Drinking and smoking
- Day 16, zero alcohol. Something I have not achieved before on this journey. Did 19 days before but allowed myself 1 beer on 2 different occasions. Was ok with that telling myself this is really all about control but I realize now that allowing myself just 1 beer sets me up for the inevitable slip. Last time I slipped I very nearly relapsed only the self awareness, self control and inner peace that I have gained from being dry helped me pull back. Been really trying to stay dry for three months now just a handful of slips in that time. Feel myself getting stronger every day, I know I never want to go back to the emotional hell I was living in. To Louise, I wouldn't advise giving up drinking and cigarettes at the same time. I really needed to smoke during withdrawals even though I was hating it. Since I have gained more control I am going to try to quit cigarettes now too. I really feel that I have a great chance at success this time simply because I wont be drinking.
- —Guest Itsover
14 days and I messed up tonight
- I went 14 days w/o a drink did good, but with the stress of work and everything piling up I drank. 8 beers in 35 minutes. I guess its back to day one.
- —Guest tryin2quit
- You are correct, I have never worked in a liquor store. I have been a bartender though. I was just pointing out the positive about having a good job. The fact is when your done drinking your done. It is not about ( for me ) anyway who I am around but what limits I have put on my Alcoholism. I have no expectations for anyone but myself. To answer your question directed at me about your job requiring you to drink, I say if I was a cook and was allergic to peanuts would I eat peanuts in testing the recipe? I would say if I ate them I could possibly die and ask my co worker to give me their opinion? As for the reasons to keep drinking, I have none. I am done and almost for a year now. I only wish those that want to quit to be successful and hope my honesty is helpful. I do not buy into of why Alcoholics continue to ruin their lives and kill them selves with excuses. I have seen many turn their lives around and the fact is it is not easy for any of us. It is your call not mine.
- Hello. I looked for older posts from you but didn't see any. If you're new welcome. I'm sorry for your situation. I cannot tell you how to get sober or what you need to do. There is the obvious consideration: maybe consider another job. Starbucks is a good company, probably pays about the same and has great benies. I know, I worked there. But I know its not that easy and that really isn't the point. I can only share how I felt during my many attempts to get sober. I felt trapped. I felt angry. I was trapped in a relationship that was enabling me to drink, but making me feel like a loser for doing so. I was surrounded by drinkers and alcohol all the time. I was under horrible stress. I was anxious. I was physically addicted....trapped by my body. What I have realized is, for me, there is no escaping alcohol...it is everywhere...always. I had to completely shift how I viewed my world. How I reacted to it. I had to be completely done drinking. This is just me. Peace.
- —Guest doodoodotdot1
And another thing
- Sleep was starting to improve slightly but now I am starting to dream, upsetting and unsettling things - some real, some worries, some tricks my brain is playing on me. Its like it is having revenge, like some kind of lid has been opened on a box of stuffed away and ignored thoughts. Is this normal? How long before the dreams get better or go away? I am exhausted and although i feel immeasurably better in most respects, i am really twitchy and anxious and lack of sleep isn't helping..
- —Guest Lousie
7 days and to Ellana
- I also have a DUI conviction - "only" had 2.5 pints of beer before dumping the car at home to have real session, and on the way got pulled over for a broken tail light then he smelled the booze. Was one(!) of the most humiliating public ways my drinking showed up. Re the dizziness, its the hardest symptom to cope with in public and still hasn't completely gone. I would sit at my desk at work trying to focus my eyes and thinking i was going to pass out or fall off my chair at any minute. I told my mum about the night time sweats and she assumes i have entered an early menopause (I turned forty 2 weeks ago). I'm now 7 days off the booze. No more chest pains really, the tingly arm fingers are almost gone, still dog tired and head ache but my thinking is clearer if still a little stodgy. Best thing is I have a shred of respect for myself in the mornings again. I don't spend the mornings trying to cover my wine breath and the afternoons battling withdrawal. Plus no more overwhelming nausea.
- —Guest Louise
- Have zero energy. Taking St Johns Wort, Magnesium & Vit B. Smoking a lot (want to quit that but figure one withdrawal at a time). Drinking heaps of chamomile tea & do seem to be sleeping better. Just feel so lethargic tho - cant get moving. Any ideas on how long?
- —Guest Daisy
- Obviously you have never worked in a liquor store! At least not the type I work in! We have tastings every day! Not mandatory but I am sure that most here will agree that to have it right there in front of you is NOT something that someone struggling with sobriety will deny! It is welcomed, encouraged, so that we can offer our clientele a personal opinion about the product! What you said to me is BULLCRAP! I struggle every single day! Nobody has answers for me! How does one resist when your boss is pulling you aside to "try" something new? Would you not take this as not only an opportunity, but also a directive from your boss? I am willing to bet you have no answers to that one! Maybe for someone who has been sober but to a newbie? Good luck quitting when it is in your face day in and day out, offered and expected numerous times a day! Also, if I mention to the person offering, my boss, that I am an alcoholic? TERMINATED! No ifs ands or buts!
- —Guest Nannylovesyou
IT WILL PASS!
- Hello everyone. Ive also suffered alcohol withdrawal and this support forum has helped me to ease the suffering. I understand what all of you are going through right now and i promise IT WILL PASS! So hang in there
- —Guest JohnLabnao
- My God!! You completely described all of my physical symptoms of withdrawal. I hadn't thought about my eyes being effected but they have been getting bad really fast over the past couple of years. Also, I thought the sweating was hot flashes but I'm not menopausal yet. Maybe I was just in denial. I just gave up an hour ago thinking I can just drink a little less every day.....now I'm kicking myself:-( kinda seems lIke a no win situation sometimes. What is the best treatment for withdrawals? I have to be able to drive to work and the dizziness isn't making that easy.
- —Guest Ellana
- No doubt it is hard but so worth it. Try drinking lots of water take multivitamins and particularly vitamin b complex. Your body can't absorb this when you drink. Stop drinking my friend and your life will be so much clearer. You will be able to think clearly. Go to the gym or just walk. I find the boost from exercise helps to reduce the craving for alcohol. Be strong you can do it. Sending you good wishes.
- —Guest Bernie
To: not alone
- Hi there. Please get checked out by your doctor. Yellow in your eyes is often a result of liver problems. Take care of yourself.
- —Guest Bernie
- You asked a very hard question. I am sure that what is going on with your family is a lot more complicated than just loosing it on vacation. It can be pure hell if both partners are drinking. Usually the lessor of the drinker tends to feel more justified in judging. The fact is that if both are drinking the support must be for both to stop drinking. It is a team effort for yourselves and your beautiful children. What I would do is get my butt back to AA and be done with drinking for good. The men and woman there has walked your walk and will give you strength in their success stories. When you are sober long enough you will be able to deal with what is needed. Focus on your addiction first then your relationship can be dealt with on an intelligent bases. Threats, violence and using the children to punish each other shows how ill the relationship is. Be the one to stop the insanity and become a good parent. Put the drink down.
I am stubborn I guess.
- I have had 3 DUIs in the past 12 years Geeze. Anyway, the last one was 6 years ago. I went to court 5 years ago September 11th at that day I went to jail for my 2 day stint:-). I thought it would be good to get it over with and I was dead tired of course. Long story short I got drunk before I went in at 3:30 Friday and fell over seizing on the floor at 6 a.m. So anyway I lost my license for 5 years. After this life threatening incident I still drink!! I am ready to stop now because I have an interlock device in my car and do I am going through withdrawals every day in order to be able to start my car!!! Ridiculous!! Has anyone else had dizziness and feeling like they are going to pass out while driving? I hate this. I thought I was having a heart attack or panic attack until I read this board!! It's good to know its something I can fix by myself!!
- —Guest Ellana
- I pray for all going thru withdrawals Ive been there and it is tough but it does get better with time however I do not recommend detoxing from alcohol with out a doctor because it could kill you good luck and take it easy on yourself we all make mistakes stay sober and you can help the next guy because it seems all alcoholics like to help others.
- —Guest beachbum