Finding focus
- I did achieve my initial goal of 5 days off last week, in the 4 days before that I only had one 1/2 pint, it was a total of 9 days of being straight which I am proud of. The 5th day off in a row was very difficult, I was dying for a drink and almost caved in several times, caved in on day 6 and had a few but not enough to be hungover. Trouble is I don't know what my goals should be but I know that drinking has contributed to prolonging the severe depression I experience. I believe that my drinking has always been a symptom of mental health problems that I have suffered all my life. I have been to therapy but no one has been able to help me understand what goes on in my mind or help me quit drinking, I have fought this battle entirely alone. I was feeling really emotional all last week, very angry, frustrated, confused and resentful that my life seems to have been so difficult. Will try for 10 days off now, hope I can get some peace and pride in myself.
- —Guest Itsover
To Illbeatthis
- Rooting for you! And for everyone else. I hope the weekend went well for everyone. I didn't want to go to my Dads because I knew there would be alchohol. I ended up going and stayed strong. The last time I had a successful weekend I let my guard down. So I guess I will just stick with today was a good day!
- —Guest Gym Coach
To all the new ones.
- I am new too, and trying to figure this whole sobriety thing out. I just wanted you to know that after 5 days I started feeling better. I try to go to this site every day to remind me what it felt like to drink and what withdrawals felt like. I hope someone describes their horrible withdrawal symptoms everyday. It is my best reminder of why I do not want to drink. I haven't been perfect in my sobriety and only quit because my body kept getting sick over and over. Kidney infections, had a constant feeling of swollen organs probably pancreatitis. The first time I quit it lasted just until I felt better. Than my mind tricked me. This time I am more motivated and not being forced by feeling sick. This time it's because I want to be sober. My family had no idea how much I drank, I hid it very well, nor do they know the battle I am in. I depend on this site and am thankful I found it.
- —Guest Gym Coach
Day 5
- Feeling alot better 2day.. actually slept for 12 hours last nite havent slept like that in years...strange thing is i still feel so tired, must be my body catching up on all these years o not sleeping propley....diazipam has helped me so much if anyone thinks they cant give up please go to your DR there are meds that can HELP so much, just to get u through the first couple of days... stay strong
- —Guest illbeatthis
To: scared daughter.
- I am sure you are very scared about your dad. 50 years is a long time to drink. The only thing you can do is hope that he heals quickly and tell him you love him. I am sure that his drinking has nothing to do with loving you with all his heart. It is a tough challenge to quit but It can be done. It really is up to him. If he chooses not to quit it has nothing to do with not loving you more than drinking. It is an addiction that is controlling his body. Hug him, love him cause he love you. My best to you and your dad. Hugs Clue.
- —Igotaclue
Must watch
- T a documentery on u tube called ''rain in your heart'' its about 5 alcoholics in the uk... its like ryans story on drugged on alcohol what a sad story..
- —Guest illbeatthis
Day 4
- Im shacky and weak and my stomach aches from all the coke cola im drinking must be the suger thing, its the weekend. this is gonna be so hard..hopefully monday will be day 6 and not day 1 again... i strongy suggest getting some diazipam off DR its helped so much....after all the crap ive gone through why oh why do i feel the need for a drink.. it truely is the deval.. stay strong everyone
- —Guest illbeatthis
To all
- Tomorrow will be 3 months and 2 weeks precisely; I just want to say that I follow all of you, my heart is with all of you, my thoughts and my prayers go for all of you. Everytime I read posts from the newest, shakes. hallucinations, nighmares,panic attacks, and so on, I can only remember my first weeks of withdrawals and really thought I was going to lose the battle and finished like Clue's friend, dead. It didn't happen. Get help, beleive, give a week for the alcohol to come out of your system, and the worst is behind; then the hard fight can start, but strength, hope, faith, energy, in one word, recovery starts; that is the reality and the beauty of it, and that the poison is leaving place to a new life, and everyday gets better and better and better. One day at a time, and come weeks, and months. Miracle! Stay strong everyone, yes we can do it, we are wonderful people aswell, we all are in our own way. Good days are ahead for all of us, we deserve it. Life is beautiful. Love to all
- —Guest Yvan
To: Clue
- I'm so sorry to hear about your friend Clue, it must be horrible for all her friends and family, what a tragedy and such a waste of a life. It's a horrible reality check of just what drinking can do.
- —Guest Mary
To: Don'tknow 21
- I'm glad you've made the decision to quit, your life will get so much easier and better. Don't think about the future just take it one day at a time, if you really want this you will succeed.
- —Guest Mary
To Day 1
- Please if you r having severe withdrawal do not be afraid to go to the emerg. I promise you they have dealt with many people withdrawing from alcohol and they have the proper medication . I know its hard I have been where u are. But know you are not alone. There is a chance to get through this a whole lot easier. I went to medical detox I couldn't have any family visit but it was the best decision of my life. You are worth it! Please keep me updated and stay safe
- —Guest Marilyn
My dad
- My dad had to have surgery and was in the hospital for a few days too many for him. Without alcohol, he became totally belligerent, delusional, violent and unbelievable ill. He was restrained as he is a risk to himself and others. I drinks hard liquor all the time and has for 50 years. Can he get better? Will the withdrawals end? Thank goodness he's already in the hospital but I don't think he will quit drinking once he's out. He didn't recognize his own family but the addiction is so strong. Do people get through this part or is he too serious? He won't even eat right now. I luckily don't live with him but I care about him and I'm so scared for him. Any comments would be appreciated. He's in really bad shape. :(
- —Guest Scared daughter
here's some motivation
- And due to being an alcoholic for so long and former cocaine user,now have the love of my life and look better than i have in years due to diet and exercise and feel better but have absolutely no sex drive at 32. None. So i have to make myself go through the motions and with someone i truly love. Stop, don't waste anymore time. Another drink is just not worth it. Prayers and good vibes to all.
- —Guest cupcakelady
here's some motivation
- I have read this site on and off for several months. Just reaching out makes you all brave. Hope this will be some. extra motivation. I am 32 and was just diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver. I had quit for 4days and then family cane and i used it as an excuse to drink. That night i had what i thought was a stomach flu, woke up and could hardly breath. Went to the emergency room, fluid in the lungs, two liters in my right lung. After a week in hospital it was determined it was caused by my enlarged, scared liver and enlarged spleen. I have not had a drink since but damage is done forever. I have two small children and a wonderful fiance and though the quality of our lives has improved how long will i be able to be here for them? How can they forgive me when i did this to myself. I always said I'll quit tomorrow, Monday, after my birthday...just stop now!! You can and life can be good. And due to being an alcoholic for so long and former cocaine user, i know have the love of my lif
- —Guest cupcakelady
withdrawl
- Going thru it now. Shaky, hot. I'm a binge drinker. Stopped last night. This withdrawl is scaring me.
- —Guest dairygurl
