Lost and found?
- I used to tell myself I'm not an alcoholic, how could I be? I didn't NEED to drink everyday. I could go months without a drop. Man, was I wrong! Just came out of the worth the worst withdrawel I've ever had, and this from a 3day binge! Panic attacks, constant anxiety, extreme bowel irritation, nausea, short memory loss, headaches, can't eat, loss of concentration, loss of visual focus! This day 5 and I'm starting to feel more focussed and relaxed, this was the last straw. I've started up a cycle of antabuse and found a genuine support system that can help me through this. After my last binge, I realized that I am an alcoholic and always will be, even if I don't touch a drop. Its a process I know, but it can be done! Thank God my boss decided to keep me on and give me one last chance!
- —Guest Binger Blows
Stumbled and fell.. hard
- Have had all the right intentions, did all the rights things, started to shake the shakes and even back to see things apart from the bottom of the abyss. But people will not take no for an answer. My family, my other half, my best friends all expect me to drink and seem to get offended when I say i'm off. So I gave in once and now I am very back on. I feel terrible today. Maybe better than i should but aching liver, nausea, shakes and shivers and i can't see. I'm so depressed like everyone else here, life outside of booze isn't perfect. I can hardly be bothered with anything. I was completely obnoxious to my neighbor last night which i can barely remember. Had a long make-up call with my sister and i cringe to half remember some of the things i said. I'm out of control. I'm lonely, have no point and see no point. I'll try again of course but fully expect to fail.
- —Guest Lousie
- The worst withdrawals for me was the anxiety, panic attacks, insomnia, exhaustion, and feeling like I was in a dream for about a week, a disconnected, spaced out feeling. I thought I was losing my mind for a week, luckily I am ok now, and I will never drink again, it's to damn scary to go through that after every heavy binge session
- —Guest JustMe123
To mimi and Terry C
- You want to stop drinking, at the same time you are scared of the withdrawals; I understand you very well, but withdrawals are inevitable, almost everybody goes through them, more or less severe, but nothing can be done to avoid then completely. Inform yourselves, on this site there are many helpful advice from people who went through, maybe go to your doctors, there are meds than can help so much; the good news is, the physicals effects start to ease after 4,5 days. Cold turkey can be dangerous, so, if you decide to do it, don't stay alone, at least the first couple of days. Most will tell you it is a tough time, but manageable. You want to stop drinking, you can do it, it is a short time to go through the painful effects of stoping drinking to reach the good ones of getting sober. Good luck both. It is worth it.
- —Guest Yvan
- Its the morning of day 4 . Last night was brutal , barely any sleep and when I did I had the worst nightmares that make me want to cry. I know this is a process but right now I just want to sleep and not be scared. I want to go to my dr but cant afford to. I'm unemployed at the moment and can barely buy food let alone a prescription. This is truly a struggle that I want to be over. I just want to feel normal again. Please let tonight be better.
- —Guest nicolesic
To all still struggling...
- I am now 8 months sober and I never imagined I would live such a peaceful and happy life when I decided to quit last January. The promises all came true for me and they can for you. Google search the "AA promises" for a glimpse of hope and what it could be like for you if you work this simple program. I hope for peace for all of us.
- —Guest itsallfoolish
- You've got used to your withdrawals, but your body won't get used to them for ever. The usual ones are the ones we know, from panic attacks, irritability, hallucinations, insomnia etc..but what about your body, your liver that is fighting to get rid of the poison everytime. Being stressed out, getting drunk is the only way to be happy or have fun you say, but your body struggles hard, we forget what we impose to it till it becomes serious. Think about it. Why don't you try to have a deep conversation with your husband accompanied with some friends, relatives who will undestand what you are going through? Or some help from outside. You need to share what you've got inside to diminish your worries. At the beginning, like you, I didn't drink everyday, but I needed more to ease the stress till it became a daily habit, and the nightmare started and went on for years! Wish you to find peace, and being happy and having fun without being drunk! Beleive me it is possible, take care of yourself
- —Guest Yvan
- Hi there fellow Canadian. I am glad to see you r not giving up on your sobriety. It Is hard at first but I know you will overcome it. We are all in different stages in our recovery and the road is hard but worth it. I too still struggle time to time emotionally. Just tonight in fact, I came home from a hard days work, and my mind is still programmed that on the weekend I still crave a cold cider. But instead drank a cold iced tea. Tasted much better I say and quenched my thirst. But with much determination I know you can do this. My recovery was made so much easier with medical detox, and finding a great doctor and addiction specialist. It seems you have great support from your hubby . Me too. Much love and prayers, Marilyn
- —Guest Marilyn
- Hi all of you. I stumbled on this site after deciding to quit for good. I have been on a week long binge. With in that week I got put in the cells ( not the first time ) and got drunk till blackout every day later. I am not a drinker everyday. But every time I drink its until I pass out/ blackout. Terrible things happen to me. I'm now experiencing withdrawals like never before. Depression, feeling very disconnected. Scared. I'm going to stop and admit my problem.
- —Guest desperate24
- I really am happy you are making the right choice; it's always painful reading what we are going through in our struggle against alcoholism. I am still new in my sobriety, I know how hard it is to fight against that poison. My post was a reply to one of your previous one; to be honest, I got confused with your posts. I didn't mean to hurt you, of course not, we all are struggling to get our lives back. I always knew I HAD TO STOP drinking, till the day I WANTED TO STOP. I've heard this hundred time since I go to AA. So true, if we really want to, we can leave behind us that obsessive, tortuous internal conflict that makes us ill and miserable. Stay strong. I wish you to overcome all the pains you have been through this last year. You can do it, we all are with you. I wish it you with the bottom of my heart. Soon you'll be Barb again. Big hugs, you're going to make it this time.
- —Guest Yvan
Extremely weak two days into sobriety
- Really need help with this one because I'm freaking out. Stopped drinking Tuesday night and was just fine when I went to bed. Wake up Wednesday, get out of bed and I find I can hardly stand up. It's Friday and same thing still. I've never experienced this but I'm lucky if I can make it the five steps to the bathroom! Haven't seen my downstairs since Tuesday and had to have a friend bring food and water! Also my hands are cramping up. Other than these two things I didn't have my usual symptoms like vomiting and insomnia which frankly I'd prefer cause this weakness thing is scaring me big time. Has anyone else experienced it?
- At the very right hand corner of the page is a link that says discuss in my forum and it takes you to a Substance Abuse forum. There you can get responses quickly with any help you need with getting sober. We are people that are trying to get sober and many that have been sober for quite awhile. It is not all puppies and kittens there and it can be tough at times but we are loving caring folks that will be honest with you and be by your side. There is much to read and there is no questions you can not ask. I remember getting sober and appreciated the support minute by minute or hour by hour I received there. Check it out, we are here waiting for you. Hugs Clue
- The reasons your body becomes achy is become you are detoxing. Having a drink will take you right out of detox. The dreams are also detox. Detox can take from a few days or a few weeks depending on how long and how much you have been drinking. If you want help you must seek it. There is no easy, quick, painless way to go though withdrawals unless you go to a rehab or an out patient clinic. I don't believe bad dreams ever harmed anyone or a few body aches, scary yes for sure but so is suffering from all the illnesses that comes from drinking and they are far more painful. It is your call, only you can help yourself and we can cheer you on. Hugs Clue
- Thank you. I couldn't seem to get the agoraphobia to mean anything. It started at 26 and comes and goes. I'm trapped in my mind and body. This drinking binge started when my hubby had to have major spinal surgery. He's doing a bit better but I am useless. Can't drive, go to stores...anywhere. i don't know how to get help. Pills and beer. Husband always helped pull me out of agoraphobia before but right now can't walk far. He drives again so offers car rides just to corner store. Says we will walk in and buy one candy bar. Then farther and farther. I'm scared. Trapped. I do take care of cleaning etc. He cooks. Loves it. He's been retired now for about 4 years. Took it early to travel etc we bought a motor home which I can go in. 2 houses. I feel safe in it. I'm living a nightmare. Motor home no this winter. He has to stay here for doc appointments etc. Also another MRI. Thank you for getting it. Maybe tomorrow a car ride. I want to live. You help me a lot. Love Barb
- —Guest Barb
So over it
- 8 to 12 beers in two to three hours everyday for the last eight years or so. I'm having a physical need to have blood work done so no alcohol for 72hrs, No sweat! Ya right. Had my last beer Sunday. Mon was going fine until the puking and the runs started felt like crap drank two beers to take the edge off I felt a little better slept terrible. Tues shakes sweats anxiety. I went to my DR. Withdrawals he says and gives me Serax tells me I should be fine by the weekend. Wed shakes nausea anxiety depression. Slept maybe 10 min every hour those ten min were vivid crazy dreams. Thurs about the same as wed except more sleep. Woke up Fri my legs felt like bags so cement hard to walk the shakes were really bad and my heart was pounding thought I was going out. My wife took me to the ERIC. My heart rate was 163 uncontrollable shakes could hardly stand. They gave me a saline drip and Ativan. All my blood work and test were fine. She said I should be through the worst of it. She gave a taper dose of Ativan.
- —Guest Boozenomore