- Here I go again - I'm going to get this. Many blessings to all who share!
- —Guest Taopine
- I just found this forum and it is amazing. I think I was born an alcoholic. I have never been able to have just one drink. I have been a heavy drinker for the last twelve years. I have done some horrible things while drinking and there are no excuses for them. But eleven days ago, something clicked in my brain. Nothing earth shattering happened but something simply told me that enough was enough. I didn't go through withdrawals bad, but I did ask my doctor for some antabuse just in case my will power slipped. I am eleven days sober. ELEVEN. I had forgotten what it felt like to be a good wife, a good mother, and a good employee. Wish me luck...
- Your posts mean so much to me. I am alone I am a caregiver I did love someone. He killed himself.. I NEVER drank because he was alcoholic! He had pancreantitis. S0 about 8 years later guess who has the problem.
- —Guest catlover
- Thanks for being a part of making this an active community. I look forward each day to hearing from anyone who participates. Each post be they from: a brand new poster, one of the many who are in early sobriety or the wise ones who are maintaining their new life, each speaks to me and helps steel my resolve. Stay strong.
- I'm glad you were able to visualize the cost of that little bit of relief and find another way. yeah chocolate!
- Dear betternow, I love how you talked yourself out of that drink!! I believe that is the right way to handle it. Thinking it through instead of being impulsive. Considering the consequences first. That is maturity. I am so proud of the way you handled it. Aleve, bengay patch and chocolate will not haunt you the next day. I changed from being bad to myself (drinking and the damage control) to doing things that actually made me feel good. I think you are 100% on the right track. Makes me smile. You really are betternow.
- —Guest fish
- I'm so happy to hear from you, no matter what. Good luck with the 1st day. Keep us posted, you want this, no matter how long the tunnel there is a bright life that awaits you. Hugs and hope
Need to stop
- I suffer from bipolar and think maybe alcoholism struggling with sleep and having mood changes.
- Hey! Thanks for the shout-out! I am honored to be mentioned here. Way down deep in my soul I have such compassion and empathy for everyone here. Tomorrow will be 1 year and 9 months for me. What in the world??? I still take it one day at a time because that is all we have. We have today and the hope of tomorrow. Keep hoping everyone. The further I get away from the alcohol, the more of a future I can see. Catlover: you are in my prayers. I feel your struggle and I know you can make it. I promise the anxiety and self-doubts will improve. Alcohol is a depressant. The further away you get, the clearer you can see. Keep reading everyone. God bless you all and BuddyT. Sterling: congratulations on making it so far now!! Prayers to you.
- —Guest fish
Like a bumper car
- I often feel like one of those little bumper cars we did as kids. Being bumped around and not knowing where exactly to turn sometimes. It helps to check in with this site daily and know we are all in it together though our circumstances may vary. I am proud of all who are trying and those who are further along. We all share the same goal I think. To be who we really are without alcohol as a crutch. To be the best person possible in whatever situation we face. Today I am having lunch with friends from my former job. It will be hard as I face questions about being unemployed. And what am I doing. Don't want to say I am not drinking and I am relearning my life sober. Though that is the truth. Glad to be part of this community.
- —Guest becky
Cravings or unease
- Hello all. To harmony and better now. I too experience cravings out of the blue or a feeling of unease as if I don't know what to with myself as alcohol was such a part of the daily routine and or stress reducing element. Intellectually I know it just causes more stress and more anxiety but it takes me saying that to myself multiple times to get past that moment. This has indeed become a community for all of us who are having a tough or a wonderful day. Strangely enough the holidays are a relief for me as I never drink around my family. I definitely was a closet drinker. I fear more the time after the holidays when I will be alone again and still unemployed. I find it hard to focus at times. A residue of the drinking I believe. My memory is a bit foggy at times as well. And I used to remember everything. I hope my powers of focus and memory come back to me the longer I stay away from it. Did I do damage to my brain? It's possible. It is enough to keep me scared away from that drink.
- —Guest becky
- I just loved your story! That's how its done! I'm going to remember that next time I want instant relief. Think it through. I once heard, "Don't give up what you want most for what in the moment."
- —Guest ellikay
- I also relapsed a number of times when I decided to stop drinking and I still have trouble sleeping. I hate that we have this horrible disease. I love your handle and know that you are an animal lover and have a number of dogs. I have 11 cats that live in and around the house. (Only 5 inside, the rest are outside!) We rescued them all. Now that I am sober, I come home every night and appreciate these funny fuzzballs and their antics, much, much more. I'm sending you a big, long, warm hug and hope that you will continue to post. Everyone here cares and supports you.
- —Guest Anita
Laughter / Catlover
- Morning. Just want to say thank you for the birthday wishes. It was amazing to laugh, actually laugh with my family. It was so much more relaxing. I did not have to deal with the alcohol calling saying how much longer til you drink me!! Come on you need me. Have a shot, brush your teeth, No one will know!! Have another no one will know- and so on. So happy days- no one called me last night!!! No one except for Joy!! I love you guys. My heart keeps going out to you Catlover. I wish I could hug you and do Anything to help. I will be praying and Believing in you. Hang in here everybody we can do this sober thing! Everyday being Sober brings something new into my life- I can even cry again! Drinking was taking away my emotions too. What wasn't it taking??? Sure was taking over life- Here's a post to all of us Taking Our Lives Back from Alcohol!! We deserve happiness! Love to all!
- My major trigger moved back home last night after my "I'm going to bed post." I know until we get a settled routine it's going to be a very difficult time for me. I must had said the Serenity Prayer 10 times last night before I fell asleep. My sobriety will be a God Send for these next several days. At least if I do fail to say or do the right thing I know it's not because of the alcohol talking. I've been trying to look at myself and be honest with my past, present and future. It's funny though with the future. I just don't have the answers, my mom says I know, my therapist says keep yourself safe, my closest friend says it takes two. I'm saying to myself, lady~ look at your future the same way as you look at living a sober life. "One day at a time." I will be keeping you all close to me, saying the Serenity Prayer often and know I will get through this and be a stronger person for it. It is what it is... Hugs to All and thanks for being here for me!
- —Guest harmony