- Hi Fighting I don't post here often anymore but your story touches me. Everytime I see you relapse I want to reach out. Sometimes I want to reach out and shake you. I am not judging at all, I have relapsed many times so I do understand how difficult it is. I believe you need to try something different. Quitting on your own, over and over, is not working. The detox is hard on you mind for sure, but harder on your body. Each time you do this you get closer to serious withdrawals...seizure, stoke, heart failure. I don't know how much you drink but it sounds like the consequences are getting worse. You are obsessed with alcohol and that obsession, compulsion to drink needs to be examined. Do you really examine why you drink? You must choose to stop, but you need help to stay stopped. Have you tried any kind of program? Maybe a treatment center, best case inpatient, is something you should look at. Keep doing the same thing and expecting different results....insanity. Peace.
- —Guest Fighting 123
- Going to start my 3rd month, it has been amazing so far, even if kind of depression and anxiety still hit me in the evening mainly. It is during those moments when I really am tired, the One glass crosses my mind! To know that I am not the only one helps me to work on it; I suppose it's going to be the fight, the main fight. The first glass would put an end to my recovery, staying strong is hard when the cravings are bad. I know it will take a long time to kill the alcoholic voice. This site is a great help, we are many here helping eachother. I thank god everyday I have found it. When I read your last post Chicago, it really hurts me, the first drink is the killer, I wish you to start again and get the strengh you need, we all need, to be the winners, happy, and at peace with ourselves. Love to all.
- —Guest Yvan
I go to the shrine today
- I am leaving this morning to go to the shrine of God's Mercy jonny, fighting123, lostself, lastchance. frank, on theirs first days, but also chicago, then spouses of rich, goffrey, all merciful spouses including my husband stil unaware what am going thru (coming back may 11th) and for all friends, good friends all of you! specially mary. clay.hopeful. . . . sorry, i have to catch the bus! love and God bless me - stil in europe
- —Guest IamMe
to All new and Re-new like Chicago
- oh dearest! I am so sorry and, every day, when I wake up (and, thanks God, it happens regularly at 6:30) I pray for you! Specially you chicago that I used to follow with affection, please, PLEASE come back! You are so smart and you know how it works, do not go there where you can buy the booze, stay on different paths when you restart to walk. Keep in mind how those "first days" are - as a warning of buying the poison! My prayers are with you all. Welcome back and stay in touch. Hey newtothissite - good for you to go to the aa meetings, so for others. Take every opportunity to heal, every moment to distract from drinling! Develop new routines - I did it and after 12 days, like in the song LOL, my body accepted it. And even my mind did. Hey, this is an important part. The mind has to accept that will never, never again have A drink, never A glass of wine. Poison. Yes, we are not loke other people, we are alcoholic, see?but We are ALIVE! And this is precious gift. God bless
- —Guest IamMe
- I share your pain. I relapsed with the best of intentions by not letting others feel uncomfrotable through my not drinking. They seem to have more trouble with it than me... OK who am I kidding? I resisted the pressue for a while but I only have so much willpower. I havn't been off my face like before and managed to put down after 2 (big) glasses of wine each night for 7 days. Now on day 2 but no withdrawls due to low volume I guess. Do you have other problems that make you want that drink or is it just the drink that you crave? If you had 2 weeks of heaven on earth when dry do you want to give that up? Are you bored in the evenings? Do you actually want to not give up totally? The last thing is what i wrestle with.. its appears to be the crack in my armour. Interested to hear your side of things.
- —Guest Howwouldite
To IamMe and itsallfoolish
- Thank you for your good wishes. I am 11 days sober today. The worst withdrawals since I got home are pain in my right side where the last drain was put in, sleeplessness and severe constipation. I went back to see the doctor who changed my co-codamol for Tramadol and doubled my laxatives. I have referrals to a dietician, a gastro doc and an alcohol counsellor. Moderation is not an option. It is impossible for me. Good luck to all.
- —Guest lastchance
- I wake up in the mornings most the time hungover like I never slept at all. go to work. long days because of trying to get sobered up for most of it, feel guilty I left my daughter last night to go get cigs even though I was honestly too blitzed to leave the house. my b/f and I broke up 5 months ago, at least he left but we still see each other after 5 and 1/2 yrs. missed work for the first time today ever due to drinking. couldn't go in couldn't face the day.
When is enough enough?
- I keep fighting to hold onto this damn drink thinking I can control it. Well I cant...every other night maybe, but then all the others, I go overboard. I have quit so many times I have lost count. The last time was for 2 weeks, and it was Heaven on Earth. Why I picked up again, I will never know. Going through the withdrawals over and over is torture on my mind. I just need to put this poison down, for good. My marriage is falling apart, my kids are noticing changes in me, they HATE my wine, its just not fair, I wish alcohol didn't exist. I have got to win this battle, there is no other option.
- —Guest Fighting123
To Mary and Griffey1
- Thanks again for your comments. I'll try one more time without my doctor now my wife fully understands just how bad its got and will be there to help me say no to the next drink. If that fails I may resort to my doctor. Couple days in now with the usual insomnia and night sweats and for some reason this time my hands are sweating all day. Feeling a lot more positive and optimistic after the discussions with my wife and looking forward to success this time around. Just taking it hour by hour...
- —Guest Rich in Ca
- Today i am 47 days sober and taking my son to his birthday party sober, probably still embarrass him but i wont be mad. Almost proud of myself. Thanks for all the posts on here they are a real help to know im not alone in this addiction. I wish everyone hope and happiness thank you all .
- —Guest jerrychef
- Please discuss your symptoms with your doctor and keep him/her in the loop of your detox plan. While many people are able to safely detox on their own, it can be a life-threatening to others, so it is best to be safe and involve the assistance of your physician. That said; the skin eruptions, auditory sounds, sweating and tremors are moderate symptoms of withdrawal. Once you are through the physical symptoms, the mental obsession is often difficult to endure; this is when being in a recovery program is beneficial. Your doctor may recommend outpatient treatment or AA meetings for ongoing support. I commend you on your commitment to sobriety and wish you a safe and successful journey. Support and assistance is out there, do not hesitate to take full advantage of it because you are so worth it!
to last chance
- hey, I would like to tell you how sorry I am so sorry for your suffering and pain. My prayers are with you. Thank you so much for sharing your journey and I only hope the damage is reversible. The liver is a such incredible organ and the hope is that it can regenerate in time, you are in the blooming part of your life! Start to take care of yourself, of your life, listen to doctors and keep a positive attitude, feel free to write us about your progress, thoughts, reflections, your story is also a warning for everybody - I find it very powerful. God bless you dear friend.
- —Guest IamMe
- Well.....I have been sober for a whole week! Yesterday, I went to my first AA meeting. It was very hard walking in and saying aloud that I have a problem. Everyone was so loving and compassionate and didnt judge me. This sight and all of you people has been great. Today, though I have been so agitated and that feeling is one that always has brought me to drink. I made it....kept telling myself that i am strong and God is going to help me! one day at a time,right?
- —Guest Laura
- Your post scared the heck out of me! I am so sorry to hear of your illness and I hope you get well. Keep posting and let us all know how you are doing. Please get help to stop drinking...your life depends on it. God bless.
Day one, again.
- I was doing very well, and I was very proud of myself. but, yesterday was very hard and I picked up a bottle of vodka. drank it all yesterday, blacked out, and woke up in the ER. My ex had to pick me up from the hospital around 2, because they wouldn't let me leave. I'm so not drinking for a while.
- —Guest chicago