Trying to Avoid a Relapse
Nothing yet. I am in a really good mood, though. I have idle time and nothing to do until I start my outpatient program. Today it seemed as if thoughts of getting high and sitting on the porch in the…
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Thought I Could Have Just a Sip
A family vacation to Hawaii last week. The entire family loves happy hour. I get that. The week was miserably rainy. We were all stuck inside the condo. Mai Tais were flowing. Here is where it got me…
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My Own Poor Decision Making
The holidays is my excuse. It's a real tough time for recovering alcoholics. It was my first time at attempting to stay sober during this time of year. So, I haven't been able to do it yet.But I'm ve…
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I Couldn't Ask For Help
First and foremost, I wasn't working the program. At all. Sure, I was attending meetings regularly but I wasn't talking to my sponsor, I wasn't working the steps, I'm stubborn and refused to pray to …
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Afraid to Reach Out for Help
Depression and dwelling on the past. Low acceptance of my situationBeing alone afraid to reach out and tell others what I'm going through. Tricking myself to believe I can actually handle it. My son'…
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Relapsed After 20 Months
I got into a horrible fight with my boyfriend and found out he had been making me feel horrible for three years about all my mistakes no matter what I accomplished, always bringing them up, but come …
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I Thought I Should Be Able to Enjoy Myself
I think I picked up because it was 4th of July weekend, and I thought I should be able to have a cocktail and enjoy myself like everyone else. But I don't enjoy myself like everyone else. The next mo…
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I Thought Maybe I Could Drink Socially
I was just 4 months sober. I had a meeting outside of Tuscon, Arizona. I was on my own, away from friends, family, and AA support group. We were 20 miles from the nearest meeting, and I had no transp…
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Picked Up Again As a Means to Cope
Stress, inability to accept circumstances and feelings. I picked up again as a means to cope. I had gone crazy trying to make the relationship with the man I was involved with work. He was into drugs…
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You Can Find Any Excuse to Relapse
I think my last relapse was triggered by a period in rehab ironically to get treatment for a previous relapse. I had been to this relapse facility before and it helped tremendously (too good perhaps)…
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Thought Drinking Would Make Me Feel Better
I got sick back in February 2011. It was a bad illness and very debilitating. I still did not drink while sick for a month. The following month I became very depressed, thinking that I would never be…
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Stopped Going to Meetings
Lack of aa meetings, I stopped going a few months ago and thought i didn't need them anymore, I'm well enough to stay sober on my own. As soon as I stopped going to meetings and stopped working 12 st…
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Relapse After Relapse
Anger and resentment coupled with unrealistic expectations and the inability to deal/cope with the source of my anger. The "I'll show you!! by drinking and hurting myself!!" syndrome. Boredom, depres…
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Couldn't Drink One Lousy Drink
I can't pin point one specific thing. More like a combination of being so sure that I couldn't get caught up if I just had one lousy drink. You can and will get caught up and you will be worse off th…
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Self Medicating the Withdrawals From Pain Killers
Had major surgery for which I was recovering and rehabbing on high doses of pain killers. I could see that I was becoming dependent, so after about 6 weeks, I cut them off. The withdrawals were way w…
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Abuse Lead to Relapse
I do believe being in a abusive marriage helped get me sick, my husband was supposed to be a Christian man but treated me like i was a useless nothing. He had a severe anger problem and I believed it…
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Too Comfortable in My Sobriety
I believe that I just got too comfortable in my sobriety. Thought that I could have a couple of drinks and could control it. I was also diagnosed with bladder cancer and went on a pity party for myse…
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Stay Away From Pain Pills
I stopped going to meetings and or working any kind of AA program after about 5 years sober. I was really active until then. At about 15 years of being dry I got injured and started on pain meds. At …
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I Lost Everything
Not going to meetings, cheating on my wife, and not following the steps. I was in the military and I started listening to my friends who told me I could control my drinking. It didn't take long for m…
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Hitting the Reset Button in My Head
I was stuck in a toxic dead-end relationship and it was the only way to hit the reset button in my head. I believe it was also a cry for help because I had already lost two sponsors and stopped worki…
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In a State of Denial
I relapsed because I was still in a state of denial regarding my alcoholism. I was emotionally unable to deal with the onslaught of reality that therapy and sobriety were creating. Unable to admit th…
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Stressed and Harboring Resentment
There were several key factors preceding my relapse. One was the fact that I was not able to concentrate on the meetings I was attending. Another is that I was not getting the proper amount of rest. …
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Letting My Alcoholic Mind Take Over
Not sharing what was going on with my sponsor - keeping a secret because of ego reasons - skipping meetings, avoiding contact with my sponsor, not praying, and working the steps backwards. Nothing un…
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A Vicious Cycle
I believe that I started up again due to stress of the times but then again other influences were a factor. I was laid off a few months ago under what I consider shady circumstances and attempting to…
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Didn't Want to Be Alone
I just didn't want to be alone, I do things with my daughter, like exercise, go for walks, lunch, dinner She thinks I'm to dependent on her, but I love her dearly, I don't have any friends but her. …
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Too Busy for Meetings
I got too "busy" to go to meetings. I decided after nearly 10 years of sobriety to work full time and get my master's degree at night. I didn't listen to my sponsor when she advised me to take it eas…
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Holiday Parties
Depression from holidays and family parties where a lot of drinking was going on. My wife died two and a half years ago and every year her family and my family pick the same day to have their holiday…
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Some Call Me a Miracle
Because I was angry, and not content within myself, so went back to boozing. This decision led to having the DTs 3 times, and several hospital trips before I got sober once and for good. Now, my val…
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Triggered by Complacency
My relapse(s) are mostly triggered by complacency. Once I start to feel too good and life starts to get better, I am lulled into believing everything is okay and I think I can start drinking again an…
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