Here I am still on step 4. Been here for weeks and weeks it will take to complete. The only thing I can say that has really helped was obtaining the questions to the step on the internet.
There must be 100 questions there and I am still in the childhood part. It is a very hard thing for me to do but I must do this. Being in my 40's I asked the questions, why dear God? Why go back to the past, the painful past. The past is gone, today is here tomorrow is, my hope.
This Step Can Be Painful
I see now why I must do this and continue to do so. My mother was an alcoholic and died at 49, my brother was an alcoholic and died at 48. Forty-seven is coming for me and I am not going. Looking in the past has made me understand now more than ever why I did marry an alcoholic.
This step is hard -- this step can be painful -- but I only ask that you do it. One hour a day is not that much time and write out the answers and be honest with yourself and remember God is with you if that pain goes right into your heart. And also remember we are all here for each other.
S.S.
