A divorce at 23 years due to my drinking, did not stop me there! I had it made at that time, a husband - home and a great career which all ended due to alcoholism. I had my first arrest for domestic violence after being served divorce papers, then lost my job.
By 25 my second arrest - this time a felony - I attacked my boyfriend at the time, went through a window, and when the police came I went crazy and fought them. getting charged with assault and battery on three people, destruction of property etc.
My parents hired a lawyer, scared I would do time at such a young age! I got probation for two years, which stopped the drug use, except alcohol! It was not my problem (so I thought).
At 30 - living with my sister and her fiance (them in there 20s) I got a place and work in a new career I was functioning! I lived my life working and partying every-day and night. I meet my Mr. Wonderful, in a bar - who partied along with me.
When he left me, for a 22-year-old, I lost all respect for me, him, love etc. and hated the world and myself. I went out and got stupidly drunk along with a one night stand with a strange man! I ended up in jail; for my first drunk driving!
I Still Drank in Misery
I got fines and pretty much a little concerned, but still had no problem! My ex then wanted me back, and my problem became his as well, along with his teen son.The domestic violence calls were all the time - me being the one causing the disruption and him being the one to enable or provoke, not being able to handle the situation. So I was arrested a number of times and had to move out of the home. Even after the loss I was enduring, I still drank in misery! And still arrested for tearing an air conditioner out of the window and attacking the man i loved while his son watched.
One More Call to the Police
So I began to realize alcohol was a factor to my behavior and attempted to get help. A small six-week program educated me on alcoholism, and counseling. I could not accept it, but stayed sober for eight months. But not with serenity to myself. One more call to the police, sent me to the hospital to get help, I manipulated and did not check in.I walked into A.A. and found my new place in life! I rebuilt trust and suffered little opposed to a lot. My life was again becoming manageable, so I went back to a drink! It lead me to a second DUI, my problems just got worse. I knew the only way for me to get help was A.A. I lost my license and a numerous of court things to pay my consequences.
Tired of Being Sick
I was tired of being sick and struggling, so I made a positive choice and worked my program! I live with sobriety today. I still have problems, but am able to handle them in a way where it gets me positive results. I pray for all that suffer and my message, I hope, will help those.For the young women I see, I am a role model today. I have my career and am moving forward in my relationships. My boyfriend, his son and I ... including all family that was affected have been able to work on things as a whole.
Thank you to all who has helped and most of all God!
