- I have drank heavily as long as I can remember. It's always been a problem, leading to jail time, lost friends, embarrassment, but mostly shame and regret. I was recently sober for four months and it was the most peaceful time I can remember. I then decided that one beer here and there wouldn't hurt. but it did, leading up to more beers every time. I recently broke up with my longtime girlfriend and went on a binge all night. hitting bar after bar and hitting on anything with boobs. I woke up today with the worst feeling of shame and regret. I know I can't drink at all or it will lead me to problems, but always convince myself that iI can control my drinking, which I know I can't.
- —Guest anon
- Been drinking heavily with my husband since we married 5 years ago. We typically have 8 to 9 beers a night, sometimes more. Lately, I've started blacking out almost every time I drink. I'm also becoming angry and violent. My husband and I get in shouting matches, and I say very mean things that I have vague or no recollection of. We've been doing this so long now, I'm not sure how we can do anything else. I'm 38 and I fear for my health and future.
- —Guest jules
The cost was climbing
- In NZ, GST was increased alongside all luxury items being taxed at a higher rate. I knew this would be a permanent tax hike, so decided to pack it in. I wasn't enjoying the side effects of overdosing on alcohol anyway! Really depressed and having 'ending it all' thoughts. Much happier without it very quickly. No regrets more than half a year later.
Just came to a realization
- i received a DUI and am needing to quit for treatment. Since I was 18 I have been drinking. Until I was about 25, I was drinking nearly 12 beers every night. It started to taper off as I got more established in my career and body not quite so quick to recover. Now at 38 I drink once or on rare occasions twice a week, but it turns into a sun coming up 20-30 light beer adventure with hangovers lasting a couple days. I have never considered myself a "true alcoholic" as I have seen people drinking mouthwash and other stuff just to get the feeling and go to work, and just need it all the time. How can a guy who just binges once a week be like that?! I have already slowed my drinking down, not ramping it up? Well after just entering this treatment, and finding out about the ETG UA's that could test up to 5-8 days (especially the amounts i drink) I found out i cant cheat on them. I had a sudden realization, if I can't quit for such an important purpose, i have a problem! Joining AA now!
- —Guest the scoot
Couldn't take that empty feeling
- Though my glass was full, had a loving girlfriend, work, and everything else. I could not live with that knotted, lonely empty feeling inside. I had been in and out of A.A. for ten years, but knew that the 12 step program was the only solution for me as I had tried everything else. I am now 2 months sober and though I struggle at times as life still throws problems at me, but I can now face these sober. If you are suffering through drinking give A.A. a go; it may be the best thing you might do.
- —Guest dave
- Dear it'stime, I am praying for you. You are going in the right direction. God bless you It will be easier to go forward when your mind is clear.
- —Guest fish
It's time to get a life
- I've been depressed over many things lately, but alcohol is not going to fix things. It's just time to do this for myself, my daughter, and maybe then I can find a future with someone to love. I hope I can do this. It won't be easy. It has a hold like nothing else. But that's why I wrote this down - to be accountable. Please pray for me
- —Guest It's TIME
- I'm broken and alcohol makes it worse, even when it helps. I'm done. When I'm sober I'm really together, but lately I can't get sober. I'm so done.
- —Guest i'm exhausted and broken
Good Results from a Horrific Experience
- Recently I had an extremely painful exchange of e-mails between my former wife and my two daughter - the e-mails were vitriolic. My response was to go home and drink, which I did for several days, drinking wine and, much more than I usually do, which frankly grown to one-to-bottles every night and sometimes more on the weekend. During this binge I wrote some awful things, things I would never have said had I not been drinking. I had been contemplating quitting drinking for several months; I quit smoking 6 months ago and returned to a good exercise plan of 40 minutes a session, 4 days a week. While the exercising really made me feel good, and not smoking was just wonderful, my drinking always left feeling terrible the next. This most recent round of drinking, and the results it produced, create absolutely dedicated to quit drinking, right now, tomorrow, and forever. I have accepted the fact I am an a closet alcoholic and if I do not quit it will ruin my life. Sober for 1 day.
Why I'm quitting
- I'm 31 this year and can't really remember much of the last decade. My father is an alcoholic and used to play in bands, I used to go and watch him play so there was always drink present. Even when I was about 10 years old - In my head I thought drinking and being social went together, and had a very immature attitude towards alcohol. I failed college and university as I was usually too drunk to go to lectures and have never been able to hold down one of my many low paid jobs because of drinking. Even getting hospitalized numerous times, bankruptcy and a failed suicide attempt didn't stop me for long. This morning my girlfriend of 3 years found a stash of empty cans which I'd hidden, and I've been doing this for as long as I can remember. If I don't stop now and stop for good I'm finished, the past 15 years I've been a slave to it and I just can't keep kidding myself that it's not a problem. The legacy my bad choices have left answers that one. Time to move on. Best of luck to all of you
- —Guest Jim
Ruined my health
- I had to quit drinking or die, that simple! Drinking put me on streets and ruined my health and I had the DTs more than once! Now have 8 years sober! Good decision.
- —Guest daniel didonna
- I quit drinking because I had to. I had destroyed my life, ruined my marriage, my job was on the line, another impaired charge and I was too cowardly to kill myself. It was a simple choice stop drinking or die. I went to detox, forced by a 4 foot something nun to make a choice. Attend an AA meeting or use my stubbornness and false pride to continue killing myself. Went to my 1st AA meeting where I listened to a certified nutcase (he had the paper to prove it). Have been sober daily since. Those daily bits of sobriety have added up to more than 28 years.
- —Guest plain Drunk
Why did I?
- I did because it had gotten so far, and I could not stop. I was 22 and drinking about 4 liters of hard alcohol a week. Pancreatitis set in along with a fatty liver, so I was hospitalized and went through detox. Haven't had a drink in 10 months!
- —Guest Jordan
I Almost Destroyed Him
- After plowing drink after drink into my mouth and I couldn't get my boyfriend to act like nor do what I wanted I came close or rather my drunken state of mind said "Have sex with him then file a RAPE Charge" I in a drunken state for 3 continuous days and I was coming up with the most inhumane and cruel plots to destroy this man, the man I professed to Love. Instead I went to rehab. Thank you, God!
- —Guest Ruby
- Dear yippers, I was a weekend binge drinker too. It became more often. I can drink whenever I want. Eventually you get tired of the hangovers and the constant need to buy more alcohol. Sounds like you are there now. I would highly recommend that you drink one less drink each time. This gives your mind and body time to get used to the idea. You can spare one drink. It will make you feel good about yourself to set this small goal each time. Please try it. I feel for you. Getting started is hard. So ease into it. When you are used to that, increase it to 2 less drinks. It's not an "all or nothing proposition", it is progress. I wish the best for you. I am looking forward to hearing from you in a couple of days. I am excited for you to do this. I say this with love to you.
- —Guest fish