Sick and Tired
- I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Laying in bed, drunk and depressed; just watching the ceiling fan blades go round & round praying that God would put me out of my misery and take me. This was not the life my family wanted for me. This was not the person my parents raised me to be. I couldn't do it on my own so I asked for help, again - but this time I listened. Four years ago yesterday I began my new life and although very hard at times, I wouldn't trade it for anything. Nothing is worth going back to that life of pure hell and misery. Nothing.
Why I Quit Drinking
- I quit drinking because I was tired of living the way I was. A victim to myself. I was tired of my kids seeing me drunk, and sick from drinking. I was tired of the way drinking made me do stupid stuff like quitting jobs, quitting school, not remembering who I was with and what I had done with them. I was tired of looking stupid and pitiful, waking up with hangovers and hanging with people who seemed to like only the drunk me. I was tired of feeling like I was in hell. Tired of myself being ignorant thinking that I needed alcohol to be me. alcohol is a poison, and the devil. I don't ever want to drink again for the rest of my life.
- —Guest Laney
Alcohol hides your health
- I quit drinking because it was too much of my life. While drinking, I would not go to the doctor or dentist regularly. I wanted to spend any time off work, sitting at home getting drunk. I only went on an emergency basis. So I had no true picture of my overall health. If you go to the doctor's obviously having drank the night before, you will only be treated like you are an alcoholic. Maybe there is a different problem that needs to be treated and will remain undiagnosed. Since I quit, I have found real health issues. Who knows how long I have had them? Not me. The doctor said "you need to pay better attention." I do. That is why I will not drink again. I now realize that my health needs to be the priority. Some conditions can not be treated while drinking, especially due to medications that are safe when sober. I thought a lot of the symptoms were due to hangovers (memory loss, poor balance, vertigo, headaches) but finding out they are neurological problems that can be treated.
- —Guest fish
I hit my husband!
- I didn't used to drink a lot, but when I did I always went overboard, couldn't seem to stop at just two drinks. Twenty-five days ago I drank too much & my husband was also drunk. When we went to bed, he was running on about something and just didn't stop. He (or should I say the alcohol) made me so angry, it was like something snapped in my brain and I just started punching him. I'd never behaved like this before. I went to sleep in the spare bedroom that night, didn't get much sleep. When I woke in the morning I saw that I had cut my husbands face. I was horrified with my behavior and vowed from that day on (29 Jan 2011) that I had to stop drinking. I have now been sober for 25 days and going strong. Problem is is that my husband binge drinks on weekends, so it sure is going to be challenging. We play a lot of sport, so hopefully that will keep me going and I pray to God every day to help me. I've quite smoking for 4 years now, and now it's time to stop drinking. Not 1 drink ever! Good luck & God Bless to All!
- Dear marc, it will get easier. Each day of withdrawal, you get further away from the harmful effects of the alcohol. The alcohol will be getting out of you. Sweating and itching are signs of this (vomiting). God is above us. If God if for us, who can be against us? No one. Put your faith in God. My mantra is "Oh Lord, my God, in you do I put my trust." Keep saying that to yourself, because it is true. Prayers to you.
- —Guest fish
Turing it over to
- God, he is how I will be able to conquer my demons.
- —Guest Marc
Big time problems
- Trying to get off the beer, but I get so seriously sick in the morning. Haven't had a 3 for 3 years, start up next week and I'm having big time problems with DT's throwing up, motivation, confidence, seizures and what not. Please pray for me, because I have the confidence in God but not me.
- —Guest Marc
Just thought it was time..
- It's like that scene in Forrest Gump where after weeks of running, he stops and say "I'm kind of tired..." I was tired of waking up and feeling guilty for getting drunk (even though I didn't do anything wrong the night before). Also, I know that I lose weight and am generally healthier when I don't drink. The scary part is that it's so final. I have about 40 years of life left, I guess that's a lot to face without booze. Then again, it'll be nice not worrying about driving or saying or doing something that I'll regret later on.
- —Guest Double Breasted Shoes
- This is the second day I have not had a drink and surprisingly I do not feel too bad. I have averaged 2 bottles of wine a night for the last 6 years and 3 each day on the weekend and I have decided to quit completely. I have embarrassed myself long enough and have lost a lot of things things that are important to me. I feel it will be the most difficult thing I will ever face but reading these blogs inspires me to keep going. If we all keep writing we all keep doing!
- I'm 48. Never thought I was a drunk until recently. When I start - I can't stop. I feels so good to feel good and finally let loose of your feelings. Does that that me a drunk? Maybe so, but I am such a good person. My only wish is the golden rule "Do onto others as you would have done to you" Maybe I didn't quote that correctly but I hope you know what I mean
Scared of alcohol
- Like many of the blogs on here I was raised in an alcoholic environment. Started drinking in college and had too many instances of embarrassing behavior to count. The plain truth is that some of us aren't set up to drink alcohol. Once I get to drinking it is all downhill from there. Bruises, loss of memory, driving drunk, poor example of a father. 12 steps later I don't ever want to drink again. Scared to death of the stuff and that is just the way I plan to keep it!
- —Guest Paul
The one mom depended on
- I have been around alcohol all my life. My biological father who I never see anymore drank himself stupid. He even tried to kill himself when my mom told him she was going to leave if he didn't quit drinking. So he was drunk all the time and my mom worked all the time so us 5 kids would have something to eat and wear. I helped her out as much as I could and it was hard because I was only 11 when my youngest sister was born. It was way back then when I decided that I would never let alcohol control my life. I saw what it did to my family. I was forced to grow up faster than I should have and never really got a chance to be a kid. I can say that the experience of helping my mom as much as I did has helped me out because now I am a proud mother of 2. I drink on occasion but I have only drank once in the past 2 years.
- —Guest Danielle
It Is Done
- Alcoholism runs in my family; I enjoy drinking too much and find it next to impossible under most social circumstances to have no more than a few. It enables me to live in substandard fashion, has been the cause of a great many errors in my life, is killing me physically, keeping me from saving the kind of money I should be and from doing what really ought and needs to be done. Have struggled with it with limited success for years (am now 31), and last Thursday after having not drank for a week, I went out all night and threw up a fair bit of bright red blood the following afternoon. Didn't scare me, but I said to myself at that moment it is done. Alcohol addiction will hold you back, isolate you from all that is good in life, and finally kill you, hurting those few people that remain inseparable to you. It is as simple as that, and the knowledge of this is of no value without appropriate action. We smart ones tend to drink a lot. As for myself, I'm out. Good luck to all.
- —Guest GinRicky
New Years Day
- I woke up New Years Day $800 poorer because an escort stole my wallet. I was so drunk, I called a date line and was letting the booze talk for me. The next morning I was broke, hung over and couldn't face my Grandparents. So I am reading responses of people and everyone has inspired me to be sober. I drink a case of beer every weekend cause I shelter my life indoors. Not oneo f my friends have ever been to my house. This sucks! I'm 30 have a great job and love golf, but all I do is drink to pass time by. All of you and God is with me this year Thank you.
- —Guest Michael
- I've always let advice go in one ear and out the other. Maybe later I would actually incorporate a little of it into my life. When my loved one asked me to quit, I ignored it as usual. But in the back of my mind, the thought was growing. Began to be impossible to drink with abandon. The knowledge that someone I loved really felt I had a problem was there in the back of my mind. Some kind of pride or defiance welled up in me. I thought "of course I can quit". Then I realized that the idea of no alcohol was life-changing and would be a complete change of routine. It would be hard. I do have a problem. I began to buy less alcohol. Tried to buy enough to make it through the night, but not too much. I have actually walked to the store in the middle of the night because I ran out. One drink and my judgment is out the window. Began sipping on the drinks and making them last twice as long, three times as long etc. Once my eyes were open that I was hurting someone else, I couldn't close the
- —Guest fish