing. I hope you have someone to take care of you for the first few days. I know everyone’s experience is different but I was like you last Friday. Last drink I had was less than a week ago. The first few days were brutal but my husband was here to take care of me. Today is day 6 and I feel better than I have in a very long time. I read this thread everyday. I’ve probably read everyone’s story at least 3 times already but it’s really helping me.

June 27, 2013 at 1:46 pm
(336) Eva says:

I feel for each and every one of us going through this. At least I don’t feel so alone when I read your stories. I haven’t had a drink since Saturday night. Physically I feel ok, but emotionally I am not so good. One minute I’m irritated at nothing, then I want to cry, then I’m mad that I can’t be one of those people who can have just a few drinks. Sometimes I’m sad to think of a life without alcohol because I did have a lot of fun times drinking… Vacations, summer time… you know. My husband can have just one drink, I can’t. This makes it hard too. I’m jealous. I know that sounds horrible. I realize that alcohol is not my friend, I cannot stop once I start. I have made an ass of myself so many times. I just have to keep telling myself that my health and quality of life is improving and that makes it all worth it.

June 29, 2013 at 5:07 pm
(337) Tia says:

Day 7, doing ok. The cravings during the day are bad, I work from home any my husband keeps his vodka in the freezer in the garage. The misery from last week is keeping away from it. However at night when I’m still laying awake at 1 or 2 a.m. I will go out there and pour a small bit in a cup and sit in bed and sip it slowly until I can relax. I have an appointment in 2 weeks with highly recommended Dr. who specialty is substance abuse. I’m going to do whatever it takes to stay on this path.

KK I’ve been wondering how you’re doing.

July 3, 2013 at 12:35 am
(338) Teren says:

here it goes guys and gals! this is the only way i can get this out so i hope it works…

im sitting here typing this drinking my final beers before i make the dreaded call to see if detox has a bed open for me (been waiting all day). i have one hour to make this call so i will talk until i call. i have been drinking for the last 15 years and the last 12 has been non stop. call me a binge/daily drinker but i never drank at work or before working. all my friends joked that im a functioning drunk but these last couple years have taken their toll on me. i have done everything stupid that one could do and now im seeking real help and admiting my weakness.

the time has come for an end to this darkness in my life. i started drinking because of many reasons, none of them valid but isnt it always the case? i come from a long history of booze hounds, i saw the signs the whole time and didnt care. now my life is crap, ive lost the girl, the sword and the gold. time for a change in this tale.

started off small and next thing i know im going to the liqour store at 11 pm on a work night for more! i know people are impressed with the amount i can consume but its leaving me dead, broke and defeated.

the amount of work/family/friend functions i have blown off cause i cant drink makes me sad. i pride myself in these areas. missing work due to drinking till 4 am is not cool and will not be tolerated! i feel horrible every time i do it.

we were friends for a long time, but you where a false idol! all the strength, charm and charisma you gave me i already possesse!. you did not help me in those situtations of need, you only made things worse. if i realised it or not then i do now. no matter how much i consumed.. it was never enough..

in short this rant is me taking charge, so long old friend… as the old saying goes there is sorrow in two old friends parting…. but you are now my nemesis… i am doing this for my friends and family… but mostly.. for ME.

July 4, 2013 at 5:04 am
(339) Tom says:

Hello,

I quit 32 years ago. I did not have the physical symptoms some people have talked about.

The decision to consider quitting came from reading a book called “I’ll Quit Tomorrow”.
The method of quitting came from attending daily AA meetings.
Happiness and relief came when I finally started working the Steps of AA.

AA is not for everyone. I would suggest to anyone to get a copy of Alcoholics Anonymous, which is our “textbook”, also referred to as the Big Book, read it through, and if it grabs you, just follow the directions, very clearly spelled out.

Tom J.

July 6, 2013 at 12:14 am
(340) Margy says:

I drank for 28 years every day. I am 2 and 1/2 years sober and I love being alcohol free. I am so proud of myself for having the strength to quit. That said, I still crave my favorite drink sometimes so bad I want to cry. It is soooo easy to buy a bottle. Everyone does it and it is legal for crying out loud!. You can buy it anywhere. But we all know better. We know how destructive alcohol is to our health, our families, our jobs, our lives. so, I hang in there and I am proud of all of you. You can do it. The sober life is good. Thank you for posting your thoughts. It is sharing in places like this that give me strength. Since I quit drinking I am fatter, more depressed, and have wicked cravings for sugar and junk food. Still. I won’t go back.
Peace and Love. Sober is best.

July 10, 2013 at 12:35 am
(341) Dave says:

It’s day 2 for me off hard alcohol. I’ve still had a couple glasses of wine both days just because my body has started going through seriously negative things. I have the shakes and anxiety day and night. Many nights, I lay in bed not being able to sleep due to anxiety and severe cramping. It probably doesn’t help that I’m going through a break-up and may have to move soon as well. I’m having a really tough time right now. If anyone can relate and would like to talk, I’m at breed6966@yahoo or 66dbreed66@gmail.com. Thanks in advance to any correspondence.

July 10, 2013 at 2:28 pm
(342) Tia says:

Not doing so great today, just had a drink, just one but I want to cry I’m so upset right now.

July 12, 2013 at 10:06 pm
(343) Tia says:

So I kept my promise to myself and went to an appointment today that I scheduled a few weeks back. The Dr. is a substance abuse specialist. I don’t know how I feel about this yet. The Dr. was very abrupt, stopping me mid sentence several times. On some level I can understand, he doesn’t want hear excuses of sob stories let’s just deal with what is now. However just walking into that office was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done and this is all new to me. I don’t know how addiction and recovery work, I could’ve used a little more information from him. Bottom line, I was prescribed Phenobarbital, Suboxone, Quetiapine and Gabapentin?? Also need to make an appointment for intensive outpatient therapy – I feel like I’ve been thrown into a deep dark pool with out a life preserver.

July 14, 2013 at 11:27 pm
(344) Cj Tederman says:

Alcohol is the worst addiction I have delt with. Its so easy to access. Worst of all it has the worst withdrawl of all drugs. 20 yrs is a long time. I realize it is such a waste of time but that powerful numbing effect is hard to conquer once it has its grip on anyone. Just as the others I have found A.A. is not a cure. I really think growing out of it and being aware of the damage it does to you’re life and people around is the only way to recover. I wish the best for all that are recovering. The Media and all that promotes us is little help. A wise man once told me and he did not suffer from this. When anything that bothers you use these two words and relax…………..”Be Still”

July 21, 2013 at 12:04 am
(345) Alexx says:

It won’t let me post for some reason.

July 21, 2013 at 12:12 am
(346) Alexx says:

I drink over 750ml of hard booze a day. I have been drinking since I was 22 and am now 25. Doesn’t seem like long but I am totally addicted and cannot get over the horrible withdrawal. Anxiety, nausea, light headness, muscle twitching, being startled by any sudden movement or loud noise, and extreme depression.
I don’t know what to do I want to quit but can’t. I can’t miss anymore work but feasibly could take a week off three weeks from now and try to kick this. My days at work are hellish. I feel like I am going to die from the moment I wake up until the moment I am drunk. I feel too young to already be this far gone. I can’t relax unless I am drinking or have been drinking. I put off every real life obligation I have because the only thing that is tolerable is passing out in front of the TV drunk. My hands are always shaking except maybe when I am drunk, and they still might be but I am too drunk to know it. I hide this from everybody by the way. This is the first time I have put it into words. I need help and don’t know what to do. Is there any salvation out there that can bring me out of this dark hellish world?

July 24, 2013 at 5:28 am
(347) Michelle says:

Thank you to all who have posted their struggles I truly admire all of you and pray for your success with this demon. I’m 38 years old and I have hidden my drinking problem very very well! I have gone from drinking on days off to drinking daily. My drink of choice vodka strait about a half a 750 ml bottle maybe more a day. This has been going on about 5 years I would say. It’s always the same reasoning ok tomorrow I will stop but what do I do I get up have a shot I liked that warm feeling it gives. I feel so pathetic I drink alone I never wanted anyone to know I hide my bottles in the back of the closet in the back of the pantry. My husband has no idea I drink the way I have been. I never drank when I was pregnant my youngest is now 2 I can’t believe I started again after her. I manage to still be sucessful at work listerine strips I always carry with me. I think the worst part is waking up and feeling like crap not wanting to do things.
4 days ago I drank probably 6 shifts in a row I strive to get drunk quickly then call it a day. Started feeling just horrible about myself as usual why am I doing this I have a wonderful family. I came across this site and read each and every post. I started to pray I really needed help so badly but no one to talk to I still do not want anyone to know. I have now been 4 days with no alcohol.
Day1 headache nausea vomiting and chills
Day2 headache more energy rode my spin bike to try and sweat out the toxins my body has accumulated from this self abuse.
Day3 I’m had to work feel exhausted
Day4 I’m very proud I stopped this long it may not seem much but to me it’s huge. I cleaned out my closet when I started having unbelievable cravings to drink today. UGH ok one day at a time. I don’t want my children to have a drunk mom or a mom that can’t cope without having Vodka shots.

July 24, 2013 at 11:53 am
(348) Sci says:

Wonderful posts here. Its amazing how so many of us are going throught the same thing. I have been drinking a pint of vodka every night for about two years now. Almost everyday i promise myself I will find the strength to quit – and every night just after work the craving makes me cave in. It hard to admit that I am an alchoholic, but thats what I am. Today, after reading almost all of these posts, I feel a renewed strength. So this is day 1. i will continue to post as long as I am sober. I wish the best to all of you as we travel this rough road together.

July 24, 2013 at 2:55 pm
(349) Michelle says:

Hope this goes through not sure why I can’t post

July 24, 2013 at 9:54 pm
(350) justanotherday says:

It has been 4 days now that I haven’t drank alcohol. The craving gets really bad especially when I’m off from work. I’m 38 now have been drinking daily for 5 years minus pregnancy and breast feeding. I don’t know why I went back… Not smart! I don’t want to do this anymore. I have an addictive behavior I know that much. Drinking feels good at the moment and after I always ask myself why why did I do that? Then I promise myself tomorrow I will stop. Tired of my excuses I need to do this for my family and myself. No one knows I drink not like this anyway. I hide it really well. I hide the bottles I even drink when I’m on duty at work. I would say on a daily basis I drink half a bottle of vodka… yes that’s my drink of choice. It’s time to change wish me luck. I wish all of you luck as well and you will all be in my prayers. I will keep posting and work through this with all of you… It’s the only support I have right now. Also congratulations to all who have made it an entire day this is so hard and there is no failure in trying.

July 24, 2013 at 10:06 pm
(351) justanotherday says:

Hey Alexx I just wanted to comment to your post. I read it and I feel for you. You can do this we all can fight that demon. If you can’t or don’t want to contact your doctor do you have any support that can stay with you through the withdrawal period? DT’s are very rare but if you are one of the few that have them then I don’t want to see you get hurt while in this process. You have to know that you deserve a full life you deserve to have a clear mind. You do not deserve to feel like you are dying at work till u have a drink. I know exactly how you feel. 4 days now for me and that’s a huge deal for me that is. I pray for all of us on here and I hope you are doing ok. Best of luck my friend.

August 1, 2013 at 8:02 pm
(352) charles says:

I AM IN 3 YEARS NOW.. ALCOHOL,, NICOTINE.. AND CAFFIENE WITHDRWAL.. BUT STILL FIGHTING MY WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS..
IM SUFFERING FROM NERVOUS/PANIC ATTACKS EVERYDAY BUT I KNOW TIME WILL COME THIS SYMPTOMS WILL DISAPPEAR WITH THE HELP OF PRAYERS.. KEEP FIGHTING,.. AND CONGRATS TO ALL QUITERS..

August 8, 2013 at 11:34 am
(353) RB Miller says:

Dear anonymous, Thank you so much for your input as my name could have very easily been inserted in your desertion. Just hearing someone else tell their story helps me as I battle my personal demons. I have been sober for 4 days and the first 3 were rough but on the fourth the sickness subdided and I am able to function again. My thoughts and prayers go out to you as you are not alone in this battle as we are sort of a community. I am 73 and have wasted a lot of good days being a drunk.

August 18, 2013 at 3:03 am
(354) patient pmc says:

LISTEN UP!! I to believed in God, Jesus and can put most bible thumpers to shame on knowledge of the Bible’s point of views. I am no saint but listen up if you dare. Yes I believe in the morality of God but not through mans words because if you believe in Jesus then you know he was sent because no man had no sin in him and was not stained with sin. Ok we got the religious crap out of the way because I know more biblical teachings than mozt preachers and who is more unddrstanding because he can qoute chapter and verse because Jesus did no such thing. They were only reference points to solve arguments and take a bit there and skip over a whole testamant of a prophet here to exclude what didn’t agree with a quote somewhere else. You claim to be a man of religion and that is your down fall because nowhere is religious or religion spoke in the Bible’s! So now the I agree tgat they are wisdom transcending down from the ages and some are moraly right and some is nonsense because King James a English King decided what goes in and what goes out of a supposively Divine Word of God is Malice and not upholded by anything but Faith and Faith you do not have.

August 20, 2013 at 4:03 am
(355) manny says:

I habe drank since I was sixteen
I’m reading this posts to try relieve if not phisically but mentally.its about 4am and I still can’t sleep what gets me is the shortness of breath.

September 20, 2013 at 1:40 am
(356) hopeful88 says:

Been drinking heavily on the weekends for the last 4 years… Developed withdrawal symptoms about 6 months ago for the first time. Took over 2 months for the symptoms to subside. Couldn’t drive for a few weeks after that. Horrible. I am 25 years old, how can this happen to me and not my friends? I quit drinking… Until the summer began. My social circle drink on every occasion.. Sometimes just because its Saturday night they throw a party and there is no party without alcohol. My boyfriend is the same. At that time, after a 3 day binge I woke up still super drunk and drove myself to the ER. When the nurse asked what was wrong I just said that someone must have spiked my drink the night before because I’m having weird symptoms. I was too embarassed to admit to anyone what was going on with me. They gave my 2 different IV’s and I felt better after about an hour but stayed until the IV’s finished which took about 6 hours. Promised myself I would never let this happen to me again. No one knew what I was going through, not even my boyfriend whom I’ve been with for 4 years. I cut down after that incident but recently had a few work parties and my habits returned. Not excessive, but at least 6-7 drinks per night on a weekend night with a couple of beers on a weekday.

September 20, 2013 at 1:41 am
(357) lifeisbeautiful says:

continued… Yes, it does take that little amount to get alcohol withdrawals. This past Saturday, I had a get together and had about 5 whiskey drinks. On Sunday, I had 3 beers. Felt fine and was sober Monday. Had 3 large beers on Tuesday and 2 drinks and 3 shots on Wednesday. Wow now that I think about how much I had to drink it really adds up…. Let me just say i drink A LOT of water when I liquor up but that doesn’t seem to help with the fact that the withdrawals will come… Today I woke up, went to work, ate usual healthy meals and went to the gym around 7:30. TOok my protein shake, creatine and multivitamin along with my oral contraceptive. As I was getting ready for bed, I felt the worst feeling in the world AGAIN. The feeling where you’re dizzy, getting hot flashes and you get a big smack of anxiety right in the face and then I start panicking..

September 20, 2013 at 1:42 am
(358) hopeful88 says:

continued…
I thought about going to the ER and called my boyfriend to come and drive me because I just didn’t “feel well”. He arrived 10 minutes later and I decided to maybe wait it out instead of having to explain to the nurses why I was there… We put on a movie and I felt so much better. Not sure whether his presence helped or maybe just the fact that I wasn’t paying attention to what my body was going through but I only felt the symptoms once after that and only for about a minute. He just left and I am up reading these posts because they make me feel better. I just drank about 2 bottles of water, ate about 6 pickles, a carrot, and some smoked bacon. I also took a thaimine tablet (100mg). I’m afraid to go to sleep because I fear that once I lay down the symptoms with come back .Why do I keep doing this to myself? I hope to get this under control because it’s very inconvenient not to mention embarrassing. I wish everyone on here luck! I will update on day 2 tomorrow

September 20, 2013 at 1:44 am
(359) hopeful88 says:

hopeful88 & lifeisbeautiful are one name. I forgot what I put in the name line so just read all the 3 comments as they belong together.

September 28, 2013 at 8:52 pm
(360) Pat says:

I’ve been drinking regularly and heavily for 30 years. For the past 2-3 years, I’ve been drinking 12 to 24 beers a day every day. I stopped cold turkey 5 days ago and have had no withdrawal symptoms to speak of other than insomnia. But, I’ve always had insomnia, so I can’t attribute it directly to alcohol withdrawal.

October 15, 2013 at 9:12 am
(361) Becauseimworthit says:

Hello all, I having a really rough time right now. I am on hour 20 or so from my last drink. I don’t remember exactly what time it was when I blacked out. I am female and have been closet drinking for at least 10 years. Before that I always binge drank. I was never able to just have a drink. If I was going to ingest the calories I figured I might as well go for it big time, otherwise why waste the calories. I have an addictive personality and I know my abuse of food has contributed largely to my drinking. I figure if I drink I don’t feel like eating and so the downward spiral of poor brain health and nutrition ends up leaving me wanting to disappear. I have recently been playing the binge for days, sober up for a week or two, even made a few months at times, but I keep falling back down. Right now I have severe anxiety and depression. I am not sleeping at all and have terrible diarrhea and cramping. I am in pain all over and can smell how disgusting I smell. I recently went thru the trauma of a motorcycle crash (due to drinking too much and having the shakes and just overall low confidence)

October 15, 2013 at 9:14 am
(362) becauseimworthit says:

I have huge scrapes and open wounds all down my left side. I am ashamed of myself. Shame and anger. It’s eating me up. And the lies. I want to hide from everyone so I am making excuses/ claiming sickness. I am unsure if people close to me know or suspect what is really going on, but I am super paranoid and can’t look anyone in the eye. I am fearful for my life. I have been though major withdrawals many times over and know that this will get better with time. But this time feels worst than most….. or maybe it’s just that I know how terrible I can feel and I’m sick of doing this to myself. I have been pounding coconut water and taking liquid vitamins/ b 12/omega 3/ electrolytes…. I have been able to eat, but my digestion is literally painful. I have been taking melatonin and fever reducer medication. I am worried that I should go to the hospital. I NEVER want to feel this crappy again. I have been thru some crazy emotional changes in the last year. My husband of 13 years and my best friend could not last thru my alcoholism. It has been devastating to both of us. I have since made a major move and started a “new” life. One where no one knows my troubles with alcohol. Most people here think I don’t even drink. I am living a lie and that is killing me. I feel like a wretched human being. I know I just need to focus on getting thru these next few days. I have tried AA a couple of times, even had sponsors.

October 15, 2013 at 9:14 am
(363) becauseimworthit says:

I have done extensive therapy and been thru rehab intensive inpatient. I have lost a husband and destroyed my familys trust in me. I am feeling very lost right now. My whole body aches, my face is feverish and the shakes and restlessness are driving me crazy. I wanted to go to the gym today, but could not trust myself on my motorcycle. I reached out to a friend this morning but have been in hiding since.This friend just thinks I’m depressed, which I am, BUT the larger problem is the alcoholism. I am ready some self help books and motivational books. But my head is pounding and it is very hard to concentrate. I find it hard to even walk up a few stairs, I am so wobbly just trying to walk. I want recovery, I want to live a life I’m proud of and I know that is a life without alcohol. I know I can never be a regular drinker and I’m ok with that….. but I know from experience that It always seems to slip its way back in and have another go with me. It is in my power to stop forever. I just need to know when my beast brain is talking and keep it at Bay. Just typing all of this helping a bit, I want to journal, but I can’t even write because I so shaky. So this will have to be my journal for now. Hoping that my next 24 hrs are better. Usual by 50/60 hrs I start to feel human again. But it takes a week for me to feel Alive and Joyful again. And a month to feel like my brain is back functioning on a high level. I have ZERO desire to drink. I just want to feel better, mentally and physically. Please help me get thru these next 24 hrs in less pain. I can’t hide forever. Thank you for all your posts, this is helping to read thru them all and resonate with each and everyone of you in someway from your shares. Body is so sore from dehydration and the bike crash. Feeling very bruised in beaten in so many ways. Not to mention my ego is totally messing with me right now. Love and light. Namaste.

October 20, 2013 at 10:38 pm
(364) Pat says:

Don’t worry, you’ll be fine.

Day 27 without alcohol for me after drinking heavily every day for 30 years. Insomnia is gone. Now sleeping like a baby every night. Feeling great, losing weight, going to the gym, making new friends. I feel like a million bucks.

October 22, 2013 at 2:47 pm
(365) chris says:

I have only really read the original post, and one thing you have to remember is to drink A LOT of water. Your body have been in a constant state of dehydration for many years. Also if you are getting any sleep whatsoever in the first several days you doing it relatively easy. Peace and good luck to all.

November 20, 2013 at 4:16 pm
(366) Tia says:

I want t feel like Pat, I actually look in the mirror and say “I hate you” out loud to the person staring back at me.

January 14, 2014 at 2:43 pm
(367) Mark says:

32 year old, been drinking since i was 18 but in the last 6 years probably 2 litres of wine a day and a few beers added at the weekend to. I was diagnosed with epilepsy last year and i am sure it was the drink that caused it. In the last month I have woke up feeling terrible gone to work then as soon as i got home started again just so I feel better. Day 1 on Monday felt really rough and tired very stressed in the evening but slept great. Day 2 today and had a great day in work, finding hard tonight with a headache and a little dizzy. Not going back though

January 31, 2014 at 9:26 am
(368) Aaron says:

25 year old, been drinking since i was 19 but in the last 3-4 years heavy, probably 2 sometimes 3 litres of wine a day or 10-15 beers with occasional day off or two but that was hell, beers, spirits added at the weekend to. I stopped elite sports back in 2007 and the drink took over from thereÖ Nearly lost everything, I did some stupid stuff drunk, home invasions, slept in junkies homes, drunk driving, done for DUI .298 BAC, broke bones, got into many fights, stole, lied, pushed family away. In the last month I decided to quit as Im expecting my first child, and that means more then the drink.. I have woke up feeling terrible im into Day 5. Day 1: felt really rough and tired very stressed in the evening but slept great. Day 2: had a great day but stressed and feeling a bit anxious Day 3 and 4: Really tired but ate alot, mild headaches, sweats and anxious Day 5: today I have felt a little better, headaches but anxiety is down, bit foggy in the head, Determined to keep going. Stay away from the drink 1 is never enough and 1000 not enough either. Peace

February 13, 2014 at 2:02 pm
(369) Jack says:

It was different for me. I knew I was drinking too much but I work at home with a flexible schedule. I aslo am a workout.gym rat. I know that sounds like it would not work.

I would work until 4pm. Then lift weights for and hour, walk/run the dog for and hour. Then around 6-7 I would crack a beer. My routine was anywhere from 6-12 a night. 6 being low and 12 being high. Never any booze just beer. If I went for 7-8 days like this I would take 3-4 days off because of felling crappy and then start over. With me I rarely got any hangovers, just a slight headache from time to time. My drinking usually all took place from 6-9 at night. Then believe it or not I would eat a very heathy dinner of fresh veggies and grilled chicken or fish most of the time, lots of salads. I was usually in bed by 11:00 and got a good 8 hours of sleep every night.

Starting Jan 1 I quit drinking just to see if I could do it. It has been 6 weeks without a drink and I have had none of the symptoms that people above have described. The first week I did seem more tired during the day than usual but that is about it. I am just wondering if my beer drinking was just more of a habit because I really have not craved a beer. Being zero outside probably helps. When summer hits and I am golfing and running outside I think it will be more tempting but as of right now I feel no urge.
Jack

February 14, 2014 at 12:41 am
(370) Trying Again says:

I am a 49 y/o woman who has been drinking for over 25 years. By drinking I mean, gin, vodka and beer binge, eventually daily. I knew I was starting to have an issue, so I thought moving to wine would be a better idea and be ‘safer’. By wine, I mean a bottle each night, sometimes 2 or 3. I am on Day 11 of trying to quit again.

I drink alone, no longer socially. I’ve lost 3 jobs. As far as symptoms while using, headache, I have had a couple of seizures, I blacked out and was falling quite a bit. I have thrown up and passed out at work.

Now, I thought I’d be past the symptoms others described and I’d be feeling better. I feel like I have the flu; I am nauseous, my skin is itchy like bugs and I am clawing at it, I get bad headaches chills and my appetite is decreasing rather then increasing. I didn’t eat well when I drank but now, it’s worse, cuz I am craving sugar, so that’s happening. I am not sure how long it will take to feel better, but I hope it’s soon.

I appreciate finding this board and reading other people’s experiences withdrawing. It helps to know that I am not alone. I am certainly not all that special in my effort, we all have our stories and it helps to hear them. I appreciate you sharing yours and wish you all the same luck I am wishing myself. I sincerely don’t know how I am going to live without drinking since it’s been a part of me for over 1/2 my life — I don’t know WHO to be without it, but I’ll figure it out. I just want to feel better first.

February 19, 2014 at 1:07 pm
(371) Jennifer says:

Day 3 – haven’t drank. Very tired and irritable but my anxiety has greatly gone down. Typical binge drinker. In my twenties–really noticed a problem 3 years ago. Usually drink only on the weekends. Could go a month without alcohol but could also drink every day during the month. I have a problem. No question. But I would always justify well I have the job, the higher degreeÖi “function” (i know it’s all a lie i tell myself to drink) but here’s my real struggle–on the 5th day or so I feel GREAT, no anxiety, happy, energetic and i’m ready to start the cycle of drinking all over again. WHY?
WHY do I do it when i KNOW the next day will be a living hell and the few days after. It’s just insanity.

February 24, 2014 at 9:26 pm
(372) papps says:

My day 1: Cant sleep properly and was tired all day.
day 2: again was unable to sleep. less appetite . Was really in bad mood.
Its my day 3 and i am feeling headaches, urge to drink it again. But I know i will get out of it.
thanks alcoholism.about.com
Its really a great website.

March 15, 2014 at 1:49 pm
(373) Angelina says:

Hi I am into day 3 haven’t sleep since but find reading all of your comments helps. I only started drinking about 12 years ago, if 54 now but in the last six months it just got worse. My husband told me u are an alcoholic and I was horrified. Who me no way. Woke up the next day and said to him yes I am and will stop right now. It’s the not sleeping that’s the hardest. So I sit up in bed and read all your wonderful stories. This has made me strong and know that I can do it, I also know not to drink ever again, one glass and you are back onto it again. So keeping writing in keeps me motivated.

March 15, 2014 at 2:41 pm
(374) Angelina says:

It’s now 5am on day still haven’t slept for 72 hours. Don’t feel tired yet but back to work tmrw so see how we go. I have been hearing strange things, music but nothing is on in the house? Has anyone had that before? It’s the same song over and over again. WE ARE THE CAMPIONS! Just dawned on me that we all r just for admitting we have a problem and want to do something about it. I don’t want to be known as the alcoholic wife and mother . Thar was suppose to say day 3. Good luck to us campions we know we can do it. This helps so much. Thank u

March 16, 2014 at 4:25 am
(375) Angelina says:

Hi guys having a really bad day nearly had a drink but then I thought of u guys and I couldn’t let u all down. Funny that since I don’t know any of u but am very connected to u all and the struggle we all have. Still haven’t slept yet so don’t think that is helping me at all. My legs r weak and trembling can hardly walk but taking it one day at a time. Thank god for this site. Hope u are all doing well.

March 19, 2014 at 10:46 am
(376) Kate says:

Angelina – You are doing a great job! Stay strong, it DOES IT GET BETTER! Just hang in there! I KNOW you can do this!

April 2, 2014 at 4:38 am
(377) nicole says:

I start coughing at any point of the day I drink vodka every day smoke like a chimney my throat is scratchy all time also does anyone know what is going on?

April 14, 2014 at 3:53 pm
(378) Liberation says:

Day 5 and hurting and isolating, this page is such a blessing. God as my partner in this battle; will take it day by day.

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