I was told by my sponsor that all I had to do was work the first step to it's fullest, keep attending meetings, do what I was told, and the rest will come in time. By me doing this I was in some manner working on taking the 12 steps, and it was well over a year before I ever missed a meeting.
There finally came a time when I realized that I better get going on the 12 steps, by me attending so many meetings I knew who I wanted to help me with the steps. This very good friend of mine chaired alot of 12 step meetings, (classes) which I started to attend. I went along just fine until I came upon the 4th step and I hit a wall.
Sense of Humor
I felt real bad about so many things that I had done in my life, that it seemed impossible to get all of this inventory down right. Finally, one day I was sharing this with my sponsor and he smiled and asked me where I was going. He told me to do the best that I can at this time and I will have plenty of time to do the rest. He told me not to be beating up on myself, keep it simple and this is just what I did.It made it alot easier and through time I was able to see better of how to take my moral inventory. Once we take these steps it doesn't mean that we are done, nor does it mean that we have to always do the 12 steps in order. I have to take a moral inventory of myself everyday of my life. I have to look back and make sure that I like what Pete has done.
I can be very good at taking someone else's inventory! I was also reminded that my higher power has a sense of humor. My God does laugh and we share good times together. No one of us is going to be perfect today. Keep it simple, but keep it.
Loveya,
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