I am retired
- I can not take it anymore, as I have been drinking all of my life. I joined AA about 3 years ago and went 9 months with out a drink. then new years eve I started again.
- —Guest Robert
- Well it was hitting me in all areas - job, family relations, love life, bank balance. If i did not quit now it would have been too late.
Luck is running out
- Went to a ball game yesterday with my parents and daughter. I spent a lot for tickets and can't remember hardly any of it. At the end of day I put my 4yr old on my shoulders. I could have tripped and absolutely killed her. I've been lucky so far but it's time to stop. I'm writing this to remind myself.
- —Guest Jamie
Inevitable Binges=Waste of Life
- I've quit a few times, the previous was for 4 1/2 years. Inevitably, binging reappears, and I'm desperately downing beers, hard alcohol, talking stupid stuff. I'm 46 and I'm still trying to become the best musician I can...this messes with all that. Plus it is a waste of money. Days spent with hangovers. Wasting precious seconds. Quitting (again) today.
- —Guest Dude
What it does to me
- I never thought I had a problem until I made sure I had bottles stashed for comfort. One glass of something is enough to cause memory problems and headaches in the morning, being on the skinny side. I don't speak clearly like I used to. I look exhausted and drunk when I go days without. I quit just four days ago, and my hangover is finally gone. I welcomed both the irritability and being a slave to every passing hour in which I would give any bottle filled with it the evil look. My senses are heightened, and I feel in control today, otherwise, I'm lethargic. I should not have to fear being the oddball for not drinking in a social situation. Just because everyone is drinking, I don't have to dumb-down by shrinking my hippocampus to have something to talk about.
- —Guest Friend
Why Did I Decide To Quit Drinking?
- Because when it dawned on me that I had no control over alcohol, and I would be capable therefore of doing anything, I knew I had to quit. You don't realize until perhaps years later what an effect you were having on the family.
- —Guest weldmast
enough is enough
- Hi all ,my drinking started as a teen and progressed through my adult life ,I am now 33 and drank nearly everyday for 12 years ,which eventually cost me my mental health and my family ,lovely partner and three beautiful kids ,so a was so close to rock bottom only thing I had not lost was my job ,finally I realised that if I never gave up that would ultimately be next ,so I have now started counselling for depression and alcohol addiction as I've realised my drinking has made me depressed and my depression makes me drink . I have lost to much and I am not prepared to lose my health as a result ,time to fight back . Alcohol really does destroy lives ...
- —Guest paul
When I heard by two sons make a joke
- about getting drunk off just a little alcohol I realized their dad had been talking to them. We talked later and he said there had been many nights where he had to explain somehow how I went from serving dinner to yelling to passing out by 7:30. He has never called me an alcoholic to my face but when he mentions his concerns about my behaviors, some of which he thinks has nothing to do with alcohol (but it all does), I realize I have gotten hiding it to an art. Yet my sons are making comments to each other as a joke. They are 8 and 10. I don't know where I spun out but I am spinning back in to my life again as it should be.
Abuse, delinquency and alcoholism...
- I grew up in a violent home. I was beaten, sexually abused, psychologically tortured, and to defend myself, I learned not to feel. Anything. It was dangerous. I learned not to care. I started to drink at age 9, plus smoke, plus drugs. I found out it was an easy way to wipe out the pain, at least temporarily. But because it WAS only temporary, I had to keep it up. By the time I got into my freshman year, I was drinking a quart of the hardest liquor I could steal, every morning before school, just to make it through the day. I lived in group homes. I lived in juvie centers. I lived in jails. I read a report that stated I'd be likely to remain incarcerated for the rest of my life when I was 17 due to my violence. That began to change my life. When I was 18, I met a couple who showed me how happy they were being sober. I thought I'd try it. I've been sober now since March 13th, 1977. The pain I lived with? Gone. I reconciled with my family. I don't feel suicidal anymore. I am SO grateful.
Want to live
- I have been drinking for a long time, in my twenties it was beer every day after work and on weekends, over the years hard alcohol became my drink of choice, I have lost so many special moments with my kids and my wife from drinking to much, feeling sick the next day, not wanting to do anything with the family, ive wasted my life to this point, i haven't been there for my kids, i'm 51 years old and can't take this any more, I thought if i only drank wine I could handle things but I realize now alcohol is alcohol, I want to stop this I have tried twice before, lasted three weeks each time started think there's no problems with me and I start drinking again, I now am aware of the physical and mental problems alcahol abuse can cause , I want my wife to respect me again and look at me the way she used to, I want to live and enjoy life again.
- —Guest KB
I stopped because I am not me.
- I am 33 years old and work in and out of the country. I don’t really drink until Saturdays but when Saturday rolls around, I sometimes get sloshed with or without people. And some people may say well isn’t it better to drink in the company of others, sure if you’re not a complete jackass that regrets facing people from the previous drinking event. I am a very nice, compassionate, easy going, fun loving, handsome man I think, and very experienced professionally who carries this secret with me from most. But when I drink, I am like an emotional roller-coaster which most times I am happy but can be ignited with anger if I am 12 beers down and someone says something which when we drink a lot, someone always says something. What is that something that someone might say, I don’t really know but that is not the point? Something triggers my behavior. The problem too is that I am a man now and I get super cocky and arrogant which regretfully leaks out of me when I am severely intoxicated
The Truth About Blackouts
- Blackouts are caused when blood alcohol level is around 0.15. The Hippocampus is the part of your Brain that records memory. Alcohol stops it from recording and shrinks your brain also. This is a fact and scared the hell out of me.
- —Guest Debbie
Am i an alcoholic
- I drink and drink and cannot stop it takes over my life but reacently just picked up a drink and threw it down the toilet so am i an alcoholic..why didnt i drink the bottle
- —Guest stacie
- I *never* drank normally, and tried for 17 years. Went from embarrassing myself at parties to losing jobs and waking up with strangers. I would certainly be dead or locked up if it weren't for AA. I've been sober almost 42 years now. Still go to meetings--they're good for me, and I need to be available if I can be helpful to someone else--and have a simply wonderful life, better than it would've been if I'd never had the drinking problem. In my case it's obvious I was genetically predisposed. I'm grateful every single day for my sobriety. If you think you may have a drinking problem, you probably do--AA is just terrific.
- —Guest sober alive
Am over the blackouts etc
- I started drinking when I was 12 yrs old I'm now 32 and still drinking but really want to stop. Why well hate the blackouts waking up and having no idea what occurred the night before and being told how much of an idiot I was. Getting into trouble with the police and sleeping all day. I recently caught up with some friends and can't even remember the night and have fallen over somewhere and now have a mangled face. I sometimes come home and pass out in the shower I'm out of control. I'm so depressed that I get like this. I don't want to give up completely I just want to start being in control and not having every1 picking up my pieces. I have to do something now before its to late.
- —Guest Nathan