- Coming back from a AA meeting, I was thinking of how alcohol destroys everything. After 7 months sober, I am free. Alcoholic, it was my choice, no one forced me to drink, I had everything to be happy, and I became addicted, I needed alcohol to be myself, well, a ghost of myself! But becoming sober, we can think again, we become free of a depression that made us say thousand times; what is the point! I'm still learning not to have guilt and regrets, and think of the years ahead, and love LIFE as it is; I am rebuilding a new one, and getting up everyday thinking positive, is another step to heal our souls and go ahead. Withdrawals are nothing to gain freedom; said hundred times on this site, helps are available; staying sober is the hardest. My thoughts and my heart go today to all of you who have won, who made the choice. To drink or stop drinking. Period! No magic wand. Igotaclue, ONE YEAR SOON!!!! I remember saying 1 week, 1 month, can't wait to say 1 year too. Lol.
- —Guest Yvan
- So I am almost done with day 1. I managed to get a couple of minutes of sleep. Just feel really exhausted. I have been drinking a ton of water and I think that is helping a lot. Stomach is still a little upset, but I am actually craving food. I have been rereading a lot of posts here and it has given me a lot of comfort. So thank you. I really realize now that there is no way I can ever drink any booze..period. But, I am very focused that I know I need to do this for myself. One day or at this point one minute at a time!
- —Guest jensniners
To: Fighting 123
- Sorry for the delayed reply, I don't know when you posted to me. I have been off this site for a few days (on the forum though, and if you read my experiences, you'll know why). I know there is a way to connect, offline, I did it months ago with a few people but don't recall since they initiated. I'll keep the pact with you cause we've both been here the same amount of time and seem to have the same ups and downs. I really hope to find that you're local and we can meet as well.. I know I was in touch with Mary months ago offline...(btw, nothing from her lately, which is very unusual, has anyone been in contact with her?) I'll be back to you shortly.
- What ever you do " DO NOT DRINK OR DRIVE" If you drink, stay at home, call a friend or taxi or sleep it off in your car. Your not the only one at risk, Drinking and driving is the number one leading cause of death in this country especially among our kids! Please, say it out loud, I will not drink and drive!! Thanks Clue
Day 1 again
- Hi all, I read all the postings. Well, it was 5 weeks no booze and I started to drink. It's been about a week. I feel like a failure. Well at least I stopped. Jen
- —Guest jensniners
- After 7 months sober, there isn't one day when I get up I don't think of how sick and exhausted I was, taking the stairs down was a challenge, unable to remember how I went to bed, what I did and said! That was it, it was going to make my day another day of guilt and shame; so, gulping down my first drink in the morning was the only option!!! You will never drink again you say, so won't I, it scares me to death now thinking of all those pains I inflicted to myself for years. Life is 100 times better when our bodies and souls are healthy. Great you feel ok now. Long live life alcohol free. Take care of yourself. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
- Louise, I would understand if you got offended because of your friends and family telling you about your too much drinking, but them being offended because you don't want to drink anymore! That is the worst thing that can happen to us, we keep on drinking because others don't want us to stop! To please them, you are back on, feel terrible physically, depressed and lonely! All that pain because of them!! Tell your other half, family and friends you have made a choice, sobriety, you've found this site, and there is no turning back about your decision; I would. You' ll try again you say, do, but instead of thinking you don't see the point, do it for yourself, and you'll be amazed, with time, when we are determined, how we get stronger everyday; it is an exciting battle, it's our health and well-being which depend on. Don't allow them you to fail, it's not worth it! Sobriety is. You can find the strentgh, join us, you are not alone. Peace. Keep posting. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
- Understood completely. Its so hard. I blew it on October 4th. The withdrawal was awful. But, tomorrow I try again. Don't give up. Try and try.and never give up. I've been through lots of withdrawals. This one is hardest because of other stuff. No excuses though. Have to stop and sober is so much better. Takes us all different times but it is glorious. So don't give up.I'm not. Stay on the site and read. Over and over. No sober is hard for however long it takes. But, the sun does come out. Please keep trying. Don't worry about6 neighbors;solve that later. don't leave my house but was cranky on phone last night with my 92 year mom.i phone her daily because we are thousands of miles away. I felt bad but she forgets . Well I love her. I was set up for the4th. Was so sick so here I go again tomorrow. NEVER give up or stop trying. Never. I won't. It can be done. Your time will come.A lightbulb will shine. Then the sun. Also don't anticipate failure. Anticipate success. Hugs Barb
- —Guest Barb
Sad and scared
- I'm a 32 year old male. Been drinking since high school but it's gotten very heavy for the last few years. About 80% of a fifth of vodka every night. Anyway that went on for a long time and when I quit I had pretty bad withdrawals for about 4 or 5 days. Didn't sleep at all. Nightmares. Hearing things, seeing things. I think the worst was when I actually did fall asleep I'd wake up with my foot trembling which would scare me to death and I'd jump up out of bed. No DT's or seizures though. I then started back, and I've quit a few times here and there with lesser withdrawals than the first time. Recently I was able to quit for 4 weeks straight and then figured out I could drink solo nights without triggering withdrawal again. I'd planned on drinking last Saturday, but that turned into about a 9 day binge. Blackout drunk every night. Last night was the last. I'm 24 hours in so I hope my seizure risk is down. Horrible anxiety but nothing too bad. Can anyone relate? What should I expect??
- —Guest southern j
- "I'll try again of course but fully expect to fail". How encouraging it is to see that you have your mind made up. So if you want to drink, drink. Those around you will leave so your loneliness will be complete. Your purpose will be to stay a drunk obnoxious human being what is wrong with that? Everyone around you will live their life and always wonder why you don't? If your friends and family expect you to drink, I hope they are expected to take care of you when your health is bad, buy you booze when you are broke, give you a place to stay when your on the streets and comfort your loved ones when you are dead. My guess is they will not. But hell drinking with them is fun! It is your call, we have heard all the excuses. When your done drinking your done and if your not that will be excepted to, maybe not liked but it is what it is. It is you pouring the booze down your throat not any one else and it is you that can stop. Kind of personal huh?
Lost and found?
- I used to tell myself I'm not an alcoholic, how could I be? I didn't NEED to drink everyday. I could go months without a drop. Man, was I wrong! Just came out of the worth the worst withdrawel I've ever had, and this from a 3day binge! Panic attacks, constant anxiety, extreme bowel irritation, nausea, short memory loss, headaches, can't eat, loss of concentration, loss of visual focus! This day 5 and I'm starting to feel more focussed and relaxed, this was the last straw. I've started up a cycle of antabuse and found a genuine support system that can help me through this. After my last binge, I realized that I am an alcoholic and always will be, even if I don't touch a drop. Its a process I know, but it can be done! Thank God my boss decided to keep me on and give me one last chance!
- —Guest Binger Blows
Stumbled and fell.. hard
- Have had all the right intentions, did all the rights things, started to shake the shakes and even back to see things apart from the bottom of the abyss. But people will not take no for an answer. My family, my other half, my best friends all expect me to drink and seem to get offended when I say i'm off. So I gave in once and now I am very back on. I feel terrible today. Maybe better than i should but aching liver, nausea, shakes and shivers and i can't see. I'm so depressed like everyone else here, life outside of booze isn't perfect. I can hardly be bothered with anything. I was completely obnoxious to my neighbor last night which i can barely remember. Had a long make-up call with my sister and i cringe to half remember some of the things i said. I'm out of control. I'm lonely, have no point and see no point. I'll try again of course but fully expect to fail.
- —Guest Lousie
- The worst withdrawals for me was the anxiety, panic attacks, insomnia, exhaustion, and feeling like I was in a dream for about a week, a disconnected, spaced out feeling. I thought I was losing my mind for a week, luckily I am ok now, and I will never drink again, it's to damn scary to go through that after every heavy binge session
- —Guest JustMe123
To mimi and Terry C
- You want to stop drinking, at the same time you are scared of the withdrawals; I understand you very well, but withdrawals are inevitable, almost everybody goes through them, more or less severe, but nothing can be done to avoid then completely. Inform yourselves, on this site there are many helpful advice from people who went through, maybe go to your doctors, there are meds than can help so much; the good news is, the physicals effects start to ease after 4,5 days. Cold turkey can be dangerous, so, if you decide to do it, don't stay alone, at least the first couple of days. Most will tell you it is a tough time, but manageable. You want to stop drinking, you can do it, it is a short time to go through the painful effects of stoping drinking to reach the good ones of getting sober. Good luck both. It is worth it.
- —Guest Yvan
- Its the morning of day 4 . Last night was brutal , barely any sleep and when I did I had the worst nightmares that make me want to cry. I know this is a process but right now I just want to sleep and not be scared. I want to go to my dr but cant afford to. I'm unemployed at the moment and can barely buy food let alone a prescription. This is truly a struggle that I want to be over. I just want to feel normal again. Please let tonight be better.
- —Guest nicolesic