Grieving was more important!
- I was drinking to mask the pain of losing my partner of 10 yrs. He passed away 5-24-11. I drank a liter of vodka daily immediately after his death. The last drunk that I had was terrible....I was running low on funds and decided to drink mouthwash because I heard ppl. in detox talking about getting drunk on it. In less than 1yr. I was in detox twice, in the psych. unit six times after six failed attempts at suicide, and woke up in the E.R. so many times that I have lost count. Now remember that this is in a years time..I am 32 now..the highest B.A.C. was at .74..I was "the walking dead". I heard this from the nursing staff..I was giving 21 "banana bags" in 7 days. The pain was always there, the grief was always there, and frankly, I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have been through withdrawls that kept me drinking...shaking, hallucinations, retching blood, all extremely unpleasant! I put myself in treatment, and I am in an extention of treatment for the next 3mnt
- After years of going in and out of detox centers,and living on streets and having the dts, i made decision to make staying sober my #1 priority in life and now am in a.a and much healthier and happier. im lucky i survived the dts which hospitalized me and for alcoholics like me: the first! drink is most dangerous one
- —Guest daniel didonna
Took me one year to really get over it.
- The stories here really sound familiar to me. I think I've lived most of them. I started drinking as a self esteem crutch in my late teens. I had so many warnings that it was time to stop. Blackouts became the norm not the exception. Humiliated myself regularly. Lost friends and jobs. Had a DUI. Still, I kept going with drink because it was really all I had. Finally I moved to a Muslim country in the Middle East for work. You can get booze here but it's restricted and I really couldn't be bothered putting in the effort to get it. After one year sober I found I didn't miss booze at all, but that the memories of past humiliations came back to me all the time with full force. I can't remember anything pleasant about booze now. Many different things work for different people, but that's what worked for me. One year sober to break old habits and build new ones. If you're reading this and you're still drinking, just know that there there is a way out for you and a better life waiting.
- —Guest Iron Mike
- Slowly it got me,my 20sto30s had a wine sometimes lived with my x husband who was even back then drinking a liter or more of red a night .emotional abuse and sexual abuse ,got the courage to leave him when my daughter was 5amd my triplet boys 15 months.Was happy soon after met and married second husband .Started drinking with him and it was a couple of years until had a child .After 5th child and another year or two couldn't cope with depression one drink turned into two and slowly after another 5years a bottle .Another divorce teenage boys depression and drinking.Blackouts,migraines ,bad days .5days sober and looking forward to my future .
- —Guest Dj
Living without alcohol
- Because of my health and physical, emotional, mental and spiritual welfare. I have kept a normal stable level of these conditions, so AAs give wonderful results if someone in reality needs to quit alcoholics drinking.
- —Guest victor manuel ramirez
I Want to be Healthy Happy
- For years I've questioned whether i was an alcoholic, and when i asked my DR , she said i wasnt. My boyfriend says I'm not and he doesn't drink. But I feel like crap the next day because I can't seem to drink less than 3 glasses every time i go out. And sometimes, I go out more than once a week (usually when I'm stressed or having anxiety) and I always feel like crap for 3 days after. And then I eat crap and smoke cigarettes and flirt too much. And during the days following, I don't exercise, I eat more crap, and I mentally torture myself. "Recreation, entertainment or social time" for years it was darts, then dancing, now karaoke but the evening always ends with me drinking too much and worrying about driving, tempting myself, eating unhealthy snacks, sore lungs from smoking, and a foggy brain for 3 days afterwards. And lets not forget the lack of ambition and self-esteem that follows. I still want to go out -but I won't cause I feel better when I don't.
- —Guest Darla
I've started to slur really quickly.
- I have started to slur my speech after only one or 2 drinks and drink nearly every day. My family are worried about me. I'm trying to give up for one month and today is my second day.
Today not tomorrow
- I am done and I hope too never be reliant on alcohol ever again. My will power is at it's highest after going to my lowest for a while. I hope that I can manage my down time better and be a more positive person. I am tired of letting my family down ...I love them and the best way to show it is to make the change today not tomorrow!
- —Guest SA 1968
- Out of control! 24 years ago I went to treatment. Been sober ever since. It's been just great!
- —Guest lora
- When you drink, at some point you start to realize that you're falling behind the pack. You begin to realize that you're just another schmuck that didn't see it coming. You start to be able to spot an alcoholic in a crowd because you know the look from in the mirror. The older guy at the supermarket checkout looks a little sad at you when he rings you up for your beer and wine on Monday night. There comes a time that you realize you're not a unique and special case when it comes to drinking. You acknowledge the stuff you've known all along but thought didn't apply to you. You see how bad it's going to get. It all makes you sick enough to break free.
- —Guest Marcus
To much drama
- I had been having marriage problems as my husband had been cheating - I drank to make myself feel better but when I drank I got upset and there were numerous arguments and embarrassing scenes. It was humiliating and upsetting for my kids. I stopped 3 months ago and life is much happier.
- —Guest Jane
Its over now
- I am 35 now and have been drinking since high school, I have been trying to stop for over two years, I usually binged during the weekends. My drinking had been causing some discord in my marriage as well as wasted days (I could sleep most part of Sunday), The drinking had also led to several sexual episodes with strange women details for which I could not remember later. The last straw was when my wedding ring was stolen by a woman I had entertained and had to lie to my wife that it got lost which made me feel very guilty. I cannot even start about the money spent. I am happy to do away with the lies, the infidelities, extravagance, lost time, denial, toxic friends, guilt et al.
- —Guest Malik
- I have read most of the stories on here and it makes me what to quit drinkin myself. I've been drinking now for 5yrs almost everyday. Im 27yrs old. i have recently gotten into a Relationship and the Woman i'm with, she does not like the fact that i drink everyday when i get off of work. She has treatned to leave me if i dont slow down or stop for good. She doesn't mind if i drink every once in awhile but everyday she says< is to much for here and she says< that she don't want to live her life with an acholic. I understand completely. I love this girl. This is going to be my Test Either Quit or Lose her. Im Going to try my most hardest to quit not only for her but for myself too. Wish Me luck, it Starts today!
- —Guest Frosty27
- They called me because of the way I walked now, its the way I feel sometimes
- —Guest Hughney
- I quit because i don't care for the lifestyle i was leading, the double life, and the disgusting behavior i indulged in after a night of "letting off some steam". i was not a happy drunk. the more i drink, the more verbally abusive i get and the less the remember until the next day..then the remorse, apologies, etc. when i was drinking alone, i gave up reading, i didn't do the things i loved and it never made me relax, i cannot stand hangovers, i can't stand the disorientation i feel and the inability to get with the day. the next day is a lost day and i am tired of losing days.
- —Guest guestsharon