- I am 55-year-old alcoholic. Many BACs of over .5 due to drinking large quantities in short time frames. My fear of withdrawal led to continuation of drinking I finally was sober for 14 years but then began relapsing around 4 years ago. Needed detox to withdraw even if drinking lasted a few days but never more than two weeks. I last drank about 5 weeks ago and withdrew with much difficulty in hospital then detox for six days. Three weeks after discharge I had an "episode" that lasted three days consisting of inability to get up, period shakes, attacks of dry heaves, intermittent sweating, major confusion, couldn't even figure out how to get phone numbers or use phone. Came out of it after friends took my to ER with all blood work being normal. Four days later had another "episode" in which I could get up but major confusion and extreme fatigue last 4 days. Continue to have balance issues and period shakes/tremors and fatigue. Sorry for the long post - has anyone experienced or hear this?
- Congratulations on taking that all important first step. It will be hard and you need to check with your doctor if you start getting bad withdrawal symptoms. In the first few days, forget one day at a time. You may need to think one hour or even one minute, but do not cave in! Aim for one whole week and during this time think about things you can do to keep busy. This is so important. When we stop drinking we have so much time on our hands it makes you realize how much time we spent either planning, thinking apart from the actual drinking itself. I Nearly lost everything. My life, (cirrhosis of the liver) my wife, children and close friends and I managed to turn things round. My last drink was on March 17, 2011. Keep posting we are all here for you. Stay strong my friend.
- This last month has brought me more payoff; sleep quality, more energy, anxiety and emotions much more manageable. Griffey1, as you say, what a RELIEF! 8 months! I am happy for you. I feel great, and so good to be a human being again. What wonderful is, without alcohol, freedom makes sense again. At least we are not slaves anymore of that sneaky and destructive drug, and it opens again many doors. When you give up alcohol, you don't really see the light yet, but it is there, no doubt. I am happy. Good luck to all.
- —Guest Yvan
- After 20 years of excess my doctor put me on Antabuse that makes you violently ill if you drink. And librium to deal with withdrawal and ambien to sleep. I feel like i have my life back, my willpower couldn't get me through. Woke up smiling today for the first time in forever.
Day 18... And counting!
- I have been drinking for a very long time. In fact up until 18 days ago, I can not tell you when was the last time I had NOT had drink for a full month. Don't be scared. I am proof you can do it. I am a 42-year young female. I have a great job in the city, love my friends, have hobbies and one of them was happy hour! I drank an average of 2-3, up to 4 beers, or up to a bottle of wine a night! I would meet friends after work, have cocktails then head home & drink more! When I left my purse unattended on a rack while shopping because I was drunk, well yes that was the wake up call to quit! Can't leave the Coach bag behind! Believe in yourself and don't let websites scare you about withdrawals. The worse is the smell of detox. My bedroom wreaked of old beer smell. It came out of my pours all day long, I could smell the remnants in my office area at work! After a week it went away. A few cold sweats in bed, like I got out of a shower. I have more energy! You can do it! :-)
- —Guest Cold Turkey
I Want My Life Back
- I have been drinking on and off for the past 10 years, sometimes very heavily and daily. I am scared of the extreme anxiety and panic attacks I am feeling. I have tried to quit but end up in the ER feeling like I am going to have a heart attack with the panic attacks. Nausea, throwing up for days and shaking sucks to go through but this time I am going to quit drinking. I have too, it's affecting my health, weight and work.
- —Guest AD
- 35 days so far, cravings were strong today. instead of buying drink I went for a long walk. It helped a lot, I'm starting to feel better. Every time I mess up it takes longer to feel ok, still have a dull panic feeling and have no energy, but it's getting better. Thought I may never come back from it this time, so don't give up, it gets better. I keep telling myself 12 years of alcohol and it won't get better overnight.
- —Guest jerrychef
Been wasted too much of my life
- I'm 39 and Iv'e been drinking pretty heavily since I was 22. Sometimes a pint of spirits with a case a beer to help wash it down every night. I've owned 2 businesses and have been drunk at work on many occasions. I never thought I was an alcoholic until my wife took the kids and left me. I binge drank those high octane 12% energy drinks for 4 days solid. Next morning I thought I was going to die. The pain, the vomiting and suffering for 5 days. Told my wife that I quit for good and she came back to me. Since then I have become a "closet drinker" and have been drinking pretty hard and hiding it from everyone to avoid those horrible withdrawals. I was on the freeway the other day (Sober) and I felt like I had no control and was going to crash from the panic attacks/shakes. I'm on day 2 now. Stomach pains, anxiety, shaking so bad I can't even hold a cup of coffee with one hand. Been reading all of our posts and it's helped me realize I'm and alcoholic and it needs to end now.
- —Guest Pathfinder
Day 3 sober
- Sometimes I am so clueless to the fact that I have a problem that I let myself forget. Immense headaches and fatigue today and the last 2 days. I have considered myself a functional alcoholic. I am only just admitting these issues to myself now. I drink 4-6 days a week, never in the morning but always early evening to late. I hide bottles in which my boyfriend finds and questions. We have fought I don't know how many times when I was drunk I would get angry. I really want this to stop. Four years is enough.
Wake up call
- It's day ten and I still have a bad headache and dizziness it's not near as bad as it was. The longest I have been without alcohol in the past 33 years was 20 days. It's not easy. I have been trying to stay busy even though I don't feel good. When I want to buy alcohol I think of my family. I can change. You can too. Hang in there.
- —Guest This time
Today I am 6 months sober
- I did it by total surrender, knowing deep inside that this time I couldn't quit on my own. I needed rehab, then the support of AA. The fellowship of AA is like the people on this forum - we all have a common trait - we have a disease called alcoholism. All of our symptoms are the same in one way or another. For those quite not sure just yet, pick up The Big Book (by Alcoholics Anonymous) and read it. You will be saying, "yes! that's me!" throughout the entire book. If you choose to fight this disease on your own, then I wish you luck. Doing it alone or by tapering off doesn't work for the majority of us. It didn't for me. My excuses ran out when I decided that I wanted not to die and to live a happy life and today I can say that I do and without the craving for alcohol. Peace to all.
- I've just completed 90 odd days sober. The demon is on my case and I know if I have one drink it's all over. I'm having memory lose at times (Spelling, jobs, finding thing were I left them) so I get angry an the demon taps me on the shoulder (I have a drink mate) but I've still got the upper hand. To be honest I'm scared to drink. Funny how people see a different ace an make good comments these days? Wish I was a normal drinker but we all know we were not meant to have this (so my new goal is 120 days. One day at a time, hey. Good luck to all an I will post soon.
- —Guest Aussie ACEMAN
- One night, I worked late and I landed in the ER, feeling like I could not get my breath, my BP was 168/98, and I thought I was having a heart attack. It was diagnosed as a panic attack, because I did not reveal that I drank daily, sometimes all day. Ativan was prescribed and was effective for these episodes. I eventually quit my job and made drinking my full time job. When I tried to quit, I would experience auditory and visual hallucinations. My fan was like a helicopter in my bedroom. I eventually learned to "wean" myself when trying to quit. The symptoms were not so bad. I have yet to find a rehab that would take me with those symptoms because of the medical issues.
Getting strength by everyone and faith
- I just wanted to say that I found this site by researching about withdrawals because I lately have been drinking a lot and I have been getting reactions if I don't drink. I am heavy vodka drinker and I am at the stage when I stop drinking for a day. I get this sick nausea, like acid reflex or a knot in your throat. Then I start the vomiting anything I eat. Even water and when nothing is there it's this acid yellow crap. I wanted to share how much strength I've gained from reading everyone's posts. I always battled, but I never knew that this sneaky habit was going to make turn into a physical war to take me out and I refuse!!!! I am going to fight and not drink because this can't take me out. I am glad, you guys told me what happens in withdrawal. I hope mine is mild since this hasn't happened before and I am afraid!!! My husband is afraid and I just got married. I refuse to let the enemy win and steal my blessings. With Faith my sobriety starts today. Please keep sharing!
- —Guest Hope
- I am at a loss. I want and need to get beyond this. You all have had some kind of success. What do I have to do? Can't deal with this. I don't want to, but I don't know how not to. Anyone? Please?
- —Guest Nannylovesyou