Recovery with G.O.D.
- For Guest Bud, hi Bud, I got sober in 1973 at the age of barely 26, a blackout drinker with two DUI arrests. I got tricked into an AA meeting and I liked what I heard. Not the God stuff but Good Orderly Direction and to choose a HP of my understanding. Well, I don't understant HP at all so I chose the group. This is me 37 years of solid sobriety later. Still Agnostic, still sober, still AA. I love being with people who understand me and love me despite my flaws, no strings attached. Try it for 60 days, be open minded. I live happy and free now, so can you.
- —Phunmun
God
- The loneliness kicked in so bad I threw myself into a small alter I had at one time, pleading with God "help me." Crying and feeling sorry for myself I walked over to a mirror asking Him to forgive me for all I have ever done, I took the Bible and asked Him to answer me thru the Bible. I opened it to part of a Psalm 4, which said "When you lie in silence on your beds, offer the right sacrifices to the Lord, and put your trust in Him. I made a call and went to AA. I have 20 years clean. "Addiction is a misplaced search for God," Carl Jung said. The solution is spiritual in nature, the AA books says.
- —unconditionalLve
On again off again
- Everyone who has posted here I can relate to what you all said, waking up in the morning wanting to swallow a bullet some times. There is hope for all of us. The one thing one man said to a group of us was all we had to do is stop drinking, so simple but yet so hard. Good luck to us all, take one day at a time. Thanks for the ear.
- —Guest joe
Overwheleming Desire
- Some of the things I have found helpful for me personally to take away the desire for alcohol is the following; I know we all are different and of course that is the challenge. What works for me may not work for you. If I do certain things on a daily basis, my desire for alcohol is less. I won't say it goes away but these things helped me. First, I exercise. This is necessary for stress and anxiety relief. This should be done on a daily basis early in the morning. Walk, jog or run for 30 minutes early in the morning. After the exercise, eat a healthy breakfast with high protein or food that will raise your blood sugar level. Eat three meals each day consisting of fruits, vegetables and calcium. Sleep 8 hours each nighty which means going to bed and rising at the same time, taking your vitamins and supplements and keep your body hydrated (water). Going to AA on a regular basis may work for you even though the same old stories never worked for me. For me it all boils down to self discipline.
- —Guest Bob
Overwhelming desire
- The strange thing about my addiction to alcohol is the fact that I can exercise six days a week and not think about a drink and suddenly I have this overwhelming desire for a drink which leads to a binge. No kidding, I run, jog and walk about 42 miles a week, go to the gym and congratulate myself. But all of a sudden, I have this overwhelming desire for a drink that consumes me to the point of hitting the ABC store. Here we go! Then I hate myself. Each morning when I awake and look in the mirror, I say "You are looking at the problem." I wish there was an answer.
- —Guest Bob
Grateful
- I have read all these many responses. I would say that I am speechless at the pain that is out there but that would not be quite right. As selfish as this answer is, I must say that my initial reaction to all these statements was that I am so glad to be past all this. I have now been sober 10 years and I guess as time goes by, the memory fades but reading these posts I remember living every word on this site. My heart truly goes out to you all because I know the misery describe here first hand. I did see a comment that has stuck out at me when someone mentioned the word "functional." I want to tell all that there is no such thing! Drug addiction and alcoholism is a progressive malady. It has a beginning and it goes somewhere, to an ending. It begins small, progresses and heads somewhere. That destination is our deaths unless something happens to arrest the progression. We start with a thimble and end drinking a gallon, understand? Recovery works, good luck!
- —Guest Tony Baker
Getting back to AA
- What helped me most is being welcomed back into AA, redoing the 12 steps, and becoming reminded by the steps how to handle life on life's terms.
- —Guest ltrautman402
It's getting a bit out of hand
- I am just after a crazy bender again this weekend. I always promise myself and my boyfriend to stop drinking and the longest I last is a week! I always think well, I will just have a few with my friends and go home. But that never happens. Like last weekend getting kicked out of the pub for being so twisted drunk. And usually I'm lady like. But you should see me then! I'm so sad for treating myself and other people this way. I want it to stop ASAP!
- —Guest Linda
Need To Stop
- I have been drinking every night since around 24. I am turning 40 this year and pound down between 12-16 beers every night. I made it a month without drinking a few years ago. I felt so good during that sober time and somehow slipped back into hell. I must stop this madness.
- —Guest Thomas
Once I start I can't stop
- I only drink Saturday nights to go to the club with my husband. It makes me feel like I can do anything, but after only a few drinks I get so drunk I get aggressive and I can't stop drinking more until I blackout. This is my first time sharing my experience. I ended up in the hospital yesterday for alcohol intoxication. I don't know how, why or when I got there after drinking all Saturday night and Sunday morning. I'm so scared to lose my family, my husband and my son. I can't deal with myself anymore. I'm so depressed I need help.
- —musclegirltheo
Desire to stop
- Rehab Program and followup with AA plus a desire to stop drinking for me was No. 1 before all others.
- —Guest Jack
In need of non-religious treatment
- Today I woke up after a 4-day binge and found myself completely overcome with anxiety and a depressed feeling. Last night I noticed that I was getting red blotches on my face and chest while drinking wine after seven beers of 7.4% alcohol. It looked like I had a rash or something. I guess my body is trying to tell me something. I usually drink until I'm drunk at least 3-4 nights a week. I'm a functional alcoholic. Somehow I finished grad school with a 4.0 GPA even though I was drinking while writing papers and doing assignments. So far I have had a no luck finding a new job and my old one got cut. So, I'm on unemployment and sit around job hunting all day. This has meant that I drink all the time, partly because I'm bored out of my mind. I want to stop but I don't know if I can. Today I didn't drink so that's good. If anyone out there has any advice I'd love to hear it. I'm an Agnostic and don't believe in the AA approach. I'd like to quit on my own, but I'm not sure how.
- —Guest Bud
Another blackout
- I did it again, went to a party and drank so much that I was being inapropiate with female co-workers and talking recklessly. Today I feel like crap because of actions and don't know if I will get in trouble at work, I want to crawl under a rock and never come out. I'm so embarrassed and have anxiety. I need help!
- —Guest G.A
Coming to the end
- I am 29 and I have always drank to have fun. I go to the bars and love to drink and dance around with my friends but lately I have started to hurt myself, not remember how I got home, or lost important things. I am feeling like this needs to stop and I need help. Alcoholism runs in my family and i know I have the disease. I only drink when it's "my weekend" and I don't crave it otherwise, but when I do drink I don't stop. I guess that is what you call a binge drinker. This is what I have done since age 14! Celebrate and have a few drinks once a week. It's starting to affect my friendships and more importantly myself! I don't trust myself anymore and every morning I wake up after a night of drinking say to myself this is it! I want to stop but then the next weekend comes around and then I get excited again to "celerbrate" and drink. I don't know what to do, I feel like I need to do something though.
- —Guest Megan
I hate myself
- I woke up again feeling like crap from drinking too much last night. I feel so much guilt because I promised myself and silently to my kids that I wouldn't do it. It didn't work. I'm getting nothing accomplished today because I'm too tired. I'm not even present in my own life. I know I need help but I'm not sure where to start. I guess finding this site is a good start. I don't understand why I can't go a night without it. Why isn't the guilt and shame enough?
- —Guest GG
