Crashed my motorcycle
- Today is the day I decided to quit drinking. Last night I went out after drinking a good amount, which I have done many times before. This night ended with me crashing my motorcycle. My bike is in pretty bad condition and I'm a little hurt myself. Luckily I did not hurt anyone else, end up in jail, or even have killed myself. It was the biggest wake up call I could get. Its not even close to worth it.
- —Guest jeffrey
I Need Help
- Hi I could really use some genuine answers and no criticizing. This is really my life. Since my break up 4 years ago I have drank alcohol EVERY SINGLE DAY. No lie! for the past few months now I have to force my self to drink it because I figure it is a habit plus my body craves it. The only thing is that now I can hardly stand the taste and and it is like a chore to drink the crap! Every night It's like a ritual. last night I decided not to drink it and I did just fine. I am not sure what tonight holds for me but my plan is to simply quit. Hey, I know it sounds ridiculous that a person can simply quit but I've done it before unintentionally 5 years ago I quit cocaine and a few years before that ecstasy. Both of which I was on hard, so whose to say this won't be the same deal. The only difference is that with alcohol I always felt destine to be addicted to it, since my mother died from the very same thing. If anyone has experienced this and they have any clues to what the future might bring.
- —Guest Ashley
- I just want to quit alcohol. Please help me I am loosing my life. I feel alone and helpless. Anxiety is there.
- —Guest roy
I had enough of the chaos
- And so did my children and the other people who love me. I was a binge drinker and drank 24/7 for as many days as I could, until I was too ill to consume any more alcohol. I did this on and off for 15 years until I finally had enough - my kids deserve better and so do I. I love waking up and remembering the previous night, not having to piece together what kind of stupid crap I'd done, scrutinizing the phone bill to see who iId called and at what time. I like living an honest life and not being a slave to a bottle of poison.
I'm afraid to be let down again
- I am well aware that I have a drinking problem. Every time I drink I feel so bad about myself the next day that I don't for several days or even a week can go by. Then I get the obsession and I forget I'm an alcoholic who always wants more. I'm 31. my life is at a good point. I quit smoking, I work out and have a 6 month baby. I am an amazing mom but I drink now and than and I shouldn't. I always go over the limit and regret the next day. I get so stupid when I drink and I always want more. I don't drink everyday and can even hold off for a week or so, but than I crave a drink and bang, I forget I'm an alcoholic. I want to quit. I am ready, but seriously I am afraid.
- —Guest julia
- My 5year old daughter came to me and hugged me after i got home from work.. i walked to the fridge for a soda and the bottle of jack.. made me a drink... went to the bedroom and grabbed my smokes and went outside.. my daughter clinging onto me as im making my way to the front door to go outside n smoke n drink... once outside i lite up and start drinking... she stopped and looked at me with those big brown puppy dog eyes and said... "daddy i dont want to to drink and smoke". intregued, i asked why? and what she said changed my life forever... "i dont want you to drink and smoke because i love you, and i dont want you to die. new daddys are mean." i know it dont sound like much. but when everything you do is for the childs well being and you take very good care of her. it means a lot. well it hit me straight in my heart. i wanted to cry but i didnt... i got extremely drunk. and when i woke up the next morning. i didnt smoke. went to work and came home. grabbed a glass of water. thats that.
- —Guest daniel
- I've been drinking most of my adult life. I married young and had children by the time I was 20. I watched my single friends going to clubs and partying, and I felt left out. I associated drinking with having a good time. Now I drink alone, daily, and large quantities. I switched from wine to vodka as it was cheaper and easier to disguise. My behavior is out of control; volatile anger, blubbering crying fits, depression, and a lack of interest in life. It has put a strain on my marriage, and I'm afraid I may have caused irreparable damage to my relationship with my husband. My step-children are afraid of me. I don't want to lose the love of my life. I embarrass myself in social situations because I can't control my drinking. I blackout and have no memory in the morning of what happened the night before. Last night I had several people over dinner and I drank so much I vomited and then passed out, leaving dinner on the stove and the guests to fend for themselves. I need help!
- —Guest Janet
Still the same
- I lost my wife to cancer in 1994. I went from alcohol to drugging, to rehab, to finally leaving the state I lived in. I would do return-visits about 4 times a year to get "lite-up" about ten years. Now I'm responding to this network because I missed work yesterday because of drinking again. It's the third time this year, thank goodness for sick days because I really need the money. The alcohol just sneaks up on me. Before I know it, it's too late. Time to quit it!
- —Guest NoBodyCares
My need to stop
- I just celebrated 10 years of sobriety, that could very well have seen me dead by now. I owe my life to AA. Dr. Bob and Bill W. are in heaven looking down on how their act of survival has been introduced to so many hopeless people. My only wish, though not needed to spread the word. Would be that courageous and dedicated sober people could take their messages of hope to school age children to try to help before their lives end in death, jail, or rehabs that many, many, don't work as well as an actual meeting with our new family. Thank you Bill W. and Dr. Bob, and all the other tireless supporters who in 2003, showed me the right path to follow.
- —Guest Brenda M
Why I Quit...
- Growing up my parents allowed me to drink as a kid. Just an ounce or 3 before bed...Then a cooler at parties. As a teenager i did not drink. But when i hit around 25 i needed it to do my job. That's when i began abusing alcohol. Fast forward to forty...I just am so tired of being tired. Drinking is draining on me physically and mentally. It no longer "feels good" to me. It's hard because it "feels" like or "seems" like everyone around me drinks socially. And i want to be social. I'm doing just fine without alcohol. I have more energy and it seems people are still finding me fun to be around. Life just makes more sense to me sober than it ever did wasted. I feel like i want to live life again. I'm happy.
- —Guest Beauty1840
I coulnd't control myself
- I decided to stop drinking for good. Although I didn't drink but once per month, but when I did I drank for good. First when I got drunk it felt good and I tried to fix my anxiety in social situations with alcohol. But now I've realized that it only harms me and makes me more anxious when sober. I'd start the evening with drinking few beers with friends and feeling "good", "This night will be much fun!" Then we'd hit the club. But in the end, the result was usually me gambling my money, loaning from my friends because didn't have luck in blackjack table, being rude to people, losing my motor skills, blackout and then passing out. The next morning I gathered little pieces of my memory and oh the shame and depression I felt when the puzzle of the night started to form in my brain. I want to be that going, social and funny man but I've realized that using alcohol to get there is really not the way. It's been a week now, there are lot's of other enjoyable things in life than getting wasted
- —Guest Male 23
It just can't go on
- I have bounced in and out of drug and alcohol abused for the 20 years. Everytime I stop, I feel great and start again and usually without problems.... BUT, I have lost friends, lovers, respect, love, jobs, money and this list could go on and on. Yesterday my boss, after I was late again, said 'please reduced your drinking or your fired. I live in China and can't afford to lose this job and return to England broke again (yes again)..... So this is it (again).... At the very least I need DRAMATIC reduction. My behavior when drunk is too sh** to admit too. Why am I still alive? I don't know, but I'll die if I don't get this in check and as I ride a motorbike... I'll probably kill my gf on the back of the bike too. It's time, my body and brain are pleading me to sort this out...... NOW IS THE TIME.
- —Guest Laowai
- I began drinking WAY too young. I just turned 40. I drink, every, stinking, day. I know I have lost out on time with my kids and my 16 year marriage is a wreck, (although that has factors beyond drinking). I waste time and money on just drinking. Not too mention my WEIGHT because of it! YUCK. So, now I'm 40. What do I want the next half of my life to be like? Still drinking? Being bound by the bottle? Can't pick my kids up at 11pm because I'll have been drinking? What a LOSER mom maneuver that is! My poor kids. I used to be able to handle it. Bills were paid on time, shit was taken care of. Life was good. Now, everything takes work that I don't want to do. Sometimes it is just, screw all, and I DRINK. Often it is that. I want clarity on myself. and in myself. To know that every decision I make is MY own. I hate that drinking is bad for you. I really like drinking and smoking cigarettes together. A lot. And know that if one doesn't kill me, the other one will.
- —Guest Lizbeth
Seeing my Sister's Face
- I'm 43 now. Just over 15mos sober! Gave drinking my ALL for a good 25 yrs. the last 10 of them I was drunk every single day! For the last 4 of them I was drunk bf I went to work in the morning. When I got to work, as a bar manager I steadily drank all day long! Sometimes blacked out bf I got off work! Got carried out of work mid-shift. Some days didnt remember going to work! I was destroying my life! My memories of it all make me extremely nauseous! I hated waking in the morn. Hated everything! But wouldn't die! Couldn't quit, didnt know how!! Looked like death. One day I woke up in the ER to my sisters face. She was scared, mad sad, disgusted, embarrassed! I got all this fr 1 look at her face. Went straight from th ER upstairs to rehab! The story is long! And the past is history!! I never drank again!! And I never will! I know this with all of my heart!! I've been given, and have taken this opportunity that I sooo did not deserve and now love life!
- —Guest LadyA
- I'm 30 years old and I was a binge drinker for 7 years (Average 1-4 times per month). I never considered myself to be an alcoholic. My drinking never had a negative impact on my life. But when I suffered my first acute withdrawal episode (no DTs, hallucinations or seizures fortunately) that lasted almost 2 weeks I realized that my drinking was starting to affect my health negatively. That's when I decided to quite for good.
- —Guest jou