- How exciting that not only you are having a rebirth but a brand new life is entering. That new life will need it's grandma and your wise guidance to help their journey. We know how tough this world is and having loving grandparents to help ease that hardship will be so welcomed and needed. Just think, this child will never know or suffer from your addiction. They will only know your story of how strong you are and what bad choices led you to do. My grandkids are a huge part of my life and I am proud to say My sober life. They have brought me so much joy and taught me much. Just think, children can teach us, oh hell yah, they are smarter than us with their honesty. I hope you had a sober and strong weekend. Hugs Clue
I am so amazed and humbled
- While waking up and doing my daily check on the forum I am filled with tears and amazement. I have been driven to get the news out to everyone that this addiction can be kicked. My goal is to bring comfort, hope, strength, honesty and sobriety to those that have none. What I am amazed about is that I have helped others, really helped others. I can only tell you that it is a wonderful feeling to give back when I have taken so much. To become someone respected when I had none. I feel really loved and am happy this has become my home. I am very excited to have you all here to celebrate my up coming 1st sober birthday in over 30 years which is October 24th. We are family no doubt! happy sober day people, Love Clue.
To: Lost Self
- Hey there Lady. It is good to see you here. I'm sorry for the loss of your family member. Your post really resonated with me. 10 months ago I had no idea who I was. I didn't know what was important to me. I didn't know what I valued. I only cared about my 'presentation' and what others thought of me. I had no self esteem, no self worth. I was completely lost. Recovery for me was finding me, facing me, being honest with me and loving me. I had to deal with fear and anxiety head on. If I can do it, you can too. Your post is clear. I think you know you are there. But the booze will keep you from connecting with your true self. You can do this.
We can make it.
- Yes we can if we stop the damage we impose to our bodies, or, worse than death, we'll die slowly in the darkness of our alcoholic lives becoming empty. Not being completely in the reality of this world anymore, I never thought a beautiful dream could become true, a dream I had every morning when my shaky hands couldn't hold this life anymore, when tears of shame and guilt made me vomit disgust about myself. That dream has become reality after giving my body a new chance to get up again and walk in the tunnel. Withdrawals were hell, but led me to heaven. Drinking is living in hell, a burning hell, like whiskey used to burn my all body. My God, why didn't I find the light earlier? Today, I am healthy, happy and strong! I want time to live, and a chance to give back to the ones I've made suffer my strength and my love. I declared war against the demon 7 months ago, I won, I've found peace. Life can be beautiful, it is not a dream anymore, it is my new life. Much love and hope to all.
- —Guest Yvan
Still fighting. You can, too.
- I decided to quit a month ago. 3 days of self de-tox after 33 years of beer was tough but it taught me a lesson. Shaking, nausea and vomiting, sweating, insomnia. I had it all. But, after those 3 days it got better. Back to feeling like I have my life back. Handled the insomnia with Melatonin. Natural and works wonders. Every morning I remind myself that I am not cured and never will be but I am a lot better off than I was a month ago. I confided in good friends and that helps me everyday. Now, back on track with the PhD studies, caught up on bills, etc. Life is good again. I will tell you this...it is not an easy fight but it is definitely a good battle to choose. You can do it. We can all do it. We just have to believe and remind ourselves everyday of what we have to live for and not let a damn beer bottle or shot glass take control. I wish you all the very best of luck in your struggles. We are in this Together.
To: Guest Clare
- Thank you for your post. It is similar to my story.
- —Guest Jet Patriot
- No quitting- it isnt fair to you! Keep on going. So what if you relapse? Quitting is not black or white- it is a grey area. You have to learn how to do it, just like anything else.
- —Guest Jet Patriot
- At 10 months now, I have enjoyed your post from the beginning of my journey to sobriety . I believe you keep a lot of us moving forward to a fun, sober life. Your no nonsense advice and sincere caring for those that visit this site is remarkable. I look forward to your 1year mark.
- To all those who want to stop drinking the poison, you can do it. I was scared before I stopped. Scared of failing. If I couldn't stop I was going to ruin my health and life. I reached rock bottom and realized I couldn't go on drinking the way I was. I spoke to two close friends and my Doctor and put a plan in place. Vit B and taper for two weeks then stop and Librium for five days. Five tablets down to one on the fifth day. Still had pretty bad withdrawals (sweats, shakes, anxiety, heard noises, sleepless nights) but the Librium really helped the edge. What to do with my new non drinking time was my biggest problem. You have to keep busy. Do all the things that you used to enjoy doing before the poison took over. I recently found an old bike and spent days stripping it down, cleaning and painting it. Now I'm cycling to the swimming pool instead of driving. Anything to distract you from the poison. I also see an alcohol counselor but had to wait 50 days before I started seeing him.
- —Guest belfast colin
- As many people have said, you really are an inspiration to people and more importantly you actually help people. I am so excited for you being to close to your first birthday. I am 17 days since my last binge; feeling much better and will not deny the cravings are definitely strong but I'm keeping busy, going to meetings and feeling strong. To everyone fighting this almighty illness, it can be beaten, there's so many people who have done it and continue to stay sober. I am determined to be one of them. Wrt tapering, I am sure some people can do it but my opinion is that an alcoholic can't. We have to admit to ourselves that we have lost all control and will never regain it, I know, I have tried so many times. As the cliche goes - 1 drink is too many, 100 is not enough. Take care everyone and keep fighting, we all deserve to be happy, regardless of our mistakes, which have usually been alcohol fuelled.
To: Fighting 123
- Hi Fighting, you and I have been on this site about the same amount of time and struggling with similar ups and downs. Can we make a pact to try to end this nonsense once and for all together? We can figure out a way to talk offline if you like.
- —Guest Lost Self
- Hi Clue, thx for your most recent post. I am still struggling. Today is my (47th) birthday, & I promised myself it would be a new beginning. So that was a very inspirational message to wake up to. 30 years of hardcore drinking is enough. If I continue, I won't live to see many more birthdays. And I fully understand the "shadow" of a presence, I don't even know who I am anymore. So pray for me that this will be my "rebirth" birthday. I was at a family wake/funeral the past few days & I pictured all the same people being there for me (my siblings, dozens of nieces/nephews, cousins, friends)...I couldn't imagine doing that to them...or what anyone could say. I've had a very successful life but I've become a shell of myself so instead of celebrating my life (as they did this week for an elder family member that died of natural causes) everyone would just feel pity for me. I've got to be reborn. Congrats to you on your upcoming milestone! I hope someday to be able to write the same. Hugs.
- —Guest Lost Self
- I felt you pain when I red your post, I cried like many I am sure. I wish your post to be on the top of this site as a daily reminder to all of us. In few words, you have said everything we felt, feel, suffered and suffer. Hope you are well, give us some news, good news. Big big hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
- I really wish you to stay strong with the withdrawals, to go through those days with the constant certainty that the worst will be over very soon. You have done it before, you know, a few days, and you will get up, crying and happy because you 'll know the nightmare is over. Amazingly, then, our bodies tell us every second, I'm back, I function again: first great feeling, I remember, it was like a miracle, I couldn't believe it! B complex, muti vits, magnesium, juices, water, healthy food, walks, staying busy, and again, few more days, and everyday gets better and better. The only thing I can say to you, believe in yourself; You, like all of us who won against the poison, you, only you can do it. You want to smile again, laugh again,, you want your health back, it'll all come, much more, you will get your Life Back. Can't wait to hear from you telling us I HAVE DONE IT. I pray for you..Big hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
How I gave up the fight and won
- And we have ceased fighting anything or anyone—even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have returned. We will seldom be interested in liquor. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and normtally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part. It just comes! That is the miracle of it. We are not fighting it, neither are we avoiding temptation. We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality—safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us.We are neither cocky nor are we afraid. That is our experience