- I have been drinking for about 15yrs and everytime I wanna give up I end up on it again. Its that vicious circle of drink hangover drink to get over shakes etc. Ive not slept in 3 days getting constant goosepimples and paranoia too. I love drink but I love being sober too. Drink has ruined everthing good in my life yet I still do it. God only knows why. Im gonna really make an effort to stop it this time. Fingers crossed.
- —Guest gazza
I'm slugging through it
- I'm a long-time daily drinker, 3 or 4 drinks a day just to get through the day. About two years ago, my wife battled cancer and a bunch of other crap happened, so my consumption slowly crept up. This year my company went bankrupt, my dog got severely injured, my daughter moved far away, and it crept up even more. Two weeks ago I kind of hit bottom. Crying, shame, guilt, depression, all the good stuff. Right then I decided that if I kept it up I would be dead in a few years. I checked around about facilities but they all had big waiting lists, so I decided to do it myself. Over the last two weeks I slowly cut back each day. During the second week I just felt awful. Couldn't sleep, or if I did, I woke up at 3:00 and could fall back asleep. Stomach pains, chest pains, heart palpitations, irritability, impatience. Two days ago I had my last drink and started feeling a lot better. Saw a doctor today who prescribed Valium to help me get through the next week. I'm gonna make it.
- —Guest Hummelong
- I never believed that one could not stop drinking, it was easy and what is their problem until it happened to me. Drinking starts out with being social and then comes in to our homes and family on a daily basis. For me my addiction was like yours. I could not get high and my body suffered greatly. Along with my addiction was many emotional issue. I could no longer deal with stress or problems. I have been sober for a year now. It has been tough but I have found what you are seeking and much more. I have come to a place where drinking no longer is wanted, no cravings, no suffering. It is hard work, I needed help and I worked very hard on just me. You can get through the withdrawals but the key to staying sober is learning to live with my emotions, stress and fear without alcohol. I am a new person, found new loves, hobbies and become social again. I am far from boring and have earned back respect from those I have hurt. Come join me in this wonder life of sobriety. Hugs Clue
- I was never a drinker then I started to drink because I thought it made me feel happy. It soon stopped doing that and I drank lots. I wouldnt get drunk or buzzed but needed the alcohol to calm my nerves. Today is my first day. I am having negative thoughts flood my head. I am so unhappy. I cant be happy. Everytime i was happy when I was sober I was made to feel bad about it especially by my mother. I never had a good boyfriend in my life and I am a single parent. I used to have dreams and hobbies now I am just waiting for this anxious feeling to go away. I love my kids and want a boyfriend who loves me how I used to be sober. I want my happiness back.
- —Guest Guest Hazel
- First Saturday without get totally blasted in years. I'm a binge drinker who mostly drinks on weekends. I'm going nuts right now! Don't wanna turn to the "cure", but this quitting ain't no joke. Basically I don't wanna be around anyone including my family! Was raised in an alcoholic family and all of my friends are drinkers. Anyone else in the same boat as me! I wanna crush this demon that's been dragging me down every weekend for the past 20 years of my life!
- —Guest Running Blind
- I tried to stop cold turkey. After 18 or more beers a day, I started an higher level of alcohol, so I did not drink as many. Soon I started getting the shakes real bad. The only thing that would stop it was a few beers. I'm so tired of this. Can I stop slowly? I need advice. I have lost everything important in my life because of this, and have been to AA. What can I do Alone.
- —Guest dont't know
No one is alone.
- I just recently got discharged from the US Army (11B2O) and reading all these stories is insane. I actually didn't even start drinking until I was 21 funny enough... I drank. A ton with Army buddies during the weekend, and that was when I first got in. Then... Eventually my line of work got under my skin to the point of just having a pint or so after work. Deployed to Afghanistan, did my dirt for 13 months and came back. I got so panicky from that stuff. I would literally have a fifth to myself every night. Not 4 days n a row and then drink, I mean EVERY night for a year and a half. One day I had a litre of gin to myself and the next day I had an alcholic seizure during work and was rushed to the ER. I got some help, stayed clean for the last few months I was in. It's mid November now and my drinking has almost come back full swing... I don't know what I am going to do, but I'm glad I'm not alone.
- —Guest Ex-Army
- There is so much shaming stigma around parents, especially mothers. I know I am not comfortable being around my son drunk, so I wait till he's asleep...but that is not good enough! I'm an older single mom of an 11 year old boy and he deserves better. When I woke up this afternoon, after getting him to school, and I had really bad shakes. This is the first time they have been this violent. I'm ruining my health, my life, and if I don't stop soon it will end up affecting my son. I can't live like this any longer. I'm going to try weaning down slowly and if that doesn't work I'll go into treatment. It's so hard to schedule, ration and monitor alcohol, when after the first drink your judgment is already impaired. I've been in and out of the rooms of AA and have some issues with it, but still find it to be a sound spiritule program. Does anyone have any good tips on how to detox from daily heavy drinking without going into treatment? I an't afford it. Thank you, RWTS
- —Guest Real!yWantToStop
- I have been an alcoholic for years I can quit if I set my mind to it but never cold turkey. you have to taper! 12 to 8..8 to 6..4 to 2 and then none. I've been to detox and I have tapered...I prefer tapering down a safe way if you don't have insurance.
- —Guest west 87
- Hi Mary. I don't know about detox, but if you feel worse than the first time you stopped, you do need help. You must know for sure about withdrawals, get any help available to stay safe.You have been to AA before, it didn't work doing it yourself, and you need help and support you say, I would go back, AA is a support group, people can help each other; if you are alone most of the time, really and truly AA can help you. Give a try, and see how you feel this time, especially if there are many meetings where you live. I'm sorry about your relapse and how it happened, but you can go back to who you were and see the future in a different perspective. Stay strong Mary, this site can help you as well, we are helping each other, this site gave me an enormous hope, they are a lot of advice here, and knowing I was not alone in this struggle was a great strength. Keep posting Mary, you are not alone. Always hope, many here would tell you. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
- Hello liquidlunch. 7 weeks is awesome, it's a huge step already for us alcoholic. As we say, one day at a time, missing a drink is just normal, we used to function with alcohol, our bodies and minds need time to get used to a sober routine, a new us; only our determination to remain sober is the key of our success. Your withdrawals are well behind, your confidence is coming back, your health is improving, so is your wealth, all positive, isn't it? About the twelve steps, many people do well without. I've been going to AA for 6 months, I'm happy with the meetings. The most important is to find our own way to remain sober. Yes, the silly season can be a hard time for many of us, no matter how long we've been sober. December will be 10 months sober for me, the one drink would be a disaster. I know, it's no way I can play game with my life again. I'm thinking already of January, I'll be who I am now. Safe, and even happier. That is my strength, my mantra. Stay strong, we are strong. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
- So grateful for this website! I am now 7 weeks sober, and while everyday I still think about drinking, I have only had 1 glass of wine on 2 separate occassions but did not slide into a full relapse. I am starting to feel much more confident about being sober. Before I detoxed I was very scared of the withdrawal but it was well managed by my doctor. The twelve steps are not for me, but I do have a lovely counsellor who understands the addicts brain. My health (and wealth!) is improving every day but I am worried about the 'silly season' coming up. All help and advice gratefully received! Please keep me strong, my unseen friends!
- —Guest liquidlunch
- Sober for six months with not much to keep me busy. I am alone most of the time and during my six months of sobriety, it was very difficult to go out for dinner and other events without having drinks. What triggered my relapse was the birthday of someone I loved who left me. Now it is ten weeks later and I'm back, worse than when I stopped the first time. I don't want to live like this, but I have no insurance and no knowledge about where to go to detox. Also when I stopped drinking I attend one AA meeting and decided I could do this myself. I didn't do the work....I need to connect with someone who can help and support me.
- —Guest Mary I.
- Been drinking heavily since I was 18, am 30 now. After another night of devestation caused by drinking on Friday I then proceeded to drink non stop during the day Saturday. Looked my 5 year old son in the eye Saturday and promised him to stop. Went to an AA meeting today and got a lot from it. I've got the shakes big time and not enjoying food at all. Apart from that no terrible side effects but expect they will come when I try to sleep tonight. Determined to do this and I really have no choice left now. Will keep posting here as i do get a lot from reading other people's stories.
- —Guest Determined
- I found that drinking made me feel it was ok to act stupid, it doesn't make me do stupid things, I did them. Alcohol takes our good judgment and throws it in the trash. It helps us to lie, steal, cheat, be idiots and hurt ourselves. We have to remember that we are pouring it down our throats all well aware we will do things we regret. Alcoholic's can not drink like others, our lives become unmanageable and we blame everyone and everything around us but our self. Your answer to do all Alcohol act like you do, sadly to say yes I did. Maybe you should look at the real problem, it is not you, it is your choice to drink. We all are kind, loving people that deserves to be happy and quitting drinking is a great start back to being that again. Hugs Clue