Glad to Find This
- After reading the comments on this forum, I cannot believe how similar we all are. I've so many questions to ask and queries to make I will have to write them down and prepare myself for the responses? But for now I am glad I have found this place! Finally a chance to talk to people who might just understand and not college grads that ain't got a clue about the truth!! I hope this going to help as some one said " I have had enough of the alcohol but it ain't done with me"
- —Guest not so knotty
We Can Do This!
- Hey there everyone. It is amazing how simply getting on a site like this one can be such a comfort and motivator. I am also extremely excited to see so many on the path to sobriety. It's been the hardest, yet best thing that I have ever done. Almost 90 days! I wanted to throw an idea out to all of you in suggestion of a SAFE and pretty comfortable detox plan. If the city in which you live is anything like mine, it will have within it a government run, free to the public detox facility. Although I had my most successful detox while laying alone in my house in bed, there is something to be said for these clinics. They treat you very well, continuously check vitals, and most importantly put you on a ween plan of Librium. It is what I like to call the miracle drug! Thinking back, the only reason I was ever able to detox alone my last time, is because I was able to think back to those times in the facility, and knew what I was in for. Worth looking into if you ask me!
- —Guest GoodLuck
First post day 18
- In a few hours day 18 will be done. This site has been helpful, I was unprepared for how bad withdrawal would be. Nausea in waves, headaches, back aches, dizziness, confusion, insomnia, nightmares, crawling skin. Yesterday was first ok day but the fatigue is crazy. I go between wanting to feel great and not wanting to forget. The discomfort reminds me why not to drink.
- —Guest Billy1350
Keep on Truckin!
- I, a lot like many of you, have found a whole lot of comfort within this site as I have read the posts. I am someone who did not get it right away. Although withdrawals were insanely bad, I could never keep the memory of the misery fresh enough to stay away. This time I am though. On the 10th of August I will hit my 90-day mark. In my first couple of times detoxing, I experienced DTs incredibly bad. I had a seizure each time as well. Extremely scary. After the first two times of trying it alone, I found myself at the local detox facility 4 times in the next 6 months, detoxing with Librium, vitamins, etc. I hope that what I say next can really stick for those that are serious about leaving this demon behind. What has made all the difference for me this last time is that I just got through it on my own, knowing what to expect. What has helped me the most is centering my studies around abstaining from the first drink. The Big Book mentions that as alcoholics we are often powerless vs it.
- —Guest Grateful&Recovering
First post, hope I've not bored you
- This is my first post on here. Reading what you guys have written has been insightful and helped me with my own 'detox'. I've tried to quit countless times (the longest being 1 month and 2 days) and failed. This time I have a different approach. I've given myself some rules to adhere to. I now refuse to drink cider, wine, spirits, pints. I have restricted myself to drinking just lager in bottles or cans, and only 3 cans or 5 bottles. This has been helping me as I have only had 1 can in a week and a half. I'm still going through the withdrawals and it's horrible, but there's less pressure on myself knowing I can still drink as long as I follow my rules.
- —Guest Ryan Morgan
Never Too Late
- At 42 , after 25 years or more, enough is enough, only 6 days sober, my life has to change. From the comfort zone of boredom, reunited relationships, career and family. Although it's only early days, fatigue has set in and the nervous jumps, I'm noticing. Also now coming the flu like symptoms. I cannot remember the last time I had a cold. I had been told flu symptoms arise due to the immunity in your body. It is used to the alcohol, now comes withdrawal. Keeping busy. No temptation. With no license, no job, I must turn my life around, address my life and my emotions without the evil liquid mask.
- —Guest Lily
- After making 60 days sober I slipped and went on a 5 day bender. I'm on day 32 now and hopefully see things from another point of view, I'm waiting for that little demon to say go on once won't hurt. Still having sleep problems and feelings of panic, but I know it's my brain and body mending itself. I had enough of booze but I don't think its had enough of me. I will beat this. Don't give up giving up. Thanks for reading this.
- —Guest jerrychef
Wake up call
- My family looking over me in an emergency room thinking I'm having a stroke. I thought l was too. What a wake up call. After a few test I was ready to go home even though I thought l was dying. That was day three. Day four and five my brain felt like it was going to explode I didn't want to open my eyes I would get so dizzy and nauseous. Day six I am getting some relief able to eat alittle. Day seven alittle better. Now the worst part of my withdrawals the image in my mind of my kids looking over me in an emergency room hospital bed. That I will never forget. This time I've decided to quit. My kids are in their twenties and they don't know what life is like without alcohol. I realize that now. There father has always been an alcoholic. I'm 51 I don't want to die not knowing what life is like without alcohol. I can change. And so can you.
- —Guest This time
- I do remember and I did post that day, on my 10 day, I got up with horrible headache, backache, shakes, dizzy, sick, swollen eyes. I couldn't understand, because I was starting feeling better the days before. I went straight to buy vitamins B complex and magnesium, and forced myself to drink energy drinks. I felt better after a few days, but the headaches went on for weeks, whatever the tablets I took; of course the long process of recovery, difficult sleep, tiredness , emotionally unbalanced went on as well, sure you know all about this. I would go and see my doctor if it goes on; wish you to get better soon. Hugs.
- —Guest Yvan
Wake up call
- Here I go again. This time is different. Looking back at my life I don't know what life is like without alcohol my parents were alcoholics. I started drinking heavily at 18. I have had a lot of ups and downs. But I have had a good life overall. I made a lot of bad decisions along the way because of alcohol and that hurts me now on day seven. Not so much for me but for the people in my life. My wife my kids. I always thought of myself as a functional alcoholic job and family. I never was abusive but I know my drinking took it toll. I try not to dwell on the past but it hurts more than any pain I am going though right now. I can tell you from my experience that the hangovers got worse. Now I know they weren't just hangovers they were withdrawals. I always said l didn't want to quit I just wanted to have more control. That never worked I would just keep making mistakes. I did it again drank too much. Next day bad hangover next day worse next day laying in emergency room family looking over me.
- —Guest This time
Day 8 SOS!
- I have drank heavily for years and hit rock bottom, I went through 8 months dry in rehab and relapsed due to personal reasons. Since then I have self detoxed and relapsed several times, last time badly. I now know I have to stop and really mean it or I will lose everything and everyone i love. I am on day 8 and after the usual DTs on day 1 and 2 i felt relatively fine until day 6, then all of a sudden I came down with sever flu like symptoms (hot but cold to touch, headaches, back ache, vomiting, unable to open eyes properly, sensitive skin, heavy cold sweats ect). I have never had this before and I am quite scared. Has anyone else had this? Is this normal? Should I be worried? I thought i was through the worst (physically anyway!).
- I am on day 8 now, i have detoxed several times and up to 8 months on one occasion. I had the usual DTs for the first couple of days and then began to feel much better... this time on day six I went really bad, I have almost severe flu symptoms back pain and constant vomiting. Has anyone else had this? Is this normal? Or should I be very worried?
Any words of wisdom? Please
- This is my first post. I am at a crossroads here and any advice/support or even just words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I drink. I drink ALOT. I am a new Nanny and am not allowed to see my beautiful Grandchild. Thinking on leaving my husband and am not allowed to speak to my oldest child. This is all a direct result of the drinking but just makes me want to drink more so I don't have to actually think about it. I quit before for a couple weeks only while on vacation. See, I work at a liquor store. Good pay, great pension and saving plan. Bonds and benefits. Just not the place I need to be. I need my job though and am not qualified for anything else that pays 23 dollars an hour. I get the shakes in the morning. I am on anti depression medication. Started drinking when my husband decided to sleep with my newest best friend after having already cheated with my old best friend. As a result of that I no longer trust my husband and have no friends to turn to as I trust no one.
To; Guest Helen
- I am so glad your ok. It is hard to believe alcohol can kill us but you found out first hand. You are one very lucky woman. The amount of sugar you were getting for drinking is causing you to crave sweets. I was a big chocolate freak for a while. You can do this, it just takes truly believing that you can not drink because you will die. What helped me was AA, reading all I could about Alcoholism, changing my life completely with new routines, keeping busy during old drinking hours, exercising, doing hobbies and before you know it your new life is on its way. Stay strong!
- I read the posts on this site everyday. What surprises me is how many of us blame ourselves for this problem and we should just quit drinking. We are not prepared for the onslaught of the physical and emotional upheaval that comes along with this process. Our bodies are exhausted and from this position we attempt to successfully beat the demon. So many of us do it on our own because of shame. What amazingly strong people we are though, when we are successful. This is a journey about learning to love and respect yourself. I am a different person now after this grueling journey. I have a sense of self worth that I have never had before. I am happy that my mind and body are happy. They deserve it. I am now living without alcohol although relapse threatens at this early stage of the game but I am not afraid anymore. My question has been answered. Am I there? Yes!
- —Guest Am I there?