That was part of my problem, I was addicted to excitement. Give me a crisis, give me a problem, give me grief - heck, give me abuse, just don't bore me to death!
But there finally came a point at which the chaos became overwhelming and I had no choice except to admit that my life had become unmanageable. I needed to try to put the brakes on the insanity.
The Gift of Serenity
It didn't happen overnight, and when it did start happening it seemed very strange. It took a lot of adjustment getting used to it. There were no problems to solve, nobody to "save." There was nothing to gripe and complain about. There was no crisis to dominate my life and thoughts. It was boring!But slowly, as I kept coming back to Al-Anon, I began to receive that priceless gift of serenity. I got to the point where I actually liked boring!
That's exactly what serenity is, a gift from a power greater than myself. That's why I have to pray for it, "God, grant me the serenity..." I was not capable of achieving on my own. It was a gift from God and the precious people I have met in the Al-Anon rooms.
-- BuddyT
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