- Thankfully, we don't have kids. Times have been rough. We lost electricity and I went through such bad withdrawals again, alone, while being yelled at. I feel better today. I cleaned the house and I'm doing laundry and drinking Gatorade. But I know you are so right in every way.
- —Guest Josie
- I was smoking cannabis and drinking every day for about a year. At first I was just smoking cannabis but then every time I got stoned i would sometimes get really bad panic attacks and bad paranoia. Alcohol helped to ease that feeling a bit. Eventually I would get the same panic attacks after I stopped drinking (hangovers are the worst). Now 10 days without cannabis or alcohol my mind has never felt sharper I have started swimming and going to the gym and never felt better. Giving up alcohol and drugs can be done but you need to want to do it. Good luck
- —Guest Just me
- Alcohol can be blamed for many things but being abusive is not one of them We know even when drunk that putting our hands on another person is not allowed by the law or by you either. It sounds like it is time for you both to find a rehab and to put some space between you and your drinking. I pray to god you have no children that your causing a life long damage to them. Memories can not be forgotten but can be changed. Do something before you end up dead or in jail or killing some innocent person or your own children. To post on this site you must want help. Don't wish for it, don't hope for it, don't wait for someone to fix you. Fix yourself it is your problem and your husband needs to fix himself. Alcoholism is a personal addiction, it is you pouring that crap down your throat. Be strong, get help, see a doctor, counselor, try AA. Don't waist your life on drinking and violence. It is time to grow up and enjoy living, it has much to offer. Hugs Clue
Missing the good things
- My father is an alcoholic. I have developed his need for a drink which always turns into 2 or 3 or 4 and on it goes. My drink of choice is wine. Several years ago I started with White Zinfandel on a pretty much daily basis then onto the stronger winery wines, then onto dryer stuff Pinots then Cabernets and found myself actually checking alcohol content "so I wouldn't have to drink as much" (mostly a fear of others noticing) I have Store hopped and shopped in neighboring towns to avoid being labeled or judged. Then if I could get my husband to pick it up for me, even better! First thought on drive home from work is "do I have any or enough wine at home?" I've suffered the traditional hangover, but at 46 years old and having been clinically technically visibly drunk 3 times in the past week, I am now on Day 3 without wine or any type of alcohol. I've noticed weight gain in my abdomen, easily hidden by bloody tops,. but I'm not happy with myself. I know this will be hard.
- —Guest Kelly
Day 6 and Feeling Great
- I went away for six weeks, came back home and picked up where I left off. After six weeks dry how dumb is that? I got through the withdrawals by taking a bit of Valium, eating biscuits and ice creams, reading, and remembering how great I felt when I was six weeks dry. Lost 5 kilos and saved lots of money. Also my boyfriend wants me back which is a great incentive. Drinking achieves nothing. It doesn't solve your problems and the only thing you have to show for it is a hangover. It's fantastic to wake up every morning and have energy plus NO GUILT.
- I'm at a very bad place again. It escalated so quickly. Day 10 binge drunk. Taking a shot then taking a nap. Having very bad thoughts. This is awful. I just want to curl in a ball forever
- —Guest Poisoned
God will heal
- What can i say? I've been there done that but i can safely say there is a God. I've been praying to overcome drinking and also my son and husband were praying for me too. It's been three weeks now and not a bottle of beer. Thanks to God for answered prayers.
- —Guest angie
120 days, 3000 hours!
- I didn't want to post on this site until I had 30 days. Now, with hard work and vigilance, I am pleased to be getting more sober time in. I am exercising more and starting to decrease the number of herbs and vitamins I have been taking daily. I find fizzy flavored water to be a fun summer drink. It crossed my mind the other day that I don't drink as many units of it (by volume or other) as I would alcohol. I was almost up to a case of beer a day at one point. No wonder my body was rebelling. I have come to accept that I can't drink like some people can. No alcoholic can. Best wishes to all on this journey.
- —Guest eastport chris
- Just checking in here. 12 days without a drink, all going well. Let's do this everyone!
- —Guest Rock bottom
There is more to Alcoholism.
- In my many discussions with other Alcoholics we all agree that once past the detox the battle just begins. Alcohol seems to just be the side effects of our real problems. Understanding how we got here in the first place is easy. Years of partying then years of using for emotional issues. Stress, bad relationships, money problem, health issues,loneliness, loss of those we loved and feeling just plain sorry for our selves. These are the things that I needed to change to stay sober. One step at a time, one day at a time and before you know it everything falls in place because I was sober to deal with them. Change is scary but no change is treading in the same place going no where. I could not do it by my self, seek help from anywhere and anyone. Be positive that your life with get better. You can do this, just don't drink and don't pick up again. Laughter is the best high and it can be done sober. Make this your sober year there is nothing holding you back but drinking. Hugs Clue
- I've did so many drugs in my early twenties without repercussion, walking away from them without looking back. But booze infected me and took so much of my life away from me. The only friend I have is in a bottle since I moved to a different state and took a overnight shift. This forum is really helping me see an end in sight. For good. Thank you.
- —Guest Hans
10 days again.
- Well I'm here at 10 days booze free again, don't ask me how many times I've been at this stage. Don't get me wrong, it's great but I can still feel it talking to me, telling me it;s ok to have one just one. Ha ha! How many times have I fallen for that one? I still find it crazy that we can forget or forgive the horrific withdrawals, the head splitting depression, the aches, paranoia and raw anxiety. Like how bad does it really have to get? I don't think I have it in me to fail again. I don't want to be bullied by alcohol again. I'm scared now that the only thought that's in my head when going through withdrawals that gives me peace is suicide. Now that is scary because it's true. Have to beat it this time. Keep it up guys.
- —Guest halo
Ruining my life
- My husband pushed me to the floor and put his hands around my neck. Apparently, I drank too much and he didn't like it. He drank too but I guess in his mind that's ok. Alcohol is the Devil.
- —Guest Josie
Changing my life
- I am 44 yrs old and have been drinking since I was 15. I have a lovely wife and son. My drinking has lead me to gamble which has caused me a lot of financial hardships. I work everyday from 5:30 am to 5:00 pm. I drink a 12 pack of beer in about 3 hours then I go to sleep. My son is 12 and I have missed a lot of his life. Today I am quitting the alcohol and gambling at the same time. Everyone please stay strong because I'm not going to let this ruin my life any longer!!!
- —Guest Williebee
Would've been day 4
- So like I said in my previous post I caved cause I had a lot to get done.. Today is the day I had to get a lot done for.. My daughters first birthday party... I'm already half a 26 of vodka in.. Which most of you would call a pint (Canadian term 26. I have to crawl out of this bed in an hour and finish the preparation. My moms coming to help .. She always knows. One look and she knows.. It's awfully scary. I'm horrible. But still drinking.. Look at this demon taking over me and a milestone I can never get back.
- —Guest Poisoned