- Louise sorry you slipped but good for you. Saw it. Nailed it. So happy for you. And Michelle I often drink with hub too. I don't hide it but do bring up a morning stash. Today I just brought it upstairs so we drank alone. I hate it. Just hate it. I will wake up sick, depressed and anxious. I'm so sick of it. I want my life back. Can't take it much more. Hub just put more beer in fridge. Unreal. It all needs to be dumped. I'm so tired emotionally and physically. God bless to all. It can be done. I know it. Hugs . Barb
- —Guest Barb
- Brothers and sisters in arms...Nothing but love and understanding. I have been a binge drinker and crack smoker for way to long . I have a wonderful family and friends but still fight with this sickness all the time. I have told God , myself and many others that I will never pick up another beer ,drink or crack pipe again only to disappoint everyone and throw myself back into the black hole. I have been sober on and off feeling great about things and life and then I let my guard down and get destroyed and tormented . To make things more confusing I have always strived to maintain health and fitness ...but this demon has always tricked me and tries to kill me . Today that demon is blocked by the grace and love of Jesus . By his mercy is why I am here today to regain what was lost in countless years. We con stop the abuse and get strong and never look back again but be fulfilled with color back in life . If we have survived this long being poisoned then we are strong to be free of it
- —Guest Chris
- We are alcoholics, one drink is never enough! Period. We all know. Your pattern of repetition is telling you you're going to fail? Well, if you don't want the nightmare to hit you hard, you know what you have to do. Yes, it is sad, we lie and invent stories, we are good at that. We think our families and friends don't know, they do! Before us. You're going to lose your loved one you say! Christmas is on its way, I was like you at this time of the year, but I went on drinking, I made everybody suffer, and it took me another 4 months to wake up, stop the nightmare and come back to life. You can do it. You've done it before. Living sober is not just a sweet dream, it is an amazing reality. You've got the strengh, we all have when we decide once for all alcohol won't dictate our lives anymore. Many of us have done it. Don't feel hopeless, you worth a million times better than a bottle. You are strong, we all are much stronger than we think. I wish you luck.
- —Guest Yvan
2 weeks sober
- I managed 2 week, i was so proud, then had a beer in my hand in the pub. I could feel myself caving in all day and lost the fight. Just one. The next day 3, the next day 3 more, the next day 2 double G&Ts and 2 pints of cider. The next day 6 beers. Yesterday i realized what i was doing and stopped. Have a mild headache this morning but so glad I nipped the slide in the bud. I like myself sober, i felt good those 2 weeks and yesterday i was so low. Booze makes you depressed, not good for someone who started because of depression, loneliness and a horrific nightmare one night. Plus the smashing of dreams one by one as we get older, the disappointments but this is life! Booze is a waste of life. Not dealing with anything. I see this clearly. Day 2 again.
- —Guest Louise
1 wk off
- Have tried to quit drinking many times before. Really relying on God right now. Spending lots if time in psalms. Have a strong Godly woman who is mentoring me and praying and keeping me accountable. It's been a 10 year secret from everyone but I am an ugly person inside. I am unkind to my children 10, 6, 4 yrs old. My husband and I have beer together but I have secret bottles hidden. I have poured them out. 1 day at a time.
- —Guest Michelle
To: All of you
- This page is great! another tool to put in my box. i have been trying to stop drinking for over 12 months now (failing several times),3 detox programs 1 pathetic attempt at rehab and hospitalized several times, upset family, lost driving license, lost job, been locked up, lost self respect the list goes on. the problem was i didnt want to admit that i was an alcoholic! wot an embarrassment! wot i didnt bother to find out is the amount of support that is available "im not going to aa/na im not that bad" what a load of balls! i was 'that bad' if not worse. i would lie about how much i drank to family,friends,doctors. have a drink or too before i went out to feel normal or look normal even. things didnt get any better and i didnt no how to fix it. im about 2 months clean now and about a month before that. 1 stupid blip in between. my advise is dont stop suddenly its dangerous, dont go it alone, if u get bad withdrawls as i did,talk to your doctor alcohol services they are all there to help
- —Guest philco
Just came off a four day bender
- I feel horrible. I traveled to another city for work and was drunk the whole four days. Pretty much stayed in the hotel room the whole time. I had been sober the previous 4 weeks when I'm home with my family. I know I can stop this nasty habit because I've got for weeks sometimes months in the past. My problem is that after going a while sober, I just want to take the first opportunity to get loaded. Sometimes even create the opportunity like traveling to be alone where I can drink alone. I know that's pretty sad. I wish I can just stop forever, but I know my pattern of repetition tells me I'll fail at some point. I feel hopeless. And I have a feeling I will lose my loved one soon.
- —Guest Sc
- Yesssss, it's great to read your post. From dark into the light! I am sure you're enjoying your new strengh and living every minute with a lot of hope. You are right, it is a miracle, and we make that miracle to happen, it was for me too, and still is everyday. I discovered this site aswell when I started the journey., it saved my life, I always got the strengh here every single day, it became my best support, it never let me down even when I was. Now it's a new happiness starting for you. You are getting your freedom back. You deserve it. We all do. I really am happy for you. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
Moments of sobriety,
- I have only been off alcohol for 21 days but i never got the shakes like my wife promised. I believe in angels and my first angel got me off cocaine 22 years ago and now my favorite angel is around me all the time making sure I am ok. She is my late mother and I know she is right next to me as I write this.
- Congrats Clue on your first Birthday! I'm so happy for you. Thank you for supporting everyone on this sight and sharing your personal journey. You did get a clue and we are all celebrating with you. Hugs and more hugs.
- —Guest Lil mama
- You can get help from your doctor, and get the medication to go through the withdrawals without too much pain; just be honest about your drinking and tell the history of depression in your family. Going cold turkey is hard anyway but manageable, it's just a matter of few days for the worst of the physicals effects to ease. This site is a great help, they are many advice to deal with the withdrawals. If you are thinking of going to rehab, I know some in AA who did, they all say it was the best thing they've ever done, because doing it on their own never worked. Just be aware withdrawals can be dangerous. If you are as you say scared to death and very anxious, you doctor is there to help you. I went cold turkey without any help, it was very difficult, if I had to do it again, no doubt I would go and see my doctor, but I was too ashamed. Good luck.
To: Failing to often
- Thank you. I'm still trying but today a no go. Tomorrow again I will GET THROUGH IT. yes I forget the withdrawal from before. Kind of like having a baby. After my first baby said never again. Well a year later pop another one. Now i have to save my life. Not give life. I have many amends to make to. As soon as I'm able will try AA. Thank you for writing. I hate drinking to. No enjoyment at all. Just tears and irrational thoughts. Don't want to lose everyone. Scared. But nothing will change until I do. Thank you again. Stay strong. And congrats you've done so well.today i was going to cut my fingers so I couldn't open a beer. I didn't but the thought crossed my mind. Stupidity. This is a mess. Have trouble cuz words often run together. They just do. Hugs to you and all. Barb
- —Guest Barb
Three weeks today!
- Three weeks sober today. Feels like a miracle. Finally sleeping again, getting back in shape physically and mentally. Lots of wreckage to deal with still but I'm feeling stronger and I think I'm up to it. What a blessing to have found this site. Visiting daily has surely given me a tremendous amount of strength and hope and has helped immeasurably with my newfound sobriety!
- Thank you clue. He was only 13 and I left in September for university in another city. I never should have left. I was 6 years older than him and there were family problems. I should have taken him with me. I turned 62 October 3. Time for me to get control. He was my only sibling. It all comes back sometimes. Just can't seem to get by that first day. , but I won't give up. You help me though. I almost made it today.i wont' leave this site. Everyone helps. I sent you a happy B but maybe got date mixed up. Congrats again. I need inner strength and its there. Just can't get to it. You are helping though. Millions of hugs. Barb p.s I never blamed my brother so always forgiveness. Just 13. I adored the little squirt:-)
- —Guest Barb
- Just a little note to say, I am still here. I read the posts every day. Thanks for the shout out Mary and Yvan. Plantpot keep on keeping on. Igotaclue congratulations and happy sober birthday ( a few days early). As always you are an inspiration. Everyone else, kudos on your efforts; I am praying for you all.
- —Guest TashDa