- I'm 26 years old and would binge drink and black out often, 1-3 days a week. I recently went out drinking and cheated on my bf by making out with my roommate and I don't even remember it, a friend told me. I told him and we've worked through it. But losing control like that can really mess up my life. I felt incredibly bad. I have to stop drinking. Today is day two..I've experienced racing mind, shallow breathing, sweaty feet, anxiety, my stomach gets pains in it, insomnoa (it's nearly 3am right now). It's really scary. I find it most difficult when my friends ask me to go out. I need to find new friends who don't only want to drink so I think I'll run 5k's and try meeting people. I won't give up. I've been trying to writ for a while but now it is long overdue.
- —Guest shadowsclosein
- TashDa, congratulations on 120 days! The crazy cravings you are having are part of PAWS (post-acute withdrawal syndrome), which tends to increase at certain 30 day cycles. If you are in AA, you may want to increase your meetings for a while. You may also want to consider an online support forum for more real-time support. This site has a forum – the link is at the bottom of the page. Sober Recovery and AA also have active forums for support and encouragement. Remember, this is just another cycle and it will pass. Don’t give into it, you can do this!
- I posted on here about a month ago, and so far so good! But I did have a small relapse and it was a real eye opener! About a week ago my son brought home a 6 pack of a really great tasting import. I hadn't told him I had quit 2 weeks earlier. So I had 2 beers during the course of the eve. That night slept ok but woke early that next am. The next night was terrible!! I didn't drink at all and went through the full on withdrawls!! Didn't sleep a wink and had sweats and shakes! It was worse then the first time!! Is this typical? All I know is this alcoholic is never going to drink alcohol again!! Reading all of your posts really helps me and I just want to thank all of you who are fighting this demon with me!
- —Guest robbie
- I can’t wait for the day you change your user name to “lost and found,” because that is exactly what you will feel like if you only let it happen. You MUST accept the fact that drinking doesn’t improve any aspect of your life; it only drags you further down with every sip. Yes, we all know about the cravings BUT you have to believe us when we tell you that they will decline over time as long as you remain sober. I beseech you, please go back to your doctor and ask for help. There are prescriptions to help you through the withdrawals and there are meetings to help you to retrain your thoughts and to control the impulses. There are options available to you, it’s inevitably in your hands, no one can force you to CHOOSE to stop, but you can if you really want to. Wrap your head around that, again and again; YOU can choose to stop this insanity and get the help you need to start healing and building a life worth living.
To; lost self
- I guess you figured out why not to have any booze in the house. Sounds like you need to sit down and have a talk about what to do about that. For me my husband wanted me to be sober so he had no problem with keeping booze out of the house. If he wants a drink he can call a friend and go out. I am glad you enjoyed a beautiful day with high hopes of beating this thing. I have said before, being and Alcoholic is not for the weak. It steals you time and life and doesn't care what it leaves you with. It is you that has to kick its ass and walk away knowing that you alone have done it. It will change the way you think about yourself for sure. Get back on the horse again, it i a really nice ride. Hugs Clue
- You are doing so well. I believe my craving came and went quickly. Sometime I realized I was hungry or thirsty and would get cravings. The best thing you can do is go for a quick walk, the craving will pass and stay gone for a while. I am 6 months now and my cravings are nearly gone. Summer is soon coming and with out all those calories and my skin beaming that is enough to stay sober. Enjoy your hard work and don't listen to that crappy voice in your head. Treat yourself to something fun, I get my nails done or go shoe shopping lol. I have lots of money now!! I promise it does get better. Hugs to you Clue
To Clue, Liftmeup, and all
- To Clue&Liftmeup, tks so much for your kindness & supporting words. I am sorry to say that I was almost ready to report that upon second day, EVERYTHING lifted & I was myself again. Was about a 36-hour process and my puppy was staring me in the face (as in that depression commercial) and I mustered myself up to take him for a long walk/run in Central Park which was great. Also productive that day in biz relations. Next day drove out to Hamptons and appreciated all the spring blooms, feeling good, got this behind me, etc. Unfortunately, when I got to house, and just minutes before I needed to get to a dr's appt, found an open bottle a wine my boyfriend left behind from prior weekend. Red wine...which I hate. But before pouring it out, decided what the hell take a sip. Tasted like shit but needless to say I have not stop drinking since (cause there was more in fridge). I thought I was going to report such great things to you, but starting all over again today. I WILL NAIL THIS..PROMISE
To: Desperate to Stop
- I can really sympthize... I too am shy and drink to make myself relax and because my friends enjoy my antics. But I am 36 and messing up my life. I am missing work, have difficulties maintaining relationships and not enjoying myself like I used to. I used to drink vodka, and my way of reducing that was to switch to wine. I hoped the lower alcohol would help but it doesn't. I've been drinking about a 750 ml bottle a night and even drink in the mornings now. I have been trying to stop, but keep finding excuses to start again. I ended up pouring out what I had earlier today, but had a few "sips" So I'm not even on day 1 yet. I haven't been sleeping, the booze doesn't even help that anymore. I am so worried that I won't sleep tonight, the insomnia is always what brings me back. I am so glad I found this site, I find it such a support and to know I am not alone. I take serax to help with anxiety, have been on that for approx a year. (another thing that drives me to drink) excuses excuses
- Thought I'd post.... 120 days! Never thought I'd see that number. Sadly, I really want a drink. Not just a drink, a whole bottle. That is why I have come back to this site. I haven't been here in awhile...need the support you all offer! I don't want to give up my 120 days!
- —Guest TashDa
- Yes, the shakes and the shallow breathing are normal at least for me during withdrawals, although I have not gotten completely sober, I feel the same symptoms as well. Good luck in your sobriety, go for a walk and get some fresh air to breath and calm those shakes.
- —Guest Fighting123
- Quit drinking two days ago and yes have some mild/moderate symptoms. Skin eruptions, itchy, insommnia and the freakiest...hearing music and noises especially at night. Racing brain is annoying but I've always hard that one. Lost my dad, sister, mom and second mom within 22 months. Ate carbs and drank wine and my liver is poking me and doesn't like me right now. I also have Alpha-1 disorder (genetically weak liver) and being the fun loving college student and young adult I drank and took Tylenol which they now have figured out that's a mega no-no. I'll be 50 soon and want to live a long life and a healthy life. I use distraction method as I did with my kids. Walk, get a mani/pedi, hike, write, clean out a closet. Anything to keep my mind occupado. I enjoy the posts and support...amazing how many times the word wine comes up. Darn those grapes! Make is a great sober day!
- Long ago I heard that integrity is doing the right thing when no one is watching. It really applies to us on this quest to remain sober. Though our spouses, this site, our friends can all help us along, the choice to remain sober is truly our own. We have a mind that chooses what liquid to put into our bodies, no one or thing, makes us consume alcohol, We are fully responsible. Remember back when accepting responsibility for your actions was the norm? We are not victims unless we choose to be.
- —Guest griffey1
- Hi Fighting I don't post here often anymore but your story touches me. Everytime I see you relapse I want to reach out. Sometimes I want to reach out and shake you. I am not judging at all, I have relapsed many times so I do understand how difficult it is. I believe you need to try something different. Quitting on your own, over and over, is not working. The detox is hard on you mind for sure, but harder on your body. Each time you do this you get closer to serious withdrawals...seizure, stoke, heart failure. I don't know how much you drink but it sounds like the consequences are getting worse. You are obsessed with alcohol and that obsession, compulsion to drink needs to be examined. Do you really examine why you drink? You must choose to stop, but you need help to stay stopped. Have you tried any kind of program? Maybe a treatment center, best case inpatient, is something you should look at. Keep doing the same thing and expecting different results....insanity. Peace.
- —Guest Fighting 123
- Going to start my 3rd month, it has been amazing so far, even if kind of depression and anxiety still hit me in the evening mainly. It is during those moments when I really am tired, the One glass crosses my mind! To know that I am not the only one helps me to work on it; I suppose it's going to be the fight, the main fight. The first glass would put an end to my recovery, staying strong is hard when the cravings are bad. I know it will take a long time to kill the alcoholic voice. This site is a great help, we are many here helping eachother. I thank god everyday I have found it. When I read your last post Chicago, it really hurts me, the first drink is the killer, I wish you to start again and get the strengh you need, we all need, to be the winners, happy, and at peace with ourselves. Love to all.
- —Guest Yvan
I go to the shrine today
- I am leaving this morning to go to the shrine of God's Mercy jonny, fighting123, lostself, lastchance. frank, on theirs first days, but also chicago, then spouses of rich, goffrey, all merciful spouses including my husband stil unaware what am going thru (coming back may 11th) and for all friends, good friends all of you! specially mary. clay.hopeful. . . . sorry, i have to catch the bus! love and God bless me - stil in europe
- —Guest IamMe