- I understand your mental illness like you wouldn't believe. I can not give you details but if your interested you can see my blogs about it on my Discuss in my forums and click on the top of this forum page. Depression is as serious as Alcoholism because both can lead us to death. The steps I have taken to manage my depression, I said MANAGE, not get rid of cause that will never happen are: Stop drinking, see my doctor that is trained in Depression and medications. Start my meds and get adjusted to them. Seek counseling weekly to understand my depression. I found a AA group I felt safe in, get a sponsor, really work the steps, it works. Seek out your higher power what ever it may be. Mine is love. Excepting healing is important and learning to be happy is the key. I am now 9 months sober and strongly on the way of healing. I am off my meds for now learning to deal with life and its pressures. It can be done if you quit being a stubborn ox and except that you need help. Your not alone.
Start of day 1 AGAIN...
- I wish I could give up this demon once and for all. Its like 3 steps forward and 5 steps back. I hate alcohol but love it at he same time. I dont even enjoy drinking anymore. got some diazipam left from last time to calm withdrawals if need be.
- —Guest illbeatthis
Fell off the wagon again
- I bought another bottle. I thought it would make my depression better....it hasn't. It's made me feel even worse and now I fear withdrawal AGAIN after it's gone. I feel like a piece of trash. I was a week sober and now it's gone. I will have to go to the hospital if i withdrawal this time, and I can't taper off with beer because to me that's just "tapering on" again. I feel hopeless. I cannot talk to my family about this - they will ridicule me - I am in this alone. I do not want to die. I want to be happy and sober, but I desperately need help to do so.
- —Guest NeedHelp
It takes time
- Dont worry guys. Quitting takes time and more try. Everytime you go for 1 day or 2 days even a week then relapse just tell yourself I will do even better next time. I had a 4 cans a night habit then on weekends maybe 40 units maybe more. It doesnt matter how much you drink its how your body adapts to it. I have major anxiety and my doctors visit list in the past 3 years have been 100 nearly. I did 12 days without a drop it was only because I felt so good and alive I thought a few cans wouldnt hurt. Now after this weekend of those few cans im back to nearly day 3 off it. This time im going to crack it as im 25 married with a little boy. My liver function is brilliant so I want to keep it that way. Shakes, tremors, panic with a boiling teapot on my chest head zaps etc was my worst 3 days of not sleeping too. Chin up no medication for me im doing it without so I never go back. Hope you all a great hydrated future.
- —Guest andrew
Yea everyone, yvan, charlie etc.
- Meeting every milestone in our quest to remain sober is a big deal. Congrats to all that are winning the battle with their own mind. I am gonna say if for Mary, STAY BLOODY MINDED!! iT IS REALLY WORTH IT. Last November our grandson was here, that is when I quit. He is here again for a month ( he is 9) and we are having much more fun. Funny how I do not become AS annoyed when he follows me around endlessly, he no longer interferes with my drinking. Read that again, Drinking is so powerful, the ones we love annoy us when we are drinking, wow. enough said.
- —Guest griffey1
G.Day FROM ACE
- 8 weeks today sober today an I feel heap better. To all u new comers the first 30 days are hard but if I can do it ( 40 years drinker ) I think u all have the chance to see the light to. One day at a time hey.post soon by now
- —Guest Aceman
- I thought the alcohol reduced my anxiety and helped my constant heart palpitations. I would go to sleep easy because I would be buzzed only to wake up a few hours later with my heart pounding. It has been so awesome to realize that I am so much more in control of my anxiety now, than I ever was when drinking. I would like to encourage anyone who has anxiety that it actually is way easier to manage without alcohol! I am taking benedryl and half a ambien at night. I take magnesium and B vitamins. I detoxed on my own. I am still new to being sober.
- —Guest Gym Coach
5 months now
- I have made it 5 months now sober. So much more happier than I have been in years! The thing that keeps me sober is God and remembering how horrible the withdrawals were. If you are new to sobriety or even considering it, just believe that you can live life without obsessing about alcohol...and your life will be infinitely better! Peace to all.
- You and your husband have set a quit date of July 8, a week away. The temptation is to put it into high gear for a last hurrah. This is nonsense. Doing so will likely cause you both to push that date back and back and back...and if you do stick to it, coming through will only be that much harder. Instead, if you're open to advice, begin your tapering off this second, right now. A week is enough time to do a proper job of it, and come the 8th, your decision to quit it altogether will be easier. Begin spacing out your drinks: longer intervals. Distract yourself in between drinks by any means necessary. Take benedryl at night for sleep and vitamin b supplements once a day. When I started tapering, I was drinking in the morning. Day one was a pint of vodka and two bottles of wine. On day four I drank a bottle of wine spaced throughout the afternoon. The next day I had two drinks. I've been off it for months. Go easy, and you and your husband can do this. Stick with it.
- —Guest Hal
- You are doing really well Hannah but you are asking for trouble keeping the vodka for 'emergencies'. What emergency have you ever had that getting wasted solved? Do yourself a favor and pour it down the sink, that would be another achievement under your belt to be proud of.
- —Guest Mary
- The only way is to stop. Can you take a week off work while you are detoxing. You have to realize that you are talking yourself into drinking with a hundred excuses but you only need to have one reason to stop...because it will kill you. I bet you have sky high blood pressure, imagine having a stroke and living the rest of your life disabled just for the contents of a bottle. You need to seriously work on your mind set and stop seeing alcohol as a 'reward' or a 'consolation', that's the first, hard step. Be honest with yourself, how much do you want to quit? Until you accept that you can't drink like 'normal' people you are going to be fighting yourself. Work on one day at a time and white knuckle ride it if you have to, see a doctor, they've heard it all before and will help you through the withdrawals, you have everything to gain and nothing to lose. I imagine everyone here stopped enjoying the taste and drank to get drunk for a long time, you're no different but it takes work to quit.
- —Guest Mary
To Beth & Hannah. ( and plantpot)
- So afraid not to be successful, you cannot tell your doctor, too ashamed, quitting date in 11 days, keeping a bottle of vodka for emergency! Doesn't sound good when you want to quit, does it? The emergency is you are alcoholics, if you want THE NEW LIFE, accept the fact it is going to be tough, painful, long, No miracle, No mystery. Have your own plan, know what you need now, how to make the journey easier; visit the site, read all about our stories, write a journal, know the difficulties but also the big rewards ahead. Totally agreed with Clue, tell yourself each minute of the day why you can stop NOW, because there are 1000 reasons to get a better and happier life. Excuses lead straight to relapse, alcoholics, we all know it. Keep posting, wish you good luck, and strong willpower. Hugs. Plantpot, I remember reading your posts when I discovered this site, it did help me to stay strong, I wish you the best in this new start.
- —Guest Yvan
- Another day 1. Actually achieved a lot during June but still relapsing regularly. Birthday last Friday, hungover sat but drank sat night, completely lost control last night couldn't stop drinking, ultra messy and crazy, manic, arrogant thoughts. Think I am crazy, I just cant stand my depression. I am depressed when I am drinking and depressed when I try to go without. Feel like a failure cos I just cant find joy in life. I am sure that giving up drinking will improve my mental health but it has always been catch 22 the misery drives me to drink. Like I said before no one has been able to help me, feel so alone. Doctor said he would provide antidepressants but dont want to be dependent on anything. Also might be bipolar so antidepressants could cause problems. No one has attempted to diagnose my mental issues, really wish I had some answers. I know I need to be alcohol free to know whats going on but its just so hard, sad and lonely. Totally miserable.
- —Guest Itsover
To: Beth and hubby
- How wonderful that you are going to get sober together. It is a good time to change your drinking habit into a healthy living habit. There is no need to be ashamed about your drinking. Seeing your doctor would be a great idea. Just removing the fear of withdrawals and getting some help with it is what our doctors are for. I am sure your doctor would be happy for your choice and that you have a future of good health. Have a plan for your getting sober. Stock up fluids, snacks, B12, Advil and a positive attitude. Talk to each other about your fears and also about your dreams. Enjoy your down time with good movies, a slow walk or a massage. Spoil yourself in a new way you both deserve it. Being 50 is a wonderful time of life and a time where all can be accomplished, we are so much smarter now! I send you my best and great success. Hugs Clue
- I don't quite know how a bottle of booze in the fridge is going to help in an emergency? The only emergency would be if you become sick and need help from your doctor. Booze is just a temporary fix and will stop the healing process. Throw the booze away. If you feel you need more I am sure you know where to get some. Temptation is huge enough with out reminding you about where your booze is. The help you need will come from wanting a better life to live longer and to become the person you want to be. I know we wish it would be easy but it has taken us some real abuse to get where we are with drinking. Give yourself just 30 days, tell yourself you can do 30 days. Read all you can, reach out for help and don't play into the what if's but the what is. What is , is it's time for a new beginning and some rightly deserved happiness. Fight this fight. Hugs Clue